quarantine read #4: i think i'll revisit this book when i'm willing to actually research and figure out what the heck she's talking about. references to lots of people/events that i've never heard of and some forms/styles that i just wasn't vibing with. however, stunning prose and ideas, as always:
"i never had a conversation with my father in my life. he was an articulate man, we liked each other fine and exchanged a lifetime of occasional remarks or random jokey observations. yet the idea of sitting down to look each other in the face and talk about something real was as scary for both of us as walking out on a thread over a chasm. we had silence instead of sound in us. big precarious silence. i don't know why." - uncle falling
"to fall after all is our earliest motion. a human is born by falling, as homer says, from between the knees of its mother. to the ground. we fall again at the end" - uncle falling
"he liked the way light passed alive across the floor. he wondered how it would be to sit and watch this passage of light over the span of, say, a year. he wanted to make volume visible. he wanted to see the hudson river sparkle inside. he spoke of 'liberating' the compressed force of a building simply by making a hole. he hoped to 'retranslate' the space into something he could 'taste'." - cassandra float can
"the prophet must prove to you that she is a prophet by telling you unbelievable news, which you will only believe if you already regard her as a prophet. if the news is not unbelievable, then she is just a news source. if the news subsequently comes true, then she was a prophet but it doesn't matter now that the news is widely available. cassandra's is a conundrum of the veil. where is the edge of the new? where is the edge of belief? is it possible to believe something truly unbelievable? how does that begin? is there a crack of light under the door? how do you know to see it as light? is there an edge of light all around the dark mass of your life up to this moment? can you see the dark mass as a veil? can you want it gone?" - cassandra float can
"they asked her, 'in what language do your voices speak to you?' and [joan of arc] answered: better language than yours." - variations on the right to remain silent
"[francis bacon] wants to defeat narrative wherever it seeks to arise, which is pretty much everywhere, since humans are creatures who crave a story. there is a tendency for story to slip into the space between any two figures or any two marks on a canvas. bacon uses color to silence this tendency. he pulls color right up to the edge of his figures-a color so hard, flat, bright, motionless, it is impossible to enter into it or wonder about it. there is a desolation of curiosity into it." - variations on the right to remain silent
"there are two kinds of silence that trouble a translator: physical, metaphysical. physical silence happens when you are looking at, say, a poem of sappho's inscribed on a papyrus from two thousand years ago that has been torn in half. half the poem is empty space. a translator can signify or even rectify this lack of text in various ways-with blankness or brackets or textual conjecture-and she is justified in doing so because sappho did not intend that part of the poem to fall silent. metpahysical silence happens inside words themselves. and its intentions are harder to define. every translator knows the point where one language cannot be rendered into another." - variations on the right to remain silent
"she got
in the ambulance went to the hospital there insisted on washing the body
who else should do it she said" - powerless structures fig ii
"odysseus' answer is, 'i know you're a goddess and bigger and better-looking than my wife, for you are deathless and ageless while she is a mere mortal. and yet i prefer penelope. and what i long for is the day of my return.' odysseus' answer sets up a calculus. he measures the infinite days and infinite pleasures of kalypso against the single day of his homecoming and the mortal attractions of his wife. the infinite comes up lacking." - contempts
"proust says memory is of two kinds.
there's the daily struggle to recall where we put our reading glasses
and there is a deeper gust of longing
that comes up from the bottom
of the heart
involuntarily.
at sudden times.
for surprise reasons.
here is an excerpt from a letter proust wrote
in 1913:
we think we no longer love our dead
but that is because we do not remember them;
suddenly
we catch sight of an old glove
and burst into tears. - wildly constant
"maybe some people are born into the evening of their life and, although they remember a morning and an afternoon, they do not live it, they are already far gone in the shadows." - nelligan
"if you are not the free person you want to be, you must find a place to tell the truth about that. to tell how things go for you. candor is like a skein being produced inside the belly day after day, it has to get itself woven out somewhere. you could whisper down a well. you could write a letter and keep it in a drawer. you could inscribe a curse on a ribbon of lead and bury it in the ground to lie unread for thousands of years. the point is not to find a reader, the point is the telling itself. consider a person standing alone in a room. the house is silent. she is looking down at a piece of paper. nothing else exists. all her veins go down into this paper. she takes her pen and writes on it some marks no one will ever see, she bestows on it a kind of surplus, she tops it off with a gesture as private and accurate as her own name." - candor
"a sonnet is a rectangle upon the page.
your eye enjoys it in a ratio of eight to five.
let's say you're an urgent man in an urgent language
construing the millions of shadows that keep you alive.
if only it were water or innocent or a hawk from a handsaw,
if only you were adonis or marcel duchamp
settling in to your half hour of sex or chess, not this raw
block cut out of the fog of meaning, still damp. but no,
you are alone. whatever idea here rises from its knees
to turn and face you quicker than a kiss
or a hyphen or the very first moment you felt the breeze
of being a creature who will die-one day, not this-
will ask of you most of your cunning and a deep blue release like a sigh
while using only two pronouns, i and not i." - possessive used as drink (me)