Jacklin lives in a very small town, overshadowed by mountains & a forest where people come to end their lives.
Meanwhile, Jack is trying to kickstart her own life - leaving school to work a part-time job, moving in with her newly-returned older sister, & having a fling with an older boy from the next town.
It's that time between leaving school & starting the rest of your life. Jack thinks she’s living but she’s in limbo, waiting for Luke to love her.
Jack is quite independent and fierce. In that way she was like Mim in ‘All I Ever Wanted’, except Mim was tougher yet ‘behaved’ better, trying to stick by her rules. Jack is behaving badly by leaving school, living with her sister, not seeing her parents, and having sex, yet she is a good caring person in many ways, who notices a lot of details about other people. She's just confused and making mistakes a lot - a very teenage thing to do. A great character!
When Luke doesn't come to meet her at 'their spot' one day, Jack goes off on a trail of rebellion and mistakes. But I love that she does this while still caring for people - Mr Broadbent with his dementia, and Pope, the guy camping in the woods, whom Jack is convinced has come to kill himself. And she tries her best to care for her old dog Gypsy, and the stray cat who won't let anybody near him.
The narrative is interesting in that the reader gets things revealed to us slowly by Jack, such as the truth about her Ma & Dad, and the complex relatonship between Jack, older sister Trudy and their mother. At first you think you know why the girls left home, but there's more to it.
Gosh, so many amazing characters - like many small towns, everyone knows each other and everyone's a little mad. I can't not mention the wonderful Jeremiah, returned to look after his mother while she recovers from her stay in a psych ward. In some ways big, solid, dependable and strong, yet in others vulnerable, frustrating in his almost-autistic way of seeing things. Jack has to be careful how she speaks to him and treats him, and I was on tenterhooks hoping she wouldn't hurt him.
So many truths were revealed along the way, even the realisation that the townsfolk were on the whole more caring than they first appear. Even Jake is not an awful guy - he was actually more honest with Jack in what he wanted from their 'relationship', than she was with him.
This is a gritty yet tender and novel (I'm beginning to think that's Wakefield's specialty!) that captures beautifully much of the confusion and murkiness of a teenager doing her best, stuffing things up, and learning as she goes.
I do love Wakefield's style, with her unique turn of phrase, and people who swear and hurt each other and do the wrong thing, but also show unexpected kindessnesses. She is never boring, even when the characters are seemingly going nowhere!
I particularly loved the last line, ‘I started from there.’