Everything I Have

Everything I Want #3

by Natalie Barnes

I fucked up.

This wasn't supposed to happen, not now, not ever! I think? Shit. I don't
know what to think anymore.

These last two years have turned my life upside down.
Right when I finally
think I have everything going exactly
how I want it, something always fucking
happens. But this something is not so
easily forgotten. Part of me wishes it
could be, but the other...wants this
more than anything. I have never been
so scared in my entire life as I am
right now.

I feel so alone.

He won't want this. He won't want me.
But what if?
What fucking if? He does...
Tristan, I'd give this part of me for
you...

~Sophia

Genres: Music, Romance, Rock N Roll

327 pages, Kindle Edition

First published July 27, 2015

About the author

Proud Ojibwe, loves being an Yooper; Natalie has always been into stories that can completely steal you away from reality.

She penned her first piece, International Best Seller, Everything I Want, a rockstar romance, back in the summer of 2014.

Since then, she completed that series while also publishing a spin off/stand alone, Beautifully Chaotic.
Also, coming later this year will be another spin off or can be read separate. This tale has ties with Beautifully Chaotic. Beg for Me by Natalie Barnes will be Natalie's first dark erotic piece.

Natalie's most recent published piece is her first historical fiction, mafia romance, Grosse Pointe. Over five years of creating for that historical fiction tale to see the light of readers day.

And yes, my beautiful Bees! Grosse Pointe does have another tale coming late 2021 or early 2022 titled Paradise :)

Reviews

[Jennifer Pierson · Rating 5 out of 5]

The day this book appeared on my kindle, I was so excited that I immediately dropped everything and dove right in. I didn't move again until I finished the very last page. My emotions were very conflicted; on one hand, I NEEDED to find out how it all ended, on the other, was super sad that Tristan and Sophia's story was ending. I was in serious need of meds to cure my severe book hangover.

Everything I Have is the conclusion to Tristan and Sophia's EPIC love story. It picks up where book 2 ended with Natalie Barnes' evil words...."Oop.....I did it again." (You forgot to add, "I played with your heart," Britney.) Sophia is faced with a HUGE game changing decision, leaving her confused and terrified. Life is finally going great and they're happy, but she's worried about Tristan's reaction. She can't help feeling like she's the one who messed up this time especially with her head chanting; "He won't want this. He won't want me." But what if he does want this?

This book was so fantastic that I almost forgave the author for the last cliff hanger that just about killed me. Actually Natalie Barnes blew my expectations completely out of the water. She brilliantly transformed their lust into an all encompassing, grown up love, without them losing their smokin HOT edge. I loved seeing Tristan evolve into a new, responsible, loving man. He became the good man in a storm. It was a beautifully written, emotional ride that gripped me so tightly, I still haven't gotten my seat belt off. All the characters are realistically flawed making them people I could see myself hangin with. It will seem like forever waiting for Caleb's story. Even though I'm not over Natalie Barnes trying to kill me with the first books, I'm a HUGE fan. Do yourself a solid, and read this super talented authors' AMAZING Everything I Want series ASAP. Trust in the fact that it comes HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY and yes..... HIGHLY recommended!

[Lustful Literature · Rating 4 out of 5]

Debbie's Review

This is the third book in this series and I was really excited to dig into this one. The last one had me counting the days until I got my hands on this one.



It starts off with a bang. I was holding my breathe waiting for the other shoe to drop and Sophia’s world to come crashing down around her. I cannot tell you how much I love the relationship between Sophia and Tristan. The chemistry between these two was not only insanely hot but it never felt forced. It had a natural flow and was totally believable.



I was expecting a little more angst in this book though but was happy that the secret Sophia was keeping from Tristan was not dragged out through the whole book. I have to say that Frankie was fantastic in this book. I want a friend like him. He supported Sophia but also called her on her bullshit.



“He better not be a fucking dick, okay? I don’t care who he is, I will murder the sexy son of a bitch if he hurts you, girl.”



Tristan character was fantastic in this book. He was hot as hell but had an unbelievable soft and sweet side to him. You could defiantly feel the love he had for Sophia. Sophia held her ground in this one and was as strong as ever. The back and forth banter between Tristan and Sophia was fantastic. I loved the relationship Sophia had with her band, Dollar Settlement. You could actually feel the strong family connection they had.



The story flowed and I finished this book in one day. I loved how the story ended and was actually sad it was over. This author has a knack at pulling you in and not wanting her books to end. I look forward to reading more from this author.



“What a fucked up, crazy ride this has all been, but if I had to start right back at the very beginning again, I so would… The Motherfucking End”

[Amandajane · Rating 4 out of 5]

Fantastic conclusion to Tristan and Sophia's story. I really enjoyed this series.

[Melissa Cleveland · Rating 5 out of 5]

Tears!!!! Is it really over?!!!!
After many months of anticipation I finally got my hands on the third book in the Everything I Want Series!!!! As usual Ms. Barnes exceeded all expectations! In Everything I Have she flawlessly transitions the relationship of Sophia and Tristan from lust to love but manages to keep the hard edge we love to see from them. The bedroom scenes are scorching hot but along with those we also get to experience a softer side of Tristan in this installment and man does this make him even more appealing ( as if that was possible)! This book is definitely an emotional roller coaster that takes you on Sophia's journey of acceptance into motherhood. Mothers grab your tissues because you are going to feel like you are reliving your experience all over again! I can't get enough of this writer's refreshing take on what life is really like for young women trying to find their way through the unexpected curveball life can throw at them but what a true blessing it can be especially when you have amazing people behind you!!! As sad as I am to see this story end I can't wait for her next book to find out Caleb's story!!! So for now I think I will sit back and start all over from the beginning to watch this amazing relationship unfold all over again!!! Rock On Natalie for giving us this amazingly gritty, real, love story! It isn't perfect but damn is it one great happily ever after !!!!!

[Sanne Heremans · Rating 5 out of 5]

***ARC received in exchange for an honest review - Sanne / Scandalous Book Blog***

Damn you, damn you woman! I'm bawling my eyes out.

This is an epic ending to a series that'll always be remembered, by me for sure.

Natalie Barnes has taken the rock star genre and made it her own.

A powercouple - a bunch of cuckoo bandmates - a gay best friend / stylist - I mean, rock on right?! ;-)

As we know Tristan and Sophia have been through a lot over the years. After all that gone down this is their timto shine. Oh well, all depends on how they deal with the little surprise that we were lift with in the previous book!

Will it boom boom shake up the room or will the become a pretty little familiy? I guess you guys already know the answer to that.

The queen of cliffhangers gave us, as promised, a beautiful ending to what has been a incredible series.

Major bonus points for not making this final book overly complicated. Besides some minor hiccups it was fairly straightforward. Although you know by now that with Natalie nothing really is as simple as it looks like!

"The motherf*cking end." ;-)

[Krista · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 mother fucking stars!!

Gah! I don't even know where to start with this review. This series (Everything I Want) is sinfully HOT!

Sophia is still bad-ass and stubborn. Her and Tristan seem to be on a good path when Sophia harbors a secret. A secret that could change everything and that makes her scared. Things are finally good all around: their success, their album, their tour, and her relationship with Tristan.

Tristan is still Mr. Alpha Hotness but you see him bending for Sophia. Their sizzle is scorchingly hot... so hot you'll need to fan yourself, maybe even smoke a cigarette (even if you don't smoke).

You also have a better glimpse of all the secondary characters and feel like you are part of the band. I love them all and the way they gel together as a band and individually is fantastic.

There is so much more I want to say but I fear I will give it away. So what happens when Tristan finds out Sophia's secret?? Go one click this bitch right now!

p.s. I smell a Caleb spin-off and I am happy to oblige in reading that.

[Ayse Huseyin · Rating 3 out of 5]

I am so looking forward to this!!!

[Sandra · Rating 5 out of 5]

Perfect conclusion for this couple. Also,I would like to read more about Caleb.

[Michelle · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars. I’m not really convinced that there was significant character development compared to the last book. Tristan is simply head-over-heels for Sophia and turned on every time he sees her. Sophia waffles a bit in her decision making and trying to let her thoughts marinate on their own before discussing with anyone else. For Tristan, he sees this as a challenge to prove that he is 100% there for her unconditionally. Sure, this book solidified their coupledom if that was the goal of the story.

[Patti Williams]

DNF. :(

I just got bored with it. Tristan couldn’t ever look at or be around Sophia without having gotten a hard on and having to F*** Sophia. I realize in this genre the smut comes along with that stories BUT there is not a Tristan & Sophia without the F***ing, or him imagining f***ing.

I skimmed to find that Sophia told him about the pregnancy and he accepted it. I’m going to assume that they get the baby and they’re hea. I’ve lost my interest.

[SandraBarg · Rating 5 out of 5]

Another Winner!

This book wrapped up the story of Tristan and Sophia greatly! You get resolution to their story, a happy ending with all of the hotness and love you expect from this couple! Great read!

[Catherine Milam · Rating 5 out of 5]

I love this book I enjoyed all three of the book from this author Natalie Barnes. I will wating for more.

[Danena Freeman · Rating 5 out of 5]

It was a great read. It had great characters and a wonderful story line. I can't wait to read more in this series. Rated very good

[Shonda · Rating 5 out of 5]

Love it!

Read the series and I ❤ it!! Glad the author ended the series on an HEA note! Tristan & Sophia are my favorite Hard Rock couple!!!

[Kim Howlett · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was the last book in the Everything I want series. You need to read the other 2 books in the series as its a 3 part series that follows Tristan and Sophia through the highs and lows of their relationship and the 2 bands stories.
This series has been amazing. Each book got better and better and Everything I have finished off Tristan and Sophia's story very nicely.
This is by far one of the best RockStar series I've read. It's defiantly up there with the very best.
After the cliffhanger of series 2 I was beyond desperate, but apprehensive to get my hands on this book. I was so worried about what Tristans reaction would be and as I loved him so much I was hoping he'd not let me down in anyway.
This story still had all the craziness that it's had from book the beginning. Frankie was just as out there and mad as he has been through the whole series. I've never laughed so much at a character. He was very unique and loveable. In this book though we got to see a glimpse of his soft side very briefly and I loved that, but Frankie will always be Frankie and his character is a huge part of why this series was awesome.
The other reason the series was so awesome is all the supporting characters. There's a lot as its 2 bands worth of characters, but never did the story get confusing or feel like there was to many characters in the series or they took away from the main characters. Each band member is unique in their own way and each bought lots of fun a laughter to the series aswell. I loved there protectiveness over Sophia and his they treated her like a sister. Most importantly I liked how they was all willing to change when they needed to for her.
I don't feel ready to let these characters go yet as each have so much to offer, so I was glad to hear other band members will be getting a story too. The author did a great job at setting up the next story in this book and I can't wait to read the next book and catch up with the bands again.
I'd never of guessed this was the authors debut series. Her writing was flawless. I can't fault anything about the book, the characters, the story or writing.
I loved everything about this book and tying up Tristans and Sophia's story, but also the whole series.
I can't wait for the next book.
5 Stars for this book and the series altogether

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[Kristy Mills · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is the last book for Sophia and Tristan. I really loved this series!! I have a feeling it will be one that sticks with me and I will end up reading again.

This book picks up immediately where the last book leaves off. Sophia finds out she is pregnant and doesn't know how to tell Tristan.

Sophia kind of annoyed me at times in this book. With her overthinking things. I wished she would just tell Tristan and I wish she would just say YES to Tristan's proposals. Although when she finally did it was pretty sweet..

I really liked that this book was mainly focused on Sophia and Tristan growing closer, but I was a little disappointed in the sense that I was expecting to see a softer side of Tristan. There were times when he was less stoic and I LOVED this parts, but I was hoping for more. I wanted to know more about how he felt about the pregnancy, when he found out. (I also hated that we never really heard HOW he found out.) I was expecting more of a reaction out of him or more words I guess. He was more hung up on the fact that she was lying to him. I felt a little disappointed by how that all played out. I felt like it was building and building and then it was just over.

I also wanted more scenes with Tristan as a new father. There was really only one scene with him and the baby and it was so short, but I LOVED IT! I wanted more!!!

So really all the things that have left me disappointed are just because I wanted more, more, MORE!!


And really is that such a bad thing in a book? To love the characters so much you want to crawl in the book and experience life with them... or BE THEM! Because thats how I felt. I just couldn't get enough.

I can't wait to read Caleb's story. I REALLY liked Caleb. I'm so excited to read HEA.

Oh yeah, and I almost forgot. I kept expecting there to be a moment when Tristan found out what the Italian words meant that Sophia added to their song. But it never happened. :( I wanted him to know.

[Kathy · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is the third book in the series and you must read them in order. This book picks up right where the second one ended. Sophia has just found out that she is pregnant. She finally has everything she wants; her band is going good and she has Tristan back but now this. She is in a bit of shock understandably but she knows that she isn’t going to get rid of the baby. It doesn’t take long for her to realize that she wants this baby, now what she is worried about most is how Tristan will react. She is worried that he won’t her once he finds out. How long will it take her to tell Tristan? How will Tristan react? This book was fantastic; some angst again but not as much. Sophia has to learn to stop overthinking everything. Her whole life is about to change, but she is realizing that the changes won’t be as bad as she thinks. Tristan can sense that something is going on in Sophia’s head but he doesn’t realize what it is. He is going to get some answers. They just might not come from Sophia herself. Sophia and Tristan have changed and grown so much throughout this book. You get to read more about both their bands again in this book. You get a bit of a better glance of Caleb and would love to read a book about him and his story. This was my favorite book in the series. Tristan is still the same yet different somehow. He never imagined himself wanting to marry someone and have a kid with them. But, he doesn’t seem bothered by it at all. He seems excited about Sophia being pregnant with their child. In fact Sophia is the one holding out on the marriage front not Tristan. Natalie Barnes has been added to my authors to watch out for list. She writes a story that draws you in and makes you wish you could hang out with the characters in real life. I look forward to reading other books by her in the future.
I was given this book in return for an honest review.

[Tiffany Readz · Rating 4 out of 5]

Just as with book two, book three in the Everything I want series was a little better than the one before. Tristan was so calm and tolerable this time around. I suppose the love of a good woman can be credited for that. Sophia is a bit of a basket case, however has good reason to be. This review may spoil books one and two.

We pick up right where we left Sophia, freaking the eff out about the positive test. She isn't sure how Tristain is going to take news like this and decides to wait a bit before telling him. With Frankie at her side, Sophia goes on touring like nothing's wrong. Of course Tristain can tell from a mile away that something is off about his girl and starts to dig.

We get lots of angst this time around as we read and read to see what Tristan's reaction is going to be. With his personality makeover, I started to feel sorry for the guy that his girl was keeping something like this from him for so long. I just knew he was going to be ecstatic when he found out and it was killing me as Natalie Barnes slowly got us to that point. I am reviewing vague as to not spoil storylines.

Everything I Have was a great ending to the series. Written in dual points of view, we get some angst and lots and lots of sex. At one point I wondered if these two ever had a normal conversation there was so much sexing going on all of the time. Sophia's parents added the comic relief the story needed along with Freddie. My absolute favorite part was the dedication by Natalie Barnes. Very cute and so true.

Reviewed for Renee Entress's Blog.

[Jamie Zishka · Rating 3 out of 5]

Everything I Have is the third and final book in the Everything I Want Series. I was anticipating this release for quite some time because I needed to know what happened because Everything I Need ended with quite the cliffhanger! Sophia and Tristan needed some closure to there whirlwind roller coaster romance and Natalie Barnes certainly delivered it. Although this book did give the closure and ending to Sophia and Tristan it wasn't my favorite of the series, it was good I just didn't get that blown away feeling like I did with the other 2 books in this series. So I would have to rate this book a 3.5 but the series is a solid 4. Now don't get me wrong there was still strong passion and hard core sexy scenes from the Alpha male Tristan which of course I love every minute of him, but for some reason I felt like it was lacking the excitement and or buzz that the fist 2 gave me. Regardless I fell in love with Tristan and Sophia long ago so this story was sort of the icing on a very big tiered cake so make sure you read the whole series! Thanks for a fantastic journey with these 2 characters and I can't wait for Caleb's story in Beautifully Chaotic! And hopefully many more fantastic stories in the future!

[Brandy · Rating 4 out of 5]

DISCLAIMER TO THOSE READING MY REVIEW:
This review is my personal opinion, it may contain swearing, quotes, rants, and spoilers!!!
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK....

This is the conclusion to Sophia and Tristan's crazy ride!!!
"Can I just get through one fucking tour without something happening?!"
I would have loved to find out more about the picture, who drew it is really driving me nuts!!!
"It’s a drawing of Dollar Settlement. Cory is at the top of the page, drawn with tattered angel wings spreading over all of us. His head is bent with his hands clasped together as if he were praying. The shadowing and shading are done flawlessly. It has me lying on my side on this Victorian sofa with my arm bent, holding up my head while my other arm drapes over my hips. I'm wearing a long, vintage, floor-length dress. Maybe they went a little overboard with my chest size. The rest of my guys are standing or crouching all around me wearing torn up suits with old script bleeding, 'Dollar Settlement' across the bottom of the page."







“What a fucked up, crazy ride this has all been, but if I had to start right back at the very beginning again, I so would… The Motherfucking End”

[Cheryl · Rating 5 out of 5]

Review of Everything I Have (Everything I Want #3) by Natalie Barnes

Review done for Hooked on Books

4 ½ out of 5 stars

Oh my Tristan, the dirty talking sex god of rock n’ roll; I just love him. He is so sexy and just yum. For two years he struggled after he screwed up and lost Sophia, but now he has matured and figured out what he wants: her.

Sophia has struggled to put the past behind her. She has finally forgiven Tristan and admits that she loves him.

Just when everything seems to be going great for both them and their bands, a little surprise throws a curveball at them.

This series was fantastic!! What an awesome debut by this author. This was a great rock n’ roll love story.

I loved Sophia and Tristan. They were great characters and I couldn’t get enough of their story. I wish we could have got a peek into their wedding though.

Oh, and every girl needs a Frankie in their life. What an awesome friend he is!

I absolutely recommend this series to read, it is definitely one of my favorites this year!

[Hooked On Books · Rating 5 out of 5]

4 ½ out of 5 stars

Oh my Tristan, the dirty talking sex god of rock n’ roll; I just love him. He is so sexy and just yum. For two years he struggled after he screwed up and lost Sophia, but now he has matured and figured out what he wants: her.

Sophia has struggled to put the past behind her. She has finally forgiven Tristan and admits that she loves him.

Just when everything seems to be going great for both them and their bands, a little surprise throws a curveball at them.

This series was fantastic!! What an awesome debut by this author. This was a great rock n’ roll love story.

I loved Sophia and Tristan. They were great characters and I couldn’t get enough of their story. I wish we could have got a peek into their wedding though.

Oh, and every girl needs a Frankie in their life. What an awesome friend he is!

I absolutely recommend this series to read, it is definitely one of my favorites this year!

[Brianna at Renee Entress's Blog · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 Stars!

I loved this book. I have been following this series... getting more and more attached to Sophia and Tristan. Each book was building and building to this epic moment. You know how you feel it coming and just know that it all comes down to this? That was this book and certain moments.

Natalie Barnes created an epic romance that will stay with you long after it's over. Get ready to smile. Get ready to swoon. Get ready to feel. Get ready to fall in love all over again. This book will take you on an emotional high but it will all be worth it by the end... I promise.

This is the final chapter for Sophia and Tristan. They have come a long way and it is not over yet. Secrets can kill and Sophia has a big one. Tristan has finally come into his own and is a good man. But the hurdles for these two just keep coming. Will they finally get a happy ending?

I highly recommend this book!

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[Renee at Book Happiness · Rating 5 out of 5]

I received this for an honest review.. I have to say that I have loved this series from the beginning this book changed nothing for me. It reafirmed my love for this book and this author..

This is Tristan and Sofia's final book and OH WHAT A BOOK!! As always with these books I was pulled right into the story. There are so many aspects that I loved about this book and without giving anything away I can safely say that this was a ride (from book 1) that I was glad that I got to experience

These books and especially this one are hot and sexy with a bit of angst that just make this little book whore happy!!!

This author just has this awesome ability to pull you into the story and into these characeters that just blows you away!!!!

[Lainey · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was a great series! I liked that the author gave you a little more after the HEA in this last book. It didn't just end after the H gets the h. Although I think the last book kind of dragged- like there were parts in the book that could have been edited out, that it had no real important info in it...something like that, I really don't know how to word it. But it was a great read! Sometimes I just wanted to slap Sophia and just tell her to "man up" in some situations. But Tristan...wow! He's a total alpha to no end and I think that's hot AF!

[Linda Field · Rating 4 out of 5]

The last in the series oh how I wish it wasn't.
I've loved following the lives of Sophia and Tristan.

There lust has turned to love and there relationship is so strong, but you still get all the badassness of their bands and there lives.

We also journey with Sophia and Tristan in an important time in their lives.

I just loved loved this series and I'm really gutted its come to an end, but I'm happy with everything about it.

[Tracy Lundy-Munn · Rating 5 out of 5]

Everything I Have is the third and last book in the Everything I Want series by Natalie Barnes. Again, I absolutely fell in love with this book and the depth and emotion that the author put into it. The twists and turns were fabulous and had me hooked from beginning to end. The characters were well thought out and had amazing love and chemistry for each other. Tristan and Sofia were truly a beautiful couple and I absolutely loved their story!!!

[Kelly · Rating 5 out of 5]

I really enjoyed this series!!!

I really enjoyed this series!!! Loved Sophia and Tristen.... And thrilled that the author had a part of Cory in the story!!! The only thing that she left out was a wedding!!!

[Jennifer AP · Rating 5 out of 5]

I couldn't put it down!!! Love, Love, Love!!!!

[Dre · Rating 3 out of 5]

This one was a little anti-climactic, so I was disappointed. Still a good ending for this couple though.