✨Summary✨
Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️.5
Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️.75
HEA: Yes, 3rd act breakup
POV: Dual
Tropes: Taboo, Married (to others), Affair, Industry Peers, Instant Attraction
Ana and James meet at the airport while waiting for a delayed flight to a science conference they are both attending, and the attraction is immediate. There’s only one issue…they are both married to other people. Neither is happy in their marriage, but they’ve both tried to make things work for the sake of their kids, and neither has ever been tempted to cheat before. They try to keep their distance, but over the course of the conference they keep finding themselves drawn back together until one night they finally stop fighting it. That night begins a months-long affair, mostly carried out through phone calls and messages with only a handful of stolen moments together since they live in different towns. Just when they start to think maybe they could leave their marriages and take a chance on each other, an accident happens that causes one of them to rethink everything. Will there ever be a chance for their love to exist outside the shadows?
First off, it’s very important that I mention this book involves cheating, but only on their spouses, never on each other. I know that’s a hard limit for a lot of readers, and cheating is usually a hard sell for me too, but I thought this book handled it incredibly well. There was so much emotion between Ana and James, and neither of them is cavalier about what they’re doing. They both struggle with the guilt of cheating and the potential consequences for their families.
Over the 9-10 months of their affair, they only meet up a few times, with most of their relationship happening over the phone. James’s wife is completely disconnected from their marriage and seems to treat James more like a roommate. Ana’s husband is a little easier to dislike and root against. He doesn’t really see or listen to Ana and seems to care more about his mother’s feelings than hers. He doesn’t even get Ana a Mother’s Day present from the kids but makes sure to get something for his own mom.
Trigger warning: There is also mention of stillbirth. Ana is still deeply grieving the loss, while her husband doesn’t want her to talk about it because he finds it depressing. To me, that seemed to be at the root of so much of the distance between them.
It feels strange to say when we’re talking about two people cheating on their spouses, but Ana and James really did feel made for each other. They see and understand each other in ways their spouses haven’t in a long time, and they genuinely bring out the best in one another. Their relationship felt much more emotional than physical, and somewhere along the way I stopped thinking “you two should not be doing this” and started desperately wanting them to figure out how they could actually be together.