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Life in Death
Memories and scars are the signs of a life well lived, and more often than not our milestones are similar: love, a first home, marriage, and a child. The same goes for Marty and Suzanne Dempsey, but happy memories and years of a life built together weren't enough to help their relationship survive the terminal diagnosis of their only child, Abigail. Coping in their own ways, Marty and Suzanne drift apart and eventually divorce after one finds comfort in the arms of a stranger. The expected and devastating death of their daughter had seemingly severed any ties that remained between them, but an insightful letter from Abigail gives Marty the one thing that seemed so elusive before: Hope.
264 pages, Paperback
First published October 1, 2016
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M. Ullrich
14 books202 followersM. Ullrich is a four-time Goldie Award finalist and a two-time Lambda Literary Award finalist, and she has been featured in The Advocate magazine. She currently resides by the New Jersey Shore, but dreams of living someplace a little less touristy and with a whole lot less road rage. When she’s not writing or working her full-time job, M. Ullrich appreciates the simple pleasures in life like breakfast foods and sweet treats, working on her artistic skills, and enjoying the company of someone who laughs at her ridiculous humor.
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February 24, 2018
'Netgalley ARC provided by The Publisher in exchange for fair and honest review'
To say i enjoy this book is an understatement but to see that this author took the chance in writing about this topic/storyline was a huge deal and at the same time very risky still. Many of us whether readers or society have had to go through this type of pain in some way or the other and on top of that and for one in this book:- so many aspect of their lives was shown and written plainly on these pages,the sad,the painful,the heartbreaking ones that neither wanted to communicate about This had good chemistry,nice dialogue and the intimacy was a plus to give this story a little juice then add the great editing and pacing and do not forget the supporting roles of their family and friends that they needed but then some of the plot hinges on how much one of the ladys'(wife)had to conquer and overcome life's obstacles(anger,forgiveness etc)to make them/both whole again...great ending to which i do advise and encourage everyone to read this well book
To say i enjoy this book is an understatement but to see that this author took the chance in writing about this topic/storyline was a huge deal and at the same time very risky still. Many of us whether readers or society have had to go through this type of pain in some way or the other and on top of that and for one in this book:- so many aspect of their lives was shown and written plainly on these pages,the sad,the painful,the heartbreaking ones that neither wanted to communicate about This had good chemistry,nice dialogue and the intimacy was a plus to give this story a little juice then add the great editing and pacing and do not forget the supporting roles of their family and friends that they needed but then some of the plot hinges on how much one of the ladys'(wife)had to conquer and overcome life's obstacles(anger,forgiveness etc)to make them/both whole again...great ending to which i do advise and encourage everyone to read this well book
October 10, 2016
4 1/2 Stars. I had read Ullrich's first book and thought it was just okay. But I could tell she had a lot of potential, so I knew I would read her books in the future. To be honest, she totally blew me away with this book. It was even better than I could have expected.
I do want to make very clear, this book rips your heart out, throws it on the ground, and stomps on it. A young child dying, infidelity, divorce, these are not happy subjects. And this is as tough as you would think it is, to read about. I went through more tissues than I can count. But this book is very well written. As a reader you feel everything with the characters. At times you are mad at both mains, but you like them despite their flaws and hope for some sort of happily ever after.
As tough as this book is to read in parts, and as much as it affected me, I'm really glad I read it. Ullrich, has a hit on her hands and I can't recommend it enough. Don't pass this one up.
An ARC was given to me by Bold Strokes Books, for a honest review.
I do want to make very clear, this book rips your heart out, throws it on the ground, and stomps on it. A young child dying, infidelity, divorce, these are not happy subjects. And this is as tough as you would think it is, to read about. I went through more tissues than I can count. But this book is very well written. As a reader you feel everything with the characters. At times you are mad at both mains, but you like them despite their flaws and hope for some sort of happily ever after.
As tough as this book is to read in parts, and as much as it affected me, I'm really glad I read it. Ullrich, has a hit on her hands and I can't recommend it enough. Don't pass this one up.
An ARC was given to me by Bold Strokes Books, for a honest review.
September 9, 2016
Life in Death comes with trigger warning because it deals with a very distressing subject -- death of a child.
Marriage partners Marty and Suzanne loved each other and their six-year-old daughter Abigail. Everything in their life, including marriage, came tumbling down when Abigail became seriously ill. Love alone as usual was just not enough.
The story is told in two different chronological orders with each chapter divided into two parts -- now and then. It may sound confusing, but in fact it is conceived and executed perfectly, and allows us to keep track of the main characters and their emotional turmoil in the right way. It is interesting that Marty, although the adulteress, is a much more likable character than the rather distant and kind of fickle Suzanne. Thanks to the masterful way in which the story is told, we gain a true picture of that and everything else, so the story runs smoothly and is easy to read and understand despite being an emotional roller coaster.
On top of that, the writing is excellent, and main characters, with all their strengths and weaknesses, are likely to stay with us long after the last page has been turned. M. Ullrich is a new author with an already second excellent story (and both in this year), and I have to admit that am eagerly waiting for more.
I would highly recommend this book to anyone who enjoys an emotionally intense read.
5 stars
*ARC provided by publisher via NetGalley*
Marriage partners Marty and Suzanne loved each other and their six-year-old daughter Abigail. Everything in their life, including marriage, came tumbling down when Abigail became seriously ill. Love alone as usual was just not enough.
The story is told in two different chronological orders with each chapter divided into two parts -- now and then. It may sound confusing, but in fact it is conceived and executed perfectly, and allows us to keep track of the main characters and their emotional turmoil in the right way. It is interesting that Marty, although the adulteress, is a much more likable character than the rather distant and kind of fickle Suzanne. Thanks to the masterful way in which the story is told, we gain a true picture of that and everything else, so the story runs smoothly and is easy to read and understand despite being an emotional roller coaster.
On top of that, the writing is excellent, and main characters, with all their strengths and weaknesses, are likely to stay with us long after the last page has been turned. M. Ullrich is a new author with an already second excellent story (and both in this year), and I have to admit that am eagerly waiting for more.
I would highly recommend this book to anyone who enjoys an emotionally intense read.
5 stars
*ARC provided by publisher via NetGalley*
March 30, 2019
I don’t know where to start. My mind’s going in about 10 different directions. It’s that kind of a book. The story unfolds in parallel storylines from the past to the present alongside the everyday occurrences of now. Sounds confusing but the author does it so skillfully that there is no breach in comprehension of the narrative. Instead, it adds a profound depth to each moment to watch past and present move forward together.
Marty and Suzanne fall in love, get married, and have a beautiful child together. Tragically, their daughter becomes terminally ill and we witness the terribleness of what that can do to a family.
Having worked in a hospital for so long, I can say there’s nothing more obscene than seeing children in cribs and hospital beds, intubated, with IV lines and oxygen, rolling down hallways, surrounded by their nurses and doctors with parents trailing behind. Kids should always be heard laughing and playing outside or down hallways forever. That’s how it should be.
Even though I had a tough time, the author got me through to a heart satisfying ending. Make no mistake, there’s joy and humor here too because Marty, Suzanne, and Abigail are ordinary people who just happen to be facing some extraordinary circumstances. Glad I finally read the book.
Marty and Suzanne fall in love, get married, and have a beautiful child together. Tragically, their daughter becomes terminally ill and we witness the terribleness of what that can do to a family.
Having worked in a hospital for so long, I can say there’s nothing more obscene than seeing children in cribs and hospital beds, intubated, with IV lines and oxygen, rolling down hallways, surrounded by their nurses and doctors with parents trailing behind. Kids should always be heard laughing and playing outside or down hallways forever. That’s how it should be.
Even though I had a tough time, the author got me through to a heart satisfying ending. Make no mistake, there’s joy and humor here too because Marty, Suzanne, and Abigail are ordinary people who just happen to be facing some extraordinary circumstances. Glad I finally read the book.
November 6, 2016
I’m going to be 100% honest here, I had intended to pass on this book. I adored M. Ullrich’s last book, but when reading the synopsis for Life in Death, I was stuck on the fact that this book would tackle the loss of a child. I cannot imagine the pain that these characters were going to endure, and quite frankly I did not want to even go there. So, I was going to look away, but the enormous amount of positive reviews kept catching my eye, and a few people reached out to me and raved about this book. So I caved, and I read the book, and kept reading, and kept reading some more until it was finished, all in one night.
I will say this book is a gauntlet of emotions. The book begins with a window into a perfect little family, two women who love each other dearly, and their amazing little girl, who rightfully so, it the light of their lives. You know it’s’ coming, like the shark in Jaws, you can feel the foreboding, the shoe is about to drop. Abigail the daughter of Marty and Suzanne has cancer, and she will lose her battle with the awful disease. A life cut way too short, and her parent’s relationship fractured beyond belief.
This book is a roller coaster of emotions, you will feel your heart break right along Marty and Suzanne. The pain at times is palatable, tears streaming down your face as you feverishly read, totally engrossed in the story. Is it good? Oh my goodness yes, this book is very good. Life in Death takes you on a road of telling the past, mixed in with the present. You see how Marty and Suzanne found each other, and why they broke. You cheer for their road back together, knowing all the while these two will never be whole without the other. This one will stay with you long after the last chapter. A fantastic read, I do recommend waterproof mascara and tissues! My only real criticism, the ending was a touch too short.
I will say this book is a gauntlet of emotions. The book begins with a window into a perfect little family, two women who love each other dearly, and their amazing little girl, who rightfully so, it the light of their lives. You know it’s’ coming, like the shark in Jaws, you can feel the foreboding, the shoe is about to drop. Abigail the daughter of Marty and Suzanne has cancer, and she will lose her battle with the awful disease. A life cut way too short, and her parent’s relationship fractured beyond belief.
This book is a roller coaster of emotions, you will feel your heart break right along Marty and Suzanne. The pain at times is palatable, tears streaming down your face as you feverishly read, totally engrossed in the story. Is it good? Oh my goodness yes, this book is very good. Life in Death takes you on a road of telling the past, mixed in with the present. You see how Marty and Suzanne found each other, and why they broke. You cheer for their road back together, knowing all the while these two will never be whole without the other. This one will stay with you long after the last chapter. A fantastic read, I do recommend waterproof mascara and tissues! My only real criticism, the ending was a touch too short.
October 8, 2016
Life in Death. The entire book essentially...reduced to just three words. So powerful and evocative. Easily one of the best book 'titles' in lesfic, imho. The book itself is also one of the boldest, because it tackles not one, but two of the most depressing topics ever--the death of a child and marital infidelity.
Marty and Suzanne are happily married and proud parents of bubbly, energetic 6-year old Abigail. But a cancer and terminal diagnosis of Abigail cause the couple to drift apart, seek comfort outside of marriage and eventually divorce. After the funeral, Marty discovers a letter from Abigail that may just be the key to their reconciliation.
There isn't much in the way of plot that hasn't been revealed in the blurb. Personally, I would have preferred not knowing so much. But I understood that the book isn't about the what as it is the how. How could a picture-perfect family disintegrate so completely? What was the trigger, if any? And who's fault was it exactly? I loved that this book dared to be different from the usual romance formula. Even the execution is a bit unusual. Each chapter features two chronological timelines, one in the present and one in the past (yes, flashbacks in every chapter!), and the pattern continues to the end. This is a bit of a gamble, imho. On one hand, if the present and past scenes are connected in some way, it makes for a fresh and compelling reading experience. On the other hand, the wrong chapter placement of pivotal events can totally take the wind out of the sails of the narrative build-up, so to speak. For example, I want my pain! lol. Also, incredible as it may sound, I did not shed a single tear at any time from start to finish. Never even teared up. Again, this was due to the whole idea behind the book blurb spilling everything that happened. I knew beforehand Abby would die. I didn't like either Suzanne or Marty enough at that point to feel for their loss. Even during the most depressing part of the book, I was merely sad, not heartbroken. This isn't any of the book's fault, mind you, because like I said above, the intention of the book is to show HOW things fell apart and HOW it can be put back together again. And again, this is just my opinion, but I didn't really buy 100% the reason behind Suzanne's sudden cold attitude towards Marty after Abby's diagnosis. In the book, its was supposedly due to Ergo, I also wasn't really convinced that Suzanne would have Some of the problem lies with the author's occasional tendency to lapse into telling instead of showing. It's expedient but it can be at the expense of emotional impact. More time getting in Suzanne's head would also have helped to get to know her more. As it is, she came across as flighty and overly impulsive...even capricious. For someone who supposedly doesn't like surprises, it's...surprising.
Bottomline, this is a serious look at family and couple issues beyond romance. It's a meaty and compelling read, touching on tragedy, infidelity and the ability to bounce back from the brink. I would definitely recommend this for anyone who wants more than just another fluffy romance.
Rating: 4.4 stars
ARC from Netgalley and BSB.
Marty and Suzanne are happily married and proud parents of bubbly, energetic 6-year old Abigail. But a cancer and terminal diagnosis of Abigail cause the couple to drift apart, seek comfort outside of marriage and eventually divorce. After the funeral, Marty discovers a letter from Abigail that may just be the key to their reconciliation.
There isn't much in the way of plot that hasn't been revealed in the blurb. Personally, I would have preferred not knowing so much. But I understood that the book isn't about the what as it is the how. How could a picture-perfect family disintegrate so completely? What was the trigger, if any? And who's fault was it exactly? I loved that this book dared to be different from the usual romance formula. Even the execution is a bit unusual. Each chapter features two chronological timelines, one in the present and one in the past (yes, flashbacks in every chapter!), and the pattern continues to the end. This is a bit of a gamble, imho. On one hand, if the present and past scenes are connected in some way, it makes for a fresh and compelling reading experience. On the other hand, the wrong chapter placement of pivotal events can totally take the wind out of the sails of the narrative build-up, so to speak. For example, I want my pain! lol. Also, incredible as it may sound, I did not shed a single tear at any time from start to finish. Never even teared up. Again, this was due to the whole idea behind the book blurb spilling everything that happened. I knew beforehand Abby would die. I didn't like either Suzanne or Marty enough at that point to feel for their loss. Even during the most depressing part of the book, I was merely sad, not heartbroken. This isn't any of the book's fault, mind you, because like I said above, the intention of the book is to show HOW things fell apart and HOW it can be put back together again. And again, this is just my opinion, but I didn't really buy 100% the reason behind Suzanne's sudden cold attitude towards Marty after Abby's diagnosis. In the book, its was supposedly due to Ergo, I also wasn't really convinced that Suzanne would have Some of the problem lies with the author's occasional tendency to lapse into telling instead of showing. It's expedient but it can be at the expense of emotional impact. More time getting in Suzanne's head would also have helped to get to know her more. As it is, she came across as flighty and overly impulsive...even capricious. For someone who supposedly doesn't like surprises, it's...surprising.
Bottomline, this is a serious look at family and couple issues beyond romance. It's a meaty and compelling read, touching on tragedy, infidelity and the ability to bounce back from the brink. I would definitely recommend this for anyone who wants more than just another fluffy romance.
Rating: 4.4 stars
ARC from Netgalley and BSB.
June 23, 2022
11 of the people I’m friends with on here have this in their want to read. They probably forgot about it so here I am telling you to remember! This was a great short read. Totally worth the reminder to check out!
February 12, 2017
ARC received from NetGalley & Bold Stroke Books in return for an honest review.
I am still coming down from my emotional high from this book. M. Ullrich knocked my socks off with this one.
My Synopsis
When Marty and Suzanne Dempseys Daughter, Abigail dies the life the lived is not worth living anymore. If you combine that with mistakes they both make before Abigail’s passing that ultimately ends up in divorce, the tragedy is doubled.
The last conversation that Marty has with her daughter before she dies coupled with a note she find the day of her funeral give Marty the courage to believe in hope and love. She will do anything to get at least one of her girls back… she just hopes that Suzanne can forgive her. But sometimes you’ve got to prove your still the right choice…
My Review
Well to start with I was nervous about reading this novel if I am honest. I’ve been with my wife for ten years now (We Just got married! Yay!) and I’ve only been a mum for 18 months but the idea of loosing my child as well as divorcing my wife leaves me feeling a little unsettled. So when I first read the synopsis for this book I thought that maybe it wouldn’t be the best read for me … but then I love the Author’s last book, Fortunate Sum so I thought just give it a go!
Thank godness I came to my senses because I was astounded how much I loved this book. Not only that the admiration and courage it would take to write this novel is beyond me. M. Ullrich sent me on a emotional rollercoaster. I felt so much sadness for both Marty and Suzanne when Abigail first falls sick and then passes away, then I felt butterflies when you are taken back to Marty and Susanne meeting for the first time and the love that was so instantaneous. But most of all I felt absolute joy knowing that in times of darkness you can still love the one you meant to be with.
It was a story of hope, tragedy and above all love.
Overwhelming and heartfelt second novel from M. Ullrich. 5 stars wishing I could give it more!!!
Check out my blog: https://lesreveur.com/2016/09/06/life...
I am still coming down from my emotional high from this book. M. Ullrich knocked my socks off with this one.
My Synopsis
When Marty and Suzanne Dempseys Daughter, Abigail dies the life the lived is not worth living anymore. If you combine that with mistakes they both make before Abigail’s passing that ultimately ends up in divorce, the tragedy is doubled.
The last conversation that Marty has with her daughter before she dies coupled with a note she find the day of her funeral give Marty the courage to believe in hope and love. She will do anything to get at least one of her girls back… she just hopes that Suzanne can forgive her. But sometimes you’ve got to prove your still the right choice…
My Review
Well to start with I was nervous about reading this novel if I am honest. I’ve been with my wife for ten years now (We Just got married! Yay!) and I’ve only been a mum for 18 months but the idea of loosing my child as well as divorcing my wife leaves me feeling a little unsettled. So when I first read the synopsis for this book I thought that maybe it wouldn’t be the best read for me … but then I love the Author’s last book, Fortunate Sum so I thought just give it a go!
Thank godness I came to my senses because I was astounded how much I loved this book. Not only that the admiration and courage it would take to write this novel is beyond me. M. Ullrich sent me on a emotional rollercoaster. I felt so much sadness for both Marty and Suzanne when Abigail first falls sick and then passes away, then I felt butterflies when you are taken back to Marty and Susanne meeting for the first time and the love that was so instantaneous. But most of all I felt absolute joy knowing that in times of darkness you can still love the one you meant to be with.
It was a story of hope, tragedy and above all love.
Overwhelming and heartfelt second novel from M. Ullrich. 5 stars wishing I could give it more!!!
Check out my blog: https://lesreveur.com/2016/09/06/life...
October 21, 2019
Wow!! A whirlwind of emotions here. I almost didn't read this. But so glad i did, this book was beautifully written, very well done.
September 25, 2016
Impressive and sophisticated second novel by M. Ullrich. Life in Death seamlessly moves back and forth from the present where Marty and Suzanne are divorced and dealing with the second round of chemo for their daughter Abigail to the past where we see all that has happened to this once happily married couple.
I am in awe of how effective the author is at bringing the reader to their knees witnessing the emotional impact on a family dealing with the loss of their beloved child. I barely know this fictional couple yet I was devastated by the death of Abigail.
Ullrich also puts into question our usual moral judgement of who is to blame when a relationship falters and how family tragedy can magnify the tiny chinks in all of our personalities. Adultery is the unforgivable sin, or is it? There are two sides to every relationship breakdown and no one remains unaffected. Life in Death explores this question and allows the reader to share in the deep emotions experienced by these two memorable women. Well done.
ARC received with thanks from Bold Strokes Books via NetGalley for review.
I am in awe of how effective the author is at bringing the reader to their knees witnessing the emotional impact on a family dealing with the loss of their beloved child. I barely know this fictional couple yet I was devastated by the death of Abigail.
Ullrich also puts into question our usual moral judgement of who is to blame when a relationship falters and how family tragedy can magnify the tiny chinks in all of our personalities. Adultery is the unforgivable sin, or is it? There are two sides to every relationship breakdown and no one remains unaffected. Life in Death explores this question and allows the reader to share in the deep emotions experienced by these two memorable women. Well done.
ARC received with thanks from Bold Strokes Books via NetGalley for review.
June 17, 2017
Honestly, I was going to pass on this book, revolving around the loss of a child. I thought it would be too much for me to read.
This book, which is beautifully written, is very emotional at points, and very moving., but still I found myself carrying on, wondering 'what next'. The main characters, Marty and Susie, are both very lovable, and at some point in this story you find yourself hating both of them, but its quickly short lived. The writer grips you to the very end, hoping for that fairy tail ending. To put it simply, even though its based on something so heartbreaking, it really was an amazing read. And i'm glad i decided to give this author a chance.
I think there is room for a sequel... which I would love to see.
This book, which is beautifully written, is very emotional at points, and very moving., but still I found myself carrying on, wondering 'what next'. The main characters, Marty and Susie, are both very lovable, and at some point in this story you find yourself hating both of them, but its quickly short lived. The writer grips you to the very end, hoping for that fairy tail ending. To put it simply, even though its based on something so heartbreaking, it really was an amazing read. And i'm glad i decided to give this author a chance.
I think there is room for a sequel... which I would love to see.
September 8, 2016
*The copy provided by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review*
I don't remember recently reading a book that caused me such a stomach-twisting sorrow... I was on the verge of tears almost to the end of it... I felt their pain, I felt their falling apart, their guilt, their never-ending love for each other, I felt everything they felt in the book... Never before was I so deeply engrossed in a characters' tragedy like I was with this novel... So many adjectives I can use to describe this book: painful, beautiful, sorrowful yet lively... It just blew my mind...
I don't remember recently reading a book that caused me such a stomach-twisting sorrow... I was on the verge of tears almost to the end of it... I felt their pain, I felt their falling apart, their guilt, their never-ending love for each other, I felt everything they felt in the book... Never before was I so deeply engrossed in a characters' tragedy like I was with this novel... So many adjectives I can use to describe this book: painful, beautiful, sorrowful yet lively... It just blew my mind...
September 30, 2018
Shut.The.Front.Door.
Ms.Ullrich is the new mad scientist in town, if you're willing for your feelings to be experimented by her then step right up and be afraid, be very afraid.
We have a girl, meeting another girl. It was a setup but they clicked rather immediately and I was happy to be a part of their lives, ecstatic as it progressed onto the next levels. Then, the lemon drops and gum drops stopped pouring down from the sky, the hair on my arms began to stand. I could feel the unnatural chillness in the air as I sat with the hs at the hospital. I watched them in unbelievable grief, I felt their pain, I lost my mum to it, almost lost my niece to it too. Instead of holding on, they tore on each other and the third parties bonus was unwelcomed to me but the hs devoured them, Marty much more than Suzanne.
I didn't choose sides, I stayed on with them as they faced another hurdle individually. Kids were expected to outlive their parents but that didn't happen here. I chose to be with Marty this time, even though she had a superwoman for a mum by her side. Suzanne had Blake and a sizeable diamond ring.
I raised the white flag, I wanted to withdraw myself from this painful experiment but I continued on the journey with the hs. I felt Marty's pain, living without the lil one and watching the love of her life with someone else. I was pissed at Suzanne but I couldn't blame her for trying to move on. Enough Ms.Ullrich, either remove me from this torture chamber or give me a lifeline.
The dark, grey, scary sky began to change its color, I began to see hope, I began to see a greater love than before and my heart beat had returned to normal as the worst was over. It was time to celebrate after the extremely painful journey. The scars will stay for quite some time but I would not change a single thing.
This book is unavailable on KU and Scribd.
Kindle price USD9.99
Ms.Ullrich is the new mad scientist in town, if you're willing for your feelings to be experimented by her then step right up and be afraid, be very afraid.
We have a girl, meeting another girl. It was a setup but they clicked rather immediately and I was happy to be a part of their lives, ecstatic as it progressed onto the next levels. Then, the lemon drops and gum drops stopped pouring down from the sky, the hair on my arms began to stand. I could feel the unnatural chillness in the air as I sat with the hs at the hospital. I watched them in unbelievable grief, I felt their pain, I lost my mum to it, almost lost my niece to it too. Instead of holding on, they tore on each other and the third parties bonus was unwelcomed to me but the hs devoured them, Marty much more than Suzanne.
I didn't choose sides, I stayed on with them as they faced another hurdle individually. Kids were expected to outlive their parents but that didn't happen here. I chose to be with Marty this time, even though she had a superwoman for a mum by her side. Suzanne had Blake and a sizeable diamond ring.
I raised the white flag, I wanted to withdraw myself from this painful experiment but I continued on the journey with the hs. I felt Marty's pain, living without the lil one and watching the love of her life with someone else. I was pissed at Suzanne but I couldn't blame her for trying to move on. Enough Ms.Ullrich, either remove me from this torture chamber or give me a lifeline.
The dark, grey, scary sky began to change its color, I began to see hope, I began to see a greater love than before and my heart beat had returned to normal as the worst was over. It was time to celebrate after the extremely painful journey. The scars will stay for quite some time but I would not change a single thing.
This book is unavailable on KU and Scribd.
Kindle price USD9.99
June 13, 2017
The blurb and other reviews touch on the book’s subject matter - it deals with a divorced lesbian couple, Marty and Suzanne, following the death of their daughter, Abigail. While the death of Abigail is a major aspect of the plot, and really pulls on the reader’s emotions, the story is truly about Marty and Suzanne as a couple - what brought them together and what drove them apart.
M. Ullrich uses a fascinating technique to structure Life in Death. The reader follows the “before” and the “after” which are woven together in the book in a fascinating manner. The traditional chapters follow the aftermath of the death of Abigail. The sub-chapters in between follow the story of how we got here, with these sub-chapter headings telling a short “once upon a time” story.
There’s something special about M. Ullrich’s writing style and how she addresses the subject matter in this novel. At times, I almost felt like I was looking into the most private and poignant moments of Marty and Suzanne’s life together and their separate lives, or hearing gossip that shouldn’t be spread. It demonstrates powerful writing in creating this interesting reading experience of almost intruding upon the characters’ lives. I also felt a connection to and sympathy for the characters.
This book was my introduction to M. Ullrich’s work, and I look forward to reading more from her!
M. Ullrich uses a fascinating technique to structure Life in Death. The reader follows the “before” and the “after” which are woven together in the book in a fascinating manner. The traditional chapters follow the aftermath of the death of Abigail. The sub-chapters in between follow the story of how we got here, with these sub-chapter headings telling a short “once upon a time” story.
There’s something special about M. Ullrich’s writing style and how she addresses the subject matter in this novel. At times, I almost felt like I was looking into the most private and poignant moments of Marty and Suzanne’s life together and their separate lives, or hearing gossip that shouldn’t be spread. It demonstrates powerful writing in creating this interesting reading experience of almost intruding upon the characters’ lives. I also felt a connection to and sympathy for the characters.
This book was my introduction to M. Ullrich’s work, and I look forward to reading more from her!
March 21, 2018
I admit, I don’t usually like reading about adultery…WILD stance to have, I know. But I found the author’s use of flashbacks in uncovering how soulmates go from being madly in love to divorced, and the very realistic impact of dealing with a terminally ill child, refreshing in the sea of common lesfic storylines I’ve read so far. Setting aside the moral dilemma of which MC was at fault for their marriage breakdown, one MC’s inability to communicate was so aggravating, that bih reduced my 4.5 rating by a half point. Highly recommended regardless of my pet peeve.
October 1, 2016
This was quite an emotional book and that's coming from someone who doesn't usually get upset by books. How do a couple survive when their only child is diagnosed with terminal cancer? Marty and Suzanne didn't, they drifted apart and eventually separated.
This book is told both in the present day and the past. You as a reader get an insight into how these two women first met and how they built their family. I think this look into the past was necessary to understand their relationship and some of the decisions they make.
Lovely sweet, emotional story. Definitely worth a read.
ARC received from publisher via NetGalley.
This book is told both in the present day and the past. You as a reader get an insight into how these two women first met and how they built their family. I think this look into the past was necessary to understand their relationship and some of the decisions they make.
Lovely sweet, emotional story. Definitely worth a read.
ARC received from publisher via NetGalley.
June 16, 2017
I absolutely loved this book! It was heartbreaking as well as breathtaking. The pace and dialogue were great. The author wrote fantastic characters and also did a fantastic job of portraying the pain and then, in turn, the hope when something ends, be it a life or a relationship. I also really enjoyed the way the story was written with the two different sets of chronological events. I have to say I am glad I didn't read this on my lunch break at work or else would have seen tears running down my face at several parts. I highly recommend this book!
ARC received from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review
ARC received from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review
December 4, 2016
I started reading this book last night, and was tearing throughout half the book. I enjoyed Life in Death tremendously, the writing is captivating and smooth flowing. I did not enjoy Fortunate Sum, the other book by this author as much, but this book really hit the spot. I am glad that I did not let the first book sway myself from Ullrich's other works.
September 20, 2016
Wow! This is full of emotions, I advise to prepare tissues and hot tea. You are in for a great plot.
Notes: this involves cheating, death, divorce.
I'm not really fond of complicated and heavy stories but I get to enjoy a few once in a while.
This is the kind of book that maybe you will give the cheater a chance.
Maybe even offer her your shoulder to cry on.
Marty is a loving wife and a good mother to Abby, she's doing everything for her family.
I know she made a mistake but I truly understand her. I don't want to justify what she'd done but she deserves a second chance with Suzanne.
Right from the start of their relationship she's also the one to please and adjust to Suzanne's need.
Suzanne on the other hand is also a great character but she tends to shut down her emotions.
She's talkative but when it comes to what she really feels she usually avoids it. Instead of facing all the problems, she's always running and shut the person away.
Miscommunication is the no. 1 enemy here and also the mother of Suzanne.
I also wanted to hate Blake but he's really a good guy.
Very well written. Highly recommended.
Your money will not be wasted on this one. Great story!!
I would watch this if this will become a movie. :)
And of course nice ending. :)
Looking forward to the author's next book.
Notes: this involves cheating, death, divorce.
I'm not really fond of complicated and heavy stories but I get to enjoy a few once in a while.
This is the kind of book that maybe you will give the cheater a chance.
Maybe even offer her your shoulder to cry on.
Marty is a loving wife and a good mother to Abby, she's doing everything for her family.
I know she made a mistake but I truly understand her. I don't want to justify what she'd done but she deserves a second chance with Suzanne.
Right from the start of their relationship she's also the one to please and adjust to Suzanne's need.
Suzanne on the other hand is also a great character but she tends to shut down her emotions.
She's talkative but when it comes to what she really feels she usually avoids it. Instead of facing all the problems, she's always running and shut the person away.
Miscommunication is the no. 1 enemy here and also the mother of Suzanne.
I also wanted to hate Blake but he's really a good guy.
Very well written. Highly recommended.
Your money will not be wasted on this one. Great story!!
I would watch this if this will become a movie. :)
And of course nice ending. :)
Looking forward to the author's next book.
September 7, 2016
*ARC provided by Netgalley and the publisher for an honest review*
Brilliant! This book was absolutely stunning. The author new exactly how to create emotions using words, I felt like I had a heavy weight on my chest and I was constantly on the brink of tears while reading this book. M. Ullrich didn't just write one story but two and she wove them together to create a moving story of love, heartache, betrayal and forgiveness.
I can't believe that I am saying this, considering that Marty was the adulterous party in the relationship, but I really liked her and I felt so bad for her which I don't think I would have had the book been written differently but with the same story. I didn't really enjoy Suzanne's character because I felt like she created the outcome of her relationship and I hated how she treated Marty and their marriage because even though they were divorced I felt like her feeling for Marty could never have been that strong in the first place if she moved on so easily.
I would love to give this book 5stars but I felt that the ending fell a bit flat for me, considering that the rest of the book had me overwhelmed with emotion. I also didnt like how the relationship with Blake was handled because he was such a sweet guy and once again my dislike for Suzanne was validatedso it gets a 4.4 from me.
Brilliant! This book was absolutely stunning. The author new exactly how to create emotions using words, I felt like I had a heavy weight on my chest and I was constantly on the brink of tears while reading this book. M. Ullrich didn't just write one story but two and she wove them together to create a moving story of love, heartache, betrayal and forgiveness.
I can't believe that I am saying this, considering that Marty was the adulterous party in the relationship, but I really liked her and I felt so bad for her which I don't think I would have had the book been written differently but with the same story. I didn't really enjoy Suzanne's character because I felt like she created the outcome of her relationship and I hated how she treated Marty and their marriage because even though they were divorced I felt like her feeling for Marty could never have been that strong in the first place if she moved on so easily.
I would love to give this book 5stars but I felt that the ending fell a bit flat for me, considering that the rest of the book had me overwhelmed with emotion. I also didnt like how the relationship with Blake was handled because he was such a sweet guy and once again my dislike for Suzanne was validatedso it gets a 4.4 from me.
September 19, 2016
***Book received by Netgalley and Bold Strokes Books in exchange of annhonest review***
This book probably shouldn't receive a full 4 stars rating thus some important issues are missing or misshandled. However, I decided to round it, because this book succeeds in the most important aspect of a romance novel and a drama: it profoundly succeeds in moving the reader.
As a reader, I felt overwhelmed by the amount and the weight of the feellings this book was able to bring in me: angst, passion, sorrow, love, etc. It's been a long time since I felt so moved by a book.
As other many readers, I also felt that the ending was rushed; that suzanne and marty's reasons for the breakup were not sufficiently explained and felt a bit forced; that Blake relationship was too convenient; and maybe also that secondary characters were poorly described.
Although these are important handicaps, the book still is one hell of a book, and I would strongly reccomend it.
This book probably shouldn't receive a full 4 stars rating thus some important issues are missing or misshandled. However, I decided to round it, because this book succeeds in the most important aspect of a romance novel and a drama: it profoundly succeeds in moving the reader.
As a reader, I felt overwhelmed by the amount and the weight of the feellings this book was able to bring in me: angst, passion, sorrow, love, etc. It's been a long time since I felt so moved by a book.
As other many readers, I also felt that the ending was rushed; that suzanne and marty's reasons for the breakup were not sufficiently explained and felt a bit forced; that Blake relationship was too convenient; and maybe also that secondary characters were poorly described.
Although these are important handicaps, the book still is one hell of a book, and I would strongly reccomend it.
June 1, 2019
There are flashbacks in this book but I think that in this case that it worked well. It kept me intrigued with what happened in the past and their second chance at love.
Despite loving this book, I did not like the infidelity. I'm not sure I would have been as brave to be that vulnerable with someone again who has cheated on me no matter how much it is said that they love me.
This story pulls at your heartstrings in so many ways that I had to give it five stars.
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I was given a copy of this book from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
Despite loving this book, I did not like the infidelity. I'm not sure I would have been as brave to be that vulnerable with someone again who has cheated on me no matter how much it is said that they love me.
This story pulls at your heartstrings in so many ways that I had to give it five stars.
Review also posted here: https://wp.me/p4Pp9O-LZ
I was given a copy of this book from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
March 18, 2017
This was beautiful, I couldn't put it down. I experienced so many emotions while reading this. I loved every bit.
September 4, 2020
A sad, almost inevitable book that was full of flashbacks that, given the place and context of the story, were just annoying. Death of a child is the worst, and MU spells that out truthfully and thoughtfully. Its really 2 books - just read every other chapter!!
September 25, 2016
Bold Strokes Books really scored magic with M. Ullrich. I was hesitant to start this ebook, due to the sad topic. I will not lie, the first 1/4 of the book I cried like a child. The book is amazing though, and do not let the hard topic keep you from reading it. I added it to my all time favorite list, and it is the best book of this year (so far). Each chapter is split into Now/Then and done so well you begin to love it, and look forward to the memory that will be shared in the last half of each chapter. Complete genius writing on Ullrich's part. This isn't an easy task to accomplish and she did it, and made you enjoy it. Once I started the book I couldn't stop. I read well into the night, until my eyes were burning. I didn't want to stop, and if I could have kept my eyes open I would have passed on sleep. Seriously, if I could give it 6 stars I would. The story is amazing, the characters are lovable, the writing is excellent, what do you have to lose? Read the book. Seriously, order it now, Bold Strokes Books offers this amazing ebook/paperback combo... this is the book for just such a deal. Another amazing novel by M. Ullrich. ARC provided by Bold Strokes Books via NetGalley for honest review.
November 13, 2017
2.5 stars, rounded up because I enjoyed Ullrich's first book enough to convince me other books are worth the time.
This was not, in my opinion, well executed. It floated along on an endless string of cliches, with very little substance in between. The parallel timelines format ended up working against the author's intent because we never get to spend long enough in any moment to get to know the characters well enough or to develop an emotional attachment to them. This never takes a deep dive into either plot or character development, and given the premise, it doesn't work without that deep dive. I'm looking forward to other Ullrich books, but this one didn't do what it tried to do.
This was not, in my opinion, well executed. It floated along on an endless string of cliches, with very little substance in between. The parallel timelines format ended up working against the author's intent because we never get to spend long enough in any moment to get to know the characters well enough or to develop an emotional attachment to them. This never takes a deep dive into either plot or character development, and given the premise, it doesn't work without that deep dive. I'm looking forward to other Ullrich books, but this one didn't do what it tried to do.
July 3, 2023
this book looked straight into my eyes and tried to manipulate me into believing that a woman who cheated on her wife is also the love of her life ,I don't believe in their happily ever after ,they don't deserve it
February 12, 2017
This is a powerful and moving book about two difficult subjects written in an unusual and clever style. Mary and Suzanne Dempsey are happily married, settled and solid. Then their adorable daughter Abigail is diagnosed with terminal cancer. Suddenly their almost perfect world is torn apart and rather than pull together the cracks deepen, almost unimaginably ending in divorce. But Abigail's death, while devastating, also brings Marty something she has given up on, the glimmer of hope.
We are told up front the calamitous tragedy of the novel in a surprisingly revealing blurb that removes the suspense. But this book is all about the ‘how’, and while the blurb removes the factual anticipation, it in no way diminishes the emotional impact of those events. In addition the loss of a child is such a trigger the author and publisher no doubt felt it critical to pre-warn ‘romance’ readers of the content. And yet this is, truly, a romance.
“Life After Death” is an intriguing read. A serious psychological exploration of how a tragedy can impact the lives of a couple; how they react is the core of the plot. At first we aren’t engaged, Abigail's illness understandably dominates and her Moms seem almost like cyphers with whom we have little empathy. But as the ‘plot’ develops Mary and Suzanne are filled in, each woman’s coping mechanisms drawn out and analysed through the impact their actions have on the family catastrophe.
Core to the break up is the interesting concept of who is to blame. The obvious culprit who fails into a moment of needy infidelity, or the guilt ridden wife whose own self doubt destroys the connection between a loving couple. And once seemingly destroyed, can that connection ever be reforged.
Add into this an unusual writing style where the then and now are literally woven together, with a flashback and a current scene in every chapter and this is simply a fascinating read. Despite the complex timeline we never lose where we are, the point of view is clear at all times and the plot flows effortlessly back and forward. I might have put the infidelity before the reconciliation to push the emotional tension higher, but this plot never loses its sense of anticipation. A genuine page turner that pulls you in, twists you up and makes you desperate for the happy ever after on offer.
My first book from this author and it certainly wont be my last; one of the best books of 2016 without a doubt. Such a joy to discover a ‘different’ romance with more mature women going through a real life scenario and an author who gets her teeth into gritty and difficult subjects with style and grace. Absolutely excellent reading.
We are told up front the calamitous tragedy of the novel in a surprisingly revealing blurb that removes the suspense. But this book is all about the ‘how’, and while the blurb removes the factual anticipation, it in no way diminishes the emotional impact of those events. In addition the loss of a child is such a trigger the author and publisher no doubt felt it critical to pre-warn ‘romance’ readers of the content. And yet this is, truly, a romance.
“Life After Death” is an intriguing read. A serious psychological exploration of how a tragedy can impact the lives of a couple; how they react is the core of the plot. At first we aren’t engaged, Abigail's illness understandably dominates and her Moms seem almost like cyphers with whom we have little empathy. But as the ‘plot’ develops Mary and Suzanne are filled in, each woman’s coping mechanisms drawn out and analysed through the impact their actions have on the family catastrophe.
Core to the break up is the interesting concept of who is to blame. The obvious culprit who fails into a moment of needy infidelity, or the guilt ridden wife whose own self doubt destroys the connection between a loving couple. And once seemingly destroyed, can that connection ever be reforged.
Add into this an unusual writing style where the then and now are literally woven together, with a flashback and a current scene in every chapter and this is simply a fascinating read. Despite the complex timeline we never lose where we are, the point of view is clear at all times and the plot flows effortlessly back and forward. I might have put the infidelity before the reconciliation to push the emotional tension higher, but this plot never loses its sense of anticipation. A genuine page turner that pulls you in, twists you up and makes you desperate for the happy ever after on offer.
My first book from this author and it certainly wont be my last; one of the best books of 2016 without a doubt. Such a joy to discover a ‘different’ romance with more mature women going through a real life scenario and an author who gets her teeth into gritty and difficult subjects with style and grace. Absolutely excellent reading.
October 10, 2016
Note: This ARC was provided by NetGalley & Bold Strokes Books in exchange for an honest review.
After falling in love with M. Ullrich's debut novel, Fortunate Sum - I highly anticipated her next manuscript. Fast forward to the day I saw it arrive on NetGalley and I immediately requested it to read and review. Let me start off by saying that I was not disappointed with Ullrich's new novel at all. But I seemed to have enjoyed her debut novel more so.
Before I get tarred and feathered for that statement - I will admit that my feelings over this novel versus Ullrich's last stem mainly from my own personal afflictions with difficult subjects in books. I have always had a small voice inside my head remind me that I have some hesitancy with reading novels that incorporate emotional events, or tragedies that are difficult to come back from after they befall the characters. These reasons alone are my own that make it difficult for me to read novels such as Life in Death - where it deals with the subject of a child lost and how the parents cope with that.
With that being said, this novel still did not disappoint. Ullrich captured the characters and their emotions over their turmoil spectacularly, and I could not have been more satisfied with how the story weaved and flowed with two of the most diverse and detailed main characters I have had the pleasure of reading about in 2016. Ullrich dived deep into subjects and emotions that are difficult for the world to process and read about and involve themselves in because of the nature of their cause. But the author did it effortlessly, and I was left with having to remind myself that I was reading a story, and not listening to a live account of someone I know, intimately, experiencing these hardships.
I would fully recommend this and all novels by M. Ullrich. Her storytelling capabilities are unique and irreplaceable - which I love, and will use as my inspiration to always grab for each and every one of her novels.
After falling in love with M. Ullrich's debut novel, Fortunate Sum - I highly anticipated her next manuscript. Fast forward to the day I saw it arrive on NetGalley and I immediately requested it to read and review. Let me start off by saying that I was not disappointed with Ullrich's new novel at all. But I seemed to have enjoyed her debut novel more so.
Before I get tarred and feathered for that statement - I will admit that my feelings over this novel versus Ullrich's last stem mainly from my own personal afflictions with difficult subjects in books. I have always had a small voice inside my head remind me that I have some hesitancy with reading novels that incorporate emotional events, or tragedies that are difficult to come back from after they befall the characters. These reasons alone are my own that make it difficult for me to read novels such as Life in Death - where it deals with the subject of a child lost and how the parents cope with that.
With that being said, this novel still did not disappoint. Ullrich captured the characters and their emotions over their turmoil spectacularly, and I could not have been more satisfied with how the story weaved and flowed with two of the most diverse and detailed main characters I have had the pleasure of reading about in 2016. Ullrich dived deep into subjects and emotions that are difficult for the world to process and read about and involve themselves in because of the nature of their cause. But the author did it effortlessly, and I was left with having to remind myself that I was reading a story, and not listening to a live account of someone I know, intimately, experiencing these hardships.
I would fully recommend this and all novels by M. Ullrich. Her storytelling capabilities are unique and irreplaceable - which I love, and will use as my inspiration to always grab for each and every one of her novels.
December 16, 2021
Oh my heart! It's a tearjerker...I don't mean negatively at all, I just mean, just ensure you are in mood for a emotional rollercoaster before picking it up... It's also very sweet in some ways (its tone somehow brought to my mind Erich Segal's Love Story, but thankfully it's not as cliched as 'love means never having to say sorry'...although, for a teen, even that wasn't cliched)... it definitely will catch you with various emotions and other than all the wonderful and sometimes sad emotions it invokes, frustration is also one; it's akin to seeing two of your favorite people going through something and being at loggerheads, unmindful of the complete picture and you are like guys there is no reason you should feel like this...I absolutely absolutely loved this book and the only place which would have made it more perfect for me was if the reason of falling apart would have been explored some more and been more layered.
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