I've been looking forward to "Keeping Secrets" by Lisa Eugene after reading and loving her book "Grayson."
Similarly, "Keeping Secrets" takes on a serious topic and incorporates it into a beautiful and sweet love story. A story about a love that conquers it all, that doesn't change and that is willing to fight through the hardships a mental illness poses.
The kind of love that makes our soul sigh and our heart tremble in awe. That's the love that Alexa and Dex share.
But it doesn't start out like that. Oh no. When they meet, they share a mutual dislike for each other. That irritation quickly turns into friendship - something neither of them expected or were looking for. Soon, a friendship isn't enough as they can't deny their attraction much longer.
What started out as a complete mess has morphed into a loving and caring relationship, with respect, passion and fun to boot.
But both, Alexa and Dex, are keeping secrets - secrets that influence their actions and emotions. And Alexa's secrets are the ones that can destroy not only the bond her and Dex share but potentially threaten Alexa's life.
Alexa is a perfectionist, always striving for success and beating herself up when she doesn't achieve the best results. She doesn't know anything else. It's only when Dex enters her life, that she actually starts living.
But there is a part of her nobody knows about. A part that's making her life a living hell, forcing her to hate herself every waking minute. A part that puts her on a path of self-destruction and it's only a matter of time before it wears her down.
It's a balancing act between hiding her secrets and trying to let someone in. But no matter how much she loves Dex, this is a side of herself she can't show.
When things in her life start crumbling to pieces, the choice is not hers to make anymore as her secrets come to light.
Now it's up to Dex to decide if his love is strong enough to weather the storm and accept all of who Alexa is.
My heart broke for her - with every chapter a little more.
The way Lisa Eugene wrote this, wrote Alexa's pain, it was actually palpable. Alexa's despair so vivid, it actually felt uncomfortable and suffocating just reading about it.
The mental health issues that Alexa deals with were described with knowledge, respect and tact, making "Keeping Secrets" a book that can help people understand what someone with Alexa's issues is going through.
But my heard didn't just break for Alexa. Dex' pain wasn't something easily ignored either.
He's a rich, successful CEO. A man not easily fooled. He's sexy, hot and smart. But even more importantly, he's a man with a beautiful soul - a soul that's been crushed to pieces on more than one occasion. So he's hesitant to trust and let anyone in, yet he has no chance to fight his feelings for Alexa.
But when he finds out she's been keeping secrets and lying to him, the fears of his past catch up to him quickly and make it hard for him to see straight.
Once burned, twice shy - and he hasn't just been burned, but scorched.
Yet, and this is what I loved about him, he finds a way to put his anger aside and let the feelings of love win.
He seriously steps up to the plate and his love, support but also his stern attitude when necessary are what help Alexa find her inner strength - to stand up for herself and to heal.
The story was beautiful and the sex scenes were at their basic level hot. But - and this is the reason that I can't give the whole five stars - some words were a no-go. I know that this is a personal preference, but it kills a sex scene instantly when I read words like moist, channel, creamy slit, swollen glands or moist petals. No, just no. It made me cringe. And it made all the erotic mood the scenes held disappear.
4 it-would-have-been-more-if-not-for-the-petals stars.