“The thing about love is sometimes you have to decide if you want to be right, or if you want to be happy.”
Ever the romantic I’m always rooting for a couple to reconcile. This second chance story about true love took my emotions for a chaotic ride. For once, I couldn’t want that, right? But darn it all if the author didn’t sway me, she made me go there and I’m still not sure if I should find that frightening or comforting.
Centered around the marriage of Nina and Shane, we join the story as Nina is reflecting about how they fell in love. But she also recalls some of the early rocky moments in their relationship. It’s standard stuff; the fear of giving one's heart away, the possibilities of betrayal and the ensuing broken heart and that much needed leap of faith needed to enter into a relationship. This nostalgia draws us in and when the story line comes to the present time, 5+ years on, we see two people at odds and a family in tatters. It's not far into the story before we understand WHY. Nichols writes a profoundly moving story depicting the of disintegration of marriage, maybe not all due chemical addiction and mental illness, but certainly this is the primary cause.
I spent the entirety of my reading experience in a heightened state of anxiety. At near the 50% mark, I questioned “How would it be possible for this couple to come back from this?” Nichols keeps the story incredibly real with the details of what Nina is going through; in everything from practical matters such as having a cell phone, to the larger picture of care for their special needs daughter. It’s this big picture concern that compels Nina to recognize what she’s known for a long while; as the wife of an addict she’ll never know peace living with this man.
Shane is nothing near the loving man we meet in Nina’s memories. Addiction has a strong hold on him as he lies to Nina and friends to manipulate the situation. It’s clear that his mixed cocktail of self prescribed medications contributes to his state of delusion. You can’t escape the sense of foreboding when more than once, and in happier times, Shane says to Nina “Now you’re trapped...completely stuck until I let go of you,...”. It's pure torture to be in Nina’s head as she deals with Shane’s threats and with the love she still feels for him.
I had that sinking feeling through 90% of the story that his antics, his plays were purely to set Nina up. He’s been so good at lying and failing to keep his promises that I didn’t feel like we could expect anything more than the same. And Nina is smart, so when she’s expressing her conflicting feelings and starts playing the game of “maybe…” , I started muttering curses, of course that was when I was not holding my breathe. I soo wanted to believe that he’s being honest and it’s maddening to want that, but not be able to trust it. Which is exactly the point.
I have to believe Nichols is a romantic as she clearly believes in third and fourth chances. For Nina and Shane, that may not even be enough. She does a beautiful job depicting a family picking up their broken pieces (a.k.a. shards) and working towards healing themselves as well as their relationship. Nina is an incredibly strong woman and not the fool I was a bit afraid she might become. The Truth About Love is an amazing read with the fast pace of a woman in survival mode all while nursing her disappointment and broken heart. Dare she try to trust again? This is the first of any of books that I’ve read - you can believe it won’t be the last.