Oh boy. That was a messy marathon of repetitive writing and contradictions that I only rage finished because the angst in the beginning was so high I had to have some sort of closure.
First off the writing. Omg. It’s so repetitive. The writing is very repetitive. The author repeats phrases, ideas, thoughts, events. She’s repetitive in her writing. Get it? Annoying isn’t it? Yeah I thought so too.
This is such a slog to get through it’s borderline painful. This could have easily been half the length and been better for it. It’s. So. Damn. Repetitive. The inner monologues say the same thing over and over. The scenes repeat similar or exact phrasing. The emotional angst was repeated ad nauseam, Maxim and Aria fights cycling over and over and over. Omg. I skimmed so much of this story once I realized how she wrote. It still took too long.
There are so many plot holes/inconsistencies/contradictions. Maxim is so hot and cold. He hates Aria, he understands she did her best. He’s suspicious of Alexander himself, but when Aria raises suspicions he calls her paranoid and tells her to get over it. He admits to himself he’s still in love with her, but he treats her like dog shit for the first 60% +. I couldn’t with him. I felt bad for him at first, missing 7 years of his son’s life and no reason why. His anger made sense. His resentment. But then he not only berates Aria with cutting remarks in every conversation for running away, he also chips away at her parenting. He constantly tells her that her best wasn’t good enough. He takes credit for Daniel’s manners, for everything positive about Daniel, while basically saying Aria failed him constantly. It was heartbreaking for Aria and gave me a massive ick for Maxim.
Maybe because I’m a mom, and I know I would have done what Aria did and ran to protect my child, but I hated Maxim for a long while. He was cruel to her, mocking her efforts to keep Daniel safe, and snide and disgusted when she defended herself saying she gave him everything. Maxim equated money 🟰 good parenting, and completely negated Aria’s mothering, calling it a failure across the board because they suffered in poverty. Eww. And what’s worse, she believes him and feels immense guilt for Daniel’s life when she sees everything Maxim’s money can buy. Like because he can fish and ride a horse, Maxim is clearly the better parent. Forget Aria teaching him respect, compassion, kindness, hard work, love, empathy, you know all the things that matter? No because he couldn’t swim at 7 years old she’s a failure and Maxim NEVER let her forget it.
Their dynamic was incredibly toxic. They start fvcking around 25% but it’s fueled by hate and anger and I didn’t find it sexy. They’re still fighting constantly, Maxim degrading and belittling her, Aria stubbornly refusing to spill why she ran. I wouldn’t have slept with Maxim simply because he’s an ass 😒
I didn’t mind Aria, but more than really root for her I just felt terrible for her. Her fear was palpable and her situation sucked. I cried a few times in the first half when Maxim was just incredibly callous and cruel, and she felt essentially erased from her son’s life. Before she ever states it on page I kept thinking “man I’d feel totally insignificant now” and sure enough, 2 pages later she gives voice to those feelings. That’s where 1 of the stars comes from in my rating. There was some good meaty emotional stuff here. It was just buried in frustratingly repetitive exposition.
My other issue with these two? They never actually talk about anything. Maxim never apologizes for the way he treats Aria in the beginning. He realizes he was wrong and understands why she ran, and he does tell her she did the right thing and he got it, but he never pay for the shitty things he said. It bothered me. And Aria apologized profusely for making wrong assumptions and running. Ugh.
There were so many other contradictions. They hate fvck for a long time but then there’s a scene where it’s like the first time they’re kissing? That happened a lot honestly.
Everything was too drawn out. You could skim the first parts of every paragraph and still know exactly what happened. Again, cut half the book and it still works.
2 stars. 1 for the emotional heavy lifting that made me need closure. And 1 because the bones for a really compelling story were there. The execution was just so rough and drawn out. It was like running a marathon up hill. A slog. Torturous through parts. If the author had a good editing team to tell her when to cut parts etc, I think she’d have something pretty good. But I’m out on this series and likely anything else by her. 🥴