As I prepared to start reading this Rainbow Reader – Gray: Surrender, I had absolutely no idea of how ‘real’ my continuing education into what it is like to group up gay in this world was about to become.
Whilst I do not consider myself to be either naïve or unaware of events happening in the world, I now admit that I had not fully connected with those events and as a result was blindsided by the emotional avalanche which swamped me in the opening chapter of this book.
Without giving away any details, the devastation which assaulted Ian, and the way he dealt with his crippling depression and survivor’s guilt, hit me hard but made his story all the more real. While he can’t go back to how is life was before, he is forced to move… initially that move is into the mindless and isolating world of academia and nameless, faceless, and meaningless sexual encounters. But that all changes with the introduction of a new and special addition to the Rainbow Reader family who helps to bring Ian back into the world of a loving connection, and renew his passion for his true, higher calling within the community.
Adam Stevens’ treatment of these sensitive and confronting issues continues to garner my respect for his honesty and admiration for his talent as a writer.