I’m honestly so confused and I can’t even pretend to understand this volume.
I feel as though it’s being overly confusing for the sake of being confusing so as to make the reader feel more guarded and afraid of what’s to come. However, one thing I DO know is that Akio Ohtori is walking garbage. He even makes me feel disgusting and terrible just reading about him and the things he does and says. And his version of “love,” whether he truly feels love or not, is unhealthy and nobody should be subjected to it. If there were ever anyone out there who didn’t deserve to love someone else, it would be a person like Akio Ohtori, because his so-called “love” is far too pathologically destructive and manipulative. The only person he truly watches out for and deeply cares for is his own idealized self.
But on the topic of love, I found the differing versions of it in this manga to be interesting. Saionji does truly feel a form of love for Anthy, but that type of love has been built upon an idealization as well, an assumption of who she is and what she is to him. He liked how submissive and tender she was, not thinking to wonder if that wasn’t truly her, or if there was more to her. Never once did he want to inspire her to grow. He wanted to own her. And while his feelings are true and genuine, they come from a place of assumption and possession, which isn’t as unhealthy as Ohtori’s, but is still quite problematic and he should move on.
All throughout these four volumes so far, I keep wondering where the love is between Anthy and Utena, but I believe I may have finally found it through analysis of the others. Touga’s love for Utena is similar to that of Utena’s love for Anthy, in which he feels a desire to let her blossom and grow. He genuinely cares for Utena as a person and whether they are together or apart, he wants her to become the woman she would like to become. Similarly, they also both feel desires to protect their people but for their own ideals. Utena wants to be someone’s prince, and a prince should have a princess to protect. Even if Utena does not realize this, this dream of her is a subconscious driving motivation for her severe desire to protect. As for Touga, he cares for Utena, but still sees her as a strong yet naive woman, and he doesn’t wish to see her fall into the wrong hands. He wants to protect her from harm because he feels that she needs guidance. And he wouldn’t be wrong in that, but multiple times he will let his emotions get the better of him and try to directly control her, which, while it does somewhat work toward his end means, it is not a healthy way of approaching Utena.
As for Utena, she does not hold so tight to Anthy, nor does Anthy to her. As of now, it doesn’t appear as though Anthy loves Utena, but she does seem to respect her, and might be growing some fondness for her. Even so, it’s hard to see past the many walls and fronts she puts up not only to protect herself but to fit the mold and image others and she herself have placed her in.
Lastly, I just wanted to mention again how I really like the detail in the art for this series. The imagery is made to show emotions individually. There may be multiple characters in one small panel that almost nobody more than glances at, but you can tell that deep reflection and thought was put into each character’s body language and expression, such as the panel in which the student council members were watching (or averting their gaze from) Utena pining away for a slumbering Anthy.