“ 'Indian or Italian?'
“'Bosnian,' I told him.
“He rolled his eyes.
“'To eat! Do you want Indian food or Italian food for dinner?'
“I wanted to stomp on my own balls” (14).
“I'd rather throw myself eyeball first into a cactus” (21).
“...Dr. Cyrus he laughed, said that what I was experiencing was normal, that our brains are peculiar computers that constantly augment and even edit true events out of our memory when those events do not fit into the narrative that we tell to ourselves every day, the narrative of our own lives.
“We're all heroes of our bullshit is how he put it” (22).
“The moment Marshal Tito died I shat myself. These incidents were not connected” (25).
“The sight of people buying ice cream, pulling their tongues around and over it, savoring its frosty succulence, never failed to give me a boner of a sweet tooth” (31-32).
“She's American. She goes to church. She wears a cross right where her freckles disappear into her cleavage” (41).
“...she was the one doing the majority of the physical work because of my father's supposed bad back and actual laziness” (47).
“It Freudian-slipped into our words and belly danced in our dreams” (58).
"Mustafa's grandfather was born in a shed. The shed was right next to a puny, derelict hosue, where the rest of his family sat in a miserable silence. They were awaiting this newest addition to the already swarming Nalic household with dread. The room was pungent with smoke from a malfunctioning chimney, and all of their bellies crackled with need. When she brought him into the house the family looked at him and saw not a son or a brother but an enemy" (85).
“I don't recognize my hometown, mati. I'm standing right in front of my graffiti-covered high school and I miss Moorpark College. And Moorpark backward is Kraproom” (94).
“For this statement to make sense you have to understand the nature of the Yugoslavian brand of Communism. Take architects, for example. Say a public building is to be made. In Communism it's not the best architect who gets to make the building; it's the guy (almost always a man) with seniority in the Party who happens to be an architect that gets to make the building. And to get seniority you have to kiss a lots of ass, sit on committees for stuff you know nothing about, endure years of boring speeches, write and deliver years of boring speeches, and get drunk nightly with the bigwigs to show that you're involved in both the community and its social life. By then you're 98 percent bureaucrat and 2 percent architect. This is the reason why the public buildings in the Balkans all look like filing cabinets and why, in turn, they are almost always called 'homes' (Home of Health, Home of the Youth, Home of the Workers, Home of the Army): to evoke that warm feeling inside to compensate for their actual soullessness. It's shit in your mouth, but officially it's called ice cream” (97).
“Around 4:30, that lazy calm Sunday feeling washed over me like rage, ironed my brow, and corseted my thoughts. It happened while watching my hamster spin his wheel of misfortune, relentlessly” (100).
“I shook my head. The shit you do to try to kill the butterflies” (104).
“I didn't know that time could be so dense, so true, and that a sliver of it could envelop you like that, overpower you. 'Then' was as dense as 'now' is fleeting. I was are of 'then' as I wish I were aware of 'now' right now instead of writing about then; it's pathetic” (104).
“Shit was a-brew, I could just see it” (105).
“He went from age twenty-five to five in an instant, bawling at the injustice and ignorance, at the malice of people who knew only profit and wouldn't know art if Dali signed their limp, melting dicks” (107).
“While holding my breath, I fought off my brain by stuffing myself with words people wrote, beverages people distilled, and sleeping pills people manufactured” (112).
“Memories are nothing like tapes. Tapes record reality. Minds record fiction” (119).
“...this child's drawing would walk toward me, evolving into an impressionistic painting, then into a realistic one, then become a scene from an Easter European film with blatant social realism that made me want to shoot myself” (125).
“When, finally, she did turn from a blob into herself, right on time, by the way...” (125).
“Her instructions got eaten up by billows of laughter from a number of newly matured voice boxes, something that couldn't be said for their owners” (139).
“ 'How can you be so disgusting?' She tried to sound like a disappointed mother.
“ 'Inspiration'” (139).
“Everything but the river returned to silence” (151).
“You could see he preferred the front lines, where the world was divided into us and them and you lived in your muscles instead of your head because matters were crystal clear and nothing was up for interpretation and there was no need to use the head at all apart from planning maneuvers, dreaming, and remembering” (174-175).
“...faces made of misery, eyes made of empty” (178).
“A slothful, hungover rain tapped them on the shoulders as they waited for the trucks to take them to the front line” (196).
“There was something about him, a veneer of divorced guys in cheap motels on rainy afternoons, staring into swirls of wallpaper and throttled dreams” (197).
“He touched the rim of his cap casually, as if checking to see whether he had put it on at all this morning” (198).
“At first he was going to let it be, since he didn’t have to walk for a while and he was fed up with tying them all the time, but the little insects of compulsion gnawed at this thoughts, reminding him that untied laces were in an unnatural state, that the universe ached because of it, that he had to do something about that” (200).
“…his face ablaze with fever; you could light a cigarette on his cheek. They set him down like a repossessed dresser and gave the driver the green light to go” (210).
“In Bosnian this last sentence rhymed: Menji je zao, al tako ti je grah pao, sort of a fatalistic little rhyme illustrating one’s lack of power in the ways of the universe” (214).
“…an eroded loaf of bread…” (226).
“Out on the upper deck the wind bore down on us, nabbed at our cigarettes, smoked them for us” (232).
“No, I had never before that day seen fireworks. Neither had Ramona, nor Omar, nor Boro. Asmir and the musicians were older. They remembered with fully formed adult bodies and minds life before the war. Before chaos, they’d known order, before senselessness, sense. They were really out of Bosnia because leaving chaos to them felt like returning to normalcy. But, if you were forged in the chaos, then there was no return. There was no escape. To you chaos was normalcy. And normalcy was proving to be an unnatural, brittle state” (240).
“I looked at my white breath against the gray building across the street and thought about mankind, about how hot we had to be on the inside to survive in such cold environs” (249).
“He looked like a child, or a father who had lost one” (250).
“She didn’t even bother to answer his questions anymore, probably because he was asking them in Bosnian” (273).
“…her face austere, almost disgusted, her nose pointing down to her chin and her chin commendably reciprocating” (284).
"His smirk returned but this time with undergarments of malice" (299).
"Had a bunch of cops tried to deport me when I left the theater, I would have gone through them like Mel Gibson through a carload of wet cardboard cutouts..." (304).
"...a page from a newspaper bullied by a particularly ardent gust..." (305).
"A range of feelings and thoughts about those feelings walked to the proscenium of her face, posed for a moment, and then walked off the runway to be replaced by the next one" (306).
“There’s a brawny fellow tinkering inside the gaping crocodile mouth of an El Camino in a driveway…” (317).
“…and everything is a mess and clustered against the cyclorama of colorful junk mail offering junk food and junk dreams for prices a junky could afford…” (334).
“In that darkness I wish I am elsewhere, or elseone, and I let go” (342).
“Now, the sad thing is that some pieces of this nothing thought themselves up, imagined themselves up, then thought up and imagined and created this thing called reality. These little nothings got very caught up in all this reality they invented, and made it very complex and cyclical, so much so that it made them forget that they were really, in essence, still nothing. It made them stupid. It made them real” (378).
*Also included is the following quote from Samuel Beckett: “…a story is not compulsory, just a life, that’s the mistake I made, one of the mistakes, to have wanted a story for myself, whereas life alone is enough.”