By the title alone, “I Love My Love” readers may not be at all surprised to learn that Reyna (Mays) Biddy (1994-) discussed her own love addiction in her intimate debut poetry collection. This coming-of-age volume is also scheduled for formal release on Valentine’s Day.
Biddy, from an unnamed city in California, recalls her parent’s dysfunctional troubled marriage. With her Spanish speaking mother apparently leaving the family, her father, left in the poison of anger and bitterness towards her mother which she spoke of: (for my mother/who gave me her heart/we will never be on the same beat) ~ (for my father/who gave me his soul/we will never feel the same things) Biddy also said: “I wanted to sing my parents love song.” The messages are mixed, in “my mother’s interlude”. The news of her mother’s death from unknown causes is only briefly mentioned, her loss is felt on a deeper level as Biddy writes “self-parenting” poetry a mother may have written her daughter of advice and love. Many of the poems are simply titled, a few words or less. “Little me” is about Biddy’s younger sister.
Young teen love is fresh and fearless, early writings include: “results” – “pseudo” to remind her that without him she is nothing. – “10 Reasons I Could Never Leave” – “halfway close” – “rhetoric” – “love note” –“free styles off chardonnay” – Biddy then writes: (to all the boys I loved/Forgive me for giving you/So much power over me/You were never worthy)
Most of the poetry is of love, longing, and broken dreams when romantic relationships don’t work out. The men Biddy chose professed undying love, desire, and need for her in their lives, yet it seemed that after they got what they wanted they left her. At times she seemed on the verge of desperation to please, doing whatever she could to impress these men. “Sweet Talkin’ Guy” (1966) song by the Chiffon’s kept coming to mind while reading most of these poems. Standing by Biddy’s concepts of self-love that bring her the dignity and respect she deserves, may take additional time. Biddy seems genuinely grateful for her astonishing gift to write, to share, encourage, and inspire others in this nicely done volume of poetry. ~ Many thanks to NetGalley for the e-DRC for the purpose of review.