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386 pages, Mass Market Paperback
First published November 1, 2016
4.25 Stars
It shocked him—that desperate, obsessive need to consume her, to take all that she was into himself. To make what was hers, his. Her breath, her taste, her softness, and her need.
Avenell, the Earl of Harte, suffers from a crippling affliction of damaged nerves due to a sickness in his childhood that has made it painful for him to endure another’s touch. He has learned to keep his distance from others, to mask his pain from accidental touch through tightly honed control. And no one has managed to threaten his control until Lily Chadwick. She makes him feel too much, makes him yearn for something he knows he can’t have and he’s determined to keep his distance. Until he comes to her rescue, claiming her with the highest bid at an auction where she shouldn’t have been and suddenly he’s faced with the very woman he tried to avoid, who wants him to claim her and who he’s unable to refuse. But Avenell is broken in a way he can’t see anyone healing him, despite how much he wishes Lily could.
Goodness, she had wickedness in her. She had suspected its existence for some time but had not fully recognized it until she had first encountered this man.
Lily Chadwick is the quiet and demure sister. She’s always tried to be respectable, even though she yearns for something more. But when an immoral moneylender kidnaps Lily as payment for a loan owed to him by their deceased father and she’s put up for auction at a brothel, her rescue comes from the very man Lily has been fascinated by. And suddenly Lily is tired of denying her desire for more, to experience the passion she’s always dreamed of with the very man she’s secretly longed for. Offering herself to him feels daring and right. But can she save him like he saved her, or would he destroy them both in the end?
He made her feel…daring.
I have to say I struggled with Lily’s character at times. At first she appeared too timid for my liking, barely fighting back against her kidnapper and then the owner of the brothel, drinking the wine she was given, when clearly only an idiot would be so trusting and then ending up drugged. Then there was the way she kept on making googly eyes at Avenell, even though he kept rejecting her or behaving cold towards her. I would have preferred if she had made him work a little harder for her affections especially since he kept trying to keep his distance from her and in the end hurting her. But on the other hand I admired her boldness, the way she was so sure that he felt the same way about her and how she fought for him and for what she believed they could have. I also liked the confidence she felt after agreeing to be Avenell’s mistress, how she finally gave into the passionate nature she’s been hiding for so long. There’s something to be said of a woman who is bold enough to go after what she wants and brave enough to fight for love.
The intensity of his reaction to her stunned him. No matter what he had done to avoid her, to deny the feelings she invoked, it had all led her to him anyway. And he had never wanted anything as much as he craved the feel of her touch.
Avenell on the other hand I really liked. Broken heroes are like catnip to me, especially the cold-hearted ones who just needed the right woman to make them lose control. At first glance Avenell appeared so indifferent and his treatment of Lily in the beginning upset me but from his POV you could see the true depth of his feelings for her and the fear he felt for not being enough, that his affliction would make her reject him. He tried so desperately to keep his control around her, to not reveal just how much he needed and wanted her but he just couldn’t stay away from her.
“You exist in everything. You have become a part of me,” he murmured thickly. “I cannot breathe without you.”
I enjoyed the romance and the sexy times were very hot and sensual because Avenell demanded that he be the only one doing the touching and how he did the exploring and introducing her to pleasure was pretty hot. I loved how patient Lily was with him, how she understood him so well, seeing beneath his icy demeanor to the fire that burned for her and I loved how much Avenell craved Lily, how much he yearned for her touch despite the pain he knew he would feel. I also loved how both changed over the course of the book, Lily embracing her passionate side and Avenell learning to hope and to trust in someone else. The concept of the hero being unable to stand the touch of others has been done before in historical romance and I think the way it was done in this book was my least favorite so far. I didn’t like how Avenell’s affliction was handled, it was such a major obstacle during the book for them and then so easily resolved in the end which didn’t work for me. I also didn’t like that Lily was basically the main pursuer of their relationship, I would have wanted Avenell to fight a bit more and harder to be with her.
I must say I like how the author has written this series – every book takes place during the same time but giving us the different view point of each Chadwick sister and their experiences. Next is Portia’s book and I’m really excited to see how this headstrong heroine’s story will go.
This is my second book by this author and I adored the previous book, Luck is no Lady, and although I didn’t love this one as much as the first one, I still enjoyed it very much. This author is a must read for all HR fans.






Summary
The truth was so clear. From the very beginning, she had belonged to him, but not as a mistress belonged to her protector. Lily was his as his was hers. She was a part of him He was a part of her. He could not exist without her.
