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Langston S. Lauderbough

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May, 1993; In Wellbelove, Utah, a mild-mannered high school principal is haunted by a decades-old murder he committed when he was eighteen years old— but nothing can prepare him, or you, for the violent spirit of psychic vengeance flooding down the American highways.

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Published June 22, 2026

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Profile Image for Madame Strange.
219 reviews10 followers
August 3, 2026
[REDACTED] - (HAHAHA!)

★★★★★

How do you review a book that you can’t talk about? A book that exists only for you.
Written for you, with a tittle you can’t reveal by an author you can’t name.

Do I review the experience?

Because I have read a book, with words and all, with a story so bizarre and intense that I want to tell all of you to read it, but you can’t, because it doesn’t “exist”. Yet it is was real, I’ve read it, I’ve experienced it, so it must exist.

Maybe you don’t believe me, or maybe you do and you want a unique story, an unsettling and strange experience for yourself. Well what if I told you there is a way to get your hands on your very own story? It’s all very hush hush and there is a limit and some forms to fill out and there is rules and you do not want to break these rules, but it can be yours. 🪰
Profile Image for Chandler.
380 reviews38 followers
August 3, 2026
A meta nightmare - emphatic 5 ⭐️ !!!

[Redacted] by [Redacted] is an experimental horror experience with the reader playing a key role. What that role is, I cannot contractually say. Personalized by the author, [Redacted], this book is literally one-of-a-kind. Meaning, you’ll never read it, not the version I am reviewing at least.

What I can say is that this is a highly personal (uncomfortably so) horror experience. What helps the unease is the vulnerability that the author also pours in, a mutual stake, if you will. That being said, you’ll find no coddling. There’s no reprieve. This is your own personal hellscape (HAHAHA!)

Get over it, you signed up for it. (HAHAHA!)

[Author Redacted] shows an immense creative freedom in this project. This is what literature should be, risk taking and experimentation. I consider myself extremely lucky to be amongst the 101 readers who will and have experienced this insane work.

There’s something to be said about an author trusting their readers to this extent. I do not take that for granted and neither should you.

Overall, [Redacted] by [Redacted] is a transgressive, refreshingly unique, and repulsive extreme horror experience.

If you dare, go grab your own. (HAHAHA!)
Profile Image for Ashley.
784 reviews25 followers
July 30, 2026
"Sometimes... when I masturbate... I imagine a scenario quite like this... I'm a police officer... and I find a pair of teenagers screwing around in the back of an SUV parked out in the woods... And I shoot the man... I blow his brains out his ear and send him express to his maker, and I take this young sexed up girl, her boyfriend's head-guts dripping off her forehead, her tits swollen, fresh salty cum dripping out of her cunt, and I squeeze her neck until her face is red and she's begging for her mother and God to stop me..."

How does one review a book when that book doesn't exist? Okay. So, obviously [book title redacted] exists, at least, in a loose, abstract sense, it's on my Kindle, I've read it, it's real, but, you will never read this book. No two copies of this book are the same, each copy is personalized by [author name redacted] to be their readers own personal apocalypse. And, what's more, this beast of a book is limited to just 101 unique copies. I think it's an entirely fair thing to say that books like [book title redacted] are my entire reason for reading. This horrific book made me feel a level of anxiety I didn't even know I was capable of. It's an oppressive, obsessive, snarling monster built of perversion and desire.

[Book title redacted] is an extremely personal book, one that's intimate in the worst possible ways, it's sort of like finding out the love of your life is actually a serial killer. It's no secret that I have deranged, fucked up reading tastes but, this... This is something else. [Author name redacted] peeled off my skin and stole my soul for this book. To challenge the disposable nature of literature in such an artistic way is a bold fucking move, and I have nothing but respect for that shit. Reading [book title redacted] is like experiencing one very long, seemingly endless mental health crisis. I was forced by the author to witness the most unbearable moments of someone's suffering. [Author name redacted] has somehow made beauty out of hell.

"After I came inside her, and choked the life out of her, I got real worried that she might still be alive, just unconscious, so I forced myself to stomp on her head a few times until I heard the skull crack. I must of jumped on her two dozen times. I was still worried though. So I took out a little plastic lighter and tried setting her on fire, but I found out real quick that raw human beings really aren't very flammable without an accelerant. Try as I might, I couldn't get her jacket to catch flame. That's when I went back home and got a shovel. It's what you do when you kill someone right?"


This book is fucking savage, [author name redacted] has done such a brilliant job of forcing the reader into the mind of their seriously sick protagonist that this whole thing felt almost autobiographical. It just left me feeling hollowed out and horrible, there's a specific kind of fragility to it, like peering into the void, I think, witnessing someone's decline this closely is something we just weren't built for. This book is a hallucinogenic fever-dream nightmare that will make you question reality. Only, it won't, because you likely won't ever read this. [Author name redacted] has a unique gift for portraying the way desire controls our entire lives. It's just so fucking fearless, and it's all written so, so gorgeously.

[Book title redacted] is a revolution against the status quo. It's a big fuck you to the state of the world, it's a rebellion against the safe, sanitized media that's shoved down our throats. It's a complete and utter exploration of self-destruction. It's obsessive, and grotesque, and utterly unafraid to show the true depths of humanities depravity. [Author name redacted] knows the danger of letting our greatest desires control us, most books I read, they make me feel uncomfortable because of their content, but this one? This one made me feel so viscerally uncomfortable because it felt like [author name redacted] knew the inner workings of my soul. Thank you, whoever you are, for making me read this.

"Some people, Beth, they don't have childhoods. They're born into the mud and thorns... they don't get to learn, they instead get to survive... and before they've even picked up their first words, all they know is some punk's idea of a cheap thrill... I've worked to make a life for myself, Bethy... But I still think about it... every minute... every day... Every headline I read... Every commercial I watched... I remember... getting used... getting hurt... getting bent up by some sadist who'd snuck into the bird's nest... because he was bored... and he wanted to hurt something that he could hurt profoundly... And I've dreamt of revenge... taking him apart bit by bit with nothing but a box cutter."
Profile Image for Camilla Shaw.
37 reviews2 followers
August 1, 2026
I have never read anything like this in my life and I wouldn’t know how to properly explain this book to anyone else.

Absolute batshit craziness in the best way.

An unhinged psychotic serial killer who’s polite and has a classic ‘dad’ sense of humour; he’s a mix of Patrick Bateman and Ned Flanders… which is just wild.

Fourth wall breaks and personalised passages drag you into the story with the cuckoo killer and makes you truly uncomfortable in parts. In the same breath I’m laughing out loud.

The typos and mistakes with details caught me off guard to begin with, until I realised they were totally intentional and worsened as the character divulged more of his terrible antics and spiralled into full blown insanity, never sure whether he’s facing reality or hallucinations (and neither was I).

There’s a deeper level to this too, and a lot to unpack and get your head around. I’ll be thinking about this one for a while.

Huge thanks to the author for sharing this experience with me – you are greatly appreciated!
Profile Image for Jess Reads Horror.
415 reviews21 followers
September 1, 2026
OH GOSH Is this a book or an experience? HOW ABOUT BOTH HAHAHA!

Having a book personalized for each reader in some ways was a wild thing to find out about, and I am both so entertained and so disgusted.

I fully applaud THE AUTHOR for going completely bonkers here, and NOTHING is off limits!
Profile Image for Phoenix Mendoza.
94 reviews26 followers
September 25, 2026
Once and a lifetime unique experience that will be different for every reader. I, personally, had a blast. Kicking my feet twirling my hair, loved every second of reading this. Funny. Meta. Killer prose. Many layered. Or…at least my copy was :)
Profile Image for Blake.
20 reviews
September 21, 2026
How do you review a book that does but also does not exist? How do you review a book that is so disgusting, so grotesque, so jarring, but also so politically and socially aware?

The answer is simple: I don’t know. I have no idea, but I’m going to try anyway.

I came across a post from one of my Bookstagram mutuals (theproofisinthepages) in which she reviewed a book that was… so beyond intriguing that I sent her a DM almost immediately. Callie’s post said, “Want to read this secret book, [CENSORED], about a polite yet unhinged MC who’s a mix of Patrick Bateman & Ned Flanders? Well, you can’t…”

However, the post’s caption said otherwise. [REDACTED] is a secret project by [REDACTED], and they’re capping the total amount of copies distributed at 101. I don’t quite remember what number I was, but when I saw that I was accepted… let’s just say I was giddy. Each copy is personalized by the author, so no two copies are the same, which means that I have 0 idea what other people have read. I’m sure they’re all pretty similar – as far as I’m aware,they all follow the same MC with the same set of situations he’s put through/caught in, but there are so many things that make [REDACTED] more like a conversation/story time with the MC.

After I finished the book, my friend asked me how I liked it. The best I could come up with is this: It was a book, for sure. I think I struggle to enjoy things that have such heavy topics like this one did. The MC is a high school principal and he’s also Maybe a serial killer? Who hates women? And there’s rape and gore, but it’s also Very Directly social and political commentary, like how to be American is kind of to be an evil man. It is a book. It does what the author wanted it to do. I understand them more as a person, I think. I understand the visceral anger they have for what this country has done / is doing. 5 stars, maybe? 0 stars, perhaps? Can I even comfortably rate something so terrible and perverse? I’m unsure.

[REDACTED] was a lot. It felt a lot like looking at a car fire, you know? It’s the kind of thing you can’t look away from. I’m rating it 5 stars for the same reason I’d rate The Human Centipede 5 stars – the art is doing what the artist wanted it to do. [REDACTED] may have disgusted me, may have reminded me that there are people in the world who are so unhinged and disgusting and dangerous, but it also made me think. It made me question my own view of the United States, our current administration, and the terrible evils and horrors this country is committing.

It also reinforced my views on censorship in the media. I think that a lot of people would read [REDACTED] and think that it should have never been published let alone written. I can admit, with ease, that this book is absolutely disgusting. I struggle to understand how someone can write about topics like those in [REDACTED], how someone can even remotely get into the mindset of such a character to put the thoughts to paper. I’ll argue in its defense, though: censorship, even of taboo or “morally incorrect” topics, is bad. All censorship opens the door for more censorship to occur, which opens the door to silencing entire groups of people.

All censorship is bad – end of story.

Thank you to [REDACTED] for allowing me to read my own personalized copy of [REDACTED]. I think your brain needs to be studied for science.
Profile Image for Alisa Saiko.
160 reviews6 followers
August 27, 2026
Okay. I genuinely don't know how much I'm allowed to say about this one. 😂 I can't tell you the title. I can't tell you the author. And I definitely can't tell you exactly what happened. What I can tell you is this was one of the strangest reading experiences I've ever had (HAHA).

Every copy of this book is made specifically for the person reading it, so what I experienced won't necessarily be what someone else gets. Which honestly makes the whole thing even more effed up. It's weird. It's dark. It's funny in the most inappropriate moments. And suddenly you're sitting there thinking WTAF am I reading?

I was completely sucked into this thing. Like, couldn't top thinking about it sucked in. I laughed. I cringed. I felt deeply uncomfortable. I was horrified. I was fascinated. And I kept wanting to see just how much further into the depravity this thing was going to take me. This is one of those books where the experience is almost as important as the story itself. It's bizarre, complete with an unreliable narrator, and unlike anything I've read before.

And I desperately want to tell you what it is. But unfortunately I can't. But if you're curious enough, you know where to find me. This one is going to live rent-free in my head for awhile.... (HAHA)
Profile Image for Kim Layman.
309 reviews17 followers
August 24, 2026
You Can’t Read This Story

No, really, you can’t.

Oh, don’t believe me? Well, let me tell you why.

Because it was made for me. That’s why.

[Redacted] by [Redacted] is a wholly original story made for each individual reader. In this case, it’s for yours truly.

Why would an author choose to write a unique story for each person they chose? It’s simple, really. They are frustrated by literature, specifically fiction, being treated as disposable. So, why not make stories as unique as the readers themselves?

My story was a bloody good time, and I do mean bloody. It also felt like a fever dream, and I spent a good deal of time trying to figure out what was real for the MC and what was a dream. I also had a wide range of emotions as I journeyed through the MC’s story. But I think my favorite part was the dialogue at the end of the story. It definitely had me saying, “Hell yeah!” multiple times.

So, now that you’ve read my spiel, and my thoughts on the story itself, are you brave enough to read one of your own? Well, are you?

A huge thank you to the author for my one-of-a-kind story. My opinion is my own.
Profile Image for Melinda.
603 reviews37 followers
September 6, 2026
I am so incredibly grateful for the opportunity to have received a copy of [Redacted] from [Redacted]! 🫶

I’m giving a standing ovation to [Redacted] because this is exactly what a horror novel should be and I consider it a masterpiece! 🖤 It’s dark, unhinged, and one that I could not put down. In other words, I loved this book so much and it will one that I never forget! 🫶

One of the coolest things about [Redacted] is the fact that this book is completely personalized to me so the version of the story I read is not the same version you would read if you were to read the book. The personalization truly made me feel like I was in the story. I admit there were multiple times I got shocked while reading this because I kept asking myself “how does it know this information about me” 😂😂😂

If you want a horror book that is unforgettable then this is the one for you! 🫶
Profile Image for ScarlettAnomalyReads.
988 reviews39 followers
August 23, 2026
Goodness plain chocolate ice cream???
The things I read, the things I [redacted]?!

How do I even explain this to..well the world but not, I can't.

Haha not a crazy person that [redacted redacted] of course the mcs not, that would be well alot?!

Haha oh wait..

This book was something and I can't put my finger on it, but I'm obsessed it's weird it's different it's [redacted].

This was bloody and weird in a crazy way. This was different the way [redacted] formatted it, the way the story rolled out, had me begging for more crumbs, I had to know why [redacted redacted] in this?

This does not go where you expected or does it, does it really [redacted redacted]... maybe..



Profile Image for Kaitlyn Louise.
34 reviews
August 14, 2026
[Redacted] by [Redacted] is a fantastic horror novella and you know, none of you will be able to read it because it was personalized for me (HAHA) 💁🏼‍♀️

It was gruesome. It was gnarly. The best part of all? The even the reader plays a role. I would tell you more but it’s a secret (HAHA)🤫

[Redacted] is an incredible author who is frustrated with fiction being disposable and created something disgustingly unique, experimental, and nightmare inducing. I am so happy to be one of a few experiencing this hellish read. Five stars from head to toe!

See what all the buzz is about 🪰 Get your own copy, if you dare 😈

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Profile Image for Danni.
50 reviews2 followers
October 27, 2026
This was the most unhinged, insane, diabolical and utterly grotesque piece of literature I’ve read thus far. Thank you thank you thank you to the author for my very own personalized copy of whatever the fresh hell this is.

I can’t even begin to describe to you wtf I just read. It was absolutely horrifying, then took an even darker, grotesque turn, took a hard left and turned meta af, and then made me sad at the end anyways.

I was so unprepared for this but I loved it! I wish I could say that this story was predictable but it was actually the farthest thing from predictable as humanly possible. This was a fucking RIDE and I have whiplash now so thanks for that.
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