This world, it breathes you in … it knows you, and then it breathes you out again, shares you.”
I don’t know why but I think this quote is so very suitable for the entire book. You’re drawn into this world and you live with the characters, want to know how it continues and what’s going to happen next and then after 679 pages you’re done with the book and it feels like it “breathes you out again”.
The only thing I haven’t decided yet is whether this is a good or a bad thing. *lol* Don’t get me wrong, I loved the world building in this series and Pearson didn’t just write something entirely different but also managed to surprise me multiple times, which is no small feat for a die-hard YA and fantasy fan like me. But still, after all the ideas and thoughts she put into it, after all the effort she made, I kind of hoped that we’d get something epic and amazing in the end.
I mean the ending was really fitting and harmonious but after all this build up it still felt kind of rushed to me. I know Pearson had her focus on the world and the characters that live in it, but this doesn’t change anything about the fact that the ending fell flat for me. Hmm I can’t even tell you what I expected but I certainly expected MORE. At least after reading all 3 books and the 679 pages of the last volume where they actually prepare for war.
Jeez! One week and I’m still not sure how I’ll rate this. >_<
Well, let’s continue with my review. Maybe I’ll figure it out until the end. ;-)
The plot:
”Lia, when we lose a battle, we have to regroup and move forward again. Choose an alternate path if necessary. But if we dwell on every action we’ve taken, it will cripple us, and soon we’ll take no action at all.”
The characters:
Beware of my spoilery characters section! ;-) If you haven’t read the first two books and if you still need to read the third you better don’t continue to read. If you’ve read the entire trilogy, don’t care if you’re spoiled, never actually planned to read the books and therefore prefer to be spoiled: Welcome to my character review, I hope you’ll enjoy it. XD
Lia:
”I suddenly ached with the trying, ached for a way to belonging that was always out of my reach, ached for Pauline, and Berdi, and Gwyneth to be by my side, to hold me, a tight circle of arms that were invincible. Ached for a hundred things lost and gone, things I could never get back, including Aster, who had believed in me unconditionally. It was an ache so deep I wanted to bleed into the ground and disappear.”
Poor Lia has come a long way and it was good to see that the things that happened to her didn’t break her but shaped her instead. She became so much stronger over those last three books and I really loved her character development. I mean we had that shy girl who ran from her own wedding because she didn’t know if she’d ever love the prince she was supposed to marry and now we have that strong and amazing queen who’s not only fighting for her own people but also for those of Venda. Lia has matured so much and the way she changed was so beautiful to watch. Plus I loved that she put all those misogynistic men in their place! *lol* They needed to hear that, I swear! Especially the people of her own land and the Dalbreck soldiers. ;-)
”In spite of my utter disgust, instead of calling you an ignorant, delusional, pompous, self-absorbed buffoon, I am going to extend my hand and strongly suggest that you take it, because I will not let your patronizing insults nor my pride get in the way of saving Morrighan. As much as I may loath the idea, I need whatever miserable expertise you will bring to the table and so when we convene to plan our strategies at a time and place I shall designate, you will be there ready to serve your kingdom.”
”Doubt was a poison I couldn’t afford to sip.”
”The truths of the world wish to be known, but they won’t force themselves upon you the way lies will. They’ll court you, whisper to you, slip inside and warm your blood, and caress your neck until your flesh rises in bumps. That is the truth whispering to you.”
Rafe:
”There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t wish I could steal back a few hours,” he whispered. “When I don’t wish I could steal back the taste of your mouth on mine, the feel of your hair twisted between my fingers, the feel of your body pressed to mine. When I don’t wish I could see you laughing and smiling like when we were back in Terravin.”
Oh, boy! Rafe had to put up with a lot of rubbish in that last book as well. I mean everything he did at the Vendan court, then saving Lia, arguing with her because she wanted to help her people, letting her go, the death of his father and mother. Poor, poor boy! And then even the people in his own rows that questioned him because he ran after Lia. To say they gave him a tough time would be the understatement of the century. And then as crowning finale even another arranged marriage with another girl that didn’t want to marry him. URGH! Seriously, Rafe deserves a hug! As much as I understood Lia’s decision to go to Morrighan I still couldn’t help but feel sorry for Rafe. They both had their positions and they were both valid, which is the main reason he let her go again. *sighs and gives Rafe a hug*
Kaden:
”Familiar, I had wanted to answer. Being a prisoner feels familiar. It was all I had ever been. My past held on to me today as strongly as it had when I was a child, my choices still limited, my steps still shackled. My life had been patched together with lies from the day I was born.”
Aww Kaden! I felt so sorry for him. I understood why he was on the Komizar’s side at first and considering how he was betrayed by his own father it’s no wonder that he thought he’d found something like friendship and safety in Venda. Still, the way he was treated when he first got there and how much he had to suffer… it’s just not fair! Kaden is my poor precious boy! I know he’s an assassin but he was made into one, his environment and his life gave him no other option than to become a killer and he had to do it in order to survive. There’s a lot of kindness in Kaden, a lot of love and gentleness. I really hope that he can settle down now and that his past won’t influence him as much anymore. He deserves happiness and I think he got it in the end. =)))
Pauline:
”He was a habit in my thoughts, not any more welcome than a rash, but I’d find myself thinking of him before I even realized what I was doing. Banishing him from my thoughts was like learning to breathe in a new way. It was a conscious effort.”
Another character that was drawn into things that were way too complicated to get out of them unscathed. It’s horrible that Pauline was betrayed like that and to have a child from the man you despise must be horrible. Still, she loves her child and I think she did the best she could do. To be in the middle of all this with a baby must have been more than just tough though and to be honest I’m just glad that she came out of it alive. I’m sure she’ll be a great mother and I have to say that I kinda love that new and tough Pauline. She’s kick-ass! *lol*
The Komizar:
”You don’t have to die. Come over to my side. Look at all I have to offer.”
“Servitude? Cruelty? Violence? You tempt me so, sher Komizar. We’ve talked. You can go back now.”
The Komizar was a disappointment in that one. Well, in fact the entire ending around the Komizar was a disappointment. I mean he invaded Morrighan with his entire army and there should have been all out war and strategies, cunning plans, schemes to undermine the enemies force. Plots to win Morrighan…. but all we got was one battle and I think it wasn’t longer than a few pages. Yes, that battle was awesome to read because it felt like you were in the middle of it all, but still, I just would have wished for… more. All the cunning and build up and then it’s finished in a few pages? It was just so disappointing. I mean where was his strategy? Did he even have one? A man like the Komizar of all people should have at least had a plan B, which he didn’t and that was just so… out of character. *sighs* I guess what it comes down to is that it would have needed a few pages more to be satisfying. It’s just my personal opinion though so if you think it was perfect the way it was then that’s okay too. =)
The relationships & ships:
Lia & Kaden:
”I know that you suffered, Lia, but I did what I thought was right at the time. I can’t take back what I’ve done. I can only try to make amends.”
I’m so glad they finally became friends and trust each other unconditionally. I always knew that their ship would never sail and that’s okay. Kaden needed a good friend and I think he found it in Lia, plus he also managed to become friends with Rafe and his men so that’s quite an achievement if you ask me. I love them as friends and I hope it will stay that way for a long, long time! =)
Lia & Rafe:
”You’re afraid you’ll taint my reputation?”
An evil grin pulled at the corner of his mouth. “I’m afraid you’ll taint mine.”
I loved the easy banter between Lia and Rafe and I was so happy that we finally got to see a few lovely and sweet moments between those two. Heaven knows how long I’ve waited for them to be together and even though they argued a lot they still never stopped to love each other. I think that’s a very beautiful thing. I mean no matter how hard things got, in the end they always found back together and tried to make it work. They never gave up and if you truly love someone, if your heart belongs to a person, you never give up. You fight for that love, you hold on to it, you go through the bad and the good times and you give your best to keep it going. It’s really amazing that Pearson managed to convey this so good and the realistic love story between Rafe and Lia is definitely one of the best things in this book! =) Well done, Pearson!
”You are what matters to me, Lia. If you don’t know that already, I’ll find a hundred more ways to show you. I love you more than a port, more than an alliance, more than my own life. Your interests are my interests. Are we going to let the conspiracies and schemes of kingdoms come between us?”
”You’re looking better than you did last night,” he said.
“Thank you for coming to help.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner. I guess I was waiting for a note.”
“I recall you telling me not to send any.”
“Since when have you listened to me?”
“Since when have you paid attention to my notes?”
”There were no questions, no pauses, no room left for anything more to be stolen. There was only us, and everything we had ever been to each other, the days and weeks when only we mattered, our fingers lacing together, holding, fierce, his gaze penetrating mine, and then fear and desperation faded, our movement slowed, and we memorized, lingered, touched, swallowing tears that still swelled in us, the reality settling in – we had only a few hours.”
Pauline & Kaden:
”His eyes bore into mine, and I saw a hundred questions behind them I hadn’t seen before. Would I ever forgive him? Had he gone too far? Was I all right? But mostly I saw the kindness in them I had seen the first time I met him. Silence and dust motes hung in the air between us.”
I LOVED THOSE TWO!!! Plus how cool was it that Kaden was afraid of Pauline? Haha! I had to laugh so hard when Lia realized that the fearsome assassin of Venda was afraid of a pregnant girl! XD But then again he had every right to be. He didn’t really treat her well when he abducted Lia and we all know how fierce Pauline can be! *lol* When I read the first book I always shipped Kaden and Pauline but I never knew if anything would actually happen between those two. I mean Kaden was in love with Lia and I doubted that he’d ever see Pauline again, so I was really, really happy when they met at the house and started to talk! XD Guess a baby as a buffer worked wonders for them. *lol* Anyway, I really liked their slow burn and I loved that Kaden got a chance to show his true nature and his kindness. =)) Pauline brought out the best in him and that was so sweet to watch. =)) Oh and can we acknowledge that moment when he barked at Mikael and indicated that he’s the father of Pauline’s baby?! Awesome! So, so awesome! <333
I couldn’t look away. My breath was suddenly trapped in my chest, and I was afraid of making wrong choices too. All I could see were her lips, her eyes, everywhere, only Pauline.
“Kaden,” she whispered.
Conclusion:
I really enjoyed “The Beauty of Darkness” and I liked the little snippets of wisdom that could be found throughout the entire book. All told it was a really good ending for an amazing trilogy and even though I would have expected a little bit more it was still a very suitable finale. I guess all in all it’s 3,5 stars rounded up to 4. (We really should get a half star rating!! *lol*) With this in mind: Happy Reading!