THIS WASN'T A PERFECT LOVE STORY - TUMULTOUS, BRIMMING WITH PRIDE AND THE CHARACTERS WILL MAKE YOU WANT TO TEAR YOUR HAIR OUT, but I loved it! The drama had me hooked, every page was a turner, and once again I'm convinced that Brenda Joyce is indeed one of my favourite classic regency authors.
It was love at first sight for Nicole and Hadrian, but there were too many obstacles in their way. Almost like forbidden romance before it turned into marriage of convenience. For one, Hadrian was engaged to his childhood friend - a woman the embodiment of a saint without a cruel streak in her body. And secondly, he was too honourable to ever back out of the engagement. Thirdly, their pride played a big factor in ruining their truces and softer moments.
HADRIAN's character spoke to me. He was deeply shaped by an abusive, money-spending and sodomite father who wasn't his true sire. Of course, he won't know that until later. Hadrian became the man completely opposite of his hated father - successful, honourable, protector and reliable. Both Hadrian and Nicole were strangers to love, and they handled their attraction rather badly.
The first obstacle of their love was obviously Hadrian's sickly fiancée. No matter that he doesn't love her apart from a brotherly love, he would marry Elizabeth. But, he was at crossed roads with his fierce, animalistic attraction towards Nicole. It was entertaining to see the straitlaced, composed and cool Hadrian losing his composure over a woman. As a Duke, I suppose he was entitled to pride and arrogance, and while he was demanding, he knew how to be sweet and sympathetic, also respectful to the people he cared about. Points for him!
The poor man doesn't know how to show or relay his affections to Nicole - later his wife. While their passion burned bright, they barely knew how to function outside the bedroom. IT WAS EXHAUSTING and FRUSTRATING at some point, because by then you just want to shove them into a room and demand they talk it out like ADULTS! There were plenty of reasons for Hadrian's behaviour and reluctance to admit his feelings to Nicole - his fear of rejection as his childhood abuse reflected, his pride or that he seriously was an idiot at love.
Some would claim their relationship toxic, because they're often shouting and screaming at each other if they're not having great sex. And Nicole's always jumping to conclusions without confronting Hadrian, making the situation worse. And Hadrian's stupid pride would allow his wife to rebel or run away from home, before he would hunt her down and carry her home. LOL! No one can say this book was boring. Like I said, tumultuous.
NICOLE would have been wonderful had she been less a virago and more soft-centered candy. Don't get me wrong, I did like her, but I wished she had set down her pride and hurtful words more often. While Nicole was the first to fall for Hadrian, my moral compass was screaming at her to NOT BE THE THIRD WHEELER MISTRESS even though Hadrian didn't love his fiancée. It just felt wrong! Years ago, she jilted her groom and society hadn't since forgiven her.
There were plenty of moments where the author created dramatic tension between the MCs whereby they were forced together in social gatherings, promised to leave each other alone (I can't count the number of goodbyes they said but never came true) yet still attacking each other's mouths with a delirious passion that left them reeling.
Throughout, I was more pissed at Nicole who prioritised her pride and heart. If she had fought for Hadrian harder, to soften him up and we all know you can catch flies better with honey than vinegar. For all her 'LOVE' for him, she wasn't showing a good example. That annoyed me immensely. (I know it was unfair to assume she knew how to handle her feelings, young as she was but, she was raised in a loving home compared to Hadrian. One would think she had a better understanding of love)
OVERALL the ending arrived too soon, and I was happy for Hadrian's mother who finally reunited with her love (Hadrian's real father), and also happy for the main characters. What I dislike about old school regency romances are how authors leave us hanging without an epilogue. I was disgruntled by how Hadrian and Nicole declared their love, AND THAT WAS IT...the last page!! So much for me gripping the edges of my seat to be left a little...wanting. I wanted to experience the calm before the storm, because this story was riddled with drama to the point where you'd love FOR ONCE to see Hadrian and Nicole interacting outside the bedroom without tearing each other's throats out.
Honestly, I loved it! Even if the drama could have easily solved had Hadrian and Nicole been honest and just talked it out. COMMUNICATION! But perhaps, if we were the ones in their shoes, whose to say we wouldn't have acted similarly? It's always easy to judge when you're looking from outside the window. My only lament? I wished the love scenes had been elaborated and steamier.
This would have been an epic TV drama. Modern day gossip girl etc etc.