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A Life Half Lived: A True Story of Love, Addiction, Tragedy, and Hope

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Twenty year-old Speedy Chase Rodgers seemed to have it all. His family loved him dearly. His generosity and sense of humor made him popular among his peers. His speed, agility, and competitive nature made him a force to be reckoned with on the football field. Young ladies were drawn to his good looks, quiet charm, and spontaneity. How will his family and friends cope when Chase makes choices that ultimately lead to his death in a tragic car wreck? A Life Half Lived gives the reader a glimpse inside the modern drug culture and the consequences that come with it.

230 pages, Kindle Edition

Published November 28, 2015

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Profile Image for Bernard Jan.
Author 12 books226 followers
February 5, 2023
A sad and touching story. A lesson to be learned. Both for teenagers and their parents, whose overprotectiveness can suffocate and distance their children from them. Sometimes love is just letting them live and learn from their own mistakes. In situations like this one with drug abuse, it is the hardest part. Love really hurts.
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1,154 reviews47 followers
April 9, 2019
A story half written...

Full disclosure: I had to talk myself into finishing this book, and I'm still not sure that was the right choice. The author is judgmental, rude, verbally lashes out at his son's friends, pushes his son into things he's not interested in, and cites the Bible.

An example:

"I kept up with Chase on Facebook by watching his posts, Lilith’s posts, and the posts of some of the other people they were hanging out with. Chase was looking thinner and paler by the day. They appeared to be holed up in a hotel room some of the time. Lilith’s best friend was a homosexual male who had blonde hair and was also very pale and thin. There was a wide variety of other people Lilith liked to pal around with, drug addicts, alcoholics, and gangsta wanna-bes. It was easy to tell what kind of people they were by looking at their Facebook timelines. "

...And now you're debating about finishing my judgmental, rude review. Fair enough...

Reading further, this isn't a memoir. It's a eulogy given by a father too broken to speak at his son's service. It's a confession of difficult moments, and poor choices by that same father when raising his son. It's lashing out in desperation to keep the demons of addiction - seen as his friends - away from his son. It's a prayer of gratitude for his son, for the shining, golden, beautiful memories left behind. And it's a howl of anguish for the lost potential and life cut short.

Children don't have instructions; much of the objectionable behavior was likely a father desperate to save his son from himself. Emotion overrides logic in times like that, and he does acknowledge his own failings at the end of the book. I wish the author and his family peace.

That said, it seems the main audience for this book is the author and his family. He's harsh about most of Chase's friends, disclosing more than he should. While in distress for much of the book, I still wince at his interpersonal skills, which seem to elevate him among most others in his mind. Perhaps it would help families of addicts to show their experience is shared... But I fit that description and it still left me uncomfortable on a number of levels.
Profile Image for Asha Greye.
Author 5 books3 followers
December 5, 2017
A Relentless Father's Struggle For His Rebellious Son

You don't want to criticize or judge someone who has lost their child, but Mr.Rodgers is a real piece of work to put it lightly. The way he stalked his son beginning in adolescence and lasting till the day Chase died, his intense obsession with controlling Chase's every move, was more than a little disturbing. With the way Chase's father stalked him I expected him to be revealed to be a hardcore heroin or crack addict and hanging out with convicted gang members, but that couldn't be further from the reality of the situation. Yes Chase did some things he shouldn't have done and failed Impulse Control 101 with flying colors, but his actions didn't warrant the level of intrusion he suffered and on the day he died he was on the run once again from the suffocation of his obsessed parents. Mr. Rodgers fought hard for Chase, to make Chase what he thought he ought to be, but in the end Chase died struggling to be the person he wanted to be. I get the feeling that Mr. Rodgers wrote this book not so much to honor his son's memory, but as a way of saying to those who might judge he and his wife based on the person Chase became "Don't blame us! We raised him as a prodigal WASP!"
Profile Image for Deborah Hagler  Wong.
68 reviews6 followers
June 10, 2019
The author of this book - the bereaved father - had boundary issues, big-time. I felt suffocated reading about Roger's controlling behavior towards his son Chase. "Why are you doing that?" I'd think, and cringe, as the author justified his actions when he admits following his teenage son through social media, and tries to encourage Chase to date the "nice" girl Wendy. The father's spying aspect takes on a creepy "peeping Tom" quality that seems inappropriate in a healthy parent-child relationship.

Darryl Rogers obviously loves his son, and I guess "A Life Half Lived" was a tribute to what he felt were Chase's best qualities - those of which Rogers approved - and what led to his son's downfall and death (drugs, the "wrong" activities and friends, etc.)

What was interesting is that the author appeared to be unaware that this book was more about him than about his son. I felt sad for the conclusion, for a father who loved his son, with the best intentions, but wound up losing Chase, in the end.
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688 reviews6 followers
August 5, 2018
although I agree with the authors desire to protect his son and keep him from drugs and “bad”people, his facebook and other spying tactics were too unbelievable to me. My kids have always been more tech savvy than I am and would have had blocks in place to prevent my access. Drug addicts are smart liars and a lot of the father’s actions just didn’t make it for me - and did he work or have any life outside of snooping on one of his sons? I’ve only rated it a 3 in lieu of lower because I agree with the message of drug abuse. If you are looking for an informative book about addiction, this would not be my first choice, try instead something like “beautiful boy “ or “Tweak”
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1,798 reviews41 followers
April 9, 2017
A cautionary tale

This book was really sad. This overbearing father, by his actions, made his son go away from him emotionally. When you give a child everything, it is not always a good thing. Chase, got into drugs, the wrong crowd, and all the problems that come with that. It could only end one way for Chase. The father, trying to redeem himself, tried to help Freddie. It did not work for his son, or Freddie. He wrote this book, to assuge his guilty conscience. I feel bad for his surviving child, in second place; always.
6 reviews
February 22, 2020
Self-indulgence Personified

The author seems oblivious to the fact that he was essentially the instrument of his son's death. From first page to last, the book is self praise about what a perfected he was, how much he did for his son and every other young person in his sphere. He could not get out of his own ego long enough to truly understand anyone else. I certainly feel sorry for any parent who loses a child, but Rodgers is oblivious to the extent to which he was a factor in his son's tragedy.
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127 reviews
October 31, 2020
Indifferent

I found this book very frustrating but sad all at the same time. As a parent I found what the author did unforgivable and stepping over a boundary that shouldn’t be crossed.

That’s said the strength to fight for his child was amazing and the loss of a child is unimaginable to me.
43 reviews4 followers
June 9, 2024
Profound

As an addict this book ,LG cig,. I have fought so hard to stay sober. Its a challenge. With addicts, your wired differently.. What makes perfect sense to a "normal" person , makes you recoil. The early years started as most at 17-18 I was a Chef in a very busy Irish Pub, restaurant's the. I got to a place where I would start stinking in at 4:30, start working at 5 and start doing Coke at 6. Ahhh, Cocaine or "the great equalizer" as I referred to It. I fancy myself a rockstar And I would sing at night with different rock bands All over the place I grew up. It was a very fun Very crazy very self destructive time in my life. 29 years Yrs you have y66ld. Then I met A wonderful woman That made me wanna change who I was and how I was. And I did for many years I did. We purchase a home, we got married And we're lucky enough to have the greatest kid on the planet. What could possibly go wrong, Right!? Injuries, self destruction and the hard wiring of an addict eventually will rare its ugly head...and it did. Welcome pain killers. That is path became the hardest fought battle of my life. It isn't "cute" picking your 45 yr old friend from bushes wondering if when you get her to her final destination, will she die in her sleep in front of her wife and child. My daughter, so astute for her age knew something wasn't right. In 2019, I made the decision to get help and try to fight to enjoy the life I had worked so hard for. As layer.,after layer was peeled back, it helped me see, many things I hadn't while we were peeled. My declaration for my open lifestyle and my again, my declaration towards my attraction to women, added another layer yet to be peeled. This book spoke so clearly to me. I still struggle with "triggers" how to deal with them and not fall victim. I have a wonderful supportive family and I've been so very very lucky God has saved me more times than I can count. For that I will always be grateful be grateful for everything around you because within a matter of seconds life can be yanked out from under you, and change everything forever. Thank God, I am still here and still fight ok! I love that you have you stayed this long and continue to he'll ¡
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Profile Image for Melinda Matthews.
Author 2 books18 followers
May 21, 2017
One of this author's most heart-felt desires is for something positive to come out of his son's tragic death. This book is definitely one positive thing. The transparency with which he shares Chase's story is admirable, and I believe his insights and perspective will benefit many. I was moved by the video I watched on YouTube where Mr. Rodgers spoke at NC Vision Zero about the four superpowers we each possess -- the power of choice, association, love and intervention. I can't imagine anyone of any age who would not benefit from examining these four areas in his or her life. How powerful to teach their importance to our youth! Perhaps his speaking engagements where he shares this will be the most positive outcome from the loss of his son. I wish we had all heard this or something like it during our young and developing years. Scripture instructs us to guard our hearts (spirits). That certainly involves choice and discernment regarding associations... I have posted the video link here for easy access. https://youtu.be/zIAJYFTCqtA
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14 reviews
July 2, 2018
Couldn’t put it down

This book is well written.. it keeps you interested and it teaches you so much.. I love that the father was a stay at home dad and so involved in the every day life of his sons. I felt like I knew chase personally because that is the great detail that is in this book..I cried but I also smiled while reading this. Chase had a amazing support system and so many people that loved him.. my heart broke for his family and for him.. I pray that Freddy has found a better place in life.. I lived in NC for 16 years I worked as a paramedic all over Harnett and Wake county so I could identity with a lot of the places in this book and the exact spot of the accident.. I called my kids after I was only half way through and recommended that they read it.. I will be passing it along to a few more people today that I know can benefit from this story. Thank you for sharing Chase’s story with us...
2 reviews
November 5, 2019
Relate

This story touched me dearly for I too am going through this addiction with my daughter.. Ten years, ten very long years and it never ends.. She lied she stole and manipulated me from day one. This story helped me realize that I am not alone in this struggle. An entire generation being wiped out by drugs. What have we done or not done for this to be "normal"the new normal. I'm sorry but it is not the normal I choose to accept. My biggest problem was enabling but here in the last six months I had to try tough love. It's working. I never thought in a million years that I would turn my back on my daughter. It hurt then and it still hurts me now but at least now I'm not hearing anything a bout or from her. She is staying away from me. Which I am okay with. I told her after you are clean six months then contact me and we can talk.
8 reviews
July 8, 2021
How do we seek knowledge and help for a loved one heading down the wrong track?

Have we been unknowingly contributing to the negative thought processes our children are enveloping in their lives? A lot of times trying to do what we think is best for our son or daughter might not be what they want in their journey. I have heard remarks that say (" let me make my own mistakes and handle the repercussions from it") Don't treat them like babies. The problem is we don't want them to let go of mom's apron strings. This was a very unusual story and a heartbreaker with so many people involved families and nearly adult sons and daughters. Seems as a chain reaction tears apart several grief stricken families all having young adult children, the connection. Drugs, smoking pot. Alcohol, parofinalya
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642 reviews4 followers
July 21, 2024
Such a heartbreaking and sad story told by a loving father who sadly lost his son to the drug world. I really felt for the people in this book as they had all lost Chase and they now after to try live their lives without him. I like how his parents tried to help their son by sending him dug rehabs bet they sadly didn’t work. I really sorri for Justin losing his big brother at such a young age. The photos in this book showed a loving son and how well he got on with his family. This book had me in tears when the police told the family that they loved their son Chase. I also read articles about the tragic accident on the internet and it made the accident so much more tragic. I hope Chase family and friends can try and move on the best they can in the future. A truly tragic and heartbreaking story xxx
1 review
August 14, 2020
A book I never thought I'd love yet, moved me so much, it's not in my top 5 MUST READ books.

The reason for rating the book 5stars is because of its simplicity yet captivating way of moving you. It more than just reflects on the life of Chase, it also helps the reader to focus on himself/herself. It shows that our choices are our to make but like the writer says, which choice would we make? Would we rather live a life half way or not?
Tears flowed as the story not only offers questions but answers, and offered help when there seems to be none.
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12 reviews
June 27, 2019
A heart breaking story

It’s hard writing a review on this story. What can one say about the pain a father (and a family) has endured when loosing a child. The choices made by both of them (father & son) proved devastating. Mistrust, miscommunication and drugs. I can only hope that this hurt echoes into life lessons for families and young men and women with similar problems. Simply written but, at times, truly painful to read.
76 reviews
May 25, 2021
me of the names mentioned had a happy ending. What happened to Tatyana was awful

This was a great book. It gives an insight into how drugs change an impact on your life. My condolences for the loss of your son Darryl. I would never want someone to go down this path. I would recommend this book to teenagers as this is a time when they like to experiment. Glad that some of the teenagers that you mentioned had a happy end. What happened to Tatiana was awful.
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32 reviews2 followers
January 7, 2024
Tragic story

I receivwd this book as a ARC from Goodreads.
As a mother who s son is currently in prison because of drugs at the age of 22 ... This book just hit different. This dad made alot of mistakes baking the way but there is no rule book for parents to handle things like this . but this father did everything to protect his son. He has also turned Chases struggles and ultimate tradgy into something positive. Read this book you won't be disappointed!
348 reviews3 followers
December 20, 2017
When I downloaded this book I didn't realize it was a story out of Cary. I remembered when the incident occurred and Googled the newstory. Though the story is/was quite tragic, the writing in this story is really bad, elementary at best. Soooo many typos as well. I should ignore it, but it takes away from the book.
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124 reviews4 followers
February 23, 2018
If Only They Would Listen

I found this book to be very well written and interesting. A father who wanted the best for his son , tells about the ups and downs of living with and loving Chase who makes bad decisions. The loss he feels after the car wreck that takes Chase's life encourages the father to try to help other young men to get treatment and have a whole life to live.
16 reviews
November 11, 2018
A Good Read

Darryl Rogers life story about his son Chase, is well done. He is a very dedicated father and the book, which is hard to put down, shares the struggles of addiction for others to understand. At times, his discipline and interference in Chase’s life seemed obsessive, but by the end of the book, his love and passion to help others is admiral.
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2 reviews
February 9, 2022
Chase's life

This is one of the most interesting and sad books I have read in a long time.I am so sorry for your loss and Chase sounds like a wonderful boy.I have also had to deal with boys and there drug problems.You seem to have done all you could and I believe Chase loved you as much as you loved him.Bless you and your family.
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176 reviews1 follower
October 11, 2023
There are so many lines and paragraphs that I highlighted because I just couldn't imagine a parent doing that to their child.

"I also installed key logger software on his laptop and on his cell phone. This allowed me to keep track of his every move."
Like what!!!! He doesn't trust his son!!

I feel bad that they lost their son. No parent should have to bury their child.
3 reviews
July 23, 2017
Amazing!

A very powerful and emotional story from the very first page. A must read if you or someone you love is struggling with any kind of addiction. My heart and prayers go out to the family and friends. Thank you for allowing me into your life.
2 reviews
January 5, 2020
Helping with addictions

Very in-depth book on how someone can have a good life and all of a sudden it's gone. Very knowledgeable book for people whose addicted and wants to have a better life
1,106 reviews
July 5, 2020
A father tells the story of his son's life and death, in the hope that something good, something positive can come from this tragic death. A true story of love, choices, addiction and consequences.
A heartbreaking story of a young life but unfortunately, not an isolated story.
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3 reviews
April 11, 2022
A thought provoking read

I found this book very informative and thoughtful. I felt for all the people mentioned in this book. I so wanted a happy ending but life isn't always easy or fair. This book shows us that. But it also shows us how we can support and love one another.
1 review
March 26, 2018
Pretty good

Liked the book and felt sorry for the family. I'm sure it was a tough situation. Thank you for sharing your story.
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1 review1 follower
April 9, 2018
Worth the read.

Worth the read. I feel for the entire family. I would recommend this book. O hope you have all found peace.
11 reviews
September 21, 2018
Heartbreaking

This book made Me cry. Reading about a boy caught up in drugs. Be prepared to laugh and cry for Chase
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