The magnificence of the mundane.
He says do you think there's too much of it?
I say I don't know, I mean some of it, some of it seems a bit, you know, less important.
He says he was talking about that a lot, before he went away, about there being too much, that's what all these things are about, his projects, he was trying to absorb some of it.
I say too much of what, he says too much of everything, too much stuff, too much information, too many people, too much of things for there to be too much of, there is too much to know and I don't know where to begin but I want to try.
Where to begin. That silent stillness between the end of night and the break of the new day. A fateful moment at the end of the day, where time stands still, locked in horror, and one unlikely movement can cross the divide.
And before that moment there is an ordinary day. A day when people of a street in a Northern town of England come home from a night out, go to bed, get up, make tea, hang out washing, quarrel, make love, make tea, celebrate a wedding anniversary, make tea, wash the car, play cricket, go shopping, make tea. How tedious? Too much information, and some of it seems a bit, you know, less important? Strangely, no. Strangely mesmeric, absorbing. In fact I sat out in the sun and read it straight through, caught up in the poetry, drawn in by the poignancy of the man who could never explain to his wife why he can't join her digging the allotment, nor tell her the reason for those doctor's appointments, the gentle regret at the young girl who realizes that the relationship she's in will go nowhere, they haven't spoken about it, they haven't said what will we do when we leave here, do you want to come with me, let's work something out, and she knows that this means they will quickly and easily drift apart, into other people's lives, into other people's arms in rooms like this. She's neither surprised, nor particularly regretful, she feels only a kind of anticipatory nostalgia. And the gasp when a few pages later the young man that she is preparing to let go closes his eyes in sweet anticipation of the weeks and months, maybe years to come: They haven't made their plans yet, they're not sure what they'll be doing or where they'll be, but he knows they'll be spending their nights enclosed together like this, he knows he can take that much for granted. The fact that they haven't even needed to discuss it makes it all the sweeter, like it's a given, as natural as a cup of tea in the morning, or a shared cigarette.
Mismatch of expectations. Disconnectedness. Twins play a role; one of one pair tells us it isn't like what people think, they aren't telepathic or anything, but we've always been very close, we've always known most stuff about each other.
Connected he says, like we're connected.
And then he pulls a face and wipes his forehead with his hand and he says well less disconnected than other people at least.
So, a novel of mindfulness perhaps. But then, and maybe because I did read it straight through, it began to feel like a sticky toffee pudding, a little cloying on the tongue. The man with the burnt hands, that was well, a bit too much. And then the ending. Well, I'm not going to spoil it for you. I have to acknowledge the audaciousness of the ending, but for me, it did not work. A risk, but a foolish one. McGregor can spin gold, but it all turned back to straw at the end.
I would read more by him though. I would.