3.5
"The car sped smoothly along the coast road..The man closed his eyes, and like a piece of twine the thought ran round and round inside his head that it would never be possible to look at such comfortable things and feel a real contempt for them. Envy, certainly, but not contempt. So how was a man ever going to be able to fight against all the things and all the loved ones who never ceased urging that nothing else mattered, that the way was not important, that the end of life was the getting of these comfortable things? For the self, or if not for the self, then for the loved ones, for the children. Nothing else mattered."
i remember seeing someone describe this book as "shit-encrusted" and boy was that somehow an underexaggeration. overall, it is a shame because this book has a lot of moments that are such a genuinely incisive and still ardently relevant examinations of class, colonialism, authority, bureaucracy, corruption, love, ghanian identity, disillusionment and poverty that are written so SO brilliantly that for me anyway, it's masterful. however, that doesn't hide the fact that up until the 40% mark, this was about as hard to get through as paragraphs of reading about shit-caked railings which funnily enough is what a good amount of this novel is about. i don't know if this is in some part owed to me e-reading this on my phone and how ayi kwei armah's long unbroken sentences and paragraphs made this feel longer. this book is incredibly surrealist, up until the 50% mark, nothing really happens - ayi kwei armah just more drills in the rot of corruption, his main character- only referred to as "the man"'s complex relationship with his wife and his children in which he is openly resented for resisting corruption due to it further degrading their quality of life while also being unable to truly express his thoughts. reminded me of catch-22 (SLIGHTLY!! ONLY SLIGHTLY!!) in that it mirrored the insanity of how "the man" is the only character who apart from the "teacher" resists materialism but is treated as a "criminal" because of it. the thing is- that i can't help thinking just how well ayi kwei armah ends up imbuing the themes in all of it's complexity of corruption - he shows the complexity of relationships that suffer due to impoverishment, of the relentless intergenerational cycle of poverty, of broken dreams and hopes that "The man" knows will be repeated, of the ludicrousness of 'politicans' and 'resistors' aliking themselves to almost messiahs - about how after people fought for independence, their goals remained afixing themselves to any means of attaining 'whiteness' the ways they could, by importing "New Zealand butter" and foreign beer and getting fancy cars. "But in my mind the time is buried under centuries now. True, I used to see a lot of hope. I saw men tear down the veils behind which the truth had been hidden. But then the same men, when they had power in their hands at last, began to find the veils useful. They made many more. Life has not changed. Only some people have been growing, becoming different, that is all. After a youth spent fighting the white man, why should not the president discover as he grows older that his real desire has been to be like the white governor himself, to live above all blackness in the big old slave castle? And the men around him, why not?...That is still anyone here ever struggles for: to be nearer the white man. All the shouting against the white men was not hate. It was love. Twisted, but love all the same. Just look around you and you will see it even now. Especially now."
this book takes the fucking cake when it comes to being the rankest book i've ever read and i fucking hope no novel i read ever tops it. literally had to give myself a break near the ending. i will say that seeing armah pull off the parallelism of shit, in that the politician ends up having the worst stench, of having to literally crawl through shit was incredibly satisfying as a metaphor to poverty and to moral corruption if not terrible to read.
i am very glad i read this because it definitely provided a lot of value, a lot of food for thought and so much of this book has incredibly writing that is worth and needs to be poured over. however, this was tortorous to read, not only because of the absurdist and pontificated prose but because of the extremely meandering structure. so. take that into account because it took me almost a month to read.
quotes i love:
- “I think of you as the freest person I know,” said the man.“Then everyone you know is a slave.”…“Yes, but I am not free. I have not stopped wanting to meet
the loved ones and to touch them and be touched by them. But you know that the loved ones are dead even when they walk around the earth like the living, and you know that all they want is that you throw away the thing in your mind that makes you think you are still alive, and their embrace will be a welcome unto death.”
- “ But perhaps the living dead could take some solace in the half-thought that there were so many others dead in life with them. So many, so frighteningly many, that maybe in the end even the efforts one made not to join them resulted only in another, more frustrating kind of living death.”
- “The man was left alone with thoughts of the easy slide and how everything said there was something miserable, something unspeakably dishonest about a man who refused to take and to give what everyone around was busy taking and giving: something unnatural, something very cruel, something that was criminal, for who but a criminal could ever be left with such a feeling of loneliness ?”
- “And there are many, so many, pushing us to the edge and praying that we jump any terrible how and also get close to the gleam, dragging them after us. The loved ones would be the first to curse fate if the would-be leaper landed in prison. The loved ones are also the first to look with longing at the prosperous leapers and everything the leap has got them. Revolving thoughts of speed, of Oyo and cars and drivers, and of accidents. Cowards only are afraid to drive. And Koomson has learned to drive. So the loved ones are in the lead when we are stripped of the little self-respect that remains at this age. The chichidodo. Nothing is left. We dwindle into nothing at all, with nowhere to stand. The pain, whatever one might wish to say, is truly unbearable when you see some twin of yours shoot like a star toward the gleam, so fast that he has light of his own to give.”
- “It would be the same for the children. They would grow up accustomed to senseless cycles, to cleaning work that left everything the same, to efforts that could only end up placing them at other people’s starting points, to the damning knowledge that the race would always be won by men on stilts, and they had not even been given crutches to help them. Perhaps one of them would one day break free from the horrible cycle of the powerless. Perhaps one of them would grow up and soar upward with so much power that there would be enough left over to pull the others also up. Dreams. Dreams to break the backs of children with. Dreams to give a moment’s peace to the parent who knows inside himself that things never work out that way.
- “So this was the real gain. The only real gain. This was the thing for which poor men had fought and shouted. This was what it had come to: not that the whole thing might be overturned and ended, but that a few black men might be pushed closer to their masters, to eat some of the fat into their bellies too. That had been the entire end of it all.”
- “My wife has seen the true salvation.”..“She talks about it, Teacher. It is the blinding gleam of beautiful new houses and the shine of powerful new Mercedes cars. It is also the scent of expensive perfumes and the mass of a new wig.”“Money, you mean.”
- “So I got angry enough to tell her I had seen corruption. Public theft.”“You were very ill-mannered. Unpatriotic, in fact.”“My mother-in-law walked out of my house.”“Good. Down with subversive elements who attack the nation’s fabric.”
- “You have all your freedom.”“That makes me far more of a criminal than you. You see me in the daytime and you think I am free. Perhaps you even imagine I am happy. So keep thinking that. It may give you something to hope for. But I tell you, those I have fled visit me in my dreams.”