Read: 28.06.'26 - 30.06.'26
Stars: ⭐ ⭐ ⭐
Spice: 🌶️ 🌶️ 🌶️ 🌶️ 🌶️
I started the book with high expectations, and it held 5 to 4 ⭐ (depending on the scene) until the end of the first third of the book. Then it dropped to 3 ⭐ description and smut wise, but 2 ⭐ logic wise. So my final star count is ⭐⭐⭐.
Plot:
It's a dark, poly, harem romance with multiple POV where we follow mainly Sadie's view. She's one of the four starting members of an IT company secretly in love with her 3 roommates/ company co-owners/ childhood friends. She is a 28 year old virgin with extremely Catholic parents.
The men in her life are in love with her as well and once they all overcome their fear of "what would she/he/they think about me coming out", they start a poly relationship with the three boys sharing her. This, however, happens in a very uncomfortable way, as a scene of their first time gets leaked by a jealous "ex" of one of the men.
With them overcoming the scandal, another problem arises with Sadie's mother bringing back Paul, Sadie's rapist who took advantage of her when she was 11 at a Christian camp. With this we see the reason why Sadie refuses to go to churches, and why her relationship with her parents is the way it is.
Paul shows up to be a bigger problem than anticipated, together with one of his family members, when kidnapping and raping Sadie. Sadie fights her demons together with her men and Stephanie, a future fiancé of their lawyer, Todd.
Stephanie becomes a huge support in Sadie's life, not only sharing her assault from her teen years, but her life views as well. Both of the girls end up sharing their sexual wants and desires, and together with not only the three, but all eight men come to their fulfilment.
But when all seems to go well, Sadie is forced to face one of her prior demons again, this time losing one of her beloved people along the way.
Character development:
Sadie is the only character we see going through some changes, while all the men are always being supportive, understanding and are there for her at all times.
She is the only one who has to face her past and her demons. She is the one who is learning to believe and trust others, not only herself. She stands up to her mother and her rapists.
The voice and tone:
Up until the first third of the book I found the story's tone refreshing and the voice playful, keeping in mind the spice warning, making it for me a smut based book and hence, taking it as one.
However, once the boys became all too understanding, all too dreamy and all too perfect, when Sadie's tantrums of a "spoiled child" became too reoccurring, it started to bother me and it took from my enjoyment of the book.
The tone went to everyone directly agreeing to everything, everyone being in love with Sadie (completely ok), but not comparing themselves one bit, not being jealous when the others share her... Which to me was a bit less believable and too much fantasy like.
Also the dialogues. In one sentence Sadie thinks something in her head and directly, in the following sentence, one of the other characters comments on that particular though as if it was written all over her face, or as if they all could read minds, which was extremely annoying. There was little to no conversation happening where the characters would have a real exchange with deeper meaning where someone wouldn't be a mentalist. As a lover of deep dialogues, even in smut, this was missing for me.
Spice:
All the sex scenes in the story were described in thorough detail and given the clear warning and list of triggers in the beginning, we get to see all that's mentioned. A bit of less realism in the first scene, where the two of the trio at a time rail a virgin and she's not uncomfortable at all... I could get over, given the nature of the story.
Recommend for:
I recommend this story for every smut lover who loves reverse harem, a bratty FMC and three dominan MMCs with additional men coming to picture.
If you've got a problem with a theme of rape, christian fanatical parents and uncooperative police, I'd say you won't enjoy half of the book.
It's an easy read and if you want something you don't have to think too hard about, this book is for you.