The writing is terrible, the title and blurb misleading, and while I understand its difficult to break a cycle of abuse, with this one, I just dont get it. She makes remarks about the women also living in transition housing, essentially saying why bother, they're just going to go back to their abusive exes. ...And then she does exactly that, again and again and again. Maybe don't judge the other women in similar situations..at least they didnt get their children killed by lack of action.. And this was not a case of lack of support, lack of place to go. She mentions repeatedly how often she went to stay with family and how they welcomed her (but absolutely not Nelson) into their homes. Yet she still goes back again and again. Even acknowledging its a bad idea, even recognizing it was against advice of family, friends & the police.
The book felt very biased, not really about the trial or case at all, and frankly, she bears responsibility in those girls' deaths. She acknowledges that she witnessed him physically hurting them, that he had intentionally damaged a stroller so it would break when out for a walk, that he withheld food money clothes and shelter from her and the girls. That he had taken them farther away/somewhere else than what he originally said. That he hated them and hated when she cared for them. And yet she still allowed him to be alone with them, ultimately causing their deaths. And then she still goes back.
This book frustrated the hell out of me. It comes across as her just wanting everyone to see what a victim she is, while also not taking an ounce of responsibility of knowingly endangering those kids by bringing them back to him, staying with him again and again.
DNF at 79%