Ticket to Heaven เด็กชายไม่ไปสวรรค์

by กิตติศักดิ์ คงคา

หากความรักสวนทางกับความถูกต้อง... มนุษย์ควรเลือกความถูกต้องหรือความรัก?

เด็กชาย ‘แทนรัก’ ปวารณาตัวเดินบนเส้นทางศาสนา อุปสมบทเป็นเด็กนักเรียนเณรเพื่อเตรียมตัวเข้าสู่ชีวิตนักบวชของพระผู้เป็นเจ้า หากแต่เมื่อมัธยมศึกษาปีที่หกเทอมสองมาถึง เด็กชาย ‘บาร์ธ’ ได้โผล่เข้ามาในชีวิตของเขาก่อนค่อย ๆ สั่นคลอนความเชื่อและทลายความหมายดั้งเดิมของชีวิตทุกอย่างลง

ความถูกต้องย่อมยึดเหนี่ยวมนุษย์ให้ไปพบพระผู้เป็นเจ้าในสุดท้าย และระหว่างทางจะมีสัตว์ร้ายคอยกัดกินมนุษย์มีบาปไม่ให้ไปถึงสรวงสวรรค์ ก่อนสิ้นสุดเทอมการศึกษาแห่งการพิพากษามาถึง เด็กชายแทนรักต้องตอบตัวเองให้ได้ว่าสิ่งใดสำคัญที่สุด... ความเชื่อ ความหวัง หรือความรัก?

Genres: Romance

248 pages, Paperback

Published April 1, 2026

About the author

Associated Names:
* กิตติศักดิ์ คงคา
* ลงทุนศาสตร์
* นายพินต้า

กิตติศักดิ์ คงคา เป็นหนึ่งในนามปากกาและชื่อจริงของนักเขียนชาวไทย เป็นที่รู้จักในฐานะนักเขียนนิยายสืบสวนฆาตกรรม

Reviews

[Fleur Budé · Rating 4 out of 5]

I loved it. I didn’t have it 5 starts because of the writing. But I think it was not that good because it was not a official translation.

But I love it. I read it after I saw the first episode of the series. And I cried, I thought about religion. It hurts me so hard that tanrak had to struggle between his believes and love. Love is something natural that you can chose.

I mean. The gay panic tanrak got. I really liked how it was written in the book. Because it’s written like he doesn’t have a chose. His body has a natural reaction to being close to tanrak.

(Spoiler next part )

The piano scene so cute, the scene where Barth says he’s gay, its was so beautiful. Its like tanrak knew he was not the only one. The past of these boys was really good written and connected with the karakters, the ending. Wow I’m so happy, I love that tanrak has chosen love.

I really recommend it.

[Iva · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is Holy! 😭💙💙😇

[Lilyy · Rating 3 out of 5]

I really loved every single second of the series but the book was a bit boring for me, Maybe cuz it wasn't an official English translation (and yeah it was pretty bad)

[lina · Rating 5 out of 5]

Tengo mucho que decir sobre este libro.

Me encantó; no tengo palabras suficientes para describir el impacto que tuvo en mí esta historia. Crecí en un entorno que quizá no era tan adoctrinado por la religión, y tampoco pretendo juzgarla, pero siempre compartí el mismo sentimiento que Barth: “¿Por qué Dios me abandonó? Si se supone que Dios ama a todos sus hijos, ¿por qué no me escucha a mí?”. Durante mucho tiempo me hice esas mismas preguntas. Desde pequeña quise entender por qué, si Dios ayudaba a todos, yo sentía que me había dejado sola.

Por eso conecté tanto con los personajes, especialmente con Thanrak. Me pareció muy humano verlo cuestionarse constantemente lo que sentía, incapaz de comprender o quizá de aceptar sus propios sentimientos. Su conflicto interno se siente puro y crudo, porque muestra el dolor de alguien que ha sido educado para creer que solo existe un camino correcto.

Thanrak pasó toda su vida siguiendo un plan: amar a Dios y ganar ese “boleto al cielo” para reencontrarse con sus padres. Sin embargo, al conocer a Barth, comienza a poner en duda todo aquello que siempre había considerado una verdad absoluta. Ver cómo lucha entre sus creencias y sus sentimientos fue una de las partes más conmovedoras de la historia.

Lo que más me gustó fue su evolución. Thanrak aprende que aceptar quién es no significa abandonar su fe. Al final, comprende que puede amarse a sí mismo y, al mismo tiempo, seguir amando a Dios. Para mí, ese mensaje fue hermoso, porque habla de reconciliar la identidad propia con las creencias personales, sin tener que sacrificar una por la otra.

[nat · Rating 5 out of 5]

la novela de mi vida de la serie de mi vida. un amor entre un chico que solo tiene a Dios en su vida y su unico propósito de vida es que al morir pueda ir al cielo para ver a sus padre y un chico que ha perdido toda la fe que tenia, sin nadie a su lado e incomprendido.
su amor es tan puro, intenso, pasional, duro…es bonito y doloroso por lo complicado que es tanto por el contexto (seminario católico) como por el año (1996) pero a pesar de las dificultades su amor es imparable.
creo que nunca he leído algo así quizá al ser un libro tailandés pero me ha cambiado la vida cada detalle, tanto del libro como de la serie ya que son diferentes en algunos aspectos.
no tengo palabras para explicar lo que significa para mi ticket to heaven, lleva siendo mi híper fijación por dos años y soltarlo va a ser muy duro!!!

“Don’t you miss me?
Don’t you want to hug me?
Don’t you want to kiss me?”

canción (muchas porque tengo una playlist entera dedicada) pero: the prophecy - taylor swift

[Renz Ramos · Rating 5 out of 5]

10/5 My tear ducts are completely drained —I can barely gather my thoughts. A beautiful, poignant, + deeply relevant read. 👏

I would have loved a slower burn between the characters, but the emotional weight of the story more than made up for it.

Its exploration of faith, identity, and the struggles of being a gay Catholic was handled with such honesty + depth that it left a lasting impact on me. It’s thought-provoking, and ultimately unforgettable.

We need more stories centered around this. Coming from a Catholic country, —I hope we can learn to love another & just update bible.

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Love all the bible verses + the lessons.

I thought there was gonna be more drama —especially for the best friend.

The father is sooo understanding. Honestly couldn’t belive it.

I would have liked to see all the conflicts shown & resolved but this IS after all based on a GMMTV BL so they probably wanted it lighter.

Watched 2 episodes of the show —it is much better in that format though.

[Pilar · Rating 5 out of 5]

NO SÉ COMO RECUPERARME EMOCIONALMENTE DESPUES DE ESTO. LA SERIE ME VA A MATAR.

[vanvan · Rating 5 out of 5]

This had me ugly crying!!! Although it deals with heavy topics such as religion, homophobia, domestic violence, and religious guilt, it is a beautiful and hopeful story about how faith and love can coexist.
The characters felt real, and their struggles and emotional burdens were heartbreaking to witness, especially if you've gone through something similar...
It's really short and doesn't go into many details probably because it was adapted from the series but it still manages to leave a strong emotional impact.

[Eros · Rating 5 out of 5]

To every kind of love and faith.

To all the people who fear coming out of their closet to see colors; to all the people who are tied to a leash by their religion; to all the people who are constantly battling between love and faith; and to all the kids who prayed to have the gay removed from their psyche—this work of art is for you.

I’m not a devoted Christian myself, and I do not follow all the holy teachings. However, this masterpiece really hits close to home.

I am a member of the queer community, and as a child, there wasn't a single day when I didn't question what was wrong with me. Why couldn't I be like others? Why couldn't I be like other men who walked straight and didn't have a single flick in their step? Why couldn't I live a day without someone telling me that my actions resembled a woman's? Why couldn't I be like others who liked girls? I tried, but my heart really beats on a different wavelength—I like men. Growing up, I realized that there is nothing wrong with me. I am who I am, and I don’t have to change myself to meet societal standards. I am me, and I can be the best version of myself, just like anyone else.

Back to the story: Tanrak and Barth showed how powerful love can be—against all odds, always. They fought for their love despite Tanrak’s religious guilt and how love haunted and tested his faith. But as the saying goes, love always wins. It will never waver; it will never lose.

Ultimately, this masterpiece teaches us that love and faith should always be interconnected; both disciplines are interwoven. They form a knot that will never be burned, even by the fiercest flame. They support one another, and no one should ever have to choose between the two. You can love someone in a way that may go against traditional church teachings while still maintaining strong faith in a higher power.

“…we can love ourselves and love God at the same time."

Lastly, watching the series actually helped me fully appreciate the words written in the book. Gemini and Fourth really portrayed the emotions that the book conveys to its readers. It doesn’t matter whether you read the book first or watch the series—both are incredible and something you will want to return to. This is art. This is home.

[natan · Rating 4 out of 5]

“thanrak veio para cá com o coração cheio de amor pelos pais, e partiu com o coração cheio de amor por outro rapaz.”

ticket to heaven entrega uma história muito emocionante com religião e sexualidade em grande foco. a jornada do tanrak de descobertas e grandes sentimentos junto ao barth enquanto percebe que pode continuar com sua grande fé e ainda assim amar um garoto é muito linda!!
a adaptação está tão incrível e tão fiel, geminifourth foram as escolhas mais que certas para dar vida ao tanrak e barth

[Hlyan · Rating 4 out of 5]

Loving the ongoing TV series, I couldn't wait for the finale, so I picked up the novel. Unfortunately, there's no official English translation yet, and I wouldn't recommend the seemingly AI-translated version I found online. (Fan translations maybe better, though I haven't read any of them myself.)

This is one of those rare occasions where I actually prefer the screen adaptation to the book, probably because of the translation quality, as well as my admiration for the two lead actors, Gemini and Fourth. They are absolutely flawless in their roles.

[Saskia Ang · Rating 3 out of 5]

I feel like the pace was too quick. Since I read using the English translation, there are probably few moments I didn't catch quite right. Overall, I like the book, but I find it lacking in detail, especially because I’m also watching the ongoing adaptation. Watching the series is actually what helped me get into the story and capture the right feeling, so I think it’s the show's execution that makes it so good. As a standalone book, it just feels a bit underdeveloped.

[Heyi · Rating 5 out of 5]

Reading this after finishing the series to avoid spoilers (also because i had to wait for the shipment of the book).

Maybe because of GeminiFourth's acting and chemistry, the series felt more emotional and heavy than this book.

But this book offered some details that wasn't available in the series. It was simple yet heavy. A powerful message for every religious queers, especially the young ones, that love for God and love for yourself can exist together.

[Bee · Rating 4 out of 5]

Me la viví en pánico como si yo estuviera pasando por eso. Los tqm Barth y Tanrak, me vi reflejada en ustedes.

El storytelling pudo ser mejor, pero las emociones me dieron en la madre y por eso 4/5. Recomiendo 100%

[Yokinami · Rating 5 out of 5]

Just brilliant! A story about a boy, who knew one faith and in one moment everything that he knew was shaken because of the other boy. A story about finding love and yourself even when you think you know what you want

[Lit Reader · Rating 5 out of 5]

No words this book was amazing!!!!!!!!! I can read it again and again its just i can't cry more.....love them both🫶🌸

[Yaquelin Caballero · Rating 5 out of 5]

De lo mejor del género

[loraineؘ ִֶ ً · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 ⭐️
los amo barth y tanrak

[Mimi · Rating 5 out of 5]

Happy ending, happy tears

[Lissie · Rating 2 out of 5]

nothingburger. i expected some yearning and angst tbh but whatever.

[Aan Syahriani · Rating 4 out of 5]

some stories are meant to be read, shake your heart and your beliefs, only for you to smile when it all ends

[cece · Rating 4 out of 5]

heart warming story... i almost crying a few times and my heart feels sooooo soft for them. there's nothing wrong with Love. it is true

[veelayn ྀི · Rating 4 out of 5]

I’m dead ช้อตนี้กรุตาย

[همّام · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is so ethereal and full of ceremony.
God created all and love all equally

[Thalia Tashya · Rating 5 out of 5]

as i finished this book even before the series, i knew that the combination of both was needed. but what i wanted to say is, this books feels incomplete. i must say i love the series more, for it could capture the young and innocence love at its best. but also could put us in a worst agony.