I had so many mixed feelings about the book throughout the first half of it. It's hard to even describe how I felt. First off, this is the first book of the series I have read so that likely leads to the confusion I had at first. There wasn't much of a 'reminder' of what happened in the prior stories until after some of the instances had been mentioned a few times.
One instance is Jonny had wronged Phoenix. That I learned. But how? What exactly did he do? It was mentioned as if the reader should already know. So those who have read the previous books, they of course will know, and it will not be of a big deal to them. To the reader starting in the middle of the series, please stop, go back and start from the very first book. You will be grateful you did.
The story was also slow in the beginning, mind you it was do to my negligence of not reading the first three books. But about half way through the book, I couldn't put it down. I was reading at work, while helping kids with homework, and even an hour past my own bedtime last night.
Once I got past the names (Jonny a.k.a. Jonathon has a brother named John. That was the oddest thing I had ever heard of in one family.) and got past the many different women and wrong doings in Jonny's 'past' life, I was able to enjoy the story much more. There were so many questions I had, but they were answered before the book finished. Again, I wished I had taken the time to go back and read the prior books.
I loved how the characters evolved. All with their own backgrounds and stories, they were definitely not flat voices. They all had lives and reasons and theories, and in time, they all came to find what they were looking for, no matter how rough the road was to get there.
Jonny, on the other hand, he had a lot of wrongs to be forgiven, at least he hoped he would be forgiven. He had hurt his brothers, stolen from them, ripped apart marriages and courtships, and within the midst of it all, he had his own heartbroken by unimaginable ways. Would he be able to overcome it all? Would he cause more issues by butting into an engaged couple's life?
When push came to shove, Jonny knew what he wanted, he only had no clue how to get there. When he finally allowed himself to break and open his heart and mind to the Lord, it was then that he was able to find the answers he had been searching for his entire life, and one of those answers was Evelyn. But would Evelyn be able to look past his wrong doings? Would she be able to accept that he was who he said he was? Or would he have to find a way to prove it to her? And if so, how would he do it?
I enjoyed the Christian dynamic of the story, even though some of the 'appearances' seemed odd. This is only due to me trying to personalize it within my own heart and trying to picture my talks with the Lord in the same way. Everyone of faith has a different perception of how spiritual talks and prayers are. Just because Cathy Jackson's perception and vision is different than mine does not mean she is wrong. That is the beauty of faith. We all see it differently through our own eyes and beliefs. When I stopped trying to personalize it to my own life, I was able to enjoy the author's vision even more.
I now need to go back and read the first three books and then await the next one. While I now know the story of the previous books, I still want to experience it through the eyes of the characters at the moment it was all happening.