After ten years of wondering what had happened to her friend, Kayleigh opens up her heart and mind to recall the year previous to Becks' disappearance. Her hope is to find closure to the guilt she carries, due to her inaction at the time, and to bring her closer to discovering what did occur.
Becks' own silent life of secrets and abuse, make it difficult for Kayleigh to piece together the jigsaw of events. Her mind is tormented by the memories and scenarios that she contrives to make sense of their last phone call.
Author’s note: At the age of twenty-six, Kayleigh contacted me and asked if I’d listen to her and hopefully write her story. I’ve seen documentation and newspaper reports confirming certain incidences of what she has told me and I have no reason not to believe what she has recounted to me. Here is her story.
All the stars for this sad book. So much sadness. Kudos to Kayleigh for being such an awesome friend. She did the best she thought to do in these tough circumstances.
Non-fiction, for me, always walks a fine line. Since it's not something authors make up in their heads, but someone's tale, it must be hard to write it down in such a way, it doesn't sound like a report. This book doesn't always manage to walk that fine line between story and report. But that's the only negative thing I can say about it. It's a desturbing read, and one I'd definitely recommend to anyone who has anything to do with teenagers - teachers, parents, everybody. This books shows the many subtle signs of abuse, the many inaudible cries for help, which makes it a hugely important read.
Reeling from one abusive relationship to another, Becks tries to mask the hurt by smoking 'spliffs' (weed). Although, Becks hasn't confided one hundred percent in her friend, Kayleigh tries to support her to the best of her ability and by doing so even puts her own life in danger at one point - and yet this does not stop Kayleigh feeling guilt ridden when Becks disappears.
Even several years later, Kayleigh still hasn't come to terms with not knowing what has happened to her friend and deeply regrets that she couldn't have done more.