A reflection paper I wrote for PDR (Patient Doctor Relationship) during my first year in med school:
Jesus MD is a book written by Dr. Stevens, who shared his experiences as a missionary doctor in Africa and the stories of Jesus as the Great Physician. I grew up in a very loving and supportive Christian family, my grandparents were missionaries, and they are very active in the ministry. I knew that I wanted to become a doctor since I was in kindergarten, but there were no doctors in our family, so I didn’t really get to correlate Jesus as a doctor, but I knew that I wanted to be able to heal and help people like He did. The book is definitely an eye opener, not just how Dr. Steven related the work, healing and miracles of Dr. Jesus in how we should practice medicine, but also his life experiences as a missionary doctor in Africa. As I finish the book, there are three things kept in my mind and heart: the experience, the compassion, and the impossible.
The experience. Dr. Stevens always reiterated that teachable moments do not usually happen in the classroom but in the bedside where medical problems are experienced face to face. See one, do one, teach one. I realized that becoming a doctor is not just about memorizing and understanding the human body but being able to practice it excellently. After realizing this, I make sure that every concept I read in the major subjects can be clinically correlated, so that it will be helpful in my clerkship and practice in the near future.
The compassion. Curing comes after caring, that’s what Dr. Jesus always showed in the Bible whenever he healed a person or performed a miracle. I realized how important it is to never lose the altruism, my reason and my heart for the people. I pray that I may always see the world as Christ saw it. I pray that He breaks my heart for what break His, may it be everyday.
The impossible. Finally, through the stories of the practice of Dr. Stevens as a missionary doctor, I realized how finite and limited I am as a medical student and as a future doctor. I know that it is not possible for me to memorize all the parts of the human body, the pathways in biochemistry, and all the regulations in physiology. Somehow, I know that there will come a time that I will fall short.
There will always be some things that I cannot do, these are the things that I have to lay on God. But I love how the book reminds us that the more the impossible the situation, the more we need to trust God, and the more He can showcase His power. Even if future lives are in our hands, I hope that I am always humbled by the fact that all the glory and honor should be given back to Him. With Dr. Jesus, I hope to reach out and heal a dying world.
“With man this is possible but with God all things are possible.” – Matthew 19:26