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336 pages, Paperback
First published July 24, 2014
She looks back down at me, and I open my mouth to say what I came to say, but she raises a finger to her lips and shakes her head urgently. So I do the only thing I can, the only thing I feel, which is to raise one hand to my heart like I’m about to say the Pledge of Allegiance, only not to any flag but to Devorah. And I just stare up at her and think, I love you I love you I love you.
The light is getting hazy, that soft orangey glow that will soon give way to purple dusk, but it’s bright enough still that I can see her features perfectly crumple, her chin quivering, her eyes folding into little winks. I was a little afraid she’d be angry that I showed up at her house, but I never thought she’d cry. I start to feel awful, until she breaks into the most heartbreaking smile, laughing and crying at the same time, and puts her hand up to her chest, too, so that we’re just standing, staring at each other, knowing we’re both thinking the same thing.
BIG SIGH.
This novel was like no other (sorry, couldn't help it). Una LaMarche can write her ass off and I fell deeply in love with her writing style. So frigging beautiful! I'm so impressed at how well she did the voices of her characters, it's almost like she wrote Devorah's POV and someone else wrote Jaxon's. But there were times where, despite having A+ writing, the story line itself bored me and I found it hard to pick this book up and finish it off (which explains why it took me forever to read). I think what--or should I say who?--really got on my nerves was Jaxon. He was such a lovesick puppy with no restraint--or rationale, for that matter--and his antics wore on me. And yes, there were other flaws too; this isn't a perfect story. Honestly, it isn't even really a unique one, either, but LaMarche adds a flair to it that makes it feel new and bold and refreshing. Her writing is captivating and amazingly emotive, and she gives depth and personality to all of her characters in such a skilled fashion. I especially appreciated her writing a character rooted in such a traditional Hasidic background (a religion I admittedly had little knowledge of) and I feel like after reading this I've come out more knowledgeable in that aspect. And my g-d (inside joke, haha), that ending was damn near perfection! I mean, it wasn't at all what I expected, and it did leave the story feeling slightly unfinished, but it was the perfect (and realistic) ending for Devorah and was so well done.
I debated giving this three stars, but anything less than four just didn't feel right.
”I do want a fairy-tale ending to my story. But I know that if the boy in my story is Jaxon, I’m never going to get it.”But when have cultural differences let young lovers stand in the way of what they want? Not if these two have any say in the matter.
”It’s funny; I forget sometimes how I might look to other people. I could be reading The Great Gatsby on the 2 train, or walking down the street listening to a podcast on my phone, or coming out of my orthodontist’s office with Invisilign braces feeling like the biggest nerd on the planet, but some people don’t notice anything but an almost-six-foot-tall black man. After Trayvon Martin got shot in Florida, Mom wouldn’t let me wear a hoodie for six months.”And we have Devorah, the consummate Hasidic ‘good girl’ who attends synagogue, follows tradition, and is unfailingly obedient.
”The life of a good girl, of a doting wife and mother, is a cloudless blue sky stretching across a flat horizon. And as it rages outside I can’t help but wonder what it would be like to be in the eye of the storm.”Jaxon was sweet, sarcastic and had killer one-liners, though I thought he acted too much with his heart and not with his head. Devorah was also fun to read about, especially her spiritual crisis and coming to realize that maybe her religion isn’t all it was made out to be.
”I know my father says that only G-d can know when two souls are meant to be together, but my feelings for Jaxon have developed into something deep and profound that I don’t know what else it could be but fate.”And yet despite that, and all their interactions, I couldn’t connect with them as a couple. Their romance felt very flat to me, for some reason. I don’t know if it was at the speed they were taking things, or if I didn’t think that they were a good fit as a couple. Or maybe I knew they were doomed from the start. Either way, I wasn’t rooting for them the way I rooted for Maria and Tony. I was more rooting for Devorah to escape her family and start new, to be perfectly honest.
”Forget that my grades are better than either of my older brothers’ ever were. Forget that I study English and math and science, much more well-rounded than their almost entirely religious education. It is simply expected that my education will end when I am married.”I’m not entirely sure if this is how it is in the real world, but I certainly hope the author didn’t embellish the potentially negative aspects to make for a more dramatic story. Particularly in the instance of Jacob, Devorah’s brother-in-law, who was the absolute worst character in the book. The worst part was, the author portrayed all the Hasidic Jewish men like this. And I’m not sure that was a good thing.