4.5 Stars
Review by Jen Hagen
I have read every one of Ms. Baxtor’s books, starting with The Lights of Peril MC books and ending with this final book in the Devil’s Despair spin-off series. I have loved every book. Most of them make my shirt sleeves wet from wiping away tears, but this time around I only had a choking feeling with the inability to swallow because of the frog in my throat. I knew from the minute that Travis was introduced to us in “Ace’s Redemption” that he would be the most intriguing and probably end up being my favorite character. I wasn’t wrong. I went back to the first introduction and he was described as,
“His soul is damaged, but his heart has remained kind. He’s extremely quiet and reserved—he rarely laughs.”
Ms. Bextor has stayed true to her characters from the moment she put them on paper. Travis has remained an enigma and waiting for his story to be told was like waiting for a pot of water to boil.
When Travis was first introduced he was 23 years old, he is now 27 years old and still keeps a large distance between him and others. In fact, that’s the only way he knows to live and that’s the way he likes it. When he was 3 years old his father asked his mother to leave because she was addicted to drugs/alcohol and was becoming an unfit mother. His father never sought another female companion and became a hermit, happily living with only having Travis in his life. Travis loved and respected his father and they were ying and yang to each other. Sadly that came to an end 5 years ago when his father was tragically killed. Travis has nightmares that haunt him and will not speak about them.
Sarah is 19 years old and has been the little sister to their group. Sarah has grown up a lot since we first met her, although she is still sassy and argumentative. You just have to accept this is Sarah and there is no changing her. Sarah and Travis have had a love-hate relationship…she loves to get under his skin at the same time acting like she hates him. Travis is so docile he doesn’t care...he actually enjoys the companionship. He understands Sarah better than her own brother, Ace. Two years ago Sarah and Travis shared a kiss and the ever-patient Travis has been waiting for Sarah to realize that she loves him as much as he loves her. When Sarah needs comfort, it is Travis she turns to for a night of passion to help her forget her pain. Travis sees this as an opening to them beginning a relationship. Sarah loves Travis, but is scared by the fact if they weren’t to work out she would lose her best friend. She is pushing him away, and pushing hard – so hard that she calls their time together a mistake. This knocks Travis to the core.
“You broke my heart, Sarah,” he says on a breath after I pull away. “You’re breaking my heart,” he says with the next. “I hate that I’m invisible to you. I don’t know what else to say or do to make us right. I won’t hurt you.”
Even if they were to give in to their desires, they have a HUGE obstacle standing in their way, and his name is Ace – Sarah’s brother and Travis’s good friend. If you remember, Ace is very, very controlling. There is no way he is going to let this turn into a romance.
“Whatever the f*ck this is, it’s f*cking over. Today. You’re done. Both of you,” he says absolutely.
If Ace hadn’t been part of a motorcycle club I would go kick his a%%, but unfortunately he is a scary dude and knows how to hurt people. Everybody seems to be scared of Ace and his temper. Nobody can get it through to him that Travis and Sarah would be a good thing. If Travis doesn’t back down from Sarah he will lose everybody that he has in his life. He has no family left, only his friends. This is where my heart really started to hurt.
I’d have to let Sarah go and I’d have to do it in such a way she’ll have no choice but to accept it. And she’ll hate me for the rest of her life after hurting her the way I know I will.
There may be years of age difference between Sarah and Travis, but they have been destined to be together since she was 12. Travis could have had his choice of women, but he never chose that path. Travis would rather be alone than be with somebody he doesn’t love. So why doesn’t he fight harder for her? Here’s where the story we’ve been waiting for lays. Are Travis’s nightmares really part of the past that he is reliving? He needs to know what is real and what isn’t. Is it better to leave the truth in the past or risk knowing what he fears?
“The truth is ugly.”
Since this is the final book in the Devil’s Despair series, Ms. Bextor has given us a fantastic epilogue! A great conclusion to the boys that I have loved from the minute I knew them.
Happiness may be falling in love with your best friend, but it takes a willing surrender to forfeit the rights to your own heart and trust someone else to take care of it when you’re not strong enough or willing to do it yourself.