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Crazy Love: Poems & Reflections
Crazy Love isn't a performance. It's a confession.
This collection is drawn from over a decade of real journal entries and poetry that Adam Roa never planned to share. It traces the full arc of the intoxicating rush, the quiet terrors, the slow unraveling, and the heavy silence that follows when it's over.
Woven from multiple relationships into a single emotional journey, these pages are honest to the point of reckless. But beneath the heartbreak runs something deeper. A return to self, hard-won and sacred, that only becomes possible once everything else falls away.
This book is a mirror. It will remind you of things you've felt but never said out loud.
For anyone who has loved completely, lost completely, and still believes the whole beautiful
mess was worth it.
"Adam Roa writes with an honesty so fearless it becomes a spiritual practice—inviting us to sit
with love, loss, longing, and healing without bypassing a single breath… If you are willing to feel
deeply, to be undone and remade by love, these pages will meet you exactly where your soul is
ready to open."
- Michael Bernard Beckwith, Founder & CEO, Agape International Spiritual Center Author, Life
Visioning and Spiritual Liberation & Host, Take Back Your Mind Podcast
This collection is drawn from over a decade of real journal entries and poetry that Adam Roa never planned to share. It traces the full arc of the intoxicating rush, the quiet terrors, the slow unraveling, and the heavy silence that follows when it's over.
Woven from multiple relationships into a single emotional journey, these pages are honest to the point of reckless. But beneath the heartbreak runs something deeper. A return to self, hard-won and sacred, that only becomes possible once everything else falls away.
This book is a mirror. It will remind you of things you've felt but never said out loud.
For anyone who has loved completely, lost completely, and still believes the whole beautiful
mess was worth it.
"Adam Roa writes with an honesty so fearless it becomes a spiritual practice—inviting us to sit
with love, loss, longing, and healing without bypassing a single breath… If you are willing to feel
deeply, to be undone and remade by love, these pages will meet you exactly where your soul is
ready to open."
- Michael Bernard Beckwith, Founder & CEO, Agape International Spiritual Center Author, Life
Visioning and Spiritual Liberation & Host, Take Back Your Mind Podcast
303 pages, Kindle Edition
Published August 1, 2026
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October 24, 2026
Adam Roa’s Crazy Love: Poems & Reflections is a collection of his “real journal entries and poetry, written with the belief that no one would ever see them” so he warns readers that some of the content might be triggering, but that this is his unfiltered raw thoughts.
He splits these works into eight segments representing the timeline of a relationship from the beginning experiencing new, overwhelming and all consuming love to the heartbreak and healing. Although these sections aren’t creatively named, they get the point across as to what stage Adam was in over the decade of this relationship: Dream Love, Not-Quite Love, Scary Love, Our Love, Painful Love, Broken Love, Healing Love and Empowering Love.
Adams religious beliefs are woven into his works, quite often he references God and heaven. As I am not personally religious some of these lines felt to me as either cringy “I accept that your divine intelligence will bring my partner to me at the perfect time. Lastly I pray for my Queen” or strangely sexual “i prayed at the gates of heaven until she was ready to open them and as the divined enveloped me i found God inside her”. These biblical allusions personally didn’t convey the power to me, but it was interesting to see how his relationship with his beliefs changed as his relationship did.
And some lines were just straight up emo, parts could have been written by a angsty teenager. Does anyone remember Jeff Thomas’s Pon and Zi? From 2000 emo/scene myspace culture? They were alternative comics and some of Adam’s quotes belong captioning these images “i’m trying to put my pain into words but i can’t see the page through the tears”, Google Pon and Zi and tell me I’m wrong. Although I enjoyed his angry, post breakup poems over his more romantic ones, sometimes I didn’t feel the emotion he was clearly trying to convey. Adam uses basic rhyming couplets throughout and I was getting bored of the rhythm, some of the rhymes were creative but others felt a bit generic such as “i’m seeing love everywhere i just stare like a care bear” and “i hope those eyes can roll back time cuz if you roll them again you won’t be mine”.
But then some of his lines worked well, their emotional weight and showed some great displays of human behaviour like where he apologies to God for “if my desire for my next chapter has ever spoilt my appreciation of the current one” and questioning “at what point did you identify more with your scars than your lineage from the stars?”. Sometimes a single line would really standout from the poem and project the rawness of his emotional state. In his section Broken Love he uses two voices to personify his mental health, similar to how popular artists such as Ren’s ‘Hi Ren’ have done to represent the internal war he is having with himself about his emotions “I protect you. You need me. I don’t. Not anymore. You’re now the greatest source of my pain”. Also in Healing Love he spends some time comparing himself to a goldfish which was cool.
I did not like the repetition of the abbreviations ‘cuz’, ‘gotta’, ‘lotta’, and ‘nada’. Perhaps he wanted to convey his realistic dialogue, but these terms felt out of place because the rest of the word choices are unabridged and there is little colloquial language besides this. Also for a man who’s poetry collection is 300 pages, it is not like he was trying to save on the page count. He could have used the full-length words. Some ‘I’s aren’t capitalized featuring the lowercase ‘i’ instead, personally I always see this as trying hard to be insta-acceptable for Gen-Z readers, but perhaps he felt it represented how he felt about himself during those writings.
Overall what really surprised me was the lack of ratings/readings he has on Goodreads for this collection. His website boats of 600M+ Total views across platforms with 250M+ Views of “You Are Who You’ve Been Looking For” alone. He has 350K+ Instagram followers and 52K+ YouTube subscribers. So where are they all? It sounds like he has a vast fanbase so I’m startled no one is picking up his book – I was also surprised to see he was a hat guy, very hipster.
He splits these works into eight segments representing the timeline of a relationship from the beginning experiencing new, overwhelming and all consuming love to the heartbreak and healing. Although these sections aren’t creatively named, they get the point across as to what stage Adam was in over the decade of this relationship: Dream Love, Not-Quite Love, Scary Love, Our Love, Painful Love, Broken Love, Healing Love and Empowering Love.
Adams religious beliefs are woven into his works, quite often he references God and heaven. As I am not personally religious some of these lines felt to me as either cringy “I accept that your divine intelligence will bring my partner to me at the perfect time. Lastly I pray for my Queen” or strangely sexual “i prayed at the gates of heaven until she was ready to open them and as the divined enveloped me i found God inside her”. These biblical allusions personally didn’t convey the power to me, but it was interesting to see how his relationship with his beliefs changed as his relationship did.
And some lines were just straight up emo, parts could have been written by a angsty teenager. Does anyone remember Jeff Thomas’s Pon and Zi? From 2000 emo/scene myspace culture? They were alternative comics and some of Adam’s quotes belong captioning these images “i’m trying to put my pain into words but i can’t see the page through the tears”, Google Pon and Zi and tell me I’m wrong. Although I enjoyed his angry, post breakup poems over his more romantic ones, sometimes I didn’t feel the emotion he was clearly trying to convey. Adam uses basic rhyming couplets throughout and I was getting bored of the rhythm, some of the rhymes were creative but others felt a bit generic such as “i’m seeing love everywhere i just stare like a care bear” and “i hope those eyes can roll back time cuz if you roll them again you won’t be mine”.
But then some of his lines worked well, their emotional weight and showed some great displays of human behaviour like where he apologies to God for “if my desire for my next chapter has ever spoilt my appreciation of the current one” and questioning “at what point did you identify more with your scars than your lineage from the stars?”. Sometimes a single line would really standout from the poem and project the rawness of his emotional state. In his section Broken Love he uses two voices to personify his mental health, similar to how popular artists such as Ren’s ‘Hi Ren’ have done to represent the internal war he is having with himself about his emotions “I protect you. You need me. I don’t. Not anymore. You’re now the greatest source of my pain”. Also in Healing Love he spends some time comparing himself to a goldfish which was cool.
I did not like the repetition of the abbreviations ‘cuz’, ‘gotta’, ‘lotta’, and ‘nada’. Perhaps he wanted to convey his realistic dialogue, but these terms felt out of place because the rest of the word choices are unabridged and there is little colloquial language besides this. Also for a man who’s poetry collection is 300 pages, it is not like he was trying to save on the page count. He could have used the full-length words. Some ‘I’s aren’t capitalized featuring the lowercase ‘i’ instead, personally I always see this as trying hard to be insta-acceptable for Gen-Z readers, but perhaps he felt it represented how he felt about himself during those writings.
Overall what really surprised me was the lack of ratings/readings he has on Goodreads for this collection. His website boats of 600M+ Total views across platforms with 250M+ Views of “You Are Who You’ve Been Looking For” alone. He has 350K+ Instagram followers and 52K+ YouTube subscribers. So where are they all? It sounds like he has a vast fanbase so I’m startled no one is picking up his book – I was also surprised to see he was a hat guy, very hipster.
September 29, 2026
Crazy Love is a personal collection of poetry and journal entries that follows more than a decade of Adam Roa’s experiences with romance, longing, intimacy, heartbreak, and recovery. Roa arranges the book as an emotional progression through “Dream Love,” “Not-Quite Love,” “Scary Love,” “Our Love,” “Painful Love,” “Broken Love,” “Healing Love,” and finally “Empowered Love.” That structure gives the collection the feeling of a memoir even though there’s no conventional narrative running through it. The poems capture moments in concentrated form, while the journal entries slow things down and let us hear Roa question his choices, motives, fears, and ideas about what love is supposed to mean. He describes the material as real writing created across multiple relationships, with names and dates removed so the emotional experiences can stand on their own.
What makes the book compelling is how fully Roa commits to his emotional point of view. Early on, love is enormous, cosmic, destined, and almost impossible to separate from faith. He dreams about a partner he hasn’t met, imagines future children, prays for his “Queen,” and treats romantic intuition as something close to spiritual knowledge. As relationships become real, that certainty gets tested. Desire brings fear, intimacy exposes old wounds, and Roa becomes increasingly interested in the gap between loving someone and actually being able to build a healthy life with them. Some of the most revealing passages are the journal entries in which he notices his own defenses in real time, such as recognizing that moments of disconnection can trigger an urge to pull away even when a relationship is going well. The book’s spiritual vocabulary remains throughout, but the emotional questions become more grounded as it progresses.
The later sections give the collection its real weight. Roa writes openly about relationships unraveling, knowing he loves someone while also knowing he can’t choose the relationship, and eventually facing the uncomfortable fact that another person can become a convenient explanation for turmoil that also belongs to him. From there, healing becomes less about finding the correct romantic answer and more about recovering a sense of self. One poem moves from codependency toward sovereignty by asking what it means to want someone without needing them and to belong to oneself before trying to belong with another person. That development makes the ending especially effective. Roa admits that when he tried to assemble an “Empowered Love” section, most of the material still felt like healing. His eventual definition of empowerment is quieter: being alone, feeling peaceful, and no longer treating loneliness or sadness as evidence that something has gone wrong.
I’d recommend Crazy Love most strongly to readers who experience love intensely and enjoy poetry that feels like someone talking directly from the middle of an emotion. Fans of spoken-word poetry will probably connect especially well with Roa’s repetition, rhythm, direct address, and big emotional declarations, which makes sense since he notes that much of the poetry was originally written to be performed aloud. It should also resonate with people working through a breakup, reconsidering patterns of attachment, or trying to reconcile a belief in passionate romance with a stronger sense of personal sovereignty. The book begins with a man looking outward for a love that feels like home and ends with him discovering a version of home in his own company. Importantly, he doesn’t give up his belief in extraordinary romantic love. He simply reaches a place where he doesn’t need to chase it in order to feel whole, and that evolution gives the collection a satisfying emotional shape.
What makes the book compelling is how fully Roa commits to his emotional point of view. Early on, love is enormous, cosmic, destined, and almost impossible to separate from faith. He dreams about a partner he hasn’t met, imagines future children, prays for his “Queen,” and treats romantic intuition as something close to spiritual knowledge. As relationships become real, that certainty gets tested. Desire brings fear, intimacy exposes old wounds, and Roa becomes increasingly interested in the gap between loving someone and actually being able to build a healthy life with them. Some of the most revealing passages are the journal entries in which he notices his own defenses in real time, such as recognizing that moments of disconnection can trigger an urge to pull away even when a relationship is going well. The book’s spiritual vocabulary remains throughout, but the emotional questions become more grounded as it progresses.
The later sections give the collection its real weight. Roa writes openly about relationships unraveling, knowing he loves someone while also knowing he can’t choose the relationship, and eventually facing the uncomfortable fact that another person can become a convenient explanation for turmoil that also belongs to him. From there, healing becomes less about finding the correct romantic answer and more about recovering a sense of self. One poem moves from codependency toward sovereignty by asking what it means to want someone without needing them and to belong to oneself before trying to belong with another person. That development makes the ending especially effective. Roa admits that when he tried to assemble an “Empowered Love” section, most of the material still felt like healing. His eventual definition of empowerment is quieter: being alone, feeling peaceful, and no longer treating loneliness or sadness as evidence that something has gone wrong.
I’d recommend Crazy Love most strongly to readers who experience love intensely and enjoy poetry that feels like someone talking directly from the middle of an emotion. Fans of spoken-word poetry will probably connect especially well with Roa’s repetition, rhythm, direct address, and big emotional declarations, which makes sense since he notes that much of the poetry was originally written to be performed aloud. It should also resonate with people working through a breakup, reconsidering patterns of attachment, or trying to reconcile a belief in passionate romance with a stronger sense of personal sovereignty. The book begins with a man looking outward for a love that feels like home and ends with him discovering a version of home in his own company. Importantly, he doesn’t give up his belief in extraordinary romantic love. He simply reaches a place where he doesn’t need to chase it in order to feel whole, and that evolution gives the collection a satisfying emotional shape.
October 30, 2026
I was listening to this on my drive home from Cascade to Boise, Idaho. I found myself in tears through parts. So much of what he shared resonated deeply with me. His words felt incredibly relevant, validating, and almost as though someone had put language to feelings I've carried over the years.
As a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic, it was cathartic and compassionate to be reminded that loving deeply, feeling intensely, and believing in extraordinary love aren't lesser than. His words also inspired me to continue writing poetry and journaling, reconnecting with my own voice and the healing, reflection, and self-discovery that come through writing.
Thank you Adam for sharing your vulnerabilities and connecting with the rest of us. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be gifting more of these to some of my friends.
As a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic, it was cathartic and compassionate to be reminded that loving deeply, feeling intensely, and believing in extraordinary love aren't lesser than. His words also inspired me to continue writing poetry and journaling, reconnecting with my own voice and the healing, reflection, and self-discovery that come through writing.
Thank you Adam for sharing your vulnerabilities and connecting with the rest of us. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be gifting more of these to some of my friends.
November 4, 2026
Crazy Love: Poems & Reflections sounds like an intimate and emotionally honest collection about the many stages of loving, losing, and finding your way back to yourself. Drawing from more than a decade of personal journal entries and poetry, Adam Roa explores the intoxicating beginnings of love, the fears and uncertainties that can emerge, and the quiet aftermath of heartbreak. The confessional nature of the collection gives it the potential to feel deeply personal and relatable.
What stands out is the idea that healing does not require denying the love or pain that came before. Instead, the journey toward self-discovery becomes part of the meaning of those experiences. This looks like a thoughtful choice for readers who appreciate vulnerable poetry, reflections on relationships, and writing that explores emotional growth and spiritual connection.
What stands out is the idea that healing does not require denying the love or pain that came before. Instead, the journey toward self-discovery becomes part of the meaning of those experiences. This looks like a thoughtful choice for readers who appreciate vulnerable poetry, reflections on relationships, and writing that explores emotional growth and spiritual connection.
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