I really, really wanted to like this book.
And it was ok, I suppose. But it just didn't work for me for a few reasons.
1. The Christian message seemed.... off. Sure, it was a good message, about finding your worth in who God, our Father, is instead of in what society says about us. That's awesome to know who you are in Christ. Really. BUT. Jesus was never mentioned. Not once do I remember Christ mentioned. It's explained that we're children of God, because of Him. But it's not told WHY. It's not told that sin separates from God and not told that Jesus takes that sin away. It was always the Father who redeems us, chooses us, and, yes, while that's all good and nice, the Bible says that Jesus is the only way TO the Father. So in this story the person who is the preacher keeps telling people about the Father and says that they can be free. But free from what, really? In this book it's not our sinful nature that you need to be free of. The main thing is to be free from thoughts that we're worthless. Not free from our sin and not free from eternal death because of the love Jesus Christ showed for us in becoming sin for us. No, simply,free, because God chooses us and that means we're beautiful. And while that is all good and true, that is not the Gospel message, that isn't the truth that saves us. There is one way and that is through redemption by the blood of Jesus and what He did for us, by faith in Him. It is Christ who had our sin taken on Him and we must give that to Him, put our trust in Christ.
Yet in this book, you just had to declare "I am free!" and you're saved, not even really knowing what you're truly free from. Instead of repenting and having faith in Christ, you are saved by finding freedom from the box that society puts you in. Saved by realizing that just because society says you're worthless, doesn't mean it's true. It's a good thing to realize, but that's not what saves. So this bothered me, a lot.
Another thing, what about the men? What saves them in this society? The women find that they're not worthless, and they're saved. But the men never thought they're worthless. And even the love interest doesn't seem to come to any kind of real faith.
As well as the preacher was sort of like Jesus, but not actually Jesus. When the POV of one character (no spoilers so won't say who) was in a tough spot and had to rely on new found freedom (not faith) that character tried to recall the preacher and find comfort in the preacher instead of in God or in Jesus. As if the preacher had become the one she looks up to and not God. This also bothered me, a lot.
Even when one person was sentenced to death and was given a chance to say their last words, they chose to say something like: "Remember that I love you" And this person was dying for the sake of God, because they refused to change their beliefs. And when this was happening, I expected this person to declare the Gospel and tell people that Christ is worth anything and to turn to Him, to show people the truth, but instead they just said something like, "I do this and I think this and I'm free".
While I don't think it's bad that this person said they love their family, because it's great to give assurance of that to your loved ones. But it kind of defeats the whole point, declaring faith in God, then not actually even saying out right. All this person said about their faith is "I am free" They didn't say from what they are free or how anyone else can be freed, just, "I am free so I am ok with dying." So imagining the people who were there witnessing this, they didn't really see why this person was ok with whatever happens. Won't spoil what actually happens, though.
In any case, salvation because you find freedom from thinking you're worthless, that is not the Gospel. It's a good thing to find freedom from but it's not what saves. Jesus Christ saves!
The story also had a false Gospel. A false religion. That was very twisted, but it was supposed to be twisted, so that's not the problem I had.
2. I just never felt any attachment to anyone. The main character is supposed to be 17, I think. Yet to me, she didn't even really have a personality or anything to make her who she is, so the entire time I was picturing her as a 30 something year old, because there was nothing in her voice or actions or thoughts that made me see that she is a young girl.
When I try to think of a way to describe her now, I can't think of anything specific about her at all. This doesn't often happen, there was just no real personality in the story, at least to me. The story will definitely not stick with me.
3. The writing. It wasn't bad, it was repetitive and simply wasn't that kind that I enjoy reading.
4. I wasn't expecting it to be so violent. I don't usually read suspense, because I don't do well with it. I don't do well when put into the mind of psychopaths. I don't do well when reading about such things in a crime setting.
But in this particular book, I just wasn't expecting it. It didn't bother me much, but the synopsis made it sound more like a dystopian than a crime story, and while both were present, the crime seemed to overshadow the dystopian aspect and I'm sure that a lot of people will appreciate that, and I won't give it lower rating due to this, because it's my own fault that I didn't expect it. But it had more violence and gruesomeness than the other (very few) suspense novels I've read. And less description of the world than I would have liked to get a feel for it.
5. The answer to the mystery was quite obvious from the beginning.
All in all, I'm quite disappointed. I really don't like giving negative reviews, but there wasn't much I liked. The story had a great premise and I tried to like it, I really did, I had been looking forward to it for a long time!