If we could divide people by how they relate to the loss of a loved one, there would be two categories: those who pass more easily by invoking their shared memories and those who cannot overcome trauma too easily and feel lost, failing to find their way. to follow.
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Louisa Clark - aka Lou - had no idea how her life would change when she applied for a job as a caregiver for a quadriplegic. Being an explosion of color both in her clothing and in her way of being, Lou tries to change and alleviate a little the monotony of Will's life. And when he finds out about his intentions, Lou makes his rescue a personal mission.
Will had been a madman - in the truest sense of the word. Always ready for adventure, taking everything that was most beautiful from life, he is thrown into the abyss of the deepest depression when he has a motorcycle accident, which leaves him paralyzed. Immobilized, nailed and fed up with this lifestyle, Will promises his parents another 6 months, after which he will go to Switzerland, to the Dignitas clinic for "assisted suicide".
Lou tries to persuade him in various ways to give up his decision, but fails and this is a guilt that weighs on his soul.
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Volume 2 of the series I was looking forward to. I finished it a few minutes ago and my feelings are confused. I may have set the baton too high, it may be my different way of relating to certain situations. I liked the book, but Lou disappointed me.
The book captured well the pain of those left behind (especially the relatives of those who end their days). Those who, in addition to the loss suffered, must also bear the oppressive feeling of guilt - the one who gnaws, grinds and ages prematurely, the one who puts white strands in his hair and wrinkles on his face. I have always been intrigued by the fact that despite the fact that a road stops, a being disappears, new roads open. This strange karma must also have a strange sense of humor.
The end of the first volume brought tears to my eyes, but allowed hope to blossom. I thought Will's end was Lou's beginning.
But Lou disappointed me… as if she didn't want to get out of her comfort zone. In her last letter from Will, she receives valuable advice: she was urged to fight for her dream and live life. 20 months after his death, Lou is the bartender in an airport bar. She loses the course she was enrolled in by Will, lives in an apartment she doesn't feel the need to arrange and doesn't taste life too much.
It is felt that she had not gone over their love or his death, especially since she was still consulting her thoughts with him. She is no longer the same: the colorful clothes are in boxes, jeans and simple T-shirts taking their place.
Her monotonous life is overshadowed by the appearance of a 16-year-old girl, Lily. A rebellious teenager, with behavioral problems, with a difficult relationship with her mother. Lily was Will's daughter. The daughter he knew nothing about, the daughter he hadn't known.
How will the two women influence their lives? Will Lou be able to get out of her square and live her life? Will her parents forgive her? How will the Traynor family get the news that they have a niece?
After I have lost you is the definition of friendship, sacrifice, progress and healing. Although Lou is always under the label of "lifeguard", the action is not centered around her. This volume is like a look at everyone's destinies, like a "look back" on everything that is left behind. I inevitably wondered, what would be Will's decision if he knew about his daughter's existence? What would have been the course of Will's relationship with Lou?
I would have liked to see a more ambitious Lou, a Lou who would create clothes, fill the world with color and optimism, a Lou who, instead of resigning, would have fought to live. Overall, I liked the book, especially because solutions were offered to overcome the losses, in the form of meetings with people who were suffering. Emphasis was placed on friendship, closeness, involvement and feelings.
The book is written in the characteristic way of Jojo Moyes: easy, funny and full of emotions. I recommend!