“Every woman she knows has a secret list of faults she keeps in her heart, unnecessary and malign. How did it get there?”
“They are at a hinge moment: between youth and age, between the life you thought you wanted and the one you feel might, now suit you better. They are like hermit crabs who outgrow one shell and need to leave it before they are trapped inside, emerging for a moment, shell-less and pink, vulnerable to predators of every stripe.”
“To live with someone for a long time requires an element of fiction— the selective use of facts to craft an ongoing story.”
“A point comes when the cost of retreat seems greater than the dread of annihilation to come. And then a strange, fatalistic quiet kicks in and slows your pulse, giving you strength for the last, calamitous push.”
This novella offers readers an intimate glimpse into the life of Tess, a middle-aged woman juggling the demands of motherhood, the process of selling her childhood home and her prosaic 17-year marriage. As she witnesses the struggles of her friends going through divorces and breakups, Tess finds herself yearning for the passion of her youth and the life she could have had.
I stumbled upon this novella in the library, seeking a single-sitting read, and was intrigued by the blurb and Tess's journey. While reading, I didn't realise it was written by an Australian author until I came across "NSW”, a state in Australia. Funder's writing style exudes a European vibe, likely influenced by her background as an international lawyer with extensive experience living and studying abroad.
The core message of the story emphasises the importance of gratitude for what we already have, despite our innate desire to always seek something better. Tess's desires and actions showcase the complexities of human nature, oscillating between gratitude and a yearning for more. However, I couldn't help but feel disconnected from the story due to its focus on the midlife concerns of a privileged white woman. The novella embodies what may be perceived as clichéd "white people problems" in an Australian context and the entitlements of the upper middle class.
While I appreciate the book's intention to explore the theme of appreciating one's life, I found it challenging to fully connect with the protagonist and the concerns portrayed in the story.