Wow! What a story! We are pulled into this book reading it immediately and frantically, glued to the pages from the start! We are really trying to figure out what is going on, what is happening, and we want to find out.
One day Estelle's baby, Mia, disappears. ALL of Mia's things disappear. EVERYTHING of Mia's disappears. Not one sock is left. Not one pacifier is left. Not one bottle of formula is left in the refrigerator. What's going on? Estelle's husband blames HER! What about HIM? This is a crazy case! The police are called in and Estelle is beside herself. We are frantically reading trying to find out what happened, but can't.
This book doesn't really slow down until about Chapter 11 when the story starts to go through things a little slower, when we can finally slow down and start to take in what really happened. Although, then again, we now have her husband, Jack, to deal with. He is a nasty one! Or at least in this part of the book he sure seems to be!
As we slow down reading, we find out the main character of this book, Estelle, was actually shot with a gun while she was driving, it hit her in the ear, knocking her unconscious causing her to end up driving down into a ravine alongside an exit ramp. The vehicle was in such a way that you could not see it. Everything that is wrong with Estelle is not ALL Post Partum Depression after all! Sure, she definitely has/had it, but there are other things at play here. Estelle DID HAVE A BABY! That is a proven FACT! Not everything that is wrong with Estelle is post partum depression.
We need to find out what is going on. but this book starts to become more about Estelle's psyche now, as we need to find out what she knows, too.
You cannot help but to feel so strongly for Estelle because her husband is so mean to her. HE wants answers, but she can't remember a THING! Her husband wants the answers now, what happened immediately, but give her a chance! She has just been pulled out of a ravine after being unconscious for two days, and her husband has nothing nice for her, not even a simple, "I love you.". He can't even ask her how she's feeling. Obviously she's not feeling well, but most husbands' would at least ask their wives how they were feeling instead of just accepting the obvious here! Come on!
Estelle had driven in to Dover, a town that is very far from their home, and she had no reason, nor answers as to why she did it.
You start to think her husband is behind this somehow, he HAS TO BE! How could he not be because of the way he was treating his own wife? Did he even FEEL for his own WIFE? I could not help but to remember a thought Jack had had about Estelle, his now wife, but then girlfriend, that back when they were dating. He thought to himself that he 'felt' she looked at the world in a very 'emotional way'. Heck, this woman could become his scapegoat one day if need be! He probably thought Estelle would be the perfect woman to pin a crime on because she reacts to things in emotional ways. This gives Jack a nice scapegoat to blame Estelle as a good person to peg a crime on. It wouldn't take much to blame Estelle of anything, or even convince her SHE did do something so severe that she would believe it! This is Estelle's husband's, Jack. NOT a nice guy, or at least this is how I feel from the beginning! Jack, doesn't help Estelle with her memory, either. He continually puts her down and making her feel guilty, that she DID do something to the baby. She believes Jack so much that she start to dream of blood (from the car accident? She doesn't know?) and of other strange things because he makes her feel as if it IS HER FAULT! He asks her HOW can she LOSE a child? He continually acts like this, and frankly, I hated him! There was not one thing I liked about this man, and I felt he was behind this entire disappearance. Now we have psychologically abused Estelle left, feeling as if she DID do something to make their baby who had severe colic, keeping both her and her husband up all nights every night, and even (conveniently?) her husband gets a job in Chicago temporarily, and Estelle and the baby are to stay living in Brooklyn during this time! (Wow! Did Jack set up the deal of a lifetime or what? Jerk!) Estelle IS going crazy, but so would you without one friend being 'allowed' into your home, (yes, this is at her husband's request!) Estelle has no family to help her, either, and prior to this accident, she is with this baby 24/7 with the ONLY help was Mia's naps and sleeping at night, of which she was not good at. The baby never slept. She DOES START BELIEVING SHE IS CRAZY AND DID LOSE THE BABY! I don't know about you, but I sure would start to feel like I was at fault in Estelle's situation, too!
Now Jack convinces Estelle to sign papers. Papers that will institutionalize her so she can get her memory back about baby Mia.
The media gets wind of this story and call Estelle, 'MediaMom'.
There is so much more to this story, it's amazing that this is a debut author who wrote this! You're going to LOVE this if you like Thrillers!
Congratulations to this author, Alexandra Burt!
This book was provided to me by Penguin/Random House/Berkley for review purposes only, either positive or negative. Thank you Publishers! I truly enjoyed this book!