I might have found a new favorite author here, because this was just incredible. I have been wanting to get into this author’s books for a very long time now and I think I started this off with the darkest one. Or at least that seems to be the general consensus. I can’t believe I got to read this book early, I feel incredibly lucky because of just how much I enjoyed it (for lack of a better word), as I know I would. I love it when I’m right about these things.
One thing I’ve gathered is that when authors know what they’re talking about, when they have lived experiences similar to those of their characters, it shows. I could immediately tell he was, like Morgan, autistic. And trans. Not because there’s a giveaway to it, but because some things just don’t translate the same when you don’t have first hand experience. And while he and Morgan are very different people, like he said in the acknowledgments, he’s a pro at writing things like that so realistically. Now, onto the actual story.
Morgan’s the son (or, daughter, to most people, as he isn’t publicly out yet) of a very notorious serial killer who’s murdered countless women in the span of many years. Morgan’s the reason he got caught. He’s got a complicated relationship with his father (now way, really?) and his mother both. She’s the classic “hashtag-autism-mom” and incredibly transphobic on top of that. His life is hard. They’re making a documentary about the murders now, it’s been years but people are still very interested, also because out of the 51 (yes, 51) women Graham Nathaniel Slaughter (very conveniently named) has murdered, one remains just Jane Doe. Nobody knows who she was. Morgan ends up pairing up with this one Felicity, it’s a whole thing.
As I said, it’s dark. There’s mentions of all kinds of gore, assault, mutilation, what have you. There’s even a present-day SA scene, and I would generally just look up trigger warnings before getting into it. Because you’re going to need a strong stomach (but most of all, mind) to read this book.
I appreciated all the countless kinds of rep that are in this book. Neurodivergent representation, queer and trans rep, you name it, it’s in here. From the trans autistic male lead, to the bi demigirl, to the trans lesbian side character. I believe it’s a common theme in his books, which only makes me more interested in reading them.
I did guess the little twist there towards the end but that didn’t bother me at all, I wasn’t reading the book because of that, I was simply entranced. This is was really all I could’ve hoped and more. It’s not for the faint of heart, I’ll tell you that much, but it was for me.
It’s like this very realistic kind of horror, as realistic as it can be to the average person. All the struggles Morgan faces, with his parents, his disability, his mental health. His inability to even admit he might be scared. That he was that the whole time, scared. Scared when he was eight, ten, seventeen.
This was really such a brilliant book. I can’t wait to read more of his work. Would definitely recommend. Five stars.
Thank you to NetGalley for providing an ARC in exchange for an honest review.