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See raamat on minu esimene kokkupuude Brigitte’iga. See on see, kuidas ma temaga „tutvusin“.
Esimest poolt raamatust oli väga raske lugeda, kuna Brigitte rääkis oma minevikust väga negatiivsel toonil. Ta ei näinud enda ümber peaaegu mitte midagi ilusat. Kõik mis teda ümbritses, kohutas teda. Mehed vahetusid, Brigitte ei suutnud ilma meesteta elada, Brigitte pettus meestes, liikus edasi. Ja vahepeal ei tahtnud ta üldse näitlemisest midagi kuulda. Tema elu koosnes ainult meestest. See kõik muutus lõpuks väga üksluiseks ja igavaks tekstiks mida lugeda. Kuni selleni, kui Brigitte päästis esimesed loomad. Siis muutus raamatu sisu huvitavamaks mida lugeda.
Brigitte kasutas raamatus väga palju nimesid, millest oli lõppkokkuvõttes raske aru saada. Mõni nimi käis läbi justkui paar korda ja siis oli ta unustatud. Lugejana oli väga raske seda lugeda. Justkui oleks ta lihtsalt tahtnud võimalikult palju inimesi oma raamatusse ära märkida, et nood tunneksid siis rõõmu või kurbust selle üle et nad on B.B raamatus ära märgitud. Ma imestan, et tal endal kõik need nimed nii hästi meeles püsisid.
Ja mis sai Vadimiga? See küsimus jäi minu jaoks õhku. Kuidas Vadim reageeris sellele, et B.B ta maha jättis? Järsku oli lihtsalt Vadim minevik. Mõistan, et nad jäid sõpradeks, aga kuidas Vadim reageeris sellele?
Aga mis mulle raamatu puhul meeldis oli see ausus, millega ta kirjutas. Ta rääkis asjadest nii nagu nad olid. Brigitte tundus ise ka väga aus inimene olevat, eriti kus ta rääkis oma emaks olemisest. Ta teadis juba algusest peale, et ta ei taha ema olla, ning ta ka polnud vääriline ema oma pojale.
Ja eks see mis tema ümber toimus, ei saanud ka teda väga positiivseks teha, sest tal puudus privaatsus. Ajakirjanikud kiusasid ja ahistasid teda ning ta ei saanud nendes hetkekski rahu. Prantsusmaa rahvas pilkas teda.Teda rünnati nii vaimselt kui füüsiliselt. Ta sai ainult head kuulsust nautida kodumaalt väljaspool, kus teda hoiti.
Huvitav oli see, et pildid ja raamatu tekst on väga vastandlikud. Piltidelt vaadatuna on ta olnud nendes olukordades vägagi õnnelik, kuid kirja panduna on ta väga nagatiivne. On jäänud selline tunne, et ta on kirjutanud raamatu masenduses olles. Kuna raamatust tulevad välja ka tema meeleolukõikumised.
See raamat oli tõesti veidi nagu puder, väga lihtsalt kirjutatud. Kui Brigitte otsustas muust kirjutada, kirjutas muust.Aga midagi muud ei saagi oodata näitlejalt, kellel pole kirjaniku haridust.
Ta lisas raamatusse väga palju kuulsate inimeste surmasid, keda ta igatsema jäi. Mulle meeldis just see, et ta kirjutas raamatu ise, oma sõnadega.Tänu sellele sain ma teada kes on Brigitte Bardot päriselt. Mitte see pilt mida kogu välismaailm üritab temast maalida.
Selle raamatu lugemiseks on vaja palju kannatlikkust ning sihikindlust, sest sisu justkui pole. On lihtsalt kulgemine läbi Brigitte’i elu. Tema igapäevane kurbus ja ka rõõm.
Kui lugeda selle raamatu ridade vahelt teksti, siis on võimalik temalt vägagi palju õppida.
This book is my first contact with Brigitte. This is how I got to „know“ her.
The first half of the book was very difficult to read because Brigitte talked about her past in a very negative tone. She saw almost nothing beautiful around her. Everything around her was terrifying. Her men changed, Brigitte could not live without men, Brigitte was disappointed, moved on. And meanwhile, she didn't want to hear anything about acting at all. Her life consisted only of men. It all turned into a very monotonous and boring text to read. Until Brigitte saved the first animals. Then the content of the book became more interesting to read.
Brigitte used a lot of names in the book, which were ultimately difficult to understand and remember. Some names came up only a few times and then they were forgotten. As a reader, it was very difficult to read. As if she just wanted to mark as many names as possible in his book, so that those people would feel happy or sad that they were marked in B.B's book. I am surprised that she herself remembered all those names so well.
And what happened to Vadim? This question was left in the air for me. How did Vadim react to B.B leaving him? Suddenly, Vadim was left in the past. I understand that they remained friends, but how did Vadim react to this?
But what I liked about the book was the honesty with which she wrote. She told things as they were. Brigitte herself also seemed to be a very honest person, especially when she talked about being a mother. She knew from the beginning that she did not want to be a mother, and she was not a worthy mother to her son.
And what was happening around her couldn't make her very positive either, because she had no privacy. Journalists bullied and harassed her, and she could not get rid of them for a second. The people of France mocked her. She was attacked both mentally and physically. She could only enjoy good fame outside her homeland, where she was respected.
It was interesting that the pictures and the text of the book are very contrasting. Judging by the pictures, she has been very happy in these situations, but in writing, she is very negative. I have the feeling that she wrote the book when she was depressed. Because the book also reveals her mood swings.
This book was really confusingly and simple written. When Brigitte decided to write about something else, she wrote about something else.
She included a lot of deaths of famous people in the book that she was going to miss. What I really liked was that she wrote the book by herself, in her own words. So now after reading it, I know who is Brigitte Bardot. Not what everybody else claims she is.
You need a lot of patience and persistence to read this book, because there basically is no content. It's just going through Brigitte's life. Her daily sadness and also her joy.
If you read between the lines of this book, you can learn a lot from her.