The title of this collection of essays by physician-cum-writer Hou Wen-yong is “Wo de Tiancai Meng”, which I have chosen to translate as “My Dream of Being Exceptional.” The tricky word here is tiancai, a noun which could individually be translated as something like “genius” or “prodigy.”
“Genius” is close, but in English it connotes typically intelligence on its own, leaving out the Chinese implication of extreme talent or ability; “prodigy” is a larger umbrella, but for us in English usually is limited to extreme talent at a young age. As the book’s overarching narrative proves, Hou’s dream is “of doing something useful,” of becoming someone exceptional. The central problem he has to overcome is, exceptional according to whom?
One way to understand this book is through its recurring images and phrases. One of those is “why don’t you do something more useful?,” which the author hears from many people as he explores his craft. Another is the portrayal of generation cycles: he writes as much about the future his parents wished (mandated) for him as the memories he tries to create for his children.
The first time Hou thought of leaving medicine, he wasn’t even in grad school yet: he had only just completed the undergraduate science courses he needed to continue in medicine. A question from someone in the field propelled him forward: “Do you hate medicine?” “No,” he says, which he takes as a sign to push through.