I loved the premise of this story. For me, having the male MC as a writer was the perfect backdrop for any story. Since reading is one of my favorite pastimes, I loved the “behind the scenes” feel of seeing Ryker work on his book. Seeing him get into the zone and overcome his writers block was one of the things I quite enjoyed.
INITIAL THOUGHTS:
Ryker’s personality was a lot to unpack. Some might call his actions toward Grace protective, others possessive but to me he was obsessive, controlling and manipulative. They weren’t even dating and he was telling her who she can and can’t go out with. He was literally in a “physical” relationship with his girlfriend and calling the shots for Grace. I get that some women may find this sort of behavior attractive or masculine but I beg to differ. IMO that is some psycho behavior and it’s more than a little scary.
When certain main plots were revealed, however, I did have a lot more sympathy toward him. I understood why he became the man he was and why he treated others the way he did. That being said, i don’t feel his past justified some of the things he did and said because even when things were “good” with him and Grace he was still pretty mean. He was just damaged.
Don’t even get me started on Grace. As much as she tried to be her own woman, she was so dependent on Ryker’s approval that she just gave him all this power over her, which he eats up like the narcissist he is. Also, the fact that she felt that she had to “fix” Ryker and change him, seemed like temporary fixes to me because they never really addressed the root of his problems.
I hated it most when she pressed him for info he was not ready to reveal or go behind his back and find out things he didn’t want her to know about, it just rubbed me the wrong way.
Another thing that was weird was the relationship between Alma (Ryker’s sister) and Grace. I liked that they were fast friends and just clicked but Alma having conversations with Grace about having sex with her brother was just cringy and super weird. NO SISTER wants that kind of imagery.
FINAL THOUGHTS:
Ryker and Grace were both extremely toxic. The back and forth was at times funny and cute but mostly hot and cold on both their ends. Both of them making assumptions, jumping to conclusions, apologizing, saying hurtful things then making up, getting hurt, hurting each other then making peace. The constant roller coaster of emotions was just too much. Their entire romance/relationship was centered purely on a physical level, which is tenuous at best. In short, Ryker was confused, Grace was pining. To quote Cher from Clueless, “I don’t think (they) meshed well together.”
IRRITATING THINGS THAT WERE MENTIONED;
“His eyes were a stormy blue”
“His azure blue eyes”
Ryker calling Grace “little mouse”
Grace thinking, “his voice was as smooth as whiskey
I’m not gonna lie but these phrases were written on Every Other Page!! If I never see these phrases again, it would be too soon.
CONTENT
Romance: PG-14, Innuendo, Fade to black
Language: Crude speech, Mild cursing (S**t)
Violence: Moderate (Not detailed), **Trigger Warning** (Mention of abuse, not detailed)