“When Floyd Forsberg lost his father at 10, he turned to shoplifting and burglary to feed his family and fill the void his father left. At 14, he was sent to the Luther Burbank School for Boys for possessing firearms and running away. There, Floyd found himself trapped by a system that sought to destroy his dignity rather than restore his character. From this point forward, Floyd would strive to become the most hardened, disciplined, professional bank robber ever.” (toughestprison.com)
What an amazing book.
This unapologetic autobiographical account provides a truly fascinating insight into the mind of career criminal Floyd Forsberg, documenting his escapades in a gripping yet humble fashion. The photographs throughout are captivating and offer a 3D experience for readers who enjoy visual stimulation.
Chapter one sees Floyd preparing for “Reno’s most perfect robbery”, and I wasn’t sure the book was for me due to all the strategic language and premeditation of crime. I was hoping the subsequent chapters wouldn’t be too heavily peppered with robbery jargon and detailed plans, as I’m more interested in action and consequences! Floyd’s self-esteem issues and need for validation become apparent very early on, and despite his arrogant opinion of the “nobility” of his “chosen profession” he is a likable story teller. One thing that stood out to me was how many wise words and beautiful quotes were scattered throughout the pages, and I found myself wishing I could distribute copies to the prisoners I have worked with over the years.
“I was whipped with a belt for bad behaviour and felt lucky about it. Some of my friends got a parental fist.”
“Even as juvenile delinquents, we understood how important it was to let the caseworkers and psychologists think that they had you all figured out. Once they had you tagged and labelled, they pretty much felt their job was done and were far less apt to interfere with your life.”
“More importantly, I still had my dignity. I had kept the code. I had maintained my silence to the end.”
“Psychiatry is a dangerous profession Floyd. They analyse and dissect all human behaviour down to certain basic fundamentals. At first it’s all very interesting and exciting to them. Then they realize they’re not so different from the people they study.”
What I particularly liked about this book was that it didn’t follow a predictable pattern, and I found myself guessing constantly. Although I have worked in prison and rehabilitation systems it was shocking to read just how calculated and ruthless Floyd and his associates were. There was a consistent undertone of desperation and despair in his choices, which is all too familiar in the criminal world – adrenaline, instant gratification, living for the moment, dire consequences. Floyd falls deeply in love with Nancy, and this is the first time we see his true vulnerability and inner turmoil.
“She didn’t understand that I couldn’t be entirely myself – that I couldn’t be totally me – even with her. She could never possibly understand why I still needed the War, why I would probably live a Jekyll and Hyde existence the rest of my life.”
The cat-and-mouse nature of Floyd’s relationship with the authorities is astonishing, and exposes not only a sophisticated network of criminals outwitting local and national police, but a seriously corrupt and damaging justice system. The book examines the insanity of the prison revolving door and the reality many offenders face when trying to break free of their learned behaviours in a society that regards criminals as sub-human. Floyd is an intelligent author, able to reflect on his life with little pity and buckets of honesty. He pulled on my heartstrings in unexpected ways, particularly with his inability to empathise and connect with another person without suspicion and fear.
“In the past, I hadn’t ever valued my freedom because I hadn’t ever valued myself.”
Floyd recognises the positive and influential figures that gave him cause to think about life outside his ego-centric bubble, which is heart-warming without becoming insincere. His connection with Mr Hubbard was refreshing in a book so full of contempt for “the system” and shows the reader the deeply philosophical Floyd often hidden by his alter-ego “Frosty”.
“I will keep on doing what I can, and accepting what I cannot change. That’s what mature people do, Floyd. It is this very same level of emotional maturity that you still have to learn.”
Floyd grows as the pages turn, showing an ever increasing capability to relate to people around him and recognise the correlation between his decisions and the impact on himself and others. It is rare to find such a beautifully written book that encompasses raw facts and sickening acts but at the same time describes a vulnerable and damaged individual forgotten in a world of punishment and alleged reform.
“There really wasn’t any place for me to escape to. I carried my real prison inside me.”
Tab says….
Do read this book if –
You like a love story
You enjoy reading or watching anything crime related
You want to get lost in a story
You enjoy autobiographies
You like to be shocked
You like to learn about conspiracies, corruption and loop holes in systems
Do not read this book if –
You’re looking for an easy read
(Book errors:
Chapter 25 reads “Denise stared giggling” – should this be “started?”
Chapter 27 reads “the DA watned” – should this be “wanted?”)