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The Cowboys #1
Cœur de cow-boy
Le cœur d’un cow-boy est aussi vaste que ses terres…
Contremaître du ranch J-Bar, Malloy passe le plus clair de son temps seul, rodant à la lisière de la vie des autres tel un vieux coyote, accomplissant son boulot et maintenant sa vie privée. Jusqu’à l’arrivée de Crispin Carrasco.
Mince, musclé, et doté d’une bouche qui refuse de la fermer, Crispin fait jaillir une étincelle en Malloy… embrasant un feu dont le contremaître ignorait l’existence. Mais comment un coyote esseulé peut-il approcher la chaleur d’un feu ? Et plus important encore, qu’arrivera-t-il si ces flammes le brûlent ?
Contremaître du ranch J-Bar, Malloy passe le plus clair de son temps seul, rodant à la lisière de la vie des autres tel un vieux coyote, accomplissant son boulot et maintenant sa vie privée. Jusqu’à l’arrivée de Crispin Carrasco.
Mince, musclé, et doté d’une bouche qui refuse de la fermer, Crispin fait jaillir une étincelle en Malloy… embrasant un feu dont le contremaître ignorait l’existence. Mais comment un coyote esseulé peut-il approcher la chaleur d’un feu ? Et plus important encore, qu’arrivera-t-il si ces flammes le brûlent ?
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First published August 20, 2013
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April 28, 2019
Oh. My. God. This was spectacular!
Cowboy romances can be sooo good. And this one proved yet again why I love them so much!
Malloy is ranch foreman at the J-Bar ranch in New Mexico. He came to the ranch as a 14 year old after his alcoholic mother died of an overdose. The ranch owner Mr Jenkins took him in out of the foster system and put him to work and through school until Malloy graduated university. Out of loyalty and love for the land, Malloy stayed at the ranch permanently. Even though Malloy knows Mr Jenkins considers him the son he’s never had, Malloy keeps his distance and thinks of himself as an employee instead of a son, calling Mr Jenkins ‘sir’ even though the man keeps telling him to call him by his first name at least.
Malloy is 32 years old when the story begins. Mr Jenkins tells him that he and his wife need to leave the farm for a couple months to spend time with their adult daughters and their grandchildren in Florida. But before he leaves, Mr Jenkins informs Malloy that he took in another ranch hand and asks Malloy to see to it that the boy doesn’t cause troubles, since he is pretty openly gay and unafraid to hide it.
Stoic and tight lipped Malloy takes this in and promises to look after the boy, which isn’t the easiest of tasks, since Crispin turns out to be able to talk a man’s head off. In addition to that, the two other remaining ranch hands don’t react too well to Crispin.
Still, Crispin quickly strikes up a friendship with the quiet and brooding Malloy and their path to falling in love is one of the purest and most beautiful pieces of romantic literature you could ever find.
When tragedy strikes the J-Bar Ranch, it takes Crispin’s care and devotion for Malloy not to fall apart.
I absolutely loved every single character in this book. They’re so real, grounded, genuine and unique. Sure, Crispin is a hand-full. At 25, he’s still ‘the kid’ among the ranch hands and he is trying to mask his insecurities with his quick witted mouth.
Even the parts where they pushed each other away were beautiful, relevant and heartfelt.
And I loved how , not because he felt he had to, but because he loved his man so much he wanted to give him the connection.
It was so beautiful. It’s literally one of my top 10 favorites I’ve read this year. I think I need to check out the other books in this series as well. I could eat this type of romance up with a spoon.
Oh, but the weirdest part of the story were the character’s names. Oh my God, they cracked me up. Crispin Carrasco, Malloy (I kid you not) and the dog .
Priceless. Simply an all around beautiful story filled with emotions and a brooding cowboy who thaws up under the loving ministrations of a younger and open minded partner. There’s nothing better.
5 stars!
Cowboy romances can be sooo good. And this one proved yet again why I love them so much!
Malloy is ranch foreman at the J-Bar ranch in New Mexico. He came to the ranch as a 14 year old after his alcoholic mother died of an overdose. The ranch owner Mr Jenkins took him in out of the foster system and put him to work and through school until Malloy graduated university. Out of loyalty and love for the land, Malloy stayed at the ranch permanently. Even though Malloy knows Mr Jenkins considers him the son he’s never had, Malloy keeps his distance and thinks of himself as an employee instead of a son, calling Mr Jenkins ‘sir’ even though the man keeps telling him to call him by his first name at least.
Malloy is 32 years old when the story begins. Mr Jenkins tells him that he and his wife need to leave the farm for a couple months to spend time with their adult daughters and their grandchildren in Florida. But before he leaves, Mr Jenkins informs Malloy that he took in another ranch hand and asks Malloy to see to it that the boy doesn’t cause troubles, since he is pretty openly gay and unafraid to hide it.
Stoic and tight lipped Malloy takes this in and promises to look after the boy, which isn’t the easiest of tasks, since Crispin turns out to be able to talk a man’s head off. In addition to that, the two other remaining ranch hands don’t react too well to Crispin.
Still, Crispin quickly strikes up a friendship with the quiet and brooding Malloy and their path to falling in love is one of the purest and most beautiful pieces of romantic literature you could ever find.
When tragedy strikes the J-Bar Ranch, it takes Crispin’s care and devotion for Malloy not to fall apart.
I absolutely loved every single character in this book. They’re so real, grounded, genuine and unique. Sure, Crispin is a hand-full. At 25, he’s still ‘the kid’ among the ranch hands and he is trying to mask his insecurities with his quick witted mouth.
Even the parts where they pushed each other away were beautiful, relevant and heartfelt.
And I loved how , not because he felt he had to, but because he loved his man so much he wanted to give him the connection.
It was so beautiful. It’s literally one of my top 10 favorites I’ve read this year. I think I need to check out the other books in this series as well. I could eat this type of romance up with a spoon.
Oh, but the weirdest part of the story were the character’s names. Oh my God, they cracked me up. Crispin Carrasco, Malloy (I kid you not) and the dog .
Priceless. Simply an all around beautiful story filled with emotions and a brooding cowboy who thaws up under the loving ministrations of a younger and open minded partner. There’s nothing better.
5 stars!
August 17, 2013
3.5 stars
Well, well, well…this book was lovely. Lovely in the sense that 2 men grow to love each other and they fight to be together. And I can read that story all day, every day.
I have to admit, I wasn’t feeling this as the book started. The characters are not the type that you just “take” to right away. Crispin is overly talkative, a bit flamboyant, kinda emo, and unsettles things at the J-Ranch. Malloy is the steady (read: boring) ranch foreman who is surprised to find himself attracted to Crispin.
But, ZAM, the master at writing the broken character with a painful past, starts to draw you in as you get to know more about both Crispin and Malloy and the deep hurts and fears that come along with them. I found myself rooting for this couple, to be able to get past their histories, to drop their baggage, and to allow themselves to be loved. And once that love grew, *sigh*…it was tender and loyal and well, HOT! (very HOT!)
I also loved the side story of the ranch’s owner, Crandall Jenkins, and his family and Malloy’s place in their hearts. Tear jerker…
This could easily be seen as a gay-for-you story, but it’s actually a very subtle out-for-you one instead. ZAM takes the reader on the journey along with Malloy as he comes to the realization he’s gay and then, well, embraces it because of his deep love for Crispin. By the end, I was such a fan of both of their characters.
ZAM is sometimes a hit or miss for me. But, I really enjoyed this one…
Check out this interview with ZA Maxfield as we talk cowboys, scary dolls, and the significance of signing with Intermix/Penguin! http://loveaffairwithanereader.blogsp...
September 2, 2013
I love it when books take me on a journey I haven't expected. When I saw the „fluffy“ title and the cover I thought it would be another nice read about cowboys, horses, finding love and hot sex. Yada yada yada...
What I got was much much more. Speed 'Jefe' Malloy and Crispin Carrasco pulled all my heartstrings, ripped my heart apart, put it back together and ripped it apart all over again.
Malloy is the quiet and lonely foreman of the J-Bar Ranch. He has lived and worked there since the owners Crandall and Emma took him in at the age of 14. Now with 32 he works the land and supports the family who's given him a chance after a bad childhood. He cares deeply about Eddie and Jim, the other two full time ranch hands and he is devoted to his foster family but he finds it difficult to express his emotions. He keeps to himself, he thinks he doesn't belong to anyone/anything.
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Crandall and Emma, these kind and warm-hearted people just blew me away. Their love for each other was wonderful to watch.
...when I saw Crandall and Emma two-stepping around the living room. Crandall was holding her closer than I thought he ought. Emma’s face had looked flushed and pretty. I sat on the stairs and watched through the railing as they danced to a Randy Travis song I later found out was “their” song. It was sentimental and sweet, with “I’m going to love you forever,” in the lyrics.
When I read this part a photo from Elliot Erwitt came into my mind. I love the message of unlimited love behind the picture:
Malloy doesn't have any illusions regarding his future. He isn't like Crandall Jenkins, and he'd never find an Emma. He'd never have what they have between them - not the home, not the kids, not the legacy, nor the love, nor the comfort of a lifelong partnership...
When Crandall and Emma take a vacation to visit their daughter in Florida, they tell Malloy they hired Crispin, a young man who needs a place to stay. For Malloy, who's never had any desires to have more than one-night stands with women, Crispin is like a shock to his system. He is openly gay, somewhat flamboyant and has a motor mouth that doesn't quit. Ever!
This kid’s thoughts seemed to gallop along like a herd of wild horses. I could maybe get close enough to catch one every other minute or so...“
„I can actually picture it: Letters like snowflakes, swirling in the air around Crispin and littering the wooden porch deck where—thankfully—his feet were encased in a good, insulated pair of ropers. At least he wouldn’t get frostbite and lose toes.“
I loved Crispin. Tough and manly, caring and honest. He is a strong and inspiring man. It was easy to see why Malloy falls in love with him. He cares for Malloy and the ranch and the animals. He even loves Malloy's crazy horse 'Teddy' Roosevelt.
“I was going to say call him Theodore. He likes that best.”
I checked Crispin’s face to see if he was kidding. He looked dead serious. “You’re shitting me.”
Crispin shook his head. “Try it. See what happens.”
“You some kind of horse whisperer or something?”
“No.” He looked up, surprised....
"You’ll just have to trust me, Jefe. Names are sacred.“
Malloy has always considered himself straight but the more he’s in Crispin’s presence the more he begins to question his feelings for him. The scenes where Malloy first admits his feelings for another man are awesome done.
I don't want to spoil anything so I won't give away more details. There's a bit of melodrama and angst, yes, but overall My Cowboy Heart is a beautiful romance and moving story of self discovery. It's a message that family is more than just blood relations and a heartwarming novel about friendship. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. Can't wait to read about Jim and Eddie. :)
Highly recommended! :)
September 2, 2013
Despite my seemingly complaint shown on my status update, I loved this book. It was definitely better when Malloy dropped the kid thing (though the dreaded "baby" did make an appearance, said by Crispin to Malloy. But I changed those when I read it 
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The story didn't have overwhelming drama. While Malloy might be only involved with women before Crispin came into his life, but he didn't contemplate too long to realize that he could be happy with Crispin.
I loved the differences between the two guys. Malloy was the solid, quiet, and well rather stoic cowboy. I felt for him -- the way he tried to prove himself of worthy for Mr. Jenkins. While Crispin, who is more outgoing and flamboyant -- and despite having bad childhood, he came out stronger. I loved how Crispin has a bleeding heart and the animals just got attached to him quickly.
It was a quiet, sweet, lovely romance that just fit my taste. I got teary eyed in the end during the conversation between Malloy and Jenkin's wife, Emma.
Now I can't wait for Eddie and Jim's story coming in January. Those two had complicated relationship, that's for sure. With Jim being such an a**hole here, it would be worth to read how he can redeem himself and find the love with Eddie.
).The story didn't have overwhelming drama. While Malloy might be only involved with women before Crispin came into his life, but he didn't contemplate too long to realize that he could be happy with Crispin.
I loved the differences between the two guys. Malloy was the solid, quiet, and well rather stoic cowboy. I felt for him -- the way he tried to prove himself of worthy for Mr. Jenkins. While Crispin, who is more outgoing and flamboyant -- and despite having bad childhood, he came out stronger. I loved how Crispin has a bleeding heart and the animals just got attached to him quickly.
It was a quiet, sweet, lovely romance that just fit my taste. I got teary eyed in the end during the conversation between Malloy and Jenkin's wife, Emma.
Now I can't wait for Eddie and Jim's story coming in January. Those two had complicated relationship, that's for sure. With Jim being such an a**hole here, it would be worth to read how he can redeem himself and find the love with Eddie.
August 22, 2013
This is definitely a 5+ star read for me and I'm surprised to see so many 4 star reviews! The writing in this is just beautiful and the characterizations so rich and true and I actually found myself slowing down to savor every word.
Some of the things I loved:
* the soap opera that ensued when a gorgeous young cowboy was dropped into an isolated bunk house with 3 supposedly straight ranch hands -- ay carumba!
* the first person voice of Speed. His internal thoughts as he realized he had feelings for a man and was likely gay despite years of who-knew were so spot on and rich with with honesty. So often in stories where one MC is undergoing a change like this it's glossed over or unrealistic -- not here
* the Crandall character
* loads of great dialogue/banter -- no "we talked for hours and he was so clever" here. Z.A. delivers the goods and then piles more goods on top of that.
* the ranch, the animals.
* threep
There isn't much I didn't like about this book other than the plotline got pretty sad when a major character is lost and the future is uncertain. It was all well-done and, well, was the plot of the book, but I really found all that very secondary to the actual language of the book and the characters.
Thank you, Z.A. for a wonderful read. I look forward to the next book in the series.
Some of the things I loved:
* the soap opera that ensued when a gorgeous young cowboy was dropped into an isolated bunk house with 3 supposedly straight ranch hands -- ay carumba!
* the first person voice of Speed. His internal thoughts as he realized he had feelings for a man and was likely gay despite years of who-knew were so spot on and rich with with honesty. So often in stories where one MC is undergoing a change like this it's glossed over or unrealistic -- not here
* the Crandall character
* loads of great dialogue/banter -- no "we talked for hours and he was so clever" here. Z.A. delivers the goods and then piles more goods on top of that.
* the ranch, the animals.
* threep
There isn't much I didn't like about this book other than the plotline got pretty sad when a major character is lost and the future is uncertain. It was all well-done and, well, was the plot of the book, but I really found all that very secondary to the actual language of the book and the characters.
Thank you, Z.A. for a wonderful read. I look forward to the next book in the series.
September 30, 2024
Hot ranch foreman falling for the new ranch hand. Reread this countless times. Love this cowboy story 🖤
August 26, 2013
This is a lovely, quiet romance about a lonely man finding out that his world and his heart are bigger and more complicated than he ever imagined.
Malloy has been on the J-Bar ranch ever since he arrived as a foster kid with no posessions, a neglected and painful childhood, and a deep need for some adult whom he could believe in and trust. He found that adult in ranch owner Crandall Jenkins, and to a lesser degree in his wife Emma. For the first time, Malloy was around people who kept their word, who cared more for others than themselves, who loved. They became his foster parents but Crandall was more - his model, his lodestar, almost his god. Malloy's life goal is to be the man Crandall would want him to be, to meet not just Crandall's loving standards but the ideal of integrity and strength that Crandall represents. So as he grew, became a ranch hand, went to college, and returned to become ranch foreman, Malloy has molded himself into a person Mr. Jenkins can be proud of knowing.
And now at 32, he is that man - honest, hard-working, compassionate, loving the land and the ranch and all who live and work on it. He's content, but although he doesn't admit it to himself, a little lonely. And despite the way the Jenkins' treat him as almost one of their own, he's aware of a gulf between himself and their biological daughters - a gulf which keeps him from feeling truly secure, because one day the ranch may go to the girls, who don't love it, and who may sell it and take away this life he lives for. Malloy tries not to think about that, but that hint of insecurity, and its echoes of his unsafe childhood, underlies his life as he works so hard for a place that is not his own.
Malloy isn't the only man working the ranch. Eddie and Jim are the permanent ranch hands, two men whom Crandall has also given a job and a home. And as the book opens, with the Jenkins' on their way to Florida to visit the grandchildren, Malloy is told there will be one more guy joining the crew. Crispin is the grandson of a friend of theirs, in need of a job, and a twenty-five-year-old out, gay cowboy.
Crispin is a startlement and a wonder to Malloy from the very first moment. He talks constantly, loves animals, makes odd dolls, cooks, laughs, and shakes up Malloy's life. Crispin flirts with him, at first in very subtle ways, which Malloy reacts to without understanding why. Then one day, Crispin kisses him. Or he kisses Crispin. Malloy is not sure which, but he is sure that the moment of need and discovery cracks open his world, showing him to be a man he hardly recognizes. Those passionless, fast experiences he had with women in the past were unsatisfying, not because he didn't find the right woman, but because he was looking in the wrong place.
Malloy is sweet and lovely in his efforts to figure out what it means to be gay, and to be falling for the mercurial and confusing Crispin. He retreats into simple-cowboy mode, into the words and patterns he learned from Crandall, when he needs room to think. At other times, the college-educated man he is shows through. But through it all, he is trying to be a stand-up guy about this, and always putting Crispin first. If he could only figure out what that meant.
Crispin is a great character, a young man who is brilliant and passionate, sometimes scared and a bit battered by life. He is cheerful and positive by nature, but has a well of anger inside from a childhood spent around actors and Hollywood glitter and shallow self-centered people, and from the untimely death of his parents which sent him to live with his grandmother. He blows hot and cold in ways sometimes as infuriating to the reader as they are confusing to Malloy, but it is his vulnerability that drives his changes of mood.
It is a real pleasure to watch these two come together. The book starts out light and sweet, but quickly becomes more emotional as the pasts of these two lonely men complicate their love story. And then the present adds its helping of pain. I really enjoyed this, a fast, smooth, beautifully-written story about two guys you can't help loving. At the end of the book, I felt that there was still more healing needed - the issues these men were dealing with ran deep, and there hadn't been enough time, introspection, or therapy to get them past it yet. But there is a solid happy ending that warmed me, and this book goes on my comfort-reread shelf, despite the emotional moments in it. I was also pleased to get a little taste of the sequel, about Jim and Eddie, two secondary characters I'd like to know more about. Looking forward to that one.
Malloy has been on the J-Bar ranch ever since he arrived as a foster kid with no posessions, a neglected and painful childhood, and a deep need for some adult whom he could believe in and trust. He found that adult in ranch owner Crandall Jenkins, and to a lesser degree in his wife Emma. For the first time, Malloy was around people who kept their word, who cared more for others than themselves, who loved. They became his foster parents but Crandall was more - his model, his lodestar, almost his god. Malloy's life goal is to be the man Crandall would want him to be, to meet not just Crandall's loving standards but the ideal of integrity and strength that Crandall represents. So as he grew, became a ranch hand, went to college, and returned to become ranch foreman, Malloy has molded himself into a person Mr. Jenkins can be proud of knowing.
And now at 32, he is that man - honest, hard-working, compassionate, loving the land and the ranch and all who live and work on it. He's content, but although he doesn't admit it to himself, a little lonely. And despite the way the Jenkins' treat him as almost one of their own, he's aware of a gulf between himself and their biological daughters - a gulf which keeps him from feeling truly secure, because one day the ranch may go to the girls, who don't love it, and who may sell it and take away this life he lives for. Malloy tries not to think about that, but that hint of insecurity, and its echoes of his unsafe childhood, underlies his life as he works so hard for a place that is not his own.
Malloy isn't the only man working the ranch. Eddie and Jim are the permanent ranch hands, two men whom Crandall has also given a job and a home. And as the book opens, with the Jenkins' on their way to Florida to visit the grandchildren, Malloy is told there will be one more guy joining the crew. Crispin is the grandson of a friend of theirs, in need of a job, and a twenty-five-year-old out, gay cowboy.
Crispin is a startlement and a wonder to Malloy from the very first moment. He talks constantly, loves animals, makes odd dolls, cooks, laughs, and shakes up Malloy's life. Crispin flirts with him, at first in very subtle ways, which Malloy reacts to without understanding why. Then one day, Crispin kisses him. Or he kisses Crispin. Malloy is not sure which, but he is sure that the moment of need and discovery cracks open his world, showing him to be a man he hardly recognizes. Those passionless, fast experiences he had with women in the past were unsatisfying, not because he didn't find the right woman, but because he was looking in the wrong place.
Malloy is sweet and lovely in his efforts to figure out what it means to be gay, and to be falling for the mercurial and confusing Crispin. He retreats into simple-cowboy mode, into the words and patterns he learned from Crandall, when he needs room to think. At other times, the college-educated man he is shows through. But through it all, he is trying to be a stand-up guy about this, and always putting Crispin first. If he could only figure out what that meant.
Crispin is a great character, a young man who is brilliant and passionate, sometimes scared and a bit battered by life. He is cheerful and positive by nature, but has a well of anger inside from a childhood spent around actors and Hollywood glitter and shallow self-centered people, and from the untimely death of his parents which sent him to live with his grandmother. He blows hot and cold in ways sometimes as infuriating to the reader as they are confusing to Malloy, but it is his vulnerability that drives his changes of mood.
It is a real pleasure to watch these two come together. The book starts out light and sweet, but quickly becomes more emotional as the pasts of these two lonely men complicate their love story. And then the present adds its helping of pain. I really enjoyed this, a fast, smooth, beautifully-written story about two guys you can't help loving. At the end of the book, I felt that there was still more healing needed - the issues these men were dealing with ran deep, and there hadn't been enough time, introspection, or therapy to get them past it yet. But there is a solid happy ending that warmed me, and this book goes on my comfort-reread shelf, despite the emotional moments in it. I was also pleased to get a little taste of the sequel, about Jim and Eddie, two secondary characters I'd like to know more about. Looking forward to that one.
December 4, 2013
This was a really emotional book. It started off funny enough and I really got into it. But I hadn't expected a book as emotional as this one. It was a book that had great characters, an interesting plot, and something that showed the kindness in people's hearts. I loved the fact that Mallory and Crispin had somewhat similar pasts. It was nice to see those similarities as both men had lost people in their lives.
The book is told in Mallory's POV and I found it wonderful. I'm a huge fan of 1st person stories and Mallory was such a complex character, that it made sense his story would be told like this. His story was sad. He was a lonely man in a room full of people for so long. What Crispin said was true, you can be alone in a crowd of people. And for Mallory, that really was the truth.
Normally, I hate it when a character dies and it's just to make things easier or more convenient. But sometimes it really does help a story or a character. And in reality, people die, so the way death was handled here was so well done and emotional. I hate to say it, but I was glad it happened the way it did. It added that raw emotion to it, and in some ways, I believe it's what made Mallory less alone in the long run. Strange as it may be, it's kinda how I feel.
Crispin was just a great character. He was out, really out, and at the same time, he had his own issues. It showed a great complexity. The man who acts like an excitable child, had so much pain in his past. And he suffered. I mean he really suffered. And like Mallory, he was probably a tiny bit alone himself. I was glad he was Mallory's opposite and at the same time, he was so like Mallory. His past did shape him.
I really enjoyed reading this book. I have a thing for cowboys and this author told the story really well. I fell in love with the MC's and have found a new book that I love.
The book is told in Mallory's POV and I found it wonderful. I'm a huge fan of 1st person stories and Mallory was such a complex character, that it made sense his story would be told like this. His story was sad. He was a lonely man in a room full of people for so long. What Crispin said was true, you can be alone in a crowd of people. And for Mallory, that really was the truth.
Normally, I hate it when a character dies and it's just to make things easier or more convenient. But sometimes it really does help a story or a character. And in reality, people die, so the way death was handled here was so well done and emotional. I hate to say it, but I was glad it happened the way it did. It added that raw emotion to it, and in some ways, I believe it's what made Mallory less alone in the long run. Strange as it may be, it's kinda how I feel.
Crispin was just a great character. He was out, really out, and at the same time, he had his own issues. It showed a great complexity. The man who acts like an excitable child, had so much pain in his past. And he suffered. I mean he really suffered. And like Mallory, he was probably a tiny bit alone himself. I was glad he was Mallory's opposite and at the same time, he was so like Mallory. His past did shape him.
I really enjoyed reading this book. I have a thing for cowboys and this author told the story really well. I fell in love with the MC's and have found a new book that I love.
August 22, 2013
I have to say that this was probably one of my most favourite cowboy stories up to now. Not because this is an all out Ride 'em cowboy/ yeehaw! m/m ranch romance full of Dallas style sex and drama, or hot rodeo star rivals falling in love on the circuit or the ranch owner who can't keep his hands off the cocky young ranch hand, incurring the wrath of the homophobic small town they live in.
No, I loved this because even though its far more understated and subtle than that, I still felt it was a strong and heartwarming, sexy yet delightfully quirky story with its underlying humour and snappy dialogue between Malloy and Crispin whilst at the same time wringing a constant emotional response from the beautiful and tender romance that grows between them and also the poignant storyline that drives the book towards the end.
" I LOVED CRISPIN CARRASCO. NERVOUS TALKER, DOLL MAKER, DOG RESCUER, DAMAGED GOODS, COWBOY WHISPERER "
Every character felt real to me and that made it even more enjoyable. I almost felt like I was inside the story watching it all play out and I have to say this was classy and beautifully put together without being florid, wordy or terribly worthy.
There's no doubt that even though he's off page for most of the book, Crandall Jenkins is the heart of this story but the soul belongs to Malloy and Crispin. It was a joy to read and for me it totally deserves a full 5 stars.
" I CLUNG TO CRISPIN. I WRAPPED MYSELF AROUND HIM BODY AND SOUL, AND LET HIS BREATHING BE MY NIGHT SONG. HIS HEAD RESTED ON MY CHEST. " YOU ALL RIGHT? " I ASKED. " WARM ENOUGH? "
SAFE NOW? " SHH, " HE WHISPERED. " I'M LISTENING TO YOUR HEART BEAT. "
Now Im itching to read Eddie and Jim's story and if the excerpt at the end is anything to go by its going to be another winner. Gorgeous!
No, I loved this because even though its far more understated and subtle than that, I still felt it was a strong and heartwarming, sexy yet delightfully quirky story with its underlying humour and snappy dialogue between Malloy and Crispin whilst at the same time wringing a constant emotional response from the beautiful and tender romance that grows between them and also the poignant storyline that drives the book towards the end.
" I LOVED CRISPIN CARRASCO. NERVOUS TALKER, DOLL MAKER, DOG RESCUER, DAMAGED GOODS, COWBOY WHISPERER "
Every character felt real to me and that made it even more enjoyable. I almost felt like I was inside the story watching it all play out and I have to say this was classy and beautifully put together without being florid, wordy or terribly worthy.
There's no doubt that even though he's off page for most of the book, Crandall Jenkins is the heart of this story but the soul belongs to Malloy and Crispin. It was a joy to read and for me it totally deserves a full 5 stars.
" I CLUNG TO CRISPIN. I WRAPPED MYSELF AROUND HIM BODY AND SOUL, AND LET HIS BREATHING BE MY NIGHT SONG. HIS HEAD RESTED ON MY CHEST. " YOU ALL RIGHT? " I ASKED. " WARM ENOUGH? "
SAFE NOW? " SHH, " HE WHISPERED. " I'M LISTENING TO YOUR HEART BEAT. "
Now Im itching to read Eddie and Jim's story and if the excerpt at the end is anything to go by its going to be another winner. Gorgeous!
August 28, 2013
What`s better than a cowboy with a heart of gold?
Two cowboys with a heart of gold!
Story/plot was nothing new and not overly exciting, but I fell in love with these wonderful, adorable characters. The five stars are for them.
Two cowboys with a heart of gold!
Story/plot was nothing new and not overly exciting, but I fell in love with these wonderful, adorable characters. The five stars are for them.
September 6, 2016
This was a nice, understated romance of two men finding love and finding themselves. Malloy, the ranch foreman, is pretty much a loner. As a teenager he was saved by the Jenkins family and has since lived and devoted his life to them and the ranch. He has no real other relationships to speak of and as foreman, keeps his distance from the others he bunks with.
When out and proud Crispin shows up on the ranch as the new hand (and friend of the Jenkins family), Malloy is tasked by Mr. Jenkins with making sure he not only acclimates to working on the ranch, but making sure nobody gives him trouble. Crispin's arrival seems to throw the other hands, Eddie and Jim off-kilter and Malloy soon finds himself reacting to the man in ways he never before considered.
The two men had difficult past issues to deal with, but neither of them is broken by it. I loved Crispin's nervous babbling and caring nature. He has a heart of gold, especially when it comes to working with the animals. Malloy's quiet discovery and acceptance of his feelings for Crispin and what it means for his future was a pleasure to read. The differences in the dynamic of the work vs. private relationship they have was really enjoyable as well.
There is some humor in with the drama and there is room for the story to continue, although there is a happy ending for the two men. The supporting characters all had dimension and reasons to be there. Looking forward to Eddie and Jim's story next.
When out and proud Crispin shows up on the ranch as the new hand (and friend of the Jenkins family), Malloy is tasked by Mr. Jenkins with making sure he not only acclimates to working on the ranch, but making sure nobody gives him trouble. Crispin's arrival seems to throw the other hands, Eddie and Jim off-kilter and Malloy soon finds himself reacting to the man in ways he never before considered.
The two men had difficult past issues to deal with, but neither of them is broken by it. I loved Crispin's nervous babbling and caring nature. He has a heart of gold, especially when it comes to working with the animals. Malloy's quiet discovery and acceptance of his feelings for Crispin and what it means for his future was a pleasure to read. The differences in the dynamic of the work vs. private relationship they have was really enjoyable as well.
There is some humor in with the drama and there is room for the story to continue, although there is a happy ending for the two men. The supporting characters all had dimension and reasons to be there. Looking forward to Eddie and Jim's story next.
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September 24, 2022
I absolutely loved My Cowboy Heart. I love stories about ranchers/farmers and add Z.A. Maxfield and it is gold for me. It was such a emotional read and even years later, time to time I think about Malloy and Crispin's story.
August 25, 2013
The beginning of this story was slow for me and it took a little bit to get interested in the characters. For me there was not an instant love with either of the main characters, but as the story progresses I began to enjoy them more and more. This is a very slow progressing romance and while Mallory may have never been with a man before, I wouldn't really consider it a gfy/ofy type book. It was more of a realization that gender didn't matter when it came to matters of the heart. The love that grows between these two is so sweet and was a great journey as it unfolded.
November 17, 2013
I really enjoyed this read.
Crispin starts working at the J-Bar and shakes everything and everyone up, the ranch foreman Malloy most of all.
There were a lot of things that I liked about this story: the MC's, the build of their relationship and that they connected on a lot of different levels and they understood each other's quirks. Definitely more than just sex here. Some great descriptions of ranch life as well and living in a pretty isolated area.
Crispin starts working at the J-Bar and shakes everything and everyone up, the ranch foreman Malloy most of all.
There were a lot of things that I liked about this story: the MC's, the build of their relationship and that they connected on a lot of different levels and they understood each other's quirks. Definitely more than just sex here. Some great descriptions of ranch life as well and living in a pretty isolated area.
January 20, 2014
This is a beautiful romance that shows what love and family are all about. It is heartwarming and tender with some emotionally charged moments.
Malloy had a very sad upbringing with a drug addicted mother who was always looking for the next man or the next fix. He largely had to fend for himself until Crandall Jenkins and his wife Emma took him in. They provided him with a job and a home on their ranch but most importantly a place in their family. Malloy's life largely revolves around the Jenkin's family, his role as foreman of the ranch and his need to earn Crandall Jenkin's love and respect.
Crispin has been through a terrible trauma and still bears the scars of his experience. Mr Jenkins offers him a place on the ranch and asks Malloy to keep an eye on the openly gay Crispin. This is the turning point in his life as Malloy's eyes are finally opened to the true man he is inside.
The scenes where Malloy first admits his feelings for another man are wonderfully done, with Malloy first facing the loss of his dream "I wasn't like Crandall Jenkins, and I'd never find an Emma. I'd never have what they had between them - not the home, not the kids, not the legacy, nor the love, nor the comfort of a lifelong partnership." but then realising this wasn't the end "It had only been moments since I'd thought about everything I'd lost, but now...now I could see what I'd gained."
Crispin is truly a strong and inspiring man. He sees so much of the truth in people and I really warmed to his character. It was easy to see why Malloy felt so passionately about the man. I enjoyed the build of the relationship and the very emotional connection they had as well as the extremely passionate sex.
The story follows the romance but also has a strong focus on family as Crandall gets sick and the family need to deal with the ramifications. We also get some insight into the other ranch hands, Eddie and Jim who have their own issues. (I can't wait to read their story in My Heartache Cowboy which is due Jan 2014). I guess Malloy's doctor had it right when he said "Are you living on a ranch or a telenovela?"
A lovely balance of deep emotional issues with moments of love and happiness! 4.5 stars
I now publish all my m/m reviews on my blog so if you want to see all my m/m reviews in one place come visit at Because Two Men Are Better Than One!
Malloy had a very sad upbringing with a drug addicted mother who was always looking for the next man or the next fix. He largely had to fend for himself until Crandall Jenkins and his wife Emma took him in. They provided him with a job and a home on their ranch but most importantly a place in their family. Malloy's life largely revolves around the Jenkin's family, his role as foreman of the ranch and his need to earn Crandall Jenkin's love and respect.
Crispin has been through a terrible trauma and still bears the scars of his experience. Mr Jenkins offers him a place on the ranch and asks Malloy to keep an eye on the openly gay Crispin. This is the turning point in his life as Malloy's eyes are finally opened to the true man he is inside.
The scenes where Malloy first admits his feelings for another man are wonderfully done, with Malloy first facing the loss of his dream "I wasn't like Crandall Jenkins, and I'd never find an Emma. I'd never have what they had between them - not the home, not the kids, not the legacy, nor the love, nor the comfort of a lifelong partnership." but then realising this wasn't the end "It had only been moments since I'd thought about everything I'd lost, but now...now I could see what I'd gained."
Crispin is truly a strong and inspiring man. He sees so much of the truth in people and I really warmed to his character. It was easy to see why Malloy felt so passionately about the man. I enjoyed the build of the relationship and the very emotional connection they had as well as the extremely passionate sex.
The story follows the romance but also has a strong focus on family as Crandall gets sick and the family need to deal with the ramifications. We also get some insight into the other ranch hands, Eddie and Jim who have their own issues. (I can't wait to read their story in My Heartache Cowboy which is due Jan 2014). I guess Malloy's doctor had it right when he said "Are you living on a ranch or a telenovela?"
A lovely balance of deep emotional issues with moments of love and happiness! 4.5 stars
I now publish all my m/m reviews on my blog so if you want to see all my m/m reviews in one place come visit at Because Two Men Are Better Than One!
May 7, 2017
I admit that it took me a couple of chapters to really get into this one, but once it grabbed me, it did not let me go. At first, Crispin really bugged me with all his hot and cold behavior, but I finally figured out that it was to protect himself, not him being fickle or toying with Malloy.
Malloy and Crispin both have so much tragedy in their lives. Malloy had a drug addicted mom, the kind of mom who would name her son just because she thinks it's funny. Crispin was a child of Hollywood parents, with all the entrapments. Parties, shallow people, the works.
The Jenkins family took Malloy in when he was 14, and Malloy has spent the rest of his life trying to emulate Crandall Jenkins, trying to be the kind of man he would be proud of, to prove that he wasn't wrong to give a kid like him a shot. And he does it so well. Sure, he might not be happy, but he's not unhappy either, mostly just content. Content to do his job, content to be on the outskirts of this wonderful family, and content with the somewhat awkward, not quite wow sexual encounters he has. (was I wrong to think he paid that woman for sex?)
Crispin was hurt as a child, both by his parents' lifestyle, and in the worst way, by a friend of the family. Well, maybe friend is a strong word, by an acquaintance. Once his parents died, Crispin moved in with his grandmother, and then he took off once he was old enough, because he didn't feel free to be who he was in New Mexico ranching country.
Now Crispin is back, Jenkins has given him a job, and Malloy's world gets set on it's ear. He doesn't know what it is about Crispin that calls out to him, he's never even thought about a man in that way before, but maybe this is it. Maybe this is why he's never truly been able to be happy with a woman. He faces, not a loss of his dreams, exactly, but a change, from the perfect family with 2.5 kids like the Jenkins have. But maybe he can have his own kind of happiness?
Malloy and Crispin were total opposites. Malloy was very calm, almost staid, while Crispin is out and proud, and talks a mile a minute. These two come together to create a wonderful, beautiful thing, once they both relax and trust each other enough to just let things go.
I also loved that Crispin wasn't cured by
Malloy and Crispin both have so much tragedy in their lives. Malloy had a drug addicted mom, the kind of mom who would name her son just because she thinks it's funny. Crispin was a child of Hollywood parents, with all the entrapments. Parties, shallow people, the works.
The Jenkins family took Malloy in when he was 14, and Malloy has spent the rest of his life trying to emulate Crandall Jenkins, trying to be the kind of man he would be proud of, to prove that he wasn't wrong to give a kid like him a shot. And he does it so well. Sure, he might not be happy, but he's not unhappy either, mostly just content. Content to do his job, content to be on the outskirts of this wonderful family, and content with the somewhat awkward, not quite wow sexual encounters he has. (was I wrong to think he paid that woman for sex?)
Crispin was hurt as a child, both by his parents' lifestyle, and in the worst way, by a friend of the family. Well, maybe friend is a strong word, by an acquaintance. Once his parents died, Crispin moved in with his grandmother, and then he took off once he was old enough, because he didn't feel free to be who he was in New Mexico ranching country.
Now Crispin is back, Jenkins has given him a job, and Malloy's world gets set on it's ear. He doesn't know what it is about Crispin that calls out to him, he's never even thought about a man in that way before, but maybe this is it. Maybe this is why he's never truly been able to be happy with a woman. He faces, not a loss of his dreams, exactly, but a change, from the perfect family with 2.5 kids like the Jenkins have. But maybe he can have his own kind of happiness?
Malloy and Crispin were total opposites. Malloy was very calm, almost staid, while Crispin is out and proud, and talks a mile a minute. These two come together to create a wonderful, beautiful thing, once they both relax and trust each other enough to just let things go.
I also loved that Crispin wasn't cured by
January 1, 2020
Reread in April 2016 and reviewed for Gay Book Reviews.
Crispin Carrasco is the new hire at Crandall Jenkins' J-Bar ranch. He may be young (25) but he's cowboy all the way. I picture Malloy as a cross between a young Sam Elliot and Hugh Jackman in Australia - only 32 but already careworn with responsibility due to the overwhelming loyalty he feels for Crandall Jenkins, who pulled him from darkness into the light when he was a 14-year-old foster kid. Being there for the people he loves is everything to Malloy.
Both Crispin and Malloy are damaged goods, but almost from the moment they meet there is an understanding there, a sizzling chemistry and a heartfelt longing that fuels this story from start to finish:
My Cowboy Heart is my absolute favorite Z.A. Maxfield book. There is a lyrical quality to the prose, an emotional depth in each and every character, and a rightness in the relationship between Malloy and Crispin - all overlaid by Crandall Jenkins and the love and admiration everyone had for this great man. I honest to gawd sob every time I read parts of this book and christ, some of the lines just about tear me up. Like Malloy thinking about Crispin: "He liked to fill a silence, that one, and I'm mostly made of silence." and "That kiss was oxygen and I had been suffocating all my life."
One more Malloy quote that will dry all those tears away ... "If you come onto me like this, if you curl up all over me and make eyes and shit, you'd better be prepared to fuck me like the fleet's in, or I will knock you down."
Read this book!
Initial Review: Loved the story, loved the characters, honest-to-god broke down crying at a few points in the book. Malloy is such a well-drawn character - his honor, his strength, his slow realization that Crispin is what his life is missing. My Cowboy Homecoming is another great book in this series.
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Crispin Carrasco is the new hire at Crandall Jenkins' J-Bar ranch. He may be young (25) but he's cowboy all the way. I picture Malloy as a cross between a young Sam Elliot and Hugh Jackman in Australia - only 32 but already careworn with responsibility due to the overwhelming loyalty he feels for Crandall Jenkins, who pulled him from darkness into the light when he was a 14-year-old foster kid. Being there for the people he loves is everything to Malloy.
Both Crispin and Malloy are damaged goods, but almost from the moment they meet there is an understanding there, a sizzling chemistry and a heartfelt longing that fuels this story from start to finish:
[Crispin] I used to imagine words hung in to the air for a while, fluttering around before they fell to the ground in piles of letters like snowflakes.
[Malloy] I could actually picture it, letters like snowflakes swirling in the air around Crispin and littering the wooden porch deck .....
"You were looking for words, weren't you? You were looking around us on the ground and wondering what words would look like if they'd fallen there."
Sure it was weird, but there was no doubt I'd done exactly that. "Maybe."
"We're soul mates" he exclaimed happily. "You're the first person I've ever said that to who actually looked."
My Cowboy Heart is my absolute favorite Z.A. Maxfield book. There is a lyrical quality to the prose, an emotional depth in each and every character, and a rightness in the relationship between Malloy and Crispin - all overlaid by Crandall Jenkins and the love and admiration everyone had for this great man. I honest to gawd sob every time I read parts of this book and christ, some of the lines just about tear me up. Like Malloy thinking about Crispin: "He liked to fill a silence, that one, and I'm mostly made of silence." and "That kiss was oxygen and I had been suffocating all my life."
One more Malloy quote that will dry all those tears away ... "If you come onto me like this, if you curl up all over me and make eyes and shit, you'd better be prepared to fuck me like the fleet's in, or I will knock you down."
Read this book!
Initial Review: Loved the story, loved the characters, honest-to-god broke down crying at a few points in the book. Malloy is such a well-drawn character - his honor, his strength, his slow realization that Crispin is what his life is missing. My Cowboy Homecoming is another great book in this series.
Review also posted at GayBook Reviews. Check it out!
Visit my new blog, Sinfully Good Gay Book Reviews
August 17, 2016
I read My Cowboy Homecoming back in 2014 and liked it quite a bit. So I decided to backtrack and read about the owners of the J-Bar Ranch, Malloy and Crispin. It took me a while, but I finally got around to it!
I really liked the set-up. We've got a strong and silent type, Malloy, and the younger and more lively one, Crispin. They're opposites in many ways, but feel an immediate attraction to each other. It was easy to sit back and enjoy this sweet romance.
I was a bit annoyed with Crispin at first. His hot-and-cold routine wasn't fun to read. But once we got more of his backstory, I could see where he was coming from. Malloy, on the other hand, was immediately likeable. He may prefer quiet and solitude, but he was also very aware of what Crispin needed to be comfortable.
I thought that the author did a good job with the character development. Crispin becomes more mature as the story moved forward, and Malloy slowly learns how to open up with those he cares for. The two find in each other the home and acceptance that they've searched for their whole lives.
Once Crispin and Malloy decide to give it a go, which does take a while, they don't hold back. The sex scenes were very steamy. The older/bigger man being the bottom? Yes, please!
Overall, I enjoyed 'My Cowboy Heart'. If you're looking for some slow-paced cowboy MM that's not too angsty, I'd recommend this book.
I really liked the set-up. We've got a strong and silent type, Malloy, and the younger and more lively one, Crispin. They're opposites in many ways, but feel an immediate attraction to each other. It was easy to sit back and enjoy this sweet romance.
I was a bit annoyed with Crispin at first. His hot-and-cold routine wasn't fun to read. But once we got more of his backstory, I could see where he was coming from. Malloy, on the other hand, was immediately likeable. He may prefer quiet and solitude, but he was also very aware of what Crispin needed to be comfortable.
I thought that the author did a good job with the character development. Crispin becomes more mature as the story moved forward, and Malloy slowly learns how to open up with those he cares for. The two find in each other the home and acceptance that they've searched for their whole lives.
Once Crispin and Malloy decide to give it a go, which does take a while, they don't hold back. The sex scenes were very steamy. The older/bigger man being the bottom? Yes, please!
Overall, I enjoyed 'My Cowboy Heart'. If you're looking for some slow-paced cowboy MM that's not too angsty, I'd recommend this book.
January 8, 2014
This was a winner of a story! And It was not what I had expected, like most people who have already read and reviewed this book. This story was deeper and more emotionally charged than I had assumed. Malloy and Crispin’s relationship was a slow burn and more emotionally satisfying than some of my previous cowboy reads. Crispin was talkative and funny, and Malloy was reserved and thoughtful. I enjoyed the way these two grew closer. I loved that their backgrounds were similar and that quiet loner Malloy was never embarrassed to be around talkative, animated Crispin. While this story did not have me jumping up and down with excitement and/or swooning all over the place, it did keep a steady satisfying smile on my face throughout the entire story. I never once had a slow moment, or a part that dragged a bit. This story was a snuggly blanket keeping me warm.
I loved the writing, the flow, and the characters. I could see myself sitting down and having a cup of coffee with these characters. I will be waiting for the next installment in this series.
5 quiet satisfying stars!
I loved the writing, the flow, and the characters. I could see myself sitting down and having a cup of coffee with these characters. I will be waiting for the next installment in this series.
5 quiet satisfying stars!
August 23, 2013
A book about two gay cowboys? Sign me up!
When I read the blurb, I expected a GFY romance. It wasn't. It's a very carefully written Out For You book, with a ton of emotions and very likable characters all around.
Malloy (that's his last name, and his first isn't revealed for quite a while) is the steady, quiet and rather lonely foreman of J-Bar Ranch, where he's lived and worked since he was taking in by the owners at age 14. Now in his early thirties, he quietly and steadily loves the ranch, works the land and supports the family who's given him a chance after a bad youth. His backstory comes out in bits and pieces as part of the plot, and the author did a great job showing (not telling) what made this man the way he is. He keeps to himself, partly out of choice, and partly because his deep-seated issues don't allow him to think he truly belongs.
From the start, Malloy's deep love and gratitude for his foster parents/employers shines through in everything he says and does. Even if he refuses to call Randall by his first name, after all these years. There are hints at abandonment issues, that are unfortunately not explored deeply enough by book's end, but that drive a lot of Malloy's actions and reactions.
When the owners (Randall and Emma) take a vacation to visit their daughter in Florida, they tell Malloy of hiring a new kid (Crispin Carrasco) who needed a place to stay. That's what they do, these kind and warm-hearted folks.
Crispin is a shock to Malloy's system. Where he's never had any inclination to take his infrequent relationships with women to anything beyond a one-night stand, Crispin, gay, out and somewhat flamboyant, throws Malloy a curve ball. He's never questioned his sexuality before, but as the story progresses, the author slowly lets Malloy explore this instant attraction and desire, while also dealing with the fact that Crispin in effect works for him.
When Crispin's backstory is revealed, I had tears in my eyes, though I wish the author had further explored the repercussions of that scene and delved a little deeper into the issue raised.
The author's no-nonsense writing style lends itself beautifully to this kind of romance. There's a lot of subtle touches in the writing, considering we see everything from Malloy's POV. Dialogue and narration both give insights into his feelings, how he sees the world and what he fears the most.
What impressed me most is that all the characters including the supporting cast where three-dimensional and all felt very real. Even Jim and Eddie, the other two ranch hands, with their own issues, were much more than simple caricatures of either homophobic or in the closet men. The reactions of Randall's daughter towards the end was also completely realistic and understandable.
I don't usually comment on the cover image, but in this case I feel the need to applaud the choice. It's nice to see a cover that doesn't depict half-nekkid men to sell the romance.
And while this book had a few sex scenes, it's not something I would consider erotica, despite the explicit language. Each sex scene is driven by the men's emotions and exudes much more than just the act. What I did question was the realism of riding a horse all day and then giving BJs without showering. Maybe these two men didn't care, but I sure did. I'm all for dirty, but not that kind of dirty.
What lost this book its fifth star was the lack of fully exploring the issues in both characters. While they discuss Crispin's trauma, and Malloy even suggests he see someone about it, the author never lets them deal with Malloy's own issues, especially not where those concern the relationship. For such complex characters as the author created, I felt let down. Neither of their issues were the kind that go away overnight or can be cured by the love of a good man. While I liked their HEA, it didn't feel realistic in the full context of this book.
In the end, this was a heart-warming, sweet romance, with a bit of angst and melodrama, but an overall message that family is more than just blood relations, that no man is an island, and that love will find out whether you're looking for it or not.
The book included an excerpt of the next one in this series, in which Jim and Eddie get their story. I can hardly wait.
I received a free ARC from the publisher via Netgalley. A positive review was not promised in return.
When I read the blurb, I expected a GFY romance. It wasn't. It's a very carefully written Out For You book, with a ton of emotions and very likable characters all around.
Malloy (that's his last name, and his first isn't revealed for quite a while) is the steady, quiet and rather lonely foreman of J-Bar Ranch, where he's lived and worked since he was taking in by the owners at age 14. Now in his early thirties, he quietly and steadily loves the ranch, works the land and supports the family who's given him a chance after a bad youth. His backstory comes out in bits and pieces as part of the plot, and the author did a great job showing (not telling) what made this man the way he is. He keeps to himself, partly out of choice, and partly because his deep-seated issues don't allow him to think he truly belongs.
From the start, Malloy's deep love and gratitude for his foster parents/employers shines through in everything he says and does. Even if he refuses to call Randall by his first name, after all these years. There are hints at abandonment issues, that are unfortunately not explored deeply enough by book's end, but that drive a lot of Malloy's actions and reactions.
When the owners (Randall and Emma) take a vacation to visit their daughter in Florida, they tell Malloy of hiring a new kid (Crispin Carrasco) who needed a place to stay. That's what they do, these kind and warm-hearted folks.
Crispin is a shock to Malloy's system. Where he's never had any inclination to take his infrequent relationships with women to anything beyond a one-night stand, Crispin, gay, out and somewhat flamboyant, throws Malloy a curve ball. He's never questioned his sexuality before, but as the story progresses, the author slowly lets Malloy explore this instant attraction and desire, while also dealing with the fact that Crispin in effect works for him.
When Crispin's backstory is revealed, I had tears in my eyes, though I wish the author had further explored the repercussions of that scene and delved a little deeper into the issue raised.
The author's no-nonsense writing style lends itself beautifully to this kind of romance. There's a lot of subtle touches in the writing, considering we see everything from Malloy's POV. Dialogue and narration both give insights into his feelings, how he sees the world and what he fears the most.
What impressed me most is that all the characters including the supporting cast where three-dimensional and all felt very real. Even Jim and Eddie, the other two ranch hands, with their own issues, were much more than simple caricatures of either homophobic or in the closet men. The reactions of Randall's daughter towards the end was also completely realistic and understandable.
I don't usually comment on the cover image, but in this case I feel the need to applaud the choice. It's nice to see a cover that doesn't depict half-nekkid men to sell the romance.
And while this book had a few sex scenes, it's not something I would consider erotica, despite the explicit language. Each sex scene is driven by the men's emotions and exudes much more than just the act. What I did question was the realism of riding a horse all day and then giving BJs without showering. Maybe these two men didn't care, but I sure did. I'm all for dirty, but not that kind of dirty.
What lost this book its fifth star was the lack of fully exploring the issues in both characters. While they discuss Crispin's trauma, and Malloy even suggests he see someone about it, the author never lets them deal with Malloy's own issues, especially not where those concern the relationship. For such complex characters as the author created, I felt let down. Neither of their issues were the kind that go away overnight or can be cured by the love of a good man. While I liked their HEA, it didn't feel realistic in the full context of this book.
In the end, this was a heart-warming, sweet romance, with a bit of angst and melodrama, but an overall message that family is more than just blood relations, that no man is an island, and that love will find out whether you're looking for it or not.
The book included an excerpt of the next one in this series, in which Jim and Eddie get their story. I can hardly wait.
I received a free ARC from the publisher via Netgalley. A positive review was not promised in return.
December 9, 2016
Very sweet story!!!! 3,5*
The Mc has already lost his faith on love so he focused his life on his work when Crispin appears in it! His boss just ask him to be looking for him.
And that's how they start knowing better each other and falling in love although the two of them need to think about living a new life.
Slow burn and good character development!
The Mc has already lost his faith on love so he focused his life on his work when Crispin appears in it! His boss just ask him to be looking for him.
And that's how they start knowing better each other and falling in love although the two of them need to think about living a new life.
Slow burn and good character development!
January 2, 2015
3.5 stars. Very enjoyable story. Both MC's were adorable.
June 21, 2017
I really enjoyed this book. Two damaged cowboys who find their soulmate. Recommend.
March 14, 2014
Well that was truly beautiful. I just loved watching Malloy open up his heart and soul and finding out there was more life had to offer him out there. I’ve enjoyed a number of Ms. Maxfield’s books in the past and this was no exception.
Speed Malloy has been working the J-Bar ranch most of his life. He’s devoted to the ranch and it’s owner Crandall Jenkins after Crandall and his wife took him in as a foster and raised him as their own. He got the college degree they wanted but he quickly came home to take over as the ranch foreman. Malloy has kept pretty much to himself with only a non-emotional hook up here and there. He’s never allowed himself to emotionally invest in anyone. He even tries to maintain a professional distance from Crandall and his wife even as in his head he thinks of them as his parents. Now Crandall’s asked him to take in this new hand for the winter as a favor to a friend in town.
Crispin Carrasco has been openly gay and while getting caught with the owner’s son, who quickly dove back in the closet, got him kicked off the his previous ranch taking care of his aunt Flora has taken precedence. Now he’s ready to get back to work as long as he doesn’t have to go too far from Flora. The opportunity at the J-Bar is perfect. Course his rambling chatty attitude and gay vibe is certainly stirring up all the other hands.
Ok so Crispin is absolutely adorable and his energy is just what Malloy needs to shake up his life. I love his quirky fun loving energy, his devotion and understanding of animals, his strangely fascinating crafting of dolls, he cooks and laughs and is an all around cutie. Malloy is so closed off from the world he needs someone out there like Crispin to shake him out from behind his walls. Of course Malloy being attracted to a guy for the first time isn’t helping him figure out what’s going on in his head very quickly. He’s such a sweetheart as he tries to figure it all out.
This story really is about these two men and their lives without any unnecessary extra trappings. Malloy’s blinders to the world around him have kept him so isolated from any sort of interpersonal relationship I thought at first it was going to take a bomb to shake him out of his shell. And really that’s essentially what Crispin is into his life. He explodes Malloy’s world so much that Malloy is left reeling and struggling to figure out how to deal with it all. The back and forth between the two guys gave them a solid foundation to keep building from though. By the time they were ready to admit there really was something real between them the map for their relationship was already laid.
When Malloy’s family is rocked by the changes flying their way and everything for the family he’s accepted as his own is going to be different that foundation gives Malloy the roots and balance he needs to really fly. In large part because it allowed him to access his emotions and acknowledge what all the changes meant to him and because of that he could deal with them in a logical manner instead of shutting it all off. Crispin was there for him every step of the way to led him a hand and giving him a safe warm place to come home to.
I have to admit I can’t wait to read book two because if there was one thing missing from this story that I personally was craving it’s Eddie and Jim. Cantankerous drunk that he is I somehow still really felt the pain and confusion that was pouring out from underneath all that ego and attitude from Jim. And Eddie is just a sweetheart trying to protect everyone while never taking anything for himself. I really want these two to have their HEA and for Jim to figure out what’s really going on inside that head of his. Course we do have the perfect set up for that already teased in this story. ;) YAY!!!
In the end I loved the slow burn of this relationship as it built into a fire that will never die. Crispin and Malloy deserve to have their happily ever afters. Both men have had tragedy and pain in their pasts and have managed to overcome it all. The loss of their parents and the incidents that happened to them when they were kids made them the men they are today and both men have triumphed over those adversities. Crispin especially somehow managed to maintain such a pure sweet soul in spite of the horrible things he had happen to him. Granted he had a much more stable home life than Malloy did.
This story had a wonderful sweetness to it and true caring. I can’t wait to read book 2 and see what happens for my lovely boys in the future.
Speed Malloy has been working the J-Bar ranch most of his life. He’s devoted to the ranch and it’s owner Crandall Jenkins after Crandall and his wife took him in as a foster and raised him as their own. He got the college degree they wanted but he quickly came home to take over as the ranch foreman. Malloy has kept pretty much to himself with only a non-emotional hook up here and there. He’s never allowed himself to emotionally invest in anyone. He even tries to maintain a professional distance from Crandall and his wife even as in his head he thinks of them as his parents. Now Crandall’s asked him to take in this new hand for the winter as a favor to a friend in town.
Crispin Carrasco has been openly gay and while getting caught with the owner’s son, who quickly dove back in the closet, got him kicked off the his previous ranch taking care of his aunt Flora has taken precedence. Now he’s ready to get back to work as long as he doesn’t have to go too far from Flora. The opportunity at the J-Bar is perfect. Course his rambling chatty attitude and gay vibe is certainly stirring up all the other hands.
Ok so Crispin is absolutely adorable and his energy is just what Malloy needs to shake up his life. I love his quirky fun loving energy, his devotion and understanding of animals, his strangely fascinating crafting of dolls, he cooks and laughs and is an all around cutie. Malloy is so closed off from the world he needs someone out there like Crispin to shake him out from behind his walls. Of course Malloy being attracted to a guy for the first time isn’t helping him figure out what’s going on in his head very quickly. He’s such a sweetheart as he tries to figure it all out.
This story really is about these two men and their lives without any unnecessary extra trappings. Malloy’s blinders to the world around him have kept him so isolated from any sort of interpersonal relationship I thought at first it was going to take a bomb to shake him out of his shell. And really that’s essentially what Crispin is into his life. He explodes Malloy’s world so much that Malloy is left reeling and struggling to figure out how to deal with it all. The back and forth between the two guys gave them a solid foundation to keep building from though. By the time they were ready to admit there really was something real between them the map for their relationship was already laid.
When Malloy’s family is rocked by the changes flying their way and everything for the family he’s accepted as his own is going to be different that foundation gives Malloy the roots and balance he needs to really fly. In large part because it allowed him to access his emotions and acknowledge what all the changes meant to him and because of that he could deal with them in a logical manner instead of shutting it all off. Crispin was there for him every step of the way to led him a hand and giving him a safe warm place to come home to.
I have to admit I can’t wait to read book two because if there was one thing missing from this story that I personally was craving it’s Eddie and Jim. Cantankerous drunk that he is I somehow still really felt the pain and confusion that was pouring out from underneath all that ego and attitude from Jim. And Eddie is just a sweetheart trying to protect everyone while never taking anything for himself. I really want these two to have their HEA and for Jim to figure out what’s really going on inside that head of his. Course we do have the perfect set up for that already teased in this story. ;) YAY!!!
In the end I loved the slow burn of this relationship as it built into a fire that will never die. Crispin and Malloy deserve to have their happily ever afters. Both men have had tragedy and pain in their pasts and have managed to overcome it all. The loss of their parents and the incidents that happened to them when they were kids made them the men they are today and both men have triumphed over those adversities. Crispin especially somehow managed to maintain such a pure sweet soul in spite of the horrible things he had happen to him. Granted he had a much more stable home life than Malloy did.
This story had a wonderful sweetness to it and true caring. I can’t wait to read book 2 and see what happens for my lovely boys in the future.
August 4, 2013
Malloy has been living on the J-Bar Ranch since he was taken in as a foster kid by the owner. He cares deeply for the ranch and for the family that took him in. Although he has hooked up with women here an there, he never had any desire to build something more with any one of them. So when he starts to look at the new ranch-hand, Crispin, with something more than affection he questions if he had denied himself his needs all this time.
Crispin is a free-spirit, sweet and honest to a fault. He's been out since he was young but doesn't want to draw unnecessary attention to himself. He's kind and caring and immediately drawn to Malloy. Although they try to keep things strictly as friends, their attraction and their caring ways bring them together deepening their connection even more.
Z.A. Maxfield did a wonderful job of bringing these two completely different men together in a way that make it possible for me to believe that they could make it work. I enjoyed how she went about Malloy dealing with the new found revelation of his attraction to men. It was a breath of fresh air to see how Malloy internalized it all without prejudice or resentment. It revealed a whole other side of him and reflected on his quiet, vulnerable and understanding nature.
I liked Crispin. He as different from any other character I've ever read. Tough and manly but so very caring and honest. He genuinely cared for Malloy and the ranch and didn't want to cause any trouble for him. Of course, there were moments he was protecting himself too, but I could understand where he was coming from when he did.
Malloy and Crispin's chemistry was very palpable as were their emotions. I could clearly see how much Malloy was affected by his feeling for Crispin, his hesitations, his doubts and his determination to let go. Their interactions were honest and revealing. There was humor and emotions and a whole lot of looks and touches that added to the developing of their relationship.
The secondary characters were a treat to see and added to the story beautiful. In fact, the whole storyline that ran besides the romance was interesting, enjoyable and revealed so much about Malloy that I was sad when it came to an end.
Z.A. Maxfield was one of the first authors I read when I discovered M/M Romance and she never fails to deliver. My Cowboy Heart was a heart-warming, touching story of discovery, friendship and new beginnings. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. I can't wait to see what's in store for Jimmy and Ed.
I received this title from the publisher through NetGalley in exchange of my honest opinion.
Crispin is a free-spirit, sweet and honest to a fault. He's been out since he was young but doesn't want to draw unnecessary attention to himself. He's kind and caring and immediately drawn to Malloy. Although they try to keep things strictly as friends, their attraction and their caring ways bring them together deepening their connection even more.
Z.A. Maxfield did a wonderful job of bringing these two completely different men together in a way that make it possible for me to believe that they could make it work. I enjoyed how she went about Malloy dealing with the new found revelation of his attraction to men. It was a breath of fresh air to see how Malloy internalized it all without prejudice or resentment. It revealed a whole other side of him and reflected on his quiet, vulnerable and understanding nature.
I liked Crispin. He as different from any other character I've ever read. Tough and manly but so very caring and honest. He genuinely cared for Malloy and the ranch and didn't want to cause any trouble for him. Of course, there were moments he was protecting himself too, but I could understand where he was coming from when he did.
Malloy and Crispin's chemistry was very palpable as were their emotions. I could clearly see how much Malloy was affected by his feeling for Crispin, his hesitations, his doubts and his determination to let go. Their interactions were honest and revealing. There was humor and emotions and a whole lot of looks and touches that added to the developing of their relationship.
The secondary characters were a treat to see and added to the story beautiful. In fact, the whole storyline that ran besides the romance was interesting, enjoyable and revealed so much about Malloy that I was sad when it came to an end.
Z.A. Maxfield was one of the first authors I read when I discovered M/M Romance and she never fails to deliver. My Cowboy Heart was a heart-warming, touching story of discovery, friendship and new beginnings. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. I can't wait to see what's in store for Jimmy and Ed.
I received this title from the publisher through NetGalley in exchange of my honest opinion.
August 25, 2013
3.5 RELUCTANT STARS
You know, this book had the tropes I normally enjoy. MM, in the closet, emotionally damaged MC, COWBOY. Unfortunately, it was a little long and drawn out.
The story is about a thirty-something year old cowboy, Speed Ball (Jeffe ) Malloy, man that was a foster child when he came to the Jenkin’s family and ranch, the J-Bar. He was constantly putting the pressure on himself to live his life with the same values that the head of the family, Crandall, taught him. He was surprised to find that he was attracted to the new help, Crispin. Although he had a college degree, the author made him a bit slow and dumb, in my opinion.
Crispin was around 23 years old, and lived his life out and proud. He came to the J-Bar during a time that the Jenkins family was gone on a month-long vacation during the winter they took every year. The author was all over the place with Crispin. One moment he’s twinky and the next he’s angry and the next he’s sexy and sweet and then he’s dominant. I had a very hard time relating to him.
This really would have only been a three star book for me except for the last 10% of the book. That’s when the author finally was able to portray some depth and real emotion to the story. The thing that kept me going - the hot sex. This is a sweet read, so the HEA lovers will probably enjoy this.
You know, this book had the tropes I normally enjoy. MM, in the closet, emotionally damaged MC, COWBOY. Unfortunately, it was a little long and drawn out.
The story is about a thirty-something year old cowboy, Speed Ball (Jeffe ) Malloy, man that was a foster child when he came to the Jenkin’s family and ranch, the J-Bar. He was constantly putting the pressure on himself to live his life with the same values that the head of the family, Crandall, taught him. He was surprised to find that he was attracted to the new help, Crispin. Although he had a college degree, the author made him a bit slow and dumb, in my opinion.
Crispin was around 23 years old, and lived his life out and proud. He came to the J-Bar during a time that the Jenkins family was gone on a month-long vacation during the winter they took every year. The author was all over the place with Crispin. One moment he’s twinky and the next he’s angry and the next he’s sexy and sweet and then he’s dominant. I had a very hard time relating to him.
This really would have only been a three star book for me except for the last 10% of the book. That’s when the author finally was able to portray some depth and real emotion to the story. The thing that kept me going - the hot sex. This is a sweet read, so the HEA lovers will probably enjoy this.
July 7, 2023
The romance was fine, a little rushed but I still liked it. The real problem I had was how they acted towards and treated Jim.
They know he has a drinking problem and that he was drinking while working but they still let him drive the truck around the property? Fuck at least if he was on a horse it could swerve if he tries to go into a tree. Then they decide he needs to stop drinking. It’s not their choice whether Jim stops drinking or not. That's Jim's choice you can remove all the alcohol from the building you can tell him he cannot bring alcohol on the premises but you cannot stop him from drinking.Alcoholism is not a moral failure that can be fixed with some tough love, alcoholism is a disease that needs understanding, compassion, and a licensed medical professional as with any other medical issue.
Do not under any circumstances force an alcoholic to detox cold turkey, you will kill them! It’s not cute or silly. And when they get sober they won’t thank you and stay sober. They will go to get a drink as soon as they can because you have not treated the disease, you just tortured your friend.
They know he has a drinking problem and that he was drinking while working but they still let him drive the truck around the property? Fuck at least if he was on a horse it could swerve if he tries to go into a tree. Then they decide he needs to stop drinking. It’s not their choice whether Jim stops drinking or not. That's Jim's choice you can remove all the alcohol from the building you can tell him he cannot bring alcohol on the premises but you cannot stop him from drinking.Alcoholism is not a moral failure that can be fixed with some tough love, alcoholism is a disease that needs understanding, compassion, and a licensed medical professional as with any other medical issue.
Do not under any circumstances force an alcoholic to detox cold turkey, you will kill them! It’s not cute or silly. And when they get sober they won’t thank you and stay sober. They will go to get a drink as soon as they can because you have not treated the disease, you just tortured your friend.
September 3, 2013
So, there's a sequel due out in 2014. I will definitely purchase on the strength of this story. I so want to know how Speed and Crispin's lives develop, especially as this ends so nicely.
Lovely story, lovely plot and only a couple of niggles.
Niggle one...the sex became repetitive and I started to skip huge chunks just to continue the story.
Niggle two...Crispin's Verbal-Diarrhea suddenly evaporates after the first quarter of the novel, strange, no reason why.
Niggle three...sending Eddie and Jim to the far-away cabin seemed odd. I know why they went there but the reason didn't further the story's progression. I would have liked to know more, or at least have more interaction between the four cowboys prior to their departure from the story.
Overall a lovely read of decent length with sweet characters and a sweet ending. Sweet. :o)
Lovely story, lovely plot and only a couple of niggles.
Niggle one...the sex became repetitive and I started to skip huge chunks just to continue the story.
Niggle two...Crispin's Verbal-Diarrhea suddenly evaporates after the first quarter of the novel, strange, no reason why.
Niggle three...sending Eddie and Jim to the far-away cabin seemed odd. I know why they went there but the reason didn't further the story's progression. I would have liked to know more, or at least have more interaction between the four cowboys prior to their departure from the story.
Overall a lovely read of decent length with sweet characters and a sweet ending. Sweet. :o)
July 22, 2016
Funny, sweet and a LOT of talking which I really really like. An overall awesome read! 5 STARS!!
Mini Rant:
I do not get it why the average rating of this book is 3.83 while Ella Frank's Try gets a 4.30. Seriously?! Sorry, just get pissed when I see that book on a ''Best List"
Mini Rant:
I do not get it why the average rating of this book is 3.83 while Ella Frank's Try gets a 4.30. Seriously?! Sorry, just get pissed when I see that book on a ''Best List"
September 2, 2013
This book just didn't sit well with me. It was just so overwhelming maudlin, like a Lifetime made for television movie where women hate women. This story had over the top negatives and no where near enough positives.
I also want to add that the editing for this was pretty bad. There were repeated dialog, and miss spelled words. It surprised me with this being from a large publishing group.
I also want to add that the editing for this was pretty bad. There were repeated dialog, and miss spelled words. It surprised me with this being from a large publishing group.
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