Dog Medicine: How My Dog Saved Me From Myself

by Julie Barton

At twenty-two, Julie Barton collapsed on her kitchen floor in Manhattan. She was one year out of college and severely depressed. Summoned by Julie's incoherent phone call, her mother raced from Ohio to New York and took her home.

Psychiatrists, therapists and family tried to intervene, but nothing reached her until the day she decided to do one hopeful thing: adopt a Golden Retriever puppy she named Bunker.

Dog Medicine captures in beautiful, elegiac language the anguish of depression, the slow path to recovery, and the astonishing way animals can heal even the most broken hearts and minds.

ADVANCE PRAISE

“Dog Medicine is the kind of memoir that will bring tears of sadness and joy to anyone who has ever felt rescued by a pet. It is a memoir about how the right animal can inspire not just hope but mercy. Julie Barton’s prose is lyrical and unflinching, a gorgeous howl in the darkness that leads the reader into the light.”

— Steve Almond, author of Against Football and Candyfreak

“Anyone who has ever opened their heart and asked an animal to teach them how to live—and there are so many of us—will be deeply moved by the story of Julie Barton and her soulmate Bunker. In this honest, gloriously unselfconscious and compelling memoir, she does great honor, not only to her dog, but to the miracles made possible when logic, and even language, is not allowed to stand in the way of love.”

— Pam Houston, author of Sight Hound and Contents May Have Shifted.

Julie Barton’s memoir "Dog Medicine" is the most heartbreaking and heartwarming book I’ve read in years. It tells both the harrowing story of a depression so severe that Barton felt it might “vaporize her into millions of tiny molecules” and the consoling story of her eventual recovery through the love of and for her beloved dog and “spirit twin,” Bunker. Reader, this book about how Barton’s dog changed her life will change your life.
— David Jauss, author of "Glossolalia: New & Selected Stories."

It is not easy to explore the frightening landscape of depression with depth and surprising beauty. But Julie Barton has done just that. As someone who has lived with chronic depression for many years, I can tell you from personal experience how daunting and misunderstood this disease is. Not surprising that it takes the love and loyalty and unwavering sanity of a dog — any pet, really — to reach those of us struggling to find a way through the grips of melancholy. This, I know from experience, too. Read this book if you or someone you love is wrestling with depression. Read this book if you love dogs. Read this book if you want to remember what hope feels like. Just read this book.
— Susan Chernak McElroy, New York Times bestselling author of "Animals as Teachers" and "Healers."

There are times when another creature can hold our love until we can hold it for ourselves. And then, in perfect symbiosis, the beloved can become the lover, until they are one force. Dog Medicine shows us that this is not just possible, but sometimes, a matter of life or death.
— Laura Munson, New York Times bestselling author of "This Is Not The Story You Think It Is"

"Dog Medicine" accomplishes what only the most authentic writing can do: craft language so that readers live an experience. In this brilliant and lyrical debut memoir, Barton has written a narrative of inescapable appeal. The bond, here, between human and animal isn’t easy or sentimental— rather, it’s archetypal and magical. There is a Buddhist story of a Bodhisattva, an enlightened one, who refused to enter paradise until an ailing companion dog could also enter. "Dog Medicine" relates an equally powerful story of devotion, only related in real, worldly terms with heartbreaking consequences and rewards.
— Sue William Silverman, author of "The Pat Boone Fan Club: My Life as a White Anglo-Saxon Jew."

You may think you’re about to read a book about a charming dog, or about struggling with identity in your twenties, or about how a young woman pulls herself together after a diagnosis of depression. But you’d be wrong. "Dog Medicine" is a love story—a great big beautiful honest touching intoxicating riveting page-turning instruction manual on the palpable healing power of love and forgiveness. Every word in this book is as honest and courageous as any I’ve ever read, and I’ve read a lot.
— Robin Oliveira, New York Times bestselling author of "My Name is Mary Sutter."

Julie Barton’s wise, wonderful, impeccably written memoir is not just a book about how a puppy can help keep at bay the gray wolf of depression. It’s also a book filled with love stories and stories of people finding their better selves, all dramatized with novelistic suspense and complexity. In this age of hour-long therapy shows and sensationalistic self-depiction, Barton’s book holds true wisdom as it tells the hard-earned truths of mental illness, self-doubt, abuse, hope, family, forgiveness, connection with self and othe...

Genres: Nonfiction, Memoir, Animals, Dogs, Biography, Biography Memoir, Health

249 pages, Kindle Edition

First published November 10, 2015

About the author

Julie Barton's memoir, Dog Medicine, will be published July 19, 2016.

Pam Houston calls Dog Medicine, "honest, gloriously unselfconscious and compelling." Steve Almond says, "Julie Barton’s prose is lyrical and unflinching, a gorgeous howl in the darkness that leads the reader into the light." David Jauss says, "Dog Medicine is the most heartbreaking and heartwarming book I’ve read in years."

Julie has an MFA in writing from Vermont College of Fine Arts and she lives in the Bay Area with her husband, two children, and small menagerie of pets. For more information, visit byjuliebarton.com

Reviews

[Pam Daghlian · Rating 5 out of 5]

Dog Medicine is a story of returning from the brink.

Julie’s book wrecked me in the best way. Her writing sings when she writes about Bunker and you want her to do anything for him. For those of us who love dogs, we know what a wag of the tail, a poke of the nose, a crawling into a lap can do for the spirit. A dog saves us without knowing he is doing so. He’s just being a dog, the rest is a kind of magic, which Julie captures so amazingly in Dog Medicine.

I have never sobbed while reading a book. Which is kind of crazy considering I was an English major, then a bookseller, then worked in publishing — which is to say, I have read a ton of books in my lifetime. But none made me have to move to another room so my sobbing wouldn’t wake my husband. None have made me sit on my couch in the dark and cry for a good while. Or cause my own dog to come and sit next to me. As if he knew I was crying for the author, a dog I never met, but also for him, for all he has done for me and for the day that will inevitably come — the day he is gone. It was a beautiful cry. One that made me appreciate my own lucky mental health and more deeply appreciate what my dog brings to my life.

This book is well worth your time. Maybe just don't read it in public. And if you do, bring an onion, a knife, and a cutting board so you can blame it on that.

[Camie · Rating 3 out of 5]

I was previewing this for my daughter, who burdened with chronic illness has a special and healing bond with her animals ( especially her rescued Pit Bull Luna) and will totally be able to relate here. This is Julie Landon's ( 2015) memoir about Bunker Hill the lovable, oafish, Golden Retriever who though partially broken himself , helps her recover from clinical depression. Landon has a MFA in writing , so along with being inspirational it's nicely written too. 3.5 stars

Thanks to everyone who recommended other good books with a similar theme ( healing power of animals) for my daughter. Much appreciated !!!

[Adam Wahlberg · Rating 5 out of 5]

I was greatly moved by Julie's story of resiliency in the face of severe depression, and thrilled to be introduced to the dog who helped restore her to life, the unforgettable and irresistible Bunker. A glorious memoir, one I highly recommend for anyone who struggles with moods, loves dogs, or just is up for a great read. I feel extraordinarily grateful to have read an advance copy of this book, which I feel is destined to become a classic in the annals of wellness literature.

[Karen J · Rating 4 out of 5]

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I absolutely loved this incredible true story especially since I am a huge lover of dogs.

[Kevin Krein · Rating 2 out of 5]

oh julie barton.
what happened to your rabbit? i guess that's what i'd like to know. i know the book isn't called 'rabbit medicine,' but living in new york, before your mental breakdown, you had a rabbit you kept in a small cage. you carted it back to ohio with you. then you never mentioned it again.
i guess that mistreatment of an animal is what impacted me the most about this book.
i work at a bookstore on weekends and staring at me from the 'new release' table was a copy of 'dog medicine.' i saw the subtitle and thought, well shit, this seems like a book i should read. so i skimmed bits and pieces of it during my shift, and i thought why not. i bought it.
i understand what depression does to you. believe me. maybe i am as unlikeable of a character in my own life as you wind up being in your memoir. trying to get better, even with the help of a dog purchased from a breeder (ugh) barton still makes destructive choices in an attempt to push away anyone who shows her kindness.
i've never used the expression 'trigger warning' before, but a story like this should come with one. we adopted a companion rabbit who had a lot of health problems and then passed away a year after we thought we were in the clear. despite my efforts to move beyond my grief, this book inadvertently brought back a lot of those feelings of hopelessness.

[Sandi G. · Rating 3 out of 5]

Dog Medicine is more a journal than a novel. Therein lies my problem with it. The author describes her experiences growing up, her journey through clinical depression with suicidal ideation, and her eventual attachment to her dog. Depressed people can be self centered, it's one of the characteristics of the disorder. It is difficult to get outside your own head if what is in your head is terrifying, dangerous and chaotic. That singular point of view doesn't really make for a great book. The author honestly paints a picture of a fairly self centered and privileged life, and she describes her journey step by step. She relates her abuse at the hand of her older brother, and the way she invested her mental health and her very life in the well being of her dog. Indeed, dogs have proven to be useful in therapy, and service dogs have helped many patients cope with PTSD, autism, and many other conditions. I admit to weeping at a part of this book, but even though I was touched by some of the events, the telling of the story was a little too subjective and personal for me to consider it a great read. While I am sure that writing this was therapeutic for the author, we unfortunately only hear the story from her point of view. I am very pleased to learn that she has had a successful life and has overcome, or learned to live with, her depression. I am truly happy that she was able to derive so much comfort and strength from the love for her dog. Is a dog a panacea for mental health? Probably not. Dogs die eventually. We can't put all our hope in a dog or any another individual. But a dog can be a helpful part of a recovery plan that includes consistent treatment such as therapy, medication, and medical supervision.

[Producervan · Rating 5 out of 5]

Dog Medicine how a Dog Saved Me From Myself, A Memoir by Julie Barton. Softcover edition. ©2016. Penguin books. Nonfiction. 238 pages.

Wonderful must-read book about the soulful love and loyalty between a woman and her golden retriever, and their healing relationship. Picked this up at the thrift. Highly recommend.

[Violeta · Rating 1 out of 5]

I wanted to love this book but hated it. The writing style and unlikeability of the narrator, I could live with...but I got halfway through and had to stop because I was so bothered by the inconsistencies in the writer's attitudes towards animals (see: her childhood dogs, her bunny, her rescue dog in NYC...) And reading the last chapter, her selfishness in the face of Bunker's end of life suffering made me furious. I am glad some people have connected with this story and found it helpful, but I haven't so strongly disliked a book in a long time and wouldn't recommend it.

[Kathleen · Rating 3 out of 5]

If this rating was just for Bunker, I give him five stars - I loved stories about him and what a good boy he is (oh yes he is! Who's a good boy? Who is? You are, Bunker!!) However, we don't really get to meet Bunker until about 100 pages into the book. This is Julie's story, and how the pup changed her life. I won this book in a Goodreads giveaway and I will admit to signing up for the giveaway after seeing the cover. I was a sucker for Bunker before the book was in my hand.

Julie's story begins with her debilitating depression following her breakup with a boyfriend she'd moved to New York to be with. I give her credit for exposing herself in this way, as it can't be easy for a writer to open herself up like she has. Perhaps it's due to my own experience, but I didn't find her struggles enlightening as much as I felt some residual depression and darkness in reading about her struggle. I was waiting for some moments of self-awareness, but instead read so many chapters of her treating herself poorly, and many times treating others poorly as well. I'm sure it's accurate, but it was harder for me to get through as it began to feel repetitive. I finished the book this evening with one hand holding the book and the other petting my dad's 11-year dog who moved in with me last year when he became too sick to take care of him. My own dose of dog medicine.

[Margot Rose · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'm halfway through; it's a wide open hearteded & spiritual read. If you believe in the mystical connection we share with the animal world, if you like authentic literary voices, read this lovely book.
On finishing Julie's book, not only did I weep like a baby, I was enriched. The reader walks away not only with having read a wonderful memoir, but also with an extra shot of faith in the possibility for healing the soul with connection, wherever it's found.

[MaryTR · Rating 2 out of 5]

I hesitated to even review this book, because I didn't like the main character, who is, because this is a memoir, the author. Maybe I wasn't as sympathetic to her depression as I should be, granted. But her savior, the most important being in her life, didn't even SHOW UP until almost halfway into the book. For the first half of the book, I had to read, over and over again, about her abuse, her desire to commit suicide, all the problems and issues that she endured. Then, and this is the part that really made me almost quit reading the book, she waited FOUR MONTHS to take her dog to the vet after the first indication that he needed help. Given how important he purportedly was to her, her unwillingness to do the simplest, kindest thing for her beloved dog simply smacked of hypocrisy. Ok, she had issues. Got it. But seriously? If you are planning to read this book because you think it's going to be a feel-good story of a woman and her dog, I say, don't. Read Amazing Gracie, by Dan Dye, instead.

[Stephen Wallace · Rating 4 out of 5]

I am going to rate Dog Medicine 4 stars as a ‘dog’ book. From the standpoint of a true story of a lady dealing with and recovering from depression, I give it 5 stars. I am always impressed when people can completely bare their soul and story. I know it is the best way for others to learn and deal with their own stuff, and we all have stuff.

As I often do with my reviews, I will add some excerpts from the book, first on her depression and then on the dog:

‘The sorrow on that lonely walk back to my apartment was like the strike of lightning that cracked the dam. I didn’t know this then, but depression can be like a slow leak. Once the dam’s hit, water starts to seep through and as the days and weeks go by, the crack grows bigger.’

‘Then, as was my habit, I placed this diagnosis right next to all the other diagnoses I’d absorbed over the years. Ugly, Weird, Stupid, Fat, Unlikable, please meet your newest teammate: Depressed.’

‘My favorite place was officially the dark crease between the cushions on the back of the couch. My face felt best pushed deep into that crack. Sensory deprivation had become the only way to comfort myself. I needed to be alone with no light, no sounds, no smells, and as little air circulation as possible. The breeze from an opened door hurt my skin.’

Then hope comes in the form of a golden retriever puppy:

'I studied each page with surprising focus and found myself returning to golden retrievers: easy to train, loyal, big, great running partners, and beautiful. A family dog. My new family.'

‘In that moment, of course, I knew. There he was. I hadn’t been forced to choose; I’d been chosen. I picked him up and he licked my nose. He smelled like dirt and metal and wet dog. My dog had found me.’

‘It was as if the moment I picked him up, I felt lifted. Already I couldn’t fathom the thought of ever letting him go. I felt a perceptible shift the moment I met him. A reuniting. A lifting. A glimpse of hope.’

‘The blackness fizzled when I touched this dog, and in their place appeared a quite calm.’

‘I couldn’t imagine treating myself kindly, with gentle understanding. But I could, without question, do that for my dog. Perhaps part of what began to save me was that I started creating this sacred, safe space where he and I met. In this space, there was not ridicule. There was no doubt or loneliness. There was no sorrow or anger. It was just pure, beautiful being. It was us looking at the world with wide-eyed, forever hopeful puppy wonder.’

‘I took a deep breath and felt the blackness loosen its grip. Dog medicine. I’d found it, and I swallowed it whole.’

When you go down a long rough path with someone, it feels great when you can find a way to pull out of the darkness with them. We can learn with them. Even though stupid mistakes. It gives us hope we can pull out of stuff we may have to deal with it. I particularly liked this lesson we have to remind ourselves of:

‘What if I just decided that all of those mistakes were teachings? Maybe all of those choices I’d made were so that I could learn that what I wanted wasn’t drama and sorrow, just love: love in the way Bunker gave love. Unconditional. No expectations. No strings. Just love, because what is more beautiful than that?’

In summary, if you are looking for a ‘dog’ book I may recommend other books, depending on what you like, but if you like a nice true-life story of recovery and hope (with a dog) then I would recommend this book. It is one currently in Wesley Banks ‘100 best dog stories of all time’ so I can check off having read another one from that list, but I disagree with it being one of the best ‘dog’ stories though.

PS: if you are one who doesn’t like to read dog books when Kleenex is needed at the end of the book, then just don’t read the Epilogue. But you would miss other great stuff that is in the Epilogue. But really, I just recommend you getting over the inevitable we all have to face in order to enjoy all the great joy that is a dog, or that is in a great book with a dog.

[Astrid Langeveld · Rating 3 out of 5]

Julie Barton is schrijver en woont in Californië met haar man en twee kinderen. Ze publiceerde artikelen in onder meer The Huffington Post. Mijn hond, mijn redding is haar debuut.

Het boek gaat over Julie Barton. Als ze op 22-jarige leeftijd instort op de keukenvloer van haar appartement in New York, ziet ze in dat het zo niet langer kan. Een psychiater stelt vast dat Julie, dan net afgestudeerd en begonnen met haar eerste baan, lijdt aan een ernstige depressie. Hoewel therapeuten, familie en vrienden haar proberen te helpen, lijkt niemand in staat haar te bereiken. De weg uit de duisternis begint pas met de komst van een golden retriever-pup, die ze Bunker noemt. Hij is een reden om op te staan, omdat Julie voor hem moet zorgen. Barton schrijft helder en rauw over de schijnbare uitzichtloosheid van een depressie.

Ik ben een liefhebber van boeken met dieren, maar ik had met dit boek heel veel moeite om er in te komen. Richting het einde toe wilde ik het dan wel weer meteen uit lezen. Daarom geef ik het ook 3 sterren.

[James · Rating 5 out of 5]

Heartfelt. Made me laugh, made me cry. This story really touched me. I highly recommend this book. Won courtesy of Goodreads Giveaway.

[Marie Lund Alveberg · Rating 5 out of 5]

Dette ble nok en i overkant subjektiv rating. Men boken må få toppscore fordi den så inderlig vakkert skildrer betydningen en hund kan ha. Boken utgjør en hyllest til disse vakre skapningene, som fyller livene våre med betingelsesløs kjærlighet og glede.

Hunden fortjener sannelig flere skriftfestede historier som denne! De av oss som har vært så heldige å få leve med en Bunker, vi vet hvor verdifullt et hundeliv er 🐾❤️

[Sara · Rating 1 out of 5]

I should have trusted my gut and bailed on this when they bought the dog from a back yard breeder. And when the author glosses over how childhood pets died, and what ever happened to that poor rabbit? As a person who shares a lot in common with the author (love of dogs & Seattle, long history of terrible depression, complicated relationship with family, etc) I expected this book to speak to me. Unfortunately it just made me mad over and over. This is a selfish account of a young woman's need to be constantly saved by others and ignore the needs of others. After many incidents that made her wonder if she should take Bunker to the vet (YES, if you are wondering if your pet needs to go to the vet, you should already be there), she finally takes him in to find he has the worst case of hip displasia the vets had ever seen (this is why we do not buy dogs from back yard breeders!!!). She puts him through two terrible, painful surgeries. Then we really don't get to hear much about the rest of his life. At the end of his life, he is suffering and she prolongs his suffering, "I had 24 hours to come to terms with his death," -- no, she had 11 years to come to terms with it and the responsibility to not let her dog suffer. The most important thing we can do for our animals is to put our desire to keep them alive for our own selfishness aside and end their suffering. Death is not the worst thing that can happen, suffering is -- a person with depression should know that better than anyone. Yes, it hurts like hell to make that decision, but that is the deal you sign up for when you love a dog. I stuck with the book to the end, thinking there'd be some kind of lessons learned wrap up (like why you should not buy a dog from a back yard breeder at least? how she gave back to others with depression? ) but there was none of that.

[Laura · Rating 2 out of 5]

Oddly for a memoir about a relationship for an animal, the dog's personality doesn't come through very clearly; he never truly features as a well-rounded character. The book may be of greater appeal to those who are interested in the mental health aspects of the story. There were quite a few moments where the author's choices seemed to be primarily about what she wanted rather than putting the needs of the animal first (disappointment that a petrified rabbit wouldn't go for a walk on the busy streets of NYC, ignoring her dog's alarming medical symptoms for many months). I was hoping the epilogue would contain a few words of advice about animal health, for example the reasons why it is wise to avoid backyard breeders and, if you are going to buy a purebred puppy, choose a reputable breeder who will screen for health issues such as the one her dog suffered from. I wondered if she ever reflected on the wisdom of her family's decision to locate a puppy via a newspaper ad and then purchase one from someone who would sell to a family without all the preliminary background checks, home visits, etc. that responsible breeders engage in. The narration in the audio version is very flat.

[Evan · Rating 1 out of 5]

Got to page 45 and decided this is not a book that I want to continue reading. Life is tough enough without struggling through a blow by blow description of this woman's breakdown and flashbacks to the abuse she suffered in childhood. As another reviewer stated she was hoping for a book about the healing love of a dog. I know eventually the dog will show up in the story, but when I went to write this review I saw in other reviews that the poor dog has health issues. Nope. Next book I read will be uplifting. I will pass on this one.

[Nancy · Rating 4 out of 5]

Childhood trauma left author Julie Barton with crippling negative self-talk and a major depressive breakdown. Leaving behind her New York City job and unhealthy love affair she returned to her Ohio family. With help from her parents, doctors, and therapists she underwent treatment. But it was the love for a dog, Bunker Hill, that ultimately gave Barton purpose and the unconditional love she desperately needed.

Barton audaciously takes a chance on life again, with Bunker at her side. When Bunker is discovered to have a congenital defect she had to choose to save his life through painful and expeensive surgeries, or euthanize him.

I read Dog Medicine: How My Dog Saved Me From Myself, A Memoir, for National Dog Day. Barton describes her life long struggle with self esteem and depression with no holds, vividly exposing depression's insiduous destruction. Her chronicle culminates in the salvation found in a warm body with big brown eyes, the joy of a puppy's unconditional love. Barton also must learn to trust herself and to accept that forgiveness, of one's self as well as forgiving others, is a necessary part of moving on.

"What if I decided that all of those mistakes were teachings? Maybe all of those choices I'd made were so that I could learn that what I wanted wasn't drama and sorrow, just love, love in the way Bunker gave love. Unconditional. No expectations. No strings. Just love, because what is more beautiful than that?"

Dog lovers, anyone who has struggled with depression or self esteem issues or childhood abuse, and those who enjoy honest and beautifully written memoirs will enjoy Dog Medicine.

[Mary Birnbaum · Rating 4 out of 5]

I have some experience with depression and what it can do to people, so I opened this book with caution bordering on skepticism. What could Dog Medicine tell me that I didn't already know? What I discovered was not new truth about clinical depression. Instead, Barton gives us a lesson in mercy. Sometimes in life (on the internet, in self-help, in therapy) we are reminded to be merciful to ourselves. But here, what got me crying late at night was a demonstration of the unbounded mercy and mystery of animals and what happens when we let them do their work. They are better than us at love, and this being good at love (yes, as if it were a skill) is indicated quietly, in subtle, animal ways. It's patient and non-judgmental and thorough. The sweetness of dogs can read like a primer for us.
Barton's writing flutters between simple and poetic. It's always honest. It's always a heartfelt effort to share her love with Bunker with us. This seems like the natural reaction to having been saved by someone or something: a thank-you note. A love letter. Closing the book, I felt Bunker's loss, too.

[Melinda · Rating 5 out of 5]

I received an ARC through Goodreads.
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Wow! That was an intense and inspirational read. Depression is no joke, and it is becoming widely acknowledged.

I love how Julie wove her story and her struggle with that of Bunker. It was like them coming together was meant to be, they were clearly made to be there for each other. You can feel the unconditional love and support between the two, especially during the rough, dark and ugly times. Depression is not easily understood, but Julie somehow managed to give us a glimpse of it and allows us the readers to peek into the mind of someone suffering from depression.

It is amazing how a pet (more like a friend) can be your lifeline and help push away those demons and provide unlimited comfort and love. Bunker certainly loved a very happy life, even through his painful surgeries (which I teared up and winced every step of the way as Julie describes everything).

Thank you Julie, for sharing your story of your battle with depression and how Bunker lighted your way to taming those bad thoughts and finding happiness.

[Ann · Rating 2 out of 5]

While this might be a good story about a relationship with a dog, it is a hugely oversimplified book for those dealing with major depression. The author never discusses with her parents, let alone her brother, the severe physical abuse by her brother that she suffered for years as a child and that her parents clearly knew about. She has therapy for only a few months before heading off to a new city where she does not seek out a therapist for who knows how long. She takes one medication that seems to magically work when often it requires several different medication tries, as she acknowledges toward the end of the book. The dog does it all while the author skirted around/avoided too many issues that others with severe depression face. This is a story about a dog who helped one woman, but surely not a helpful story for others in her condition.

[Morgan · Rating 4 out of 5]

"It was hard to comprehend, but our meeting felt like two magnets clacking together, two universes colliding, two hands clasping. I was absolutely sure that this was my dog and that I was meant to find him...the way Bunker loved me, so fully, clearly, and without exception, helped me remember every day to try to bring that kind of love to myself and others in my life."

As somebody who has been lucky enough to love two extraordinary (and extraordinarily different) dogs, this book was like a jolt of lightning straight to my heart. I related to Barton's story on nearly every level and it left me feeling enormously grateful for the opportunity to have saved - and been saved by - two of the best dogs this world has ever seen.

[Erica · Rating 3 out of 5]

As someone whose dog has also helped her cope with clinical depression, I wanted to like this book a lot more than I did. But like others have noted, I was turned off by her dismissive attitude to her other pets (what happened to that rabbit?!) and wish more time in the book would have been spent on Bunker stories rather than her dating life and other dramas. Bunker didn't seem like a fully developed character in the book, he was more like a prop.

[Jordan · Rating 4 out of 5]

A sweet, and sometimes dark, book about the creeping evil of depression, and the tender way that the animal-human bond can heal.

[Margie Dewind · Rating 2 out of 5]

I was distressed by the poor care the author and her family gave to the various pets in their lives.

[Rita · Rating 4 out of 5]

**I received a copy of this book from the publishers via Goodreads Giveaways.**

I just finished the book and I am a sobbing mess. This book touched me greatly, but surprisingly not in the ways that the author probably anticipated. The moments that I really connected with weren't actually heavily related to her relationship with her dog (except at the end). Throughout my life, I have dealt with depression and anxiety and I am completely familiar with those all-consuming feelings of self-hate and complete darkness. I felt that Barton did a beautiful job at putting those feelings into words. I connected so deeply to her struggles not only before her official diagnosis, but also further on as she grapples with self-sabotage with her romantic relationships. I found Barton's writing to be poignant and heartfelt and I found myself cheering her on throughout her memoir, fully relating to her plight. Her constant emotional struggles, despite the feeling that her depression has gone away, and the way she distances herself from those around her really mirrored the way I lived through the darkest years of my life.

I really enjoyed the first half of the book, and found myself lacking that same connection during the beginning of the second half, once she gets her dog. I've never owned a pet before, nor had any sort of companion animal in my life and couldn't really relate to the way she took to caring for him and healed together with him. I do feel that those who have gone along more similar paths as Barton would find this book a wonderful message letting them know they are not alone. I'm so happy to have been able to read this book and reflect on my own mental illness, finding the strength to continue learning to be kinder to myself and to accept kindness as it comes.

[Julie · Rating 5 out of 5]

I never knew i was a dog person, until i met my Homer. Just like Bunker, Homer came into my life at just the right time. When I met him, I knew immediately that he was supposed to be my dog. It was really one of the strangest experiences of my life.

[Ashley · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5⭐️

[Heather Fineisen · Rating 3 out of 5]

I liked Bunker the dog more than the author. Despite the author's bout with depression, she presents herself as selfish in her decision-making. This is a sad story for both.