In “Heaven Is Beautiful,” Rev. Peter Baldwin. Panagore engages the reader in an intimate and openly vulnerable manner. As such, we are drawn into the author's experience, internal process, and interpretation. Essentially the book has four distinct themes. On the surface it is a first person narrative of a deep-winter wilderness encounter including his first experience ice climbing. At this level the book grabs one immediately. Panagore manages to simultaneously explain the technicalities of winter camping and climbing to the uninitiated without letting it get in the way of helping us enter into the head and heart space of his 21-year-old self.
The second effort is perhaps the most noble as the author attempts what he acknowledges to be an impossible task: How does one narrate what is by definition ineffable? He wrestles with this repeatedly making sure we know that there are no words to convey the substance of his near-death experience (NDE) on the side of an ice cliff, because words themselves are limited symbols. And yet, with frequent reminders of the conundrum, Panagore plunges in. As warned, it left me feeling both eager to understand, and yet knowing I was unable to fully embrace what is by its very nature personal and intimate. However, the comfortable and
familiar manner of the prose helps the reader to simply trust, and enter into the author’s experience.
The narrative then shifts from an outdoor adventure to one of deep struggle as Rev. Panagore endeavors to live with the experience. Because he decided not to reveal it to anyone for years, the story is an internal one, bracketed by external events. We are drawn into a story of inner turmoil and struggle as he comes to grips with the aftermath of his NDE, working constantly to integrate it into his renewed sense of what it means to be alive and to be human. This, for me, was the most engaging part of the book.
Finally, interspersed throughout the narrative is Rev. Panagore’s effort to interpret his experience through the lens of 35 years of reflection. What does this all mean? While he easily draws on Christian scripture as illustration and metaphor to help him point to the indescribable, he never gets tangled in dogmatic or religious arguments about life after death and how it functions. He is not preaching about the afterlife, he is simply describing it as he experienced it on that mountain. He is less concerned with convincing the reader that his experience is authentic, but rather proceeds with the confidence that it is. This disarming confidence is replete throughout the book and caused me to evaluate the experience not as a skeptic or a believer, but as a curious observer.
In the end, I was not left wondering about the veracity of Panagore’s experience on the side of the ice-cliff. I was instead fascinated by the way the experience shaped his life: his focus, his work, his philosophy, his very existence. Some of this is not as simple or easy as the book’s title might convey. This book does not shy away from the pain and conflict that the NDE caused (and in many ways still causes) for the author. Indeed, the author’s definition of hell (not a physical place) is haunting and unsettling. The book is successful because instead of trying to convince the reader about the truth and nature of an afterlife, it instead gives one a sense that we should be focusing on our actions and behaviors’ in this life, attempting to live as loving and concerned people, and leaving our worry and fretting over the next life in the hands of a loving and compassionate God.