I do find it sad this'll be my last non-work book for a while but there's always next time to read the other stuff on my list.
Anyway... instead of a thoughtful, organised analysis you're hereby treated to more inglorious rambling from a literarily uninitiated mind
Overall
- Exploring Singaporeans but on holiday instead of on the island // through the other instead of themselves
- Very interesting and relatable stories tbh + the characters are all quite plausible
- The German references were a plus
- I did find the way loose ends were tied at the end somewhat wholesome, maybe for all the criticisms about things here there’s a certain niceness and charm after all. If you accept a more twisted way of looking at things, even the endings of questionable optimism can be granted some generosity of interpretation and taken to be warm in a certain way
Sophia’s Honeymoon
- Their r/s dynamic seems a bit off is Sophia supposed to be Nicholas’ trophy wife or something
- Nicholas reminds me of the old kind of finbro before the epicentre of global financial misconduct shifted to NY
- Ich mag auf Hochdeutsch spreche auch. Ich denke aber Schweizerdeutsch > Hochdeutsch
- I suspect the author took German 3rd lang
- Too early to actually comment on the story I feel since Sophia and <> appears multiple times more on the ToC
Trondheim
- Narrator sounds like a self-righteous RI 90RP PCME kid from a UG who went OCS during NS or smth
- Tbf ICL is a pretty good first guess for PSC Eng
- “She looked at me like I was stupid, the same look the girls in JC used to give me when I hadn’t heard of the latest boy band, or turned up at Zouk wearing unfashionable clothes.” 💀
- “That’s why I seldom go to the theatre. So depressing. Why not cheer up a bit? I prefer comedies. // Again, she looked at me like I was an idiot, as if she was tired of explaining things to me. I suddenly felt very angry. Of course she knew more about plays than I did; she was a girl, and a literature teacher. If we were talking about torques and pressure gradients then she would be the one to look stupid.” 💀
- “I nodded, and didn’t bother to reply. I had met a lot of girls like her. The pretty ones in the arts stream who giggled and whispered to each other during their Maths lectures, if they went to Maths lectures. In their spare time, they read a lot of Sylvia Plath and wrote indifferent poetry for the school magazine. Knowing where to pigeonhole her comforted but also puzzled me” 💀
- “I felt like I must be gaining status in her eyes; she sounded like she was really interested in me.” 💀
- “I could tell that she was being controversial, but I’ve met a lot of people like her, especially amongst overseas scholars. Some people spend a few years living outside Singapore and then think that gives them the right to criticise everything. I’ve seen them talking and laughing during the national anthem, making fun of the National Day Parade. Normally I try to avoid these people, but something made me snap at her, more fiercely than I had intended, ‘Why do you bother living there if it’s not your home?’” 💀
- Ok yea I am fairly sure the author took Deutschunterricht
- “She laughed her crazy laugh again, and I wondered if she had actual mental problems.” 💀
- “‘I’m sure it’s not that bad. Maybe you just need to change your thinking?’ // She turned away from me a little. ‘Why ‘do men always think they need to have an answer? It’s okay. I don’t expect you to solve my problems for me” 💀
- “I had never met a girl like this before; she seemed contained in herself, but behind the stillness she was an open wound. I didn’t know what to say to her. Normally when I go out with girls, we talk about movies or food, but I didn’t think she would be interested in these things.” 💀
- PSC scholar having mid career crisis. Also idt PSC Eng existed when the book came out the MC seems to be PSC general then studied EE vs PSC Eng
- Gahmen scholar having mid career crisis and another one who’s just given up on life
- “‘You’re just being spoilt. No one likes their job; why do you have to be so special? You think anyone really enjoys what they do all day? Just try to do your best; if you don’t think about it, then time will pass very quickly’ // ‘I don’t need you to be angry with me’ // ‘I’m not angry. I’m just trying to help you. You say you feel trapped, but where do you want to be? Life isn’t so bad, after all you have a good salary and Singapore is so easy to live in, low taxes and low crime and nice food. Isn’t that enough? Where else do you want to be?’ // ‘Anywhere. Anywhere except where I am’” no skull emoji this time
- The M_E scholar genuinely seems to be in crisis
- I intuit the irl pied piper is supposed to be a metaphor but for what? PSC? Sg career? Still can’t quite put a finger on it
- Self-destructive behaviour is generally not a good sign. Manic episode (unlikely) or just escapism borne out of crisis and despair
- “Once I don’t know why, I hacked into the MOE server to see if I could locate her, but this proved impossible because I had forgotten to ask for her name.” I don’t really buy the ending. MC had enough details (rough age, course of study) to cross-check publicly available scholar info (published in magazines/gazettes etc.) to get the other person’s name
Tick
- Mocking the sigma grandest
- The Suffering Artist
- Yes, that is how natural selection works. It’s why you have insecticide and antibiotic resistance
- No, the infamous “bubble” is for immunocompromised patients not hypersensitivity ones afaik. In one there is no immune system. In the other there is an immune system but it is overactive/wrongly-activated
- “Also ticks are arachnids not bugs”. spot on. They are both arthropoda but one is Insecta the other is Arachnida or chelicerata depending on laypersons’ classification some “bugs”
- You can in fact be allergic to air or water
- If MC wanted to concentrate there is a drug for that? Idk why the wife says there isn’t. They could technically consider Adderall
- Insect/Parasite infestations are a common hallucination in psychosis
- How will scratching chickenpox turn it to shingles. Shingles is when varicella zoster reactivates after a quiescent period
- “Then he hears his wife say, with more tenderness than he has heard from her in a decade, ‘You’re not doing great, are you? Poor baby, it hasn’t been easy for you’. Such caresses in her voice. Despite himself, a flicker of hope rises in his chest, a needle-thin crack of light. He looks up, ready to say something, then realises she was speaking to the dog.” 💀
Schwellenangst
- I am convinced Jeremy Tiang most definitely took German
- M_ELC trip hehehehaw
- “‘Entschuldigung, ist hier einen Rave?’ Hoping the German word is the same as in English. They so often are.” 💀 Ok tbf entschuldigung feels a bit too formal here maybe tut mir leid fits better
- “While stepping over the window sill, she’d made a mental note to refuse any drugs she was offered, but this now seems an unlikely contingency.”
- “Singaporeans are famous for being well-behaved.”
- “’No,’ says Sigrid, deadpan. ‘Everyone looks the same in Sweden. We can only tell each other apart by hair colour.’”
- “She gargles her r’s a little, which she has learnt makes her sound like a more proficient speaker.” 💀
- Ah yes, Kraft Durch Freude which reminds me the quizzical ?? I got when writing the German or Russian forms out during y4 history essays. Fun times
- Joke about incest
- Joke about returning with the same number of students. “Not any fewer, and certainly not any more” is a particularly memorable quote I once heard on the subject
- Sigrid smacks Peter count: 2
- Reminds me of how there’s a piece of the Berlinermauer in Bedok Reservoir Park. I remember cycling to go see it once and feeling quite underwhelmed when I saw it
- The sky does in fact seem bluer off the island. Scientifically, I think it’s because of an absence of high-altitude clouds and low-altitude cloud cover
- Nice ending
Sophia’s Aunt
- HTN T2DM and MI the triple trifecta
- The fluid intake restriction is a small but thoughtful detail. Furosemide dose arguments are greatly memed
- The melamine scandal _was_ quite big back then so fair enough. I’ve always thought whoever decided to add the melamine was trying to be Saul goodman but doing it quite badly. There are nontoxic alternatives to fake the assays they use for protein content since idt they run every sample through the gold-standard AP-MS
- China and India had pretty big organ trafficking rings for a while. Apart from the Caribbean, many western medical tourists would go there to have their transplant. I wonder if that’s what they’re going for in lieu of an LVAD
- “Camp-mates during re-education? Something like that.”
- The mention of the statue reminds me of a classmate I had who would sing the PRC anthem every day during break. He also had a rotating cast of Mao posters as his lock screen on his phone. Hearing him song taught me more Chinese words, albeit pronunciation botched by me, than I could have imagined
- NPO precautions before GA is due to the risk of aspiration from solid food but it is different from Nicholas needing to keep fluid intake down due to CHF. Considering the earlier moments of biological accuracy regarding the ticks and insects, a bit disappointing
- Bruh the guy is a finbro. I find it implausible he wouldn’t have insurance especially since he works at a bulge bracket firm presumably
- No. I cannot allow this story the generosity of so much creative license. You don’t incinerate it you autoclave it which is a bit like pressure cooking it vs just chucking it in a fire
- I quite like the authenticity of the build-up to this point + the portrayal of the experience of sickness
- Ah yes, the death row organ harvesting
- “She has not experienced this since school: an event so ominous it becomes impossible to see beyond, the emptiness of afterwards, the quiet desolation of the day after your last exam. Relief, of course, but also a dull ache, an absence like a missing tooth.”
- The mention of organ advertisements reminds me of how Iran actually runs a legal organ market (state-controlled) and many people will hawk their organs
- Steroid-induced mania and psychosis are indeed little-known but real complications from immunosuppressants
- Yuck. The dude is literally fresh out of CVICU on heavy immunosuppression. That is an easy way to introduce infection
- Very nicely tied in at the end. I actually quite like this story, as much as my rants on its inaccuracy may seem to suggest otherwise. Second only to Trondheim so far
Toronto
- I think this is the Trondheim teacher again. She must really hate going back
- Can’t tell if the subtle slip to singlish is deliberate but I like it
- “Then you’re an adult with no obligations and you’re free to do what you like. She tries to explain that it doesn’t work like that, at least where she comes from”
- “She has never protested anything before.”
- Idk it’s like the next beat of Trondheim since she’s further away from home now but still afflicted by the same problems
Harmonious
- Since the previous one was the M_E scholar from Trondheim this is probably the 90RP PCME NPC
- “The H_B had sent her to Oxford to read Geography, and now she was on a fast-track to the top. She would clearly not be spending much longer hanging around construction sites, but the Party always makes you spend a bit of time getting to know people o the ground before you leave them behind, so if you do well enough to stand for election you can claim to have grassroots support.”
- “Before I could say yes or no, he had hung up, my assent assumed.”
- This is like B99 but a sg civil service procedural show instead
- “Once the conversation moved onto ascribing blame, it was relatively simple for me to deflect it in other directions. The lift manufacturers, the various Ministries with a hand in this — though I stopped short of pointing the finger at Chen himself, even though to my mind he was every bit the author of his own misfortune.” 💀
- “‘I’m sure it’s all right. We just needed to meet her, to show we care.’ // ‘I guess I’m not used to dealing with members of the public.’ // ‘Public?’ She smiled. ‘Wait till you’re really dealing with the public, then you’ll know the meaning of the word difficult. Foreign workers don’t count. Who are they going to complain to?’” 💀
- “‘That’s very sad, but we can’t stop everything because of one man.’ // ‘Do you want to have lunch with me?’ // A defensive colour entered her eyes, and I knew I had mistimed this somehow.” 💀
- “‘I can’t sing,’ I responded. She seemed to accept this, and I knew for sure she was different from the other girls, the ones who would have urged me to try, be a sport, have a go — Li Hsia left me to myself, and sipped at the dregs of her orange juice. // ‘What made you choose Geography? To study I mean,’ I said, after the silence had grown dense. I was on my third bottle of beer and fuzzy around the edges.” 💀
- The guy’s getting friendzoned and doesn’t realise it? oof
- Impermanence of damage metaphor repeated again through the broken glass
- The dialogue throughout the stories is so authentically written
- “‘I don’t understand people like this. Why would she do such a thing? How will she remember him now?’ … ‘She must be crazy’, the policewoman was saying. ‘Why do these people behave like this? When my father died I was sad, but I didn’t behave like this. These people don’t understand.’”
- Transience / Impermanence x3 very nicely written into the plot
- “She looked straight at me with the wild stare of a cornered animal, trapped and furious, bright with helpless energy. Her eyes were no longer human. I backed slowly into the lift, but could not break her gaze until the doors slid shut between us.”
- My top stories are now Trondheim>Harmonious>Sophia’s Aunt
Stray
- Wait so the stories are actually connected. Nice
- Feelsbadman
- Workaholic…
- The part about being an anonymous corpse seems to link back to the Harmonious story
- “When she turned out the light, the darkness was total”
Meatpacking
- Is this the Trondheim/Toronto teacher again
- “She stares at them, wondering if this is a performance for her benefit, if they have coarsened their grammar and dialled up the Singlish as — what? A claim of authenticity? A provocation? I’m not— she begins, I’m from— But that is enough for her accent to expose her, for them to exchange knowing looks. Confirmation.”
- Yeah it’s the Trondheim/Toronto teacher
- “She says, Happy birthday, Singapore, and puts the receiver down”
- Is this the Shih-tzu author dude from earlier?
- Hmm maybe sussing out if people are the ones you’ve seen before is supposed to be part of the message. Since it’s about examining SG in light of travel anyway. So the readers are also experiencing that feeling of like hm have I seen this person before
- Ok yea it’s that dude
- Exploring homesickness and attachment? The teacher feels like she’s done with SG but also feeling kind of done with constantly running away from it all
- #Adulting
National Day
- St Johns is actually quite nice you can see the SJINML there
- Reference to No U-Turn Syndrome
- It Never Rains on National Day
- Cloud seeding reminds me of the Thai monarchy
- “Something something island sunshine home, syrupy and bland even in these choppy bursts. ‘Did you know the whole thing costs them seventeen million dollars every year?’ says Neelish, who spends his money at Internet cafes looking up facts like these. ‘Imagine it, so much money for such bad music.’”
- After examining SG in other countries this is like the reciprocal / contrapositive by examining SG through the lens of the Other here
- Happy Birthday Singapore feels like a reference to the Trondheim/Toronto/Meatpacking AWOL teacher. Maybe it’s supposed to show the inter-relations of the stories —> draw a parallel btwn her and this story’s MCs
Sophia’s Party
- So all 3 story arcs seem to converge on national day
- “‘You said you didn’t care about all this,’ protested Nicholas as she roamed the flat with her staple gun. She claimed it was all ironic, but he found himself wondering whether Singapore’s famously monolithic education system hadn’t left its mark on her after all.”
- Factual inaccuracy repeated twice. They either use helis or C130s for airdrops. R_AF doesn’t have jet transports or technically we do but it’s for refuelling or cargo rather than MFF/HALO
- Nothing Ever Goes Wrong on National Day
- Ah, the Joy from the M_ELC German trip. See my above thought on the interconnection of the stories
- “Watching from her perch, Diana says how proud she is of these brave men, defending the nation. ‘The propaganda parade,’ Nicholas snorts, then wonders if he has made a faux pas from the unyielding faces of the other two. Later Sophia will inform him Brian is fiercely loyal to his unit from National Service, and is perennially disappointed not to be chosen for the parade as part of his reservist duties.”
- “Nicholas winces at the bad grammar, before reminding himself not to be such a neo-colonialist.” Reminds me of “On your feetS up” tbh
- Calvin the PCME man. Lol is this a convergence of all the characters or something
- “She will reply that she felt sorry for [Calvin]; he doesn’t get on with his family and for some reason he’s been single forever.” 💀
- “If you don’t like it, feel free to leave, says Calvin sourly” 💀 Why are all the PCME man’s sentences so skull emoji-able
- The part about S_F planning the entire parade isn’t quite wrong afaik they do the heavy lifting
- “And all across the island, in tiny flats like this, people are sprawled before their TV sets, absorbing the entertainment provided for them, imbibing the messages, overt or not — though none particularly subtle — and feeling stirrings of patriotism and belonging. ‘Can it be that simple?’ wonders Nicholas. But it must work at some level. All the Singaporeans in this room have spent a few years abroad, and all have returned, the idea of greener pastures seeming not to occur to them at all.”
- “‘I thought maybe we could go for a drink, I mean, not all of us, just the two—’”💀 bruh this is the exact same thing he said before
- “‘This always happens, says Calvin, shaking his head. I’m a nice guy, I asked nicely, but they’re never interested in nice guys.’” 💀
- The dessert reminds me of the awkwardly delivered dialog in the Ferrero Rocher CNY YT ad running this year
- Lol Nicholas’ every criticism of NDP/SG was basically foiled by his acceptance of Sophia’s misleading version of events + his own thoughts as she delivered the recount
- The ending is surprisingly wholesome actually