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10 Reasons Why Ethan Parker Vanished
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Expected 8 Nov 26Ethan Parker has vanished. But instead of fading into the shadows, he's louder than ever.
When a disturbing video of the unassuming scholarship student at Lionsveil University goes viral, the elite dismiss it as a sick joke. Until the second one drops.
Ethan Parker is settling the score—against the liars, the traitors, and every silent bystander who helped destroy his life. Ten videos. Ten targets. One ruthless digital scavenger hunt that's destined to bring the university's toxic hierarchy to its knees.
As the celebrated sports captain, Ezra Ashford has everything money and status can buy. On the surface, his and Ethan’s paths never crossed. No one suspects that the untouchable Ezra is tied to the vanished boy by a fateful past and a dangerous attraction.
To keep his perfect world from shattering, Ezra has no choice but to play Ethan’s twisted game. Yet with every riddle solved, the countdown to Video Number 10 creeps closer. And Ezra knows exactly what is at his guilt is the darkest of them all.
Dark Academia meets M/M
Mystery & SuspenseSecret RelationshipElite College SettingHigh Stakes
When a disturbing video of the unassuming scholarship student at Lionsveil University goes viral, the elite dismiss it as a sick joke. Until the second one drops.
Ethan Parker is settling the score—against the liars, the traitors, and every silent bystander who helped destroy his life. Ten videos. Ten targets. One ruthless digital scavenger hunt that's destined to bring the university's toxic hierarchy to its knees.
As the celebrated sports captain, Ezra Ashford has everything money and status can buy. On the surface, his and Ethan’s paths never crossed. No one suspects that the untouchable Ezra is tied to the vanished boy by a fateful past and a dangerous attraction.
To keep his perfect world from shattering, Ezra has no choice but to play Ethan’s twisted game. Yet with every riddle solved, the countdown to Video Number 10 creeps closer. And Ezra knows exactly what is at his guilt is the darkest of them all.
Dark Academia meets M/M
Mystery & SuspenseSecret RelationshipElite College SettingHigh Stakes
511 pages, Kindle Edition
Expected publication November 8, 2026
About the author
Lilith Alba Carmin
10 booksLilith A. Carmin (*1993) lebt und schreibt in Mitteldeutschland – meistens in Begleitung von drei großen Hunden. Im bürgerlichen Leben ist sie als Redakteurin für ein reichweitenstarkes Tech-Magazin tätig. Dort übersetzt sie komplexe technische Themen rund um Smart Home, Energie und Digitales in harte Fakten, Benchmarks und nüchterne Analysen für ein Millionenpublikum.
Um diese streng faktenbasierte, journalistische Welt klar von ihren fiktionalen, emotional ungeschönten Stoffen zu trennen, schreibt sie heute unter Pseudonym. Die egoistische Muse ist ihr erstes Werk unter diesem Namen. Es ist nicht nur ein destillierter handwerklicher Werkzeugkasten, sondern der rechtliche Türöffner für ihre wahre literarische Leidenschaft: düstere Fiktion.
Ob Thriller, Horror oder Dark Fantasy – Lilith schreibt Geschichten, in denen nicht Algorithmen, sondern menschliche Abgründe die Hauptrolle spielen.
Um diese streng faktenbasierte, journalistische Welt klar von ihren fiktionalen, emotional ungeschönten Stoffen zu trennen, schreibt sie heute unter Pseudonym. Die egoistische Muse ist ihr erstes Werk unter diesem Namen. Es ist nicht nur ein destillierter handwerklicher Werkzeugkasten, sondern der rechtliche Türöffner für ihre wahre literarische Leidenschaft: düstere Fiktion.
Ob Thriller, Horror oder Dark Fantasy – Lilith schreibt Geschichten, in denen nicht Algorithmen, sondern menschliche Abgründe die Hauptrolle spielen.
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September 16, 2026
This book does what it says on the tin: Ethan Parker has vanished, and there’s ten reasons why.
But it is so much more than that.
Ethan is an incredibly kind person, but with a quiet kindness that he’s not snowy about. He doesn’t help for the gratitude or the praise; he does it because it’s the right thing to do. Unfortunately, he’s surrounded by people who are not like him. Not just because he’s a scholarship student at a university full of the rich and elite, but because he’s a truly good person in a sea of people who worry about wealth, reputation, and status more than kindness. But some of these people have gone too far, and Ethan is willing to settle the score by making their sins public. But in the end it’s not for revenge, it’s actually Ethan trying to do the right thing is his own way.
Interestingly, this story is not told from Ethan’s POV, but through Ezra’s, the rowing team captain and heir to a veritable throne. From the outside, no one thinks there’s any connection between the two boys, but it’s much deeper than anyone would ever know.
Thank you so much to GRR for this arc!
But it is so much more than that.
Ethan is an incredibly kind person, but with a quiet kindness that he’s not snowy about. He doesn’t help for the gratitude or the praise; he does it because it’s the right thing to do. Unfortunately, he’s surrounded by people who are not like him. Not just because he’s a scholarship student at a university full of the rich and elite, but because he’s a truly good person in a sea of people who worry about wealth, reputation, and status more than kindness. But some of these people have gone too far, and Ethan is willing to settle the score by making their sins public. But in the end it’s not for revenge, it’s actually Ethan trying to do the right thing is his own way.
Interestingly, this story is not told from Ethan’s POV, but through Ezra’s, the rowing team captain and heir to a veritable throne. From the outside, no one thinks there’s any connection between the two boys, but it’s much deeper than anyone would ever know.
Thank you so much to GRR for this arc!
Review of advance copy
This is the first story I've read by this author and I really could not set it down.
There are many stories with a college bully but this story came from a different perspective. It made me want to see what would implode next.
Ethan’s character is amazing even though his parents and others don't look at him that way. Ezra is the rich kid at college with all the expectations from his family to follow. Then they meet. This starts a road that brings to light a lot of things wrong with college and the problems with family expectations.
This story has a lot of emotion and now and then I found myself having to stop just to breathe. I love the relationship between these two. I liked how the relationship between others and their parents made a big part of who they are. I think most of all I liked thinking that this could really happen in a world where the bullies don't seem to get their karma.
I can't wait to see what comes from this author next.
There are many stories with a college bully but this story came from a different perspective. It made me want to see what would implode next.
Ethan’s character is amazing even though his parents and others don't look at him that way. Ezra is the rich kid at college with all the expectations from his family to follow. Then they meet. This starts a road that brings to light a lot of things wrong with college and the problems with family expectations.
This story has a lot of emotion and now and then I found myself having to stop just to breathe. I love the relationship between these two. I liked how the relationship between others and their parents made a big part of who they are. I think most of all I liked thinking that this could really happen in a world where the bullies don't seem to get their karma.
I can't wait to see what comes from this author next.
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