This book felt like 2 stories smashed together. The first half is establishing repeatedly that he won't and she can't want him to court her; the second is solving the murder to make it okay that they had to get married. I get that they've known each other for years, but not for the past 3 years; I still would've liked to have seen a real and adult relationship develop instead of avoidance the entire book.
Sex: kisses
Language: 0 F words, 3 Lord's name in vain, 13 S words
Violence: fist fight, near natural gas poisoning, near anaphylaxis shock, gunshot, assault
HEA or Cliffhanger: HEA
Do I need to read books before this one: no
Would I read more of the series: yes; I've already read #2 and liked it
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Alexandra 14yo sketches Tristan 20yo. He's school mates with Griffin, her 2nd oldest brother. He's going to Jamaica to learn business for his uncle, who paid for his education. Griffin's going into the army. Tris says Have a happy life.
3yl. Her father died during her first Season, Mom and eldest brother following shortly thereafter. She missed this Season, too, mourning. Lord Shelton is coming for tea, hopefully to propose.
Tristan visits Griffin. Two years ago, he’d been unexpectedly called back from Jamaica to become the next Marquess of Hawkridge. Griffin is now Marquess of Cainewood. Tristan thinks Griffin wants him to marry a sister; Griffin wants his vineyard advice.
Alexandra goes to tea. Shelton doesn't compare favorably to Tristan. She no longer wants Shelton to propose. She plays ill. Later, she puts on the cameo Tristan sent her from Jamaica, tells her sisters he's hers.
Tristan's attracted to Alexandra, but Griffin had said Perish the thought about him being a suitor. Dinner, he's very aware of her, notices the cameo. But he can't lose his only friend, Griffin. Juliana suggests a walk outside to cool down. He agrees; she says Alexandra would be glad to accompany you. Tristan tells her he became heir because his uncle's wife and sons all died at sea. He'd always noticed her because she spoke of interesting things, deep things. He tries to let her down because of Griffin, she won't let even the Prince get in their way. She tucks away a lock of his hair. He kisses her, her 1st kiss. “I cannot marry you. There are circumstances…There’s no chance I will ever take you for my wife.”
Alexandra learns Tristan was accused of murdering his uncle, though no proof. Scandal so big he's not claimed political seat, abandoned friends to save them. She accepts she can't marry him, for her sisters's sakes. They'll host a ball in 6 weeks with 2:1 men:women. The girls have other ideas. Corinna has eidetic memory.
Griffin's vines need irrigation to get roots deep and established. It'll take a week for Tristan to build and install pump and pipes.
The girls connive to get Alexandra in the library with Tristan. He's polite. Griffin's upset they were together. 4dl, girls choose fabrics, Tristan's leaving because irrigation is set. The sisters coerce a picnic by the vineyard. Alexandra ignores him; he's determined to keep her friendship. He talks to her about it. She agrees. Do you think there's only 1 right person to marry? My father did, and Tristan tells how Mom and Susan left, then died, and Dad turned into drunk gambler. When he leaves, I wish you a happy life.
1ml, Juliana teaches the other 2 The Look. Tristan returns because Griffin has a water problem. The irrigation is flooding Rachael Chase's (distant cousin) crops. Griffin and Rachael deny attraction to each other. Rachael agrees Tristan's not for marrying. Rachael won't marry a cousin because her malformed cousin, Edmund, was the product of first cousins. They need to learn to waltz. Tristan teaches, holding Corinna. Alexander with the butler is jealous. When Alexandra and Tristan are paired, they dance after the others stop humming, upsetting Griffin.
The night before Tristan's to leave, she hears noise under her room. Thinking it's her sisters, she goes down to find Tristan stealing sweets. He kisses her passionately, she says We can't. He goes to his room without a backward glance.
At breakfast, she teases him. He doesn't remember, must be sleepwalking again. It's caused by emotional stress. He announces he won't be going home today because something or someone bent a shank on the pump.
The girls confess during final fittings to ruining the pump. Griffin doesn't like how revealing the dresses are. Tristan thinks they're all lovely, but Alexandra: "You’d be beautiful in a shapeless burlap bag. And you’ll be beautiful when you’re a hundred years old, because your beauty comes from inside." He apologizes for how he treated her (while dancing), she's confused thinking about last night. “What do you mean, what have I been talking about? The dance lesson, of course. I held you too close, and that precipitated our latest—” “What about last night?” “What about last night?” “We kissed again last night. Am I expected to forget about that, too? Or shall I assume kissing is part of your definition of friendship?” He visibly paled, his jaw going slack. “Are you sure?” “What do you mean, am I sure? How could I forget such a thing?” “I meant…I meant, are you sure you wish that to be part of the definition? Because frankly, I don’t think it should be. I don’t think I could handle that. I don’t think I could stop with kissing.”
The ball is a success. No wallflowers. None of the men captivate her mind. Rachael and her sisters arrive late. Rachael looks so lovely, Corinna asks to paint her. Tristan comes! But the guests are rude, so he leaves. Alexandra thinks she may have to settle for second best. After dinner, Juliana makes Rachael and Griffin dance. The girls take Alexandra up to where the band usually sits; Tristan is there. He came to show her marrying him would be bad. “What I saw wasn’t real life. I don’t need those people. I need you, Tris.” “You don’t.” “I do. But I cannot ruin my family’s good name.” While she understood that he didn’t want to be responsible for exposing his wife to society’s derision, she also knew he didn’t want to open himself up for more hurt. She proposes looking for the real killer. “The matter is closed. No one murdered my uncle. Forget it. Dance with me instead.” It's torture for them both. She takes off her and his gloves so she can touch him like she wanted to sketching him years ago. They accidentally knock a tray of food into the ballroom. She tells Tristan to run, she cleans it up, a snobbish mama goes to get her gloves for her. Both sets are gone. Up here with your lover? You're ruined. Luckily my son is willing… Griffin interrupts. She wasn't here with a man. “Let me put this another way, Lady St. Quentin. Should you spread the falsehood that my sister was seen with a man, neither you nor your son will ever receive another invitation to Cainewood…or anywhere else south of London. Do I make myself clear?” Marquess beats baronet, so she understands. Rachael and Alexandra agree Griffin was magnificent.
She dreams Tristan is kissing her. With tongue, lying on her. She pulls him closer. Realizes it's not a dream. He wakes up, too. We shall have to marry. ”I’d love nothing more. But we cannot. Nothing has changed. My sisters—” “Everything has changed. You could even now be carrying my child!” “Carrying your child? I might be a bit hazy on the details, but I’ve been given to understand it takes more than kissing to make a child.” “What? You mean to say we did naught but kiss?” He confesses sleepwalking. She's curious, thought it was only in books. She begs him to stay to tell her about it, promises she won't attack. He tells her. He never remembers. He wonders if he did poison his uncle. “You don’t really believe that.” His chest suddenly felt tight. Her unquestioning belief in him was…a gift. The most gorgeous surprise. A sort of acceptance he’d never experienced or expected. She falls asleep in his arms.
At breakfast, that mama says she saw Tristan leave his bedroom, go upstairs. Everyone, including guests, goes to her room. She's ruined. Griffin: You still sleepwalking? Yes, I'll leave. “You stayed the night, you’ll stay now. You’ll marry my sister. By special license. Tomorrow.” The mama says Alexandra can't marry a murderer, offers her son (for her dowry), Alexandra shakes her head. Shelton offers. No, and Tristan is not a murderer. Griffin doesn't know what to do. Rachael: “Will you allow that to influence your decision? That isn’t the Griffin I remember. The one I imagined riding into battle with his principles held before him like a shield.” Alexandra and Tristan will marry tomorrow. Alexandra's going to find the murderer.
Tristan got the license and stopped at Hawkridge to get the family heirloom ring. He goes to the pump, lets Griffin hit him 3x, then the fight starts. Griffin gets back at 2am, finds Alexandra baking because Chase women always bring sweets, and she's moving tomorrow. She asks for the sex talk because she isn't ruined.
The only witnesses at the wedding are Chase siblings and cousins. Driving to Hawkridge, she says I love you. He reassures her the staff will love her. “They won’t be able to help themselves.” The biscuits and her learning each name goes a long way. His valet is Jamaican. To the cook: “I hope you won’t mind me invading your kitchen now and again. I do adore making sweets.” Mrs. Pawley’s merry blue eyes looked surprised, but she quickly hid that with a smile. “I do adore eating sweets, my lady.” “Then we should get along famously.” Tristan shows her gas lighting he's installing in the house, and soon the entire village. Peggy, the housemaid who asked to be Alexandra's lady's maid, pushes back when Tristan said Alexandra will sleep in his quarters; she's been here since a child, so Tristan didn't put her out, though he doesn't like her. They're in his room kissing, Peggy knocks and walks. At dinner, he tells her he freed all the slaves: There are more important things than property values and income. He shows her more of the house, then they go to bed.
Breakfast, he's going on rounds, invites her. She thinks he'd rather not be hampered, so she'll stay to learn and investigate. Don't. There are others to think of. Maybe you should've accepted another marriage offer. He leaves with perfunctory kiss. So she bakes. Mrs Pawley gossips while helping her. Staff think uncle died of broken heart. She interviews all. Peggy points at Victor. Victor is extremely loyal to Tristan; too loyal?
Tristan gets home at 1am, reads mail. Victor tells him Alexandra interviewed everyone. He's angry, stomps to bed to fight with her. She's waiting for him. He starts the fight. Finishes it with making love.
He wakes in the study. He decides to let Alexandra sleep, but hours later checks on her. The gas lamp wasn't lit but was open. It has to be put out manually because of glass chimney. He wonders if he did it. Tristan goes to foundry, Alexandra preparing to visit village with cookies, feels defeated. Pawley remembers a maid who was here then, but left. Leticia, former fiancée of Tristan's, is rude, lets Peggy in with her "news" for Beth, shuts door on Alexandra. Beth doesn't know anything. Peggy volunteers to ask the staff about departed staff so Alexandra and Tristan don't fight. While she naps, Tristan finds out from Victor. She falls asleep during dinner because you much wine. At breakfast, he saves her from strawberry jam, thinks he switched at night. She questions all kitchen staff, no one did it. He believes she'll leave him when the darkness of his reputation and his attacks on her get to her. She has lunch in the garden. Mrs Oliver brings her letters from siblings and cousins; sisters got uninvited to a ball, so cousins sent regrets to host in solidarity. Peggy brings lunch and the list of former servants. Alexandra wants to see some today, riding faster than carriage. Peggy can't ride, is peeved she's not going.
Tristan comes home with a box. He finally lets her open it after dinner. He'd gone shopping. A sterling silver basket to carry her treats when she goes visiting, a leather bound book for her family recipes, alluring nightgowns. “Why…when you have so much to do, why would you spend your day doing this for me?” Because he’d do whatever he could to make her happy, but he couldn’t say the words she needed to hear. Because he’d do anything to make her stay, but his own deficiencies were the reason she should go. Because some foolish part of him was hoping against hope that a silly little trinket and one nice evening would be enough to make up for everything else.
After making love, he leaves to be locked into another bedroom. He’d convinced himself he was dangerous, and unless she proved otherwise, he would stay convinced. But he didn’t want her to prove otherwise.
The next day, a piano arrives for her. She tells Tristan thank you, he tells her he walked again last night. You couldn't have; it's a second storey room. Before she rides to question the last servant, the butler, Mrs Oliver, and Vincent tell her the culprit may be trying to kill her to keep her from finding out. She rides. This servant truly invested in helping, refers her to the uncle's nurse maid. She gallops to see Maude, the saddle breaks. Tristan begs her to stop investigating, she won't. She feels she "turned her fairytale romance into an ugly cycle of hurt, anger, and guilt. She’d managed to destroy her marriage inside of a week. It had to be some sort of record." When Tristan finally comes up, he goes to the other room, she says she won't do the last interview, he's still cold. So she bakes. With Vincent. And Pawley, 2 kitchen maids, 3 housemaids, and 2 footmen. They all have a blast.
She spends the next day in bed, hung over and sore from fall. At dinner, it's awkward until he says he'll take her to see Maude. No one knows she's going to Maude, so they say they're going on a honeymoon picnic. Except she tells Peggy as they're leaving, but covers by saying she's going tomorrow. Tristan's uneasy at Maude's. Maude: I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. It was a mistake, I swear it.” “Of course it was a mistake, but that doesn’t make me any less guilty. Whether intentional or not, I’m still responsible for his death.” No, Maude had overdosed him on laudanum. Tristan takes Alexandra home, then goes to get sheriff.
Alexandra naps, wakes to Peggy with a gun. Protecting her mom, Maude. Alexandra makes her shoot the ceiling, then Maude tries to hit her with gun. Everyone's trying to get in the locked door. Alexandra hits her with the silver basket, then unlocks the door before Peggy attacks her again. The mastiff comes in, knocks Peggy over, lies on her. Tristan and Maude arrive, Peggy confesses all the other accidents were to get Alexandra to go home. Tristan says I love you, leaves a fainted Maude on the bed, Peggy under Rex, takes Alexandra to the other bedroom for kissing and talking. ”I couldn’t admit [I love you] before. Not even to myself. I was too afraid of losing you. I thought I would lose you when you chose to leave, but instead I almost lost you when Peg—” More kissing, and probably more.
2wl, they picnic at Griffin's house again. Griffin's upset she didn't come home when all this was happening. Hawkridge is my home now. She takes him for a walk to the vineyard. Stop worrying your sisters are going to die. Griffin goes to Rachael, who's wandering the vineyard. I want to be left alone, then she sobs on him. She found a letter from her mom to her dad; she's not a Chase, Mom was a pregnant widow. She looks pretty, he feels panicked, more so than at any time he'd been in the battlefield. He has two more sisters to marry off, an estate that came with entirely too much responsibility, and now a cousin who wasn’t his cousin.