"But at Copsford there were seasons when time almost stood still, and I too learnt to be still. At first I was restless, miserable, a gnawing discontent tried to eat my heart out, and if I had not been blessed with an inborn love of the countryside it would have succeeded. But I slowly learned to stand and stare. The leaven was working. I not only stood and not only stared, but I began to see. I saw lovely things and rare things, quaint and curious things, colours, marvellous and surpassing the imagination of the proudest paintbox in the world, saw the play of light across the meadow and wood, saw a shaft of sunlight fill a spring-green copse until it glowed as though the glory of the Light of the World dwelled within. I caught an occasional glimpse of the intricate and complex pattern of life, and, once or twice, as fleeting as the rainbow-flash from a trembling dewdrop, I perceived that all these things were but the external signs of a kingdom such as I had never dreamed of; that these colours were as a drop-curtain which, while it might never rise to disclose the stage within, grew transparent before my wondering eyes."
This book arrived unasked for, like a blessing. Thank you, YKW. I had not heard of it before, I didn't know what it was about. It was a true surprise, and I wish everyone could have this experience - where something comes to you that so fills you with joy and a sense of the loveliness of life that it spills over.
The long and the short is this - Murray, a man depleted and battered by circumstance, in a kind of desperate plan of escape, rents an abandoned and unwelcoming house in the country. His idea is to work all summer, collecting herbs for the medicinal market, and to write during the winter.
Nothing is simple, of course, and the house is depressing in its decay, but Walter manages to make just enough of a bearable corner for himself in it to get by - and then he goes outside.
This is where the book really got its teeth into me. I did a very tiny bit of herb collecting like this at one time. Gathering purple clover and yarrow for drying for tea, harvesting the young stinging nettle shoots for soup, comfrey for salve. Raised in the boondocks with parents interested in herbs and native plants, it was my personal aim to know the name of every single wild green living thing around me. So reading of Walter's wanderings over hills and through meadows and woods searching for herbs was like a dream come to life. Not just because of the beauty of nature, but the time as well - 1948, in England. (These old memoirs! Treasure for time travelers!)
Copsford reminded me of the book "A Month In the Country" by J.L. Carr. Another wounded soul on the mend. His time in nature is all about the healing power of beauty. He did not want it to end, and neither did I.
"...Sometimes, when sitting comfortably and sipping my cup of tea, I become aware that it is not just an infusion of the leaves of the tea plant that quenches my thirst and pleases my palate, for I realise that tropical sun and monsoon rains, mountain slopes and ancient soil, toiling hands and patient care, are distilled in the fragrant steam that coils in rainbow vapours from my cup; and I am thankful for all that, and stimulated thereby. If such qualities do not attach to mundane things we might as well not live."
"At last came a morning in June, light, airy and still. I had awakened to find the early sun streaming in my open uncurtained window, golden and warm. I tossed away the bedclothes to stand entranced at the sight and sound and perfume of the perfect morning. It sometimes happens, at rare moments in our lives, we are suddenly aware of an altogether new world, different completely from that in which we commonly live. We feel as though we stand at the threshold of an undiscovered kingdom, for brief moments we understand life interpreted, we perceive meaning instead of things. In those golden minutes I understood every word on a single page of the magic book of Life inscribed in a language neither written nor spoken. There was a sublime tranquillity in the level of white mists of the valley, a symphony like the ascending melodies of Greig in the sun rays that climbed aslant the hill, a quiet strength in the stillness of the trees, a brotherhood of life in all living things. I was no longer a single life pushing a difficult way amidst material things, I was a part of all creation."