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Hate to Love You
I would be lying if I said I hadn’t ever wished death on my husband. I was guilty. And I used to not feel bad about having those feelings. My husband was evil and most days I hated him. I used to come up with outlandish schemes in my head to get rid of him without evidence coming back on me. I’ve watch Snapped many times. You had to play that shit careful or a jury wouldn’t believe your word.
Ironically, now that my husband Marcos Beauchamp was laid up in the hospital, hanging on for dear life, I kind of felt guilty about my vindictive feelings. Did all of my hopeful wishes bring this about? I can’t lie; a part of me was laughing inside. Not a giggle laugh either. It was one of those deep from the belly that worked its way up to the throat and came out forceful like you had heard the funniest shit ever. That’s wrong; I know, but you don’t understand. This man has taken me through hell and it serves his ass right.
~~ Nephia Beauchamp, mother of seven and wife of a woman beater
Hate to Love You takes you deeper into the life of Nephia as she recalls a traumatic past that leads up to the near fatal death of her abusive husband. She finds herself at a crossroad and unsure of what direction she will go. Take this journey along with her and see if Nephia’s faith will allow her to stand by him or simply walk away and start anew.
Ironically, now that my husband Marcos Beauchamp was laid up in the hospital, hanging on for dear life, I kind of felt guilty about my vindictive feelings. Did all of my hopeful wishes bring this about? I can’t lie; a part of me was laughing inside. Not a giggle laugh either. It was one of those deep from the belly that worked its way up to the throat and came out forceful like you had heard the funniest shit ever. That’s wrong; I know, but you don’t understand. This man has taken me through hell and it serves his ass right.
~~ Nephia Beauchamp, mother of seven and wife of a woman beater
Hate to Love You takes you deeper into the life of Nephia as she recalls a traumatic past that leads up to the near fatal death of her abusive husband. She finds herself at a crossroad and unsure of what direction she will go. Take this journey along with her and see if Nephia’s faith will allow her to stand by him or simply walk away and start anew.
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Published January 11, 2016
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January 18, 2016
Whoa that book took me on an emotional roller coaster ride. I felt for Nephia. I even felt for Marcos towards the end. Corvell was funny. Really good read. Now I feel like I need to watch the Disney channel to lift my spirits and decompress
January 18, 2016
Let me preface this review by saying this book dealt with a very heavy subject topic...abuse. The subject matter is all too real. This was an eye opening read. Sometimes we wonder why women chose to stay in these kind of relationships. This book definitely gave me a little insight on that. With that being said, Author Ivy Symone definitely told a wonderful story of how love can turn to hate in the blink of an eye.
Meet Nephia. From an early age, she has been head over heels in love with Marcos Beauchamp. He's everything a young, naïve girl could ever want. Money, promises of a better life...it's all music to her ears. But she soon finds out that everything that glitters isn't gold.
Meet Nephia. From an early age, she has been head over heels in love with Marcos Beauchamp. He's everything a young, naïve girl could ever want. Money, promises of a better life...it's all music to her ears. But she soon finds out that everything that glitters isn't gold.
May 24, 2018
Nephia’s pain
This was an amazing story. I’m not usually one that cares to read about domestic violence, but this book just did it for me. I would definitely recommend this book to others. First book in a quite a while that made me cry.
This was an amazing story. I’m not usually one that cares to read about domestic violence, but this book just did it for me. I would definitely recommend this book to others. First book in a quite a while that made me cry.
June 24, 2018
💜💜💜💜
This story was Everything. I went through so many emotions. I truly Believe Marcus had his own demons that made him the man he was. Nep truly went through something’s in her life that shaped her and made her a forgiving woman in the end. Their life together was hard and while many will not see the love, I believe the children they created showed the love in their hearts. Great Story
This story was Everything. I went through so many emotions. I truly Believe Marcus had his own demons that made him the man he was. Nep truly went through something’s in her life that shaped her and made her a forgiving woman in the end. Their life together was hard and while many will not see the love, I believe the children they created showed the love in their hearts. Great Story
January 14, 2016
Another great read by Ms. Ivy Symone... never a disappointment...... for you NTABH fans you will get a little treat... (smile)
August 3, 2018
Omg! I felt like i was watching a movie! This book is sooooo good and intriguing. I felt so bad for Nephia. Marcos was bat#### crazy and a pedophile basically and just a horrible person period. I almost cried twice. I won't go into details and spoil it , so I'll just say this is a must read.
February 13, 2016
I don't know whether to be sad or mad. I'm so undecided on what to write. I'll never claim to put myself in anyone that goes thru this situation shoe. Because we can all sit back watch and don't know the ins and outs of the true story but all I can say is she's definitely a better woman than I am cause I would have already died. Great story some parts wanted to bring me to tears.
January 15, 2016
although, this was an excellent read, this topic is just too much for my psyche to truly enjoy.... I feel kinda heavy... no other way to explain it....
June 4, 2018
Very good read
February 5, 2016
I don’t even know where to begin with this book. I’m still numb from reading it. I have never been in an abusive relationship so, in the beginning, it was hard for me to like and understand Nephia. I called her stupid in my mind a hundred times and I wanted to kill her husband Marcos about 2% into the book. Yes, he’s just that bad and it got worse as the pages went on. I felt all sorts of emotions: anger, sadness, disgust, pity and empathy. Nephia was a troubled girl who turned into a troubled woman but thankfully she had a few good friends to help her get through it all; Nikki and Corvell. I would have loved to see more about Nikki the way we did Corvell; who by the way was a hot sizzling mess! Nonetheless, they proved to be a great support system for Nephia, the kind any woman battered or not needs in this life.
I have always wondered how women that go through this really feel and the men that put them through it too. Well, here Ivy Symone let it all out. She left no stone unturned. There were times I had to put the book down cuz I was getting too upset and irritated with the people in this book and then there were other times I just couldn’t tear my eyes away from the pages.
Now they say if a book can make you feel all of that then the author did a very good job. And I will agree that Ivy outdid herself on this one. I was mad at her for not letting Marcos get a little more Karma than what we see in the book but by the end, I understood that what transpired was the perfect outcome. This book was very refreshing even though it sent me on a distorted roller coaster ride; I still enjoyed every bit of hit. I think the hardest part for me is that I’m a visual reader so everything I read I literally saw it as if I was right there in every scene. There’s so much more I could say but then I would be giving the whole story away. If you haven’t read this yet then do yourself a huge favor and please check it out.
Reviewed By: Tee Renee for Literary Jewels
I have always wondered how women that go through this really feel and the men that put them through it too. Well, here Ivy Symone let it all out. She left no stone unturned. There were times I had to put the book down cuz I was getting too upset and irritated with the people in this book and then there were other times I just couldn’t tear my eyes away from the pages.
Now they say if a book can make you feel all of that then the author did a very good job. And I will agree that Ivy outdid herself on this one. I was mad at her for not letting Marcos get a little more Karma than what we see in the book but by the end, I understood that what transpired was the perfect outcome. This book was very refreshing even though it sent me on a distorted roller coaster ride; I still enjoyed every bit of hit. I think the hardest part for me is that I’m a visual reader so everything I read I literally saw it as if I was right there in every scene. There’s so much more I could say but then I would be giving the whole story away. If you haven’t read this yet then do yourself a huge favor and please check it out.
Reviewed By: Tee Renee for Literary Jewels
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January 20, 2016
Hate to Love You takes you into the life of Nephia as she recalls a traumatic past that leads up to the near fatal death of her abusive husband. She finds herself at a crossroad and unsure of what direction she will go. Will Nephia’s faith will allow her to stand by him or simply walk away. This book capture me from the beginning. Nephia was so young when she married and the things she went through as a young lady was not one a person would picture their life to be. This book will take you on an emotion rollercoaster. At times I wonder why she stayed , I wanted to yell at my book. This book was very good. The story reads well and you won’t want to put down until you finish. The characters you can picture as you read the story. Some say the abuse in this book was too much. The abuse in this story is nothing unusual than we hear from real life women abuse stories. I recommend this book to all. This book will make a great book club discussion.
February 18, 2016
You definitely pulled out every emotion I had. Idk if I even have the words to describe how I feel right now. I wanted to be mad at Neph for being so naive and still staying with Marcos but I honestly couldn't. Love will make you try to see the good in someone when it's not even there. I felt bad for her. Even though I hated Marcos I actually shed tears for him. I believe he wanted to change but it was too late. When I realized who "Blake" was I think I cried even harder just thinking about that story. You definitely have a gift and you're always able to pull your readers in with these real life stories. I hope there's something in the works with Blake & Neph!
February 4, 2016
Must Read
Wow what a page turner. This book was based on reality and, what abuse some people really go through. I felt bad for Neph and was on an emotional high. I was hoping that Marcos would have had the chance to get himself together. I tried to hate Marcos but, after his accident my heart wouldn't allow it. Neph was weak but strong at the same time. I don't know how she was able to stay through 20 yrs. of abuse, become strong enough to leave him then, allow the accident to make her love him again. I think Neph may have felt a change coming in Marcos. When she found his things and started reading about him wanting to change, I broke down. I hate Marcos had to die.
Wow what a page turner. This book was based on reality and, what abuse some people really go through. I felt bad for Neph and was on an emotional high. I was hoping that Marcos would have had the chance to get himself together. I tried to hate Marcos but, after his accident my heart wouldn't allow it. Neph was weak but strong at the same time. I don't know how she was able to stay through 20 yrs. of abuse, become strong enough to leave him then, allow the accident to make her love him again. I think Neph may have felt a change coming in Marcos. When she found his things and started reading about him wanting to change, I broke down. I hate Marcos had to die.
January 26, 2016
Hate to Love You
Ivy Symone has yet to disappoint me with any book that she has written. It did take me a few days to read this one, but once I got to the end I was left speechless. Loved the special cameo by BeBe.
Ivy Symone has yet to disappoint me with any book that she has written. It did take me a few days to read this one, but once I got to the end I was left speechless. Loved the special cameo by BeBe.
January 24, 2016
Wow!!!!
Ivy has done it again. This book had me on an emotional rollercoaster. Love love loved it ! My heart went out to Nephia even tho this is fiction somebody is going thru this. I was wishing the best for Nephia it came but at Marcos cost. *Tears*
Ivy has done it again. This book had me on an emotional rollercoaster. Love love loved it ! My heart went out to Nephia even tho this is fiction somebody is going thru this. I was wishing the best for Nephia it came but at Marcos cost. *Tears*
February 4, 2016
Pretty good.
This book was just okay for me. I don't think I can go into details as to why without giving away spoilers. It just wasn't as juicy as other books I've read by the author.
This book was just okay for me. I don't think I can go into details as to why without giving away spoilers. It just wasn't as juicy as other books I've read by the author.
January 20, 2016
Bravo!!!
Man this book here had me emotional. I loved it from beginning to end. She went thru so much and Marcos was wrong for the things he put her thru. Sad to say people go through this, the outcome was bad but I'm happy she is happy now. Well done ivy!!
Man this book here had me emotional. I loved it from beginning to end. She went thru so much and Marcos was wrong for the things he put her thru. Sad to say people go through this, the outcome was bad but I'm happy she is happy now. Well done ivy!!
January 29, 2016
Wow is all I can say
Man I tell u the truth this book is sooooooo emotionally unstable...my goodness Macros was such a b***c he was weird sick crazy discussing and so freaking mean!! I can't say to much more as I cry still thinking of this story!!
Man I tell u the truth this book is sooooooo emotionally unstable...my goodness Macros was such a b***c he was weird sick crazy discussing and so freaking mean!! I can't say to much more as I cry still thinking of this story!!
February 9, 2016
Best work yet
I have read a few titles by Mrs. Ivy but this is by fat her best title. This book touches on so much that I just don't know where to begin. I will say its a must read and job well done Mrs. Ivy.
I have read a few titles by Mrs. Ivy but this is by fat her best title. This book touches on so much that I just don't know where to begin. I will say its a must read and job well done Mrs. Ivy.
January 17, 2016
This book has a good plot even though some of the scenes are a little rough to get through. The author really displays how you reap what you sow. Also, you learn you can't help who you love.
January 20, 2016
Wow!
I'm not sure what to say about this book. This is a book where you take it or leave it! I actually wanted to cry at the end. I say read it and form your own opinion!
I'm not sure what to say about this book. This is a book where you take it or leave it! I actually wanted to cry at the end. I say read it and form your own opinion!
March 29, 2016
that Marcos was something else..
August 28, 2025
Power Of The Tongue
This book took me through it and I didn’t think I was going to make it through the whole book!!!…
It is so easy to judge a situation from the outside because the havoc on the inside is next level for real!!!…
Marcos was a very disturbed and demanding man with no regard for no one but himself!!!…His soul was so tormented and Nephia was a recipient of it all and whatever other woman he thought would accept it!!!…
I loved me some Ada and I was glad that Nephia had her, because although she couldn’t stop the abuse, she slowed some of it down and directed him in another direction!!!…
Nephia dealt with a lot and with every page turn, my heart broke even more for her and the torture she endured!!!…The days she wanted to leave this earth and thought better of it, but the power of that tongue!!!…
I was laughing while crying with Nep was asking Terra what could she do to send Marcos to her and make him stay!!!…She was done done and just wanted him gone!!!..It’s crazy because a lot of women in this type of situation, truly has no refuge and just stay and pray!!!…
I was so disappointed with the way Kendall played the situation because he lost his life thinking he was helping the Nephia leave her marriage!!!…
This book took me through it and I didn’t think I was going to make it through the whole book!!!…
It is so easy to judge a situation from the outside because the havoc on the inside is next level for real!!!…
Marcos was a very disturbed and demanding man with no regard for no one but himself!!!…His soul was so tormented and Nephia was a recipient of it all and whatever other woman he thought would accept it!!!…
I loved me some Ada and I was glad that Nephia had her, because although she couldn’t stop the abuse, she slowed some of it down and directed him in another direction!!!…
Nephia dealt with a lot and with every page turn, my heart broke even more for her and the torture she endured!!!…The days she wanted to leave this earth and thought better of it, but the power of that tongue!!!…
I was laughing while crying with Nep was asking Terra what could she do to send Marcos to her and make him stay!!!…She was done done and just wanted him gone!!!..It’s crazy because a lot of women in this type of situation, truly has no refuge and just stay and pray!!!…
I was so disappointed with the way Kendall played the situation because he lost his life thinking he was helping the Nephia leave her marriage!!!…
June 5, 2018
Wow. This was an amazing book. This book dealt with several topics; domestic violence, sex, and other issues people face. Marcos came from a family with plenty of money and he was an evil man. Marcus met Nephia, who was a teenager. Nephia was abused by her stepfather and kept it a secret. When Nephia met Marcus, she wanted to avoid him due to his age, but he kept chasing after her. Nephia gave in to Marcus and began a relationship with him. Nephia became a teenage mom, but did not give up on her education. Once Marcus found out that she had a baby he married her. Marcus began to abuse Nephia and did not want her to talk to any other man, but he could do whatever he wanted to do. Nephia began to hate her husband and wish him dead. Marcus was involved in a bad accident and was fighting for his life. Nephia was a strong woman.
August 6, 2018
Best book
I honestly think this was one of your best books ever I was literally in tears that will not stop I think this book leave you with so many different emotions and at the same time anger why she didn’t want to leave her husband and then I wanted them to stay together but I’m also Mad it was standalone because I kind of wanted to continue the story but it also gives you a lot to think about because her husband was broken and he just followed what he saw from his father but didn’t want to do anything about it when it became to late but he did love his wife just didn’t know how to express his ways or show it. I would your story as an example cause it speak to you in some many different ways thank you.
I honestly think this was one of your best books ever I was literally in tears that will not stop I think this book leave you with so many different emotions and at the same time anger why she didn’t want to leave her husband and then I wanted them to stay together but I’m also Mad it was standalone because I kind of wanted to continue the story but it also gives you a lot to think about because her husband was broken and he just followed what he saw from his father but didn’t want to do anything about it when it became to late but he did love his wife just didn’t know how to express his ways or show it. I would your story as an example cause it speak to you in some many different ways thank you.
May 15, 2019
Loved this story soo much
Yet another book that I could not put down and I am so happy that I decided to read this one first after reading never trust a broken heart because clearly I would’ve read it out of order and I literally could not put this book down I read through the entire journey just cringing for the nephia crying with her falling in love with her ! hating her !! I mean this book was such and emotional roller coaster but so beautifully made just the way she takes you through the entire journey i loved how she made me hate Marcos to the core just to end up falling in love with him . Very very very good read .
Yet another book that I could not put down and I am so happy that I decided to read this one first after reading never trust a broken heart because clearly I would’ve read it out of order and I literally could not put this book down I read through the entire journey just cringing for the nephia crying with her falling in love with her ! hating her !! I mean this book was such and emotional roller coaster but so beautifully made just the way she takes you through the entire journey i loved how she made me hate Marcos to the core just to end up falling in love with him . Very very very good read .
April 28, 2019
Where Do I Start??
I have a lot of opinions about this book. There should NEVER be any laws that's makes it legal for a child to marry an adult and if Nephia's mom wasn't so fascinated by Marcos's money she should have pressed charges on him for statutory assault. Marcos was an awful husband and Nephia allowed him to mistreat her for far to many years. Marcos knew he was sick so he wanted to be a better man to his family but it was to late because his transgressions caught up with him. I hope things work out for Nephia and Blake.
I have a lot of opinions about this book. There should NEVER be any laws that's makes it legal for a child to marry an adult and if Nephia's mom wasn't so fascinated by Marcos's money she should have pressed charges on him for statutory assault. Marcos was an awful husband and Nephia allowed him to mistreat her for far to many years. Marcos knew he was sick so he wanted to be a better man to his family but it was to late because his transgressions caught up with him. I hope things work out for Nephia and Blake.
September 27, 2018
Wow
This book literally takes you on an emotional rollercoaster. Nephia had it rough to say the least yearning for from a man that seemed incapable of real love. Marcos was just all kinds of sorry. Nephia was conditioned and manipulated before she ever knew what was happening. Sad to know many women in this world go through the same and often don't make it out alive. Ivy Symone did an exceptional job with this read.
This book literally takes you on an emotional rollercoaster. Nephia had it rough to say the least yearning for from a man that seemed incapable of real love. Marcos was just all kinds of sorry. Nephia was conditioned and manipulated before she ever knew what was happening. Sad to know many women in this world go through the same and often don't make it out alive. Ivy Symone did an exceptional job with this read.
June 1, 2018
This book was so good I read the ending twice. I loved how Ivy finds a way to resurface old characters. I went through so many levels of emotions reading this storyline I had to walk away and remind myself that it was just a book. It's clear why Ivy has found a way into my list of favorite authors! I'm looking forward to getting new material from her!
June 12, 2018
Loved it!😍
So I put off reading this book for a while cause of the heavy content but I’m so glad I gave in and gave it a chance. It’s different from what I normally read and I hated Marcos passionately. This book made me feel so many things and had my head and heart at war with each other I’m functioning on 2 hours of sleep today cause I just couldn’t put it down 🙈
So I put off reading this book for a while cause of the heavy content but I’m so glad I gave in and gave it a chance. It’s different from what I normally read and I hated Marcos passionately. This book made me feel so many things and had my head and heart at war with each other I’m functioning on 2 hours of sleep today cause I just couldn’t put it down 🙈
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