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Wildflowers
Travelling through the countryside in a stolen sea-green Cadillac, Xavi and Sam are both searching for something neither has the courage to admit to. But as the days slip away, Xavi isn’t sure he can keep his promise to stay with Sam; he isn’t sure about anything anymore.
On the edge of the sea, in a field of wildflowers, Xavi finally realises that if they keep on going as they are, he’s going to lose Sam, in every way possible. And he can’t bear it. Loving Sam becomes the only truth Xavi knows, saving him the only thing that makes sense.
Now he just has to convince Sam that life—and love—are worth fighting for.
On the edge of the sea, in a field of wildflowers, Xavi finally realises that if they keep on going as they are, he’s going to lose Sam, in every way possible. And he can’t bear it. Loving Sam becomes the only truth Xavi knows, saving him the only thing that makes sense.
Now he just has to convince Sam that life—and love—are worth fighting for.
80 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 13, 2016
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Suki Fleet
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Suki Fleet is an award winning author, a prolific Reader (though less prolific than they'd like), and a lover of angst, romance and unexpected love stories.
They write lyrical stories about memorable characters and believe everyone should have a chance at a happy ending.
Their first novel This is Not a Love Story won Best Gay Debut in the 2014 Rainbow Awards, and was a finalist in the 2015 Lambda Awards. Their novel Foxes won Best Gay Young Adult in the 2016 Rainbow Awards.
If you’d like to offer your support and buy Suki Fleet a coffee you can do that here: https://ko-fi.com/sukifleet
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Suki Fleet is an award winning author, a prolific Reader (though less prolific than they'd like), and a lover of angst, romance and unexpected love stories.
They write lyrical stories about memorable characters and believe everyone should have a chance at a happy ending.
Their first novel This is Not a Love Story won Best Gay Debut in the 2014 Rainbow Awards, and was a finalist in the 2015 Lambda Awards. Their novel Foxes won Best Gay Young Adult in the 2016 Rainbow Awards.
If you’d like to offer your support and buy Suki Fleet a coffee you can do that here: https://ko-fi.com/sukifleet
If you would like info on upcoming releases and the occasional free story, please sign up to Suki’s newsletter: https://sukifleet.wordpress.com/newsl...
If you’re interested in reading first drafts of Suki’s new stories, or reading stories that are no longer available or cuts that can’t be published on Amazon, and other extras, please consider signing up to Suki’s Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/sukifleet
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July 24, 2016
Everything I love in Suki is here. Another great “cachito” of hers.
When I first began this book, it was off to me. I believed this would come to a terribly unhappy ending, with Sam being sick and walking alongside Death until the very moment when he would join her forever.
Then I felt this was going nowhere, that Xavi’s actions were an undeniable proof that this love story was never meant to happen. That there never was a “they” so “they” would never exist.
Ever.
But somehow there is this turn of events and this book touched my inner core in such a way that I cannot grasp entirely.
It’s a “typical” Suki Fleet story. There is everything I love in her: very young hopeless social outcasts, disabilities, hospital scenes, pandora-boxes secrets that are revealed very late into the story. And pure angst. And true love.
Which means that I should have already had time to get used to her, that I should have been expecting this treacherous blow. It was a proper sucker punch, and I was not prepared for it.
At first I didn’t think it was possible. At first I couldn’t see it happening. At first I was this trusting young girl who was led into a magical world where in truth nothing is otherworldly.
Until it was.
I’ve not known Suki for that long. I read the first book a year and a half ago. But somehow, I’ve grown up with her. Somehow, I’ve learnt to see misfits under a different light, I’ve learnt to see under the surface. The sensibility she shows in every book of hers is addictive of a kind. And the study of character is so inspiring and beautiful I’ve fallen under her spell a way too often.
This time, it was the other way around, I’ve remembered things from my past and seen them written here. Being shaped into words. Seeing them in the inked form like this has done something deep inside me. It’s not that any of this has happened to me on any personal level, but Suki made it feel that way. Made it feel personal.
The hospital is the turning point in the story. Or, better said, it was that so-close-to-the-end-of-life situation which changed everything for me. Since that moment on, I was so invested in the characters I felt every emotion of theirs in my very bones.
The thrilling brutal feeling of loneliness, of despair, of apprehension. The maze of shadowed corridors, the cheap curtains, the need to get onto the bed and hug that person you hold dear behind the nurses’ watchful eyes and everybody else’s backs.
The scene in the shower.
The flashbacks in the commune and OMG I hate flashbacks but here I drank them all as if they were all the water left in the desert. The red book in a foreign language. The dead bird. The tiny rabbits. The longing glances and the misguided regrets. The terrible past mistakes. The rejection and the denial. The self-inflicted pain. The defeat and the sense that there is no alternative possible. That there is no way out.
And the omelette being turned upside-down. And the sense that now, everything is possible. That there are oh-so-many doors to be opened. I just wasn’t paying attention.
And that “they” that indeed exists.
My Physics teacher was close to be a victim in a car accident. He said he imagined his body flying through the front glass and began making calculations in his head. The velocity, the kinetic energy turning into potential energy, taking into consideration the various forms of friction which would change the trajectory of his body.
I have mostly forgotten maths at this stage of my life.
But I keep thinking in other ways that aren’t exactly meant to be.
But they are there.
The non-said scenes.
Like the doctor looking at you in the eyes and saying “dialysis 3 times a week 4 hours each until there is a kidney available”. Going to that room full of sofas (or beds for those unable to sit) and connecting your measured “blood cleaner” tin directly to your vein-artery fistula. Young people usually choose the peritoneal dialysis, which gives an independency of sorts. Because spending so much time napping surrounded by strangers whose faces begin to seem familiar after a week or two is not something you really are looking forward to.
It’s not random it’s 3 times a week. It’s just the minimum of times you need your blood cleaned in order to function properly. It would be ideal going everyday. But nobody can bear that rhythm. Normally it’s a routine of Monday-Wednesday-Friday. Or a Tuesday-Thursday-Saturday if you don’t really care about wasting your weekend in the hospital.
Weekends are the worst, it’s a three-day skip instead of two. It’s when people break their diet (I met a nutritionist who was so badass he liked to ring his patients on Saturdays). There are more incidents on Sundays. People die on Sundays.
And Mondays usually mean a “penalty” of an extra hour with your blood circulating out of your body. Because you overstepped in that party with your friends, or you drank/ate something you weren’t supposed to ingest.
Depression is not unusual. Not because of this unforgiving routine, but also because your blood quality is not exactly the best.
At this stage everybody dreams with a kidney that is not theirs. And all the meds that that entails. In my country, the length of time spent in the waiting list is between 6 months and 6 years, the average being 2 years. And I’m talking about one of the global leaders in organ transplants.
It’s something I wish upon nobody on Earth. Just imagining this to happen to Sam makes my heart wrench. Just imagining this to happen to Xavi makes my heart wrench. Yes, I know life is not fair generally speaking, but they are so young, so full of possibilities, that the simple idea infuriates me to no end.
I loved the random-but-not-so-random display of kindness. They gave me hope. When a total stranger helps you because she knows someone helps her loved ones in a faraway place. When the unconditional love from the parents who had missed their son and couldn’t find a way to “find” him, to make him come back, envelops around the characters like a warm blanket. When Xavi didn’t resign himself to let Sam go, not when he leaves him behind, not when he comes to say goodbye, not when his flame is so close to be extinguished.
It’s a kind of magic. Having a meh book in your hands and suddenly, the Midas touch turning it into gold. Because this book really shines, with a light that gets stronger and stronger, and you can only think about holding it and listen to it crackle into the infinite.
It hurts but it heals.
This story is a Phoenix. Everything is doomed before starting. Everything is hopeless. The Phoenix dies. And the flame reawakens full force. This cleansing fire is so real it was close to be a lifelong experience.
Thank you for writing, Suki.
*****
*****
Tag Review with Lorix!
***Copy provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.***
When I first began this book, it was off to me. I believed this would come to a terribly unhappy ending, with Sam being sick and walking alongside Death until the very moment when he would join her forever.
Then I felt this was going nowhere, that Xavi’s actions were an undeniable proof that this love story was never meant to happen. That there never was a “they” so “they” would never exist.
Ever.
But somehow there is this turn of events and this book touched my inner core in such a way that I cannot grasp entirely.
It’s a “typical” Suki Fleet story. There is everything I love in her: very young hopeless social outcasts, disabilities, hospital scenes, pandora-boxes secrets that are revealed very late into the story. And pure angst. And true love.
Which means that I should have already had time to get used to her, that I should have been expecting this treacherous blow. It was a proper sucker punch, and I was not prepared for it.
At first I didn’t think it was possible. At first I couldn’t see it happening. At first I was this trusting young girl who was led into a magical world where in truth nothing is otherworldly.
Until it was.
I’ve not known Suki for that long. I read the first book a year and a half ago. But somehow, I’ve grown up with her. Somehow, I’ve learnt to see misfits under a different light, I’ve learnt to see under the surface. The sensibility she shows in every book of hers is addictive of a kind. And the study of character is so inspiring and beautiful I’ve fallen under her spell a way too often.
This time, it was the other way around, I’ve remembered things from my past and seen them written here. Being shaped into words. Seeing them in the inked form like this has done something deep inside me. It’s not that any of this has happened to me on any personal level, but Suki made it feel that way. Made it feel personal.
The hospital is the turning point in the story. Or, better said, it was that so-close-to-the-end-of-life situation which changed everything for me. Since that moment on, I was so invested in the characters I felt every emotion of theirs in my very bones.
The thrilling brutal feeling of loneliness, of despair, of apprehension. The maze of shadowed corridors, the cheap curtains, the need to get onto the bed and hug that person you hold dear behind the nurses’ watchful eyes and everybody else’s backs.
The scene in the shower.
The flashbacks in the commune and OMG I hate flashbacks but here I drank them all as if they were all the water left in the desert. The red book in a foreign language. The dead bird. The tiny rabbits. The longing glances and the misguided regrets. The terrible past mistakes. The rejection and the denial. The self-inflicted pain. The defeat and the sense that there is no alternative possible. That there is no way out.
And the omelette being turned upside-down. And the sense that now, everything is possible. That there are oh-so-many doors to be opened. I just wasn’t paying attention.
And that “they” that indeed exists.
My Physics teacher was close to be a victim in a car accident. He said he imagined his body flying through the front glass and began making calculations in his head. The velocity, the kinetic energy turning into potential energy, taking into consideration the various forms of friction which would change the trajectory of his body.
I have mostly forgotten maths at this stage of my life.
But I keep thinking in other ways that aren’t exactly meant to be.
But they are there.
The non-said scenes.
Like the doctor looking at you in the eyes and saying “dialysis 3 times a week 4 hours each until there is a kidney available”. Going to that room full of sofas (or beds for those unable to sit) and connecting your measured “blood cleaner” tin directly to your vein-artery fistula. Young people usually choose the peritoneal dialysis, which gives an independency of sorts. Because spending so much time napping surrounded by strangers whose faces begin to seem familiar after a week or two is not something you really are looking forward to.
It’s not random it’s 3 times a week. It’s just the minimum of times you need your blood cleaned in order to function properly. It would be ideal going everyday. But nobody can bear that rhythm. Normally it’s a routine of Monday-Wednesday-Friday. Or a Tuesday-Thursday-Saturday if you don’t really care about wasting your weekend in the hospital.
Weekends are the worst, it’s a three-day skip instead of two. It’s when people break their diet (I met a nutritionist who was so badass he liked to ring his patients on Saturdays). There are more incidents on Sundays. People die on Sundays.
And Mondays usually mean a “penalty” of an extra hour with your blood circulating out of your body. Because you overstepped in that party with your friends, or you drank/ate something you weren’t supposed to ingest.
Depression is not unusual. Not because of this unforgiving routine, but also because your blood quality is not exactly the best.
At this stage everybody dreams with a kidney that is not theirs. And all the meds that that entails. In my country, the length of time spent in the waiting list is between 6 months and 6 years, the average being 2 years. And I’m talking about one of the global leaders in organ transplants.
It’s something I wish upon nobody on Earth. Just imagining this to happen to Sam makes my heart wrench. Just imagining this to happen to Xavi makes my heart wrench. Yes, I know life is not fair generally speaking, but they are so young, so full of possibilities, that the simple idea infuriates me to no end.
I loved the random-but-not-so-random display of kindness. They gave me hope. When a total stranger helps you because she knows someone helps her loved ones in a faraway place. When the unconditional love from the parents who had missed their son and couldn’t find a way to “find” him, to make him come back, envelops around the characters like a warm blanket. When Xavi didn’t resign himself to let Sam go, not when he leaves him behind, not when he comes to say goodbye, not when his flame is so close to be extinguished.
It’s a kind of magic. Having a meh book in your hands and suddenly, the Midas touch turning it into gold. Because this book really shines, with a light that gets stronger and stronger, and you can only think about holding it and listen to it crackle into the infinite.
It hurts but it heals.
This story is a Phoenix. Everything is doomed before starting. Everything is hopeless. The Phoenix dies. And the flame reawakens full force. This cleansing fire is so real it was close to be a lifelong experience.
Thank you for writing, Suki.
*****
*****
Tag Review with Lorix!
***Copy provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.***
July 21, 2016
Have you ever looked directly at the sun on a cloudless day? Your mother told you not to but you did anyway, right? What happens? It's blinding and your lids blink of their own accord before damage is done.
This is what Suki Fleet's words do.
They are so intense, so potent, so vivid...they should come with a surgeon general's warning.
I've never doubted Fleet before. She has my implicate trust. *hands over heart* I'll be honest (hangs head), I had a moment of hesitation this time.
No.
She couldn't. She wouldn't. Would she?
And blessed be, she didn't. But it's there and even though I'm telling you, you will feel it too. That's just what she does.
Sam is dying.
Xavi is supposed to let him.
These are his final wishes. But what happens when you can't keep a promise? What consequences will occur when plans are altered? You will have to walk into the field of endless flowers to find out.
What's to like: I adored both young men and equally enjoyed the strangers and family we meet along the way. I have yet to be introduced to a character of Fleet's that I don't like and the winning streak continues. The pace could have easily become choppy or rushed but it didn't. The balance was slightly off kilter with heavier angst but the hope never completely disappears. And I can't imagine a more perfect cover. Xavi fears their age difference should matter and holds onto all of the reasons that they shouldn't be until Sam opens his heart and mind to accept love is love...and all love is precious. Some love is so brilliant, it hurts but in the best possible way.
What's to love: Suki has the astonishing ability to create a masterpiece without clearly defined margins and still knock you off your feet. You don't know everything and the beauty of it is, you don't have to. There are many unanswered questions hidden in this tale and I am one hundred percent okay with that. This nerve-wracking adventure is ambiguous and perplexing and I stumbled along in a dreamlike trance. Why is Sam sick? Where does he come from? What about his past? I want to demand more information, beg for answers but as she takes us further down the road I understand that I don't need to know. Before is irrelevant. Only now matters. Today and tomorrow are significant, yesterday is not. This is the core of this bittersweet enchanting love story and how can you not love that?
Beware of: A thick and somber fog will encompass you as you begin. Desperation and despair will push you past the middle. Finally, a tender flight will take you away. Ohh, and don't forget to expect some secrets will remain buried.
This book is for: Trusting readers who will close their eyes, feel the sun on their face, spread both arms wide and fall backwards, confident that everything will be okay.
Book UNfunk
This is what Suki Fleet's words do.
They are so intense, so potent, so vivid...they should come with a surgeon general's warning.
I've never doubted Fleet before. She has my implicate trust. *hands over heart* I'll be honest (hangs head), I had a moment of hesitation this time.
No.
She couldn't. She wouldn't. Would she?
And blessed be, she didn't. But it's there and even though I'm telling you, you will feel it too. That's just what she does.
Sam is dying.
Xavi is supposed to let him.
These are his final wishes. But what happens when you can't keep a promise? What consequences will occur when plans are altered? You will have to walk into the field of endless flowers to find out.
What's to like: I adored both young men and equally enjoyed the strangers and family we meet along the way. I have yet to be introduced to a character of Fleet's that I don't like and the winning streak continues. The pace could have easily become choppy or rushed but it didn't. The balance was slightly off kilter with heavier angst but the hope never completely disappears. And I can't imagine a more perfect cover. Xavi fears their age difference should matter and holds onto all of the reasons that they shouldn't be until Sam opens his heart and mind to accept love is love...and all love is precious. Some love is so brilliant, it hurts but in the best possible way.
What's to love: Suki has the astonishing ability to create a masterpiece without clearly defined margins and still knock you off your feet. You don't know everything and the beauty of it is, you don't have to. There are many unanswered questions hidden in this tale and I am one hundred percent okay with that. This nerve-wracking adventure is ambiguous and perplexing and I stumbled along in a dreamlike trance. Why is Sam sick? Where does he come from? What about his past? I want to demand more information, beg for answers but as she takes us further down the road I understand that I don't need to know. Before is irrelevant. Only now matters. Today and tomorrow are significant, yesterday is not. This is the core of this bittersweet enchanting love story and how can you not love that?
Beware of: A thick and somber fog will encompass you as you begin. Desperation and despair will push you past the middle. Finally, a tender flight will take you away. Ohh, and don't forget to expect some secrets will remain buried.
This book is for: Trusting readers who will close their eyes, feel the sun on their face, spread both arms wide and fall backwards, confident that everything will be okay.
Book UNfunk
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25/09/18
Now re released :) Content is pretty much the same to the Dreamspinner edition-just re edited^^ and with a brilliant new Natasha Snow cover.
13/07/16
Release day for angsty story! The song related to this one (there is always a song lol) is Blondie's Heart of Glass.
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGU_4...
https://www.amazon.com/Wildflowers-Su...
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Wildflowers-...
14/06/16
Now available for pre order from Dreamspinner Press:
https://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/boo...
***
This is the first story I ever finished and also the angstiest story I will ever write.
It was written a couple of months before This is Not a Love Story, and is a result of grief and my need to find hope (though perhaps everything I write is...).
Anyway it's short (23K), and my shorter stories are not usually angsty, so this is my warning ;)
Suki^^
25/09/18
Now re released :) Content is pretty much the same to the Dreamspinner edition-just re edited^^ and with a brilliant new Natasha Snow cover.
13/07/16
Release day for angsty story! The song related to this one (there is always a song lol) is Blondie's Heart of Glass.
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGU_4...
https://www.amazon.com/Wildflowers-Su...
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Wildflowers-...
14/06/16
Now available for pre order from Dreamspinner Press:
https://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/boo...
***
This is the first story I ever finished and also the angstiest story I will ever write.
It was written a couple of months before This is Not a Love Story, and is a result of grief and my need to find hope (though perhaps everything I write is...).
Anyway it's short (23K), and my shorter stories are not usually angsty, so this is my warning ;)
Suki^^
June 21, 2016
I'm not entirely sure sure what I was expecting with this story. It's Suki Fleet, so I requested it, without much thought, because she is a master story teller and I always love where she takes me.
Wildflowers is a story about Xavi and Sam, finally finding their way back together after several years apart. Sam doesn't really talk. I'm not sure why, but he doesn't. And he's dying. He came to Xavi a few weeks ago wanting to travel a bit before the end. He wanted to be with Xavi when he died. But he didn't think that Xavi returned his feelings.
Xavi wasn't in the best of head-spaces when he knew Sam before. And maybe he isn't now, either, but a bit of a second chance with Sam might be what Xavi needs, too. So Xavi steals a great big green Cadillac and they take off for places unknown, searching for a field of wildflowers by the sea.
But when Sam takes a turn for the worse, Xavi breaks his 'no hospitals' promise. He can't let go. It takes that event for Xavi to admit to himself how he really feels.
Wildflowers, while not an entirely happy story, is hopeful. Sam is so young and has only ever wanted love. He never knew, before ending up in hospital, that Xavi really did return his feelings. Xavi was scared to admit how he felt.
Suki Fleet's story telling is top notch. Imagery that really takes you to the scene with the characters. Gorgeous. Poignant. Hopeful. There is a strong HFN, here. And to those that worry that the story ends in the death of Sam, worry not, the ending is happy.
There is one scene in this book that some people will find a show stopper, however: I hope you give it a chance, though, because Wildflowers is so full of beauty and hope, I couldn't help but love it.
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ARC of Wildflowers was generously provided by the publisher, in exchange for an honest review.
Wildflowers is a story about Xavi and Sam, finally finding their way back together after several years apart. Sam doesn't really talk. I'm not sure why, but he doesn't. And he's dying. He came to Xavi a few weeks ago wanting to travel a bit before the end. He wanted to be with Xavi when he died. But he didn't think that Xavi returned his feelings.
Xavi wasn't in the best of head-spaces when he knew Sam before. And maybe he isn't now, either, but a bit of a second chance with Sam might be what Xavi needs, too. So Xavi steals a great big green Cadillac and they take off for places unknown, searching for a field of wildflowers by the sea.
But when Sam takes a turn for the worse, Xavi breaks his 'no hospitals' promise. He can't let go. It takes that event for Xavi to admit to himself how he really feels.
Wildflowers, while not an entirely happy story, is hopeful. Sam is so young and has only ever wanted love. He never knew, before ending up in hospital, that Xavi really did return his feelings. Xavi was scared to admit how he felt.
Suki Fleet's story telling is top notch. Imagery that really takes you to the scene with the characters. Gorgeous. Poignant. Hopeful. There is a strong HFN, here. And to those that worry that the story ends in the death of Sam, worry not, the ending is happy.
There is one scene in this book that some people will find a show stopper, however: I hope you give it a chance, though, because Wildflowers is so full of beauty and hope, I couldn't help but love it.
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ARC of Wildflowers was generously provided by the publisher, in exchange for an honest review.
August 1, 2016
4.5 stars
I couldn't find words to describe my feelings after I finished reading this little gem, so I made something instead.
I couldn't find words to describe my feelings after I finished reading this little gem, so I made something instead.
Lay me down where the wildflowers grow and my heart will find its home.
July 5, 2016
ROADTRIP!!!!!!!!!!!
'Wildflowers' is only the second book that I've read by this author and yes, I know if you're a fan of hers your now asking yourself 'what is wrong with this woman?' it's a first world problem folks it's called "Too Many Books, Too Little Time" but I do hope to remedy it. Heaven knows I keep trying.
But be that as it may, I am so glad that I found the time to read this one. So basically what happened here is that Ms Fleet ripped me open and reduced me to a puddle of tears and then she put me back together, made me smile and feel blissfully happy and left me wanting more (the sign of a truly awesome book in my world).
This story is only about 80 pages long but it's filled with love and heartache and so beautifully told. My biggest disappointment is that no matter how hard I try I don't seem to be able to find the words to describe what a beautifully poignant story Ms Fleet has created with these mere 80 pages.
I feel like the only thing I can really say that matters is grab your tissues, grab your teddy, curl up in your favorite chair and be prepared to take a road trip with Sam and Xavi. Trust me you don't want to miss it.
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An ARC of 'Wildflowers' was graciously provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
'Wildflowers' is only the second book that I've read by this author and yes, I know if you're a fan of hers your now asking yourself 'what is wrong with this woman?' it's a first world problem folks it's called "Too Many Books, Too Little Time" but I do hope to remedy it. Heaven knows I keep trying.
But be that as it may, I am so glad that I found the time to read this one. So basically what happened here is that Ms Fleet ripped me open and reduced me to a puddle of tears and then she put me back together, made me smile and feel blissfully happy and left me wanting more (the sign of a truly awesome book in my world).
This story is only about 80 pages long but it's filled with love and heartache and so beautifully told. My biggest disappointment is that no matter how hard I try I don't seem to be able to find the words to describe what a beautifully poignant story Ms Fleet has created with these mere 80 pages.
I feel like the only thing I can really say that matters is grab your tissues, grab your teddy, curl up in your favorite chair and be prepared to take a road trip with Sam and Xavi. Trust me you don't want to miss it.
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An ARC of 'Wildflowers' was graciously provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
July 18, 2016
3,5 redondeadas a 4, básicamente porque esta mujer escribe muy bien.
Éste no es mi favorito de Suki, conectar con los personajes se me ha hecho un poco cuesta arriba pero tiene un estilo tan bonito que no me ha importado, retrata como nadie el dolor, la angustia, la esperanza, el amor... Vamos, un Fleet en toda regla ;)
Éste no es mi favorito de Suki, conectar con los personajes se me ha hecho un poco cuesta arriba pero tiene un estilo tan bonito que no me ha importado, retrata como nadie el dolor, la angustia, la esperanza, el amor... Vamos, un Fleet en toda regla ;)
October 30, 2016
Stunning, emotive writing that reminds me, as if I needed it, who is the real master of beautiful angst.
September 25, 2018
I've painfully learned that grief can be a constant shadow in someone's life. It can be old but still terribly raw or creep up on you like a new fear. Suki Fleet's beautifully moving novella Wildflowers deals with both kinds of emotions.
Xavi's feelings are jumbled and confused - he's still grieving for the death of his ex-lover and is now painfully preparing himself to grieve for Sam who claims to be terminally ill and ready to let go.
In the space of a few pages (too few!), the author manages to conjure up a story that is at one time tragic and hopeful, full of subdued sensuality and of those tiny touches and observations that I've learned to love so much in her stories.
The account of Xavi and Sam's road trip is angsty and slow and will end up taking them to a place of the mind and of the heart that is not at all their imagined initial destination.
I've read Wildflowers in one long sitting and in a specific moment in my personal life that made the story profoundly resonant. I deeply loved it.
Since discovering Suki Fleet with her amazing This is Not a Love Story, I've become a true fan of her writing style, sensitivity and stories. I cannot wait to read more of them.
Image: the so-called 'infiorata' (the blossoming of wildflowers) in Castelluccio di Norcia, Italy.
Xavi's feelings are jumbled and confused - he's still grieving for the death of his ex-lover and is now painfully preparing himself to grieve for Sam who claims to be terminally ill and ready to let go.
In the space of a few pages (too few!), the author manages to conjure up a story that is at one time tragic and hopeful, full of subdued sensuality and of those tiny touches and observations that I've learned to love so much in her stories.
The account of Xavi and Sam's road trip is angsty and slow and will end up taking them to a place of the mind and of the heart that is not at all their imagined initial destination.
I've read Wildflowers in one long sitting and in a specific moment in my personal life that made the story profoundly resonant. I deeply loved it.
Since discovering Suki Fleet with her amazing This is Not a Love Story, I've become a true fan of her writing style, sensitivity and stories. I cannot wait to read more of them.
Image: the so-called 'infiorata' (the blossoming of wildflowers) in Castelluccio di Norcia, Italy.
July 14, 2016
4 stars
This had, as always, Ms. Fleet's beautiful, evocative writing style. And a 1st person narration, which I love. I'm a huge fan of pretty much everything she writes. She didn't lie about this being angsty though. I'm going to admit it may have been a little too much on the angsty side for my tastes at the moment, likely because I had some difficulties completely connecting with the MCs and their actions.
This had, as always, Ms. Fleet's beautiful, evocative writing style. And a 1st person narration, which I love. I'm a huge fan of pretty much everything she writes. She didn't lie about this being angsty though. I'm going to admit it may have been a little too much on the angsty side for my tastes at the moment, likely because I had some difficulties completely connecting with the MCs and their actions.
December 16, 2020
Such an unexpected beautiful story ⭐️
I’ve never read anything by Suki Fleet before but I’m definitely gonna read more.
It was short, less than 100 pages, but believe me—it was enough in the best possible way.
Highly angsty with amazing HFN, and really, it’s everything I need in a book.
Highly recommended 💛
I’ve never read anything by Suki Fleet before but I’m definitely gonna read more.
It was short, less than 100 pages, but believe me—it was enough in the best possible way.
Highly angsty with amazing HFN, and really, it’s everything I need in a book.
Highly recommended 💛
January 7, 2020
Beautifully written and packs a serious emotional punch.
August 11, 2016
Possibly my favourite Suki Fleet short story... and that's saying something!
This story is absolutely everything Suki Fleet does best. I am usually a bigger fan of her longer stories over her short stories (though don't get me wrong, I've loved everything she's written) - this story though is my favourite of her shorts. It is jam packed with all that I have come to expect from a Suki Fleet story; characters to love, emotion, interesting storylines and, most importantly, honesty.
Blurbs that seem maybe extreme always work in a story, simply because Suki Fleet is a talented writer. More than talented, really. She weaves the tales she tells, pulling the strands in until the beautiful story is revealed. I know when I pick up a book by this author I am not going to get cheap tricks or repetition or formulaic writing. I know I will get a story from the heart.
Xavi and Sam stole my heart. Social outcasts who experience life through a lens of emotional hurt, they were dealing with the unknown and the painful. The story focuses on a journey - both a literal one and an emotional one. The aspects of both cleverly written to reveal the story piece by piece, ensuring full emotional involvement of the characters and... well, basically, the slow trampling of your heart, the extent of which you don't quite realise until the story's conclusion.
Luckily Suki Fleet gives good HEA because if there is one thing you can rely on with this writer it is the fact that you're going to be an emotional wreck by the end of her writing.
I loved this story and think that everyone should give it a go.
Review previously on the blog.
A copy of this book was given in exchange for an honest review.
"Maybe if I drive fast enough and far enough, the linear path of time will curve around us, swallow us down in an endless loop."
This story is absolutely everything Suki Fleet does best. I am usually a bigger fan of her longer stories over her short stories (though don't get me wrong, I've loved everything she's written) - this story though is my favourite of her shorts. It is jam packed with all that I have come to expect from a Suki Fleet story; characters to love, emotion, interesting storylines and, most importantly, honesty.
Blurbs that seem maybe extreme always work in a story, simply because Suki Fleet is a talented writer. More than talented, really. She weaves the tales she tells, pulling the strands in until the beautiful story is revealed. I know when I pick up a book by this author I am not going to get cheap tricks or repetition or formulaic writing. I know I will get a story from the heart.
Xavi and Sam stole my heart. Social outcasts who experience life through a lens of emotional hurt, they were dealing with the unknown and the painful. The story focuses on a journey - both a literal one and an emotional one. The aspects of both cleverly written to reveal the story piece by piece, ensuring full emotional involvement of the characters and... well, basically, the slow trampling of your heart, the extent of which you don't quite realise until the story's conclusion.
Luckily Suki Fleet gives good HEA because if there is one thing you can rely on with this writer it is the fact that you're going to be an emotional wreck by the end of her writing.
I loved this story and think that everyone should give it a go.
Review previously on the blog.
A copy of this book was given in exchange for an honest review.
July 15, 2016
Heartbreaking and beautiful.
A estas alturas creo que Suki Fleet es la única autora que no me ha decepcionado con uno de sus libros, siempre encuentro en ellos todo lo que estoy buscando en mayor o menor medida. Esta historia es muy triste, pero muy bella, te hace llorar pero también te hace sentir feliz. Y, fundamentalmente, encuentras en ella mucha mucha esperanza.
Un relato corto muy bien escrito para cuando necesites leer algo que te haga revolverte por dentro pero te deje con una sonrisa.
Como todo lo que he leído de la autora, muy muy recomendable.
A estas alturas creo que Suki Fleet es la única autora que no me ha decepcionado con uno de sus libros, siempre encuentro en ellos todo lo que estoy buscando en mayor o menor medida. Esta historia es muy triste, pero muy bella, te hace llorar pero también te hace sentir feliz. Y, fundamentalmente, encuentras en ella mucha mucha esperanza.
Un relato corto muy bien escrito para cuando necesites leer algo que te haga revolverte por dentro pero te deje con una sonrisa.
Como todo lo que he leído de la autora, muy muy recomendable.
August 9, 2016
Suki Fleet doesn't disappoint on the level of angst/ heart-ripping she brings with this book. I was crying for most of the book. But then the simplest (most logical) solution actually occurs. I am going to choose to ignore the obvious glossing over the ridiculous amounts of bureaucratic red tape this solution actually involves. But hey! happy ending, so whatever!
July 24, 2016
We are the field of wildflowers, we are the sky, we are the sea, we are this moment, and this moment is ours. And it always will be.
* A beautiful heartbreaking story*
I have always admire Suki Fleet to make me feels.
Just like when I read her other book like "This is Not a Love Story", this one's also poetic and bitter, yet romantic with its own way.
This is almost feels like how true love is supposed to be.#, with Xavi and Sam.
To be honest, usually what Xavi did in his denial that night was a deal breaker for me. But I can see he's so confused about his feeling for Sam.
He wanted Sam, but he didn't want Sam, but he can't stop thinking about Sam and be there for him when Sam needed him the most.
People makes mistakes, Xavi made mistake that night. Good thing is, he didn't finish it and he did regret right after that, and gave everything he can to make it better with Sam.
He did.
I loved what he did, he didn't just stay for Sam, but determined to make Sam have a strength to live again. Because he didn't want Sam to die.
You can't make someone love you or save them from falling hopelessly, uselessly apart, and you can't stop them from dying. Each and every one of us is accountable for ourselves alone.
I loved how this story ended.
They have their HFN, and still working on Sam's health. For me, that's a win-win.
There were some tears, anger, sadness, but there are also some erotic moments between the two MCs.
If you're just let Xavi's mistake go and forgive him, this one has a lot for a short story.
I really enjoyed the story, and if you miss This is Not a Love Story, this one will fulfill your need.
He searches my face with eyes so dark and so fucking full of trust, even though he has no reason to ever trust me again. Even though I've deserted him, broken promises, rejected him, and betrayed his feelings with a fucking stranger. I close my eyes against the sudden spill of my tears.
Recommended !
Sometimes stories are all we have left. We carry so many of them hidden in the cage of our bodies, written like secrets on the map of our skin. Most of us more scarred than tattooed : the walking wounded, afraid of how our story ends. Some of us find comfort in make-believe, as if the truth there is somehow easier to believe than our own.
* ARC was given by Publisher for a fair and an unbiased review *
August 12, 2016
3.5 stars rounded up
Beautifully written. Devastatingly painful.
Pretty much on par with everything Fleet writes.
Beautifully written. Devastatingly painful.
Pretty much on par with everything Fleet writes.
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July 13, 2016There are first times for everything and this will be a first for me. I truly short review because I lack the words or the willpower to not fangirl and lose sight of what’s important.
I love Suki’s work. There is this ethereal feeling I get when I read her words and what they do to me.
Wildflowers was perfection. It was angst and beauty. It was painfully with its sorrow. It was gorgeously filled with regret and it was amazing.
Wildflowers is a story about a boy who doesn’t want to be alone. It’s a story about overcoming your fears and letting down walls. It's a story about letting the what if's become a reality.
It’s a story that make me sob so much I joked with a friend that my Nook turned into an arc and floated away on a sea made of my tears.
I cried. Oh how I cried but those tears were of mixed emotions for Xavi and Sam… oh Sam. Just so much in this short story and I loved it.
It was amazing and worth it.
So much love for the boys. So much love for Judy. So much love for Joe and so much love for Suki.
This book is angsty AF but if you don’t feel when you read, why read at all.
Oh and I was listening to music as I read and this song, the lyrics... just work for this, for me.
Okay.
Rambling ginger… out.
I love Suki’s work. There is this ethereal feeling I get when I read her words and what they do to me.
Wildflowers was perfection. It was angst and beauty. It was painfully with its sorrow. It was gorgeously filled with regret and it was amazing.
Wildflowers is a story about a boy who doesn’t want to be alone. It’s a story about overcoming your fears and letting down walls. It's a story about letting the what if's become a reality.
It’s a story that make me sob so much I joked with a friend that my Nook turned into an arc and floated away on a sea made of my tears.
I cried. Oh how I cried but those tears were of mixed emotions for Xavi and Sam… oh Sam. Just so much in this short story and I loved it.
It was amazing and worth it.
So much love for the boys. So much love for Judy. So much love for Joe and so much love for Suki.
This book is angsty AF but if you don’t feel when you read, why read at all.
Oh and I was listening to music as I read and this song, the lyrics... just work for this, for me.
Okay.
Rambling ginger… out.
May 12, 2018
Two young guys in an emotional journey, trying to run away from death itself. Xavi always regretted leaving Sam behind when he followed his then-boyfriend off the commune they shared. Having Sam show up at his work years later should have been a sweet reunion, but Sam looks like crap and says he's dying. All he asks is for Xavi to be with him until the end. In painful powerlessness, Xavi steals a car out of the lot, loads Sam in it, and drives toward the ocean. As long as they're moving, as long as they have a goal, things can't end. Right?
But their history is tangled, and Xavi's caught between love and loss, anger and frustration and grief. They're flawed young men, who make some bad choices, but the love between them bonds them together, even as they unintentionally hurt each other. The ending is more positive than the beginning would lead you to expect.
This was very well written, with some evocative emotional moments. The backstory is slowly revealed, and the complexities of their past kept me reading and wondering to the end.
But their history is tangled, and Xavi's caught between love and loss, anger and frustration and grief. They're flawed young men, who make some bad choices, but the love between them bonds them together, even as they unintentionally hurt each other. The ending is more positive than the beginning would lead you to expect.
This was very well written, with some evocative emotional moments. The backstory is slowly revealed, and the complexities of their past kept me reading and wondering to the end.
Want to read
November 4, 201911/4/19 Currently on sale for 99c via Amazon US: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07HNBBZK7
July 12, 2016
This beautiful novella moved me deeply and had me quite conflicted at the same time.
Xavi, a man who made more than a few wrong decisions in his life, decides to do something right for a change, when Sam, a young man he knows from his time at a commune, shows up at his place, telling him that he will die soon.
Xavi always had a soft spot for the guy and decides to stay with him until the end, stealing a car and driving with Sam for several weeks until they reach the ocean, where Sam wants to see a field of wildflowers that Xavi told him about.
Their journey shows Xavi how much Sam means to him and he remembers how they met and stayed in touch over several years.
Their journey also shows Xavi that he cannot let Sam die and he decides to show Sam why his life is still worth living, trying to convince him to accept medical help.
I liked the premise of the story a lot and found the poetic writing very touching.
However, I did not fully understand Xavi's background. The characters are revealed slowly, maybe a bit too slowly. By the end when the characters are fully explained, Xavi left a weird taste for me. Sam on the other hand was a very endearing character whose past moved me deeply.
This road movie type of story is very unique and should be given a chance. It's different from your usual m/m plot for sure.
4 stars!
Xavi, a man who made more than a few wrong decisions in his life, decides to do something right for a change, when Sam, a young man he knows from his time at a commune, shows up at his place, telling him that he will die soon.
Xavi always had a soft spot for the guy and decides to stay with him until the end, stealing a car and driving with Sam for several weeks until they reach the ocean, where Sam wants to see a field of wildflowers that Xavi told him about.
Their journey shows Xavi how much Sam means to him and he remembers how they met and stayed in touch over several years.
Their journey also shows Xavi that he cannot let Sam die and he decides to show Sam why his life is still worth living, trying to convince him to accept medical help.
I liked the premise of the story a lot and found the poetic writing very touching.
However, I did not fully understand Xavi's background. The characters are revealed slowly, maybe a bit too slowly. By the end when the characters are fully explained, Xavi left a weird taste for me. Sam on the other hand was a very endearing character whose past moved me deeply.
This road movie type of story is very unique and should be given a chance. It's different from your usual m/m plot for sure.
4 stars!
August 11, 2018
The writing of this story was, once again, exceptional! But despite that, I'm sad to say that this time, it didn't really capture me. I was expecting to be ripped open, torn apart, and put back together. It's Suki Fleet after all. But... it didn't happen here and I'm still not sure why. This story has an abundance of heartache and angst. Not as much as Foxes but it still should have called for the need of chocolate, tissues, teddy bears, and hiding under a blanket.
Maybe it was the shortness of the story or it just didn't cut deep enough for my expectations. Maybe it was too much struggling on Xavi's part until he came to terms with his feelings for Sam. Too much uncertainty for such a short story and too little relationship development to understand their connection. I just don't know...
Maybe it was the shortness of the story or it just didn't cut deep enough for my expectations. Maybe it was too much struggling on Xavi's part until he came to terms with his feelings for Sam. Too much uncertainty for such a short story and too little relationship development to understand their connection. I just don't know...
April 23, 2022
4.5 Stars
There are few authors who can write in a way that wrings every possible emotion out of their readers. Suki Fleet is a master wordsmith who does just that. Add to her words the perfect cover design by Garrett Leigh, and Wildflowers becomes impossible to resist.
In 90 short pages Fleet’s astonishingly heartbreaking story moves from the cruel fate of life to an almost etherial beauty.
Xavi and Sam; their quest to tell their own story; and to ‘lie down where the wildflowers grow as their hearts find their home’, is a story of love that won’t soon be forgotten.
Wildflowers is an emotional, compelling novella that shouldn’t be missed.
There are few authors who can write in a way that wrings every possible emotion out of their readers. Suki Fleet is a master wordsmith who does just that. Add to her words the perfect cover design by Garrett Leigh, and Wildflowers becomes impossible to resist.
In 90 short pages Fleet’s astonishingly heartbreaking story moves from the cruel fate of life to an almost etherial beauty.
Xavi and Sam; their quest to tell their own story; and to ‘lie down where the wildflowers grow as their hearts find their home’, is a story of love that won’t soon be forgotten.
Wildflowers is an emotional, compelling novella that shouldn’t be missed.
June 20, 2016
..to watch the person you care about dying on you.
Full review to follow.
ARC provided by Sinfully team for an honest review.
Full review to follow.
ARC provided by Sinfully team for an honest review.
October 15, 2022
Another one of Suki Fleet's jewels. I love their writing, and I truly enjoyed this novel. From the first few words I was dragged into this one completely, it was so sad, there was so much hurt in it and I felt for Xavi and his pain and regrets, him not knowing how to make up for the mistakes he's made in the past.
And Sam...how I felt for him too. I just wanted to hug them both, and tell them everything would be fine. I'm glad Xavi's parents were there for them to do that for me.
This one goes onto my shelf for best books only.
And Sam...how I felt for him too. I just wanted to hug them both, and tell them everything would be fine. I'm glad Xavi's parents were there for them to do that for me.
This one goes onto my shelf for best books only.
July 20, 2016
Um, not my favourite Suki read and didn't much care for what Xavi did while Sam was at his lowest, but happy that Sam survived to spend his time caring for animals; hopefully Xavi will have learned from his mistake. 4 stars.
July 19, 2016
I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review for Just Love: Romance blog
I gave it a 3.5-Star rating but rounded up to 4 Stars on Goodreads.
So let’s just cut to the chase. It’s clear from the blurb that Sam is deathly ill. I was apprehensive about reading this book, thinking I would spend the majority of the book bawling my eyes out and praying for an HEA that might never come. Instead, I spent about three-quarters of the story frustrated at Xavi. I even re-read the book just to see if I’d have a change of heart, and if anything, the character became even more frustrating.
I don’t often nitpick characters in books I read. I tend to take them at face value, that is, how they come across to me on the page. And I don’t question why an author gives them a certain personality or make them do certain things – I mean, I’m just along for the ride, aren’t I? I either like a character or I don’t like them, or connect with them or I don’t. While many (if not all) of my favorite characters in books are deeply flawed, Xavi was particularly vexing to me.
I’m not even talking about the sex scene that will probably break some romance readers’ hearts. He’s just so frustrating and indecisive. Or I should say, he makes bad decision after bad decision. Sam, innocent, guileless Sam, a beloved face from Xavi’s past, not to mention his biggest romantic regret, wants to spend his last days on earth with him, and he can’t even tell the guy how he feels? And instead spends the whole time denying their crazy intense connection? Sure, he redeems himself in the end, but quite honestly, if this had been a full-length novel, I might not have gotten far enough to witness it.
Okay, deep breaths.
Despite my issues with Xavi, the book is incredibly well-written. And it tells a beautiful story of hope. In a way, Wildflowers is an awakening for both Xavi and Sam; from the limbo that is Xavi’s life, and the loneliness and desolation that defines Sam’s. In many ways, the book contains some NA themes, even though I’m not sure if the book falls into that category (Xavi the narrator is 28, Sam is approximately 22).
The novella has a dreamy quality that dips into delirium and despair, but ultimately ends on a poignant, hopeful note. The writing is mostly straightforward and simple with little sprinkles of gorgeous, vivid imagery – a definite trademark of the author. Something tells me Suki Fleet fans will not be disappointed. Don’t let the 3.5-star rating fool you – I’m happy to recommend the book on the strength of her gorgeous prose alone.
I gave it a 3.5-Star rating but rounded up to 4 Stars on Goodreads.
So let’s just cut to the chase. It’s clear from the blurb that Sam is deathly ill. I was apprehensive about reading this book, thinking I would spend the majority of the book bawling my eyes out and praying for an HEA that might never come. Instead, I spent about three-quarters of the story frustrated at Xavi. I even re-read the book just to see if I’d have a change of heart, and if anything, the character became even more frustrating.
I don’t often nitpick characters in books I read. I tend to take them at face value, that is, how they come across to me on the page. And I don’t question why an author gives them a certain personality or make them do certain things – I mean, I’m just along for the ride, aren’t I? I either like a character or I don’t like them, or connect with them or I don’t. While many (if not all) of my favorite characters in books are deeply flawed, Xavi was particularly vexing to me.
I’m not even talking about the sex scene that will probably break some romance readers’ hearts. He’s just so frustrating and indecisive. Or I should say, he makes bad decision after bad decision. Sam, innocent, guileless Sam, a beloved face from Xavi’s past, not to mention his biggest romantic regret, wants to spend his last days on earth with him, and he can’t even tell the guy how he feels? And instead spends the whole time denying their crazy intense connection? Sure, he redeems himself in the end, but quite honestly, if this had been a full-length novel, I might not have gotten far enough to witness it.
Okay, deep breaths.
Despite my issues with Xavi, the book is incredibly well-written. And it tells a beautiful story of hope. In a way, Wildflowers is an awakening for both Xavi and Sam; from the limbo that is Xavi’s life, and the loneliness and desolation that defines Sam’s. In many ways, the book contains some NA themes, even though I’m not sure if the book falls into that category (Xavi the narrator is 28, Sam is approximately 22).
The novella has a dreamy quality that dips into delirium and despair, but ultimately ends on a poignant, hopeful note. The writing is mostly straightforward and simple with little sprinkles of gorgeous, vivid imagery – a definite trademark of the author. Something tells me Suki Fleet fans will not be disappointed. Don’t let the 3.5-star rating fool you – I’m happy to recommend the book on the strength of her gorgeous prose alone.
September 2, 2016
I'm sorry for being this bold, but I'm only speaking the truth here: I said once that "Suki Fleet owns my ass" (it was after reading Foxes, which was my introduction to her work and it left me... Well, you can see). IT REMAINS TO BE TRUE.
I'm absolutely positive that there can't be anything she writes that won't crawl its way down my skin, right into the darkest, deepest, coldest corners of my being.
Wildflowers was a very emotional read for me. Maybe it's not coincidence that I happen to read it today, which is a very emotional day for me (since it's the anniversary of the day my baby brother- who only made it 21 days- was born, 13 years ago). Maybe needed to read something like this today. Maybe I needed to explore those deep corners of my soul that this story touched and I needed to, once again, as I try every year, make peace with it.
All personal connotations aside, I thoroughly loved this story. Its characters, as per usual with Suki's work, are deep, and well defined and so, very, beautifully complex... It was so marvellous to be torn apart by this, even in such a short amount of time, with such a short amount of pages. It just goes to show how incredible this woman is with words.
I'm absolutely positive that there can't be anything she writes that won't crawl its way down my skin, right into the darkest, deepest, coldest corners of my being.
Wildflowers was a very emotional read for me. Maybe it's not coincidence that I happen to read it today, which is a very emotional day for me (since it's the anniversary of the day my baby brother- who only made it 21 days- was born, 13 years ago). Maybe needed to read something like this today. Maybe I needed to explore those deep corners of my soul that this story touched and I needed to, once again, as I try every year, make peace with it.
All personal connotations aside, I thoroughly loved this story. Its characters, as per usual with Suki's work, are deep, and well defined and so, very, beautifully complex... It was so marvellous to be torn apart by this, even in such a short amount of time, with such a short amount of pages. It just goes to show how incredible this woman is with words.
June 21, 2016
This was gorgeous writing. Best thing I've read in a long time. I cried off and on through the whole darn book. Full review to come
July 14, 2016
“We are the field of wildflowers, we are the sky, we are the sea, we are this moment, and
this moment is ours. And it always will be.”
I won a copy of this beauty a couple days ago which was quite a surprise to me as I never win
anything but luck was on my side with this and I can’t say I am complaining. It isn’t a secret
among my friend group that I worship Suki’s writing and am constantly suggesting her books as
new reads because someone with her writing style shouldn’t be so underrated. This book was
no exception. My friends immediately asked me how it was and if it was everything I had hoped
for it to be. My answer? Well, it lies in this review. Which, by the way, I am a bit crappy at but this
book deserves some type of review.
Although, I am very aware Suki is the queen of angst I was still a bit wary going into this one.
I even lined myself up comfort read for afterwards. Much to my pleasure, despite it being full of
angst at almost every turn of the page, it was breathtakingly beautiful and the ending made my
heart smile. I very much love yet another character in one of Suki’s books use sign language as
means as communication. I adore how her characters are never perfect, they have flaws and
weaknesses and they make mistakes, these two were no different.
Wildflowers is from Xavi’s point of view. He’s a man who’s struggling with his past and this
promise he made to the dying, beautiful dark haired boy that lies in the seat beside him for miles
and miles on end as they search for a field full of wildflowers to lie. This beautiful, thin, bruised
boy named Sam had given up. He only wish was to not die alone. And, Xavi wants with every
fiber of his being to show this beautiful boy that there are reasons to live and not give up.
I found myself wanting to hug them both close to me again and again throughout this heart
aching book. It was a short read, one you could finish in one sitting if you desired. It had
moments where the pure beauty of Suki’s writing had my heart ripping at the seams. It had
moments where my face lit up with pure happiness. It was everything I could have hoped for
wrapped into one short read.
To answer my friends’ question as to how this book was and if it was everything I hoped for? It
was so much more. I walked into this thinking I would walk out wounded and in need of a tub of
ice cream. I walked out dazed at it’s beauty and still in need for that tub of ice cream so I could
drown out the feelings that I will never be able to read it all over again for the very first time.
Wildflowers is for anyone who desires a plate of angst with beautiful words, sad boys and a
aching love. As Suki wrote, this is “for everyone who’s ever loved.” And, even those we haven’t.
If you’re looking for something short to get a feel at Suki’s writing style this is a perfect read to
start with.
this moment is ours. And it always will be.”
I won a copy of this beauty a couple days ago which was quite a surprise to me as I never win
anything but luck was on my side with this and I can’t say I am complaining. It isn’t a secret
among my friend group that I worship Suki’s writing and am constantly suggesting her books as
new reads because someone with her writing style shouldn’t be so underrated. This book was
no exception. My friends immediately asked me how it was and if it was everything I had hoped
for it to be. My answer? Well, it lies in this review. Which, by the way, I am a bit crappy at but this
book deserves some type of review.
Although, I am very aware Suki is the queen of angst I was still a bit wary going into this one.
I even lined myself up comfort read for afterwards. Much to my pleasure, despite it being full of
angst at almost every turn of the page, it was breathtakingly beautiful and the ending made my
heart smile. I very much love yet another character in one of Suki’s books use sign language as
means as communication. I adore how her characters are never perfect, they have flaws and
weaknesses and they make mistakes, these two were no different.
Wildflowers is from Xavi’s point of view. He’s a man who’s struggling with his past and this
promise he made to the dying, beautiful dark haired boy that lies in the seat beside him for miles
and miles on end as they search for a field full of wildflowers to lie. This beautiful, thin, bruised
boy named Sam had given up. He only wish was to not die alone. And, Xavi wants with every
fiber of his being to show this beautiful boy that there are reasons to live and not give up.
I found myself wanting to hug them both close to me again and again throughout this heart
aching book. It was a short read, one you could finish in one sitting if you desired. It had
moments where the pure beauty of Suki’s writing had my heart ripping at the seams. It had
moments where my face lit up with pure happiness. It was everything I could have hoped for
wrapped into one short read.
To answer my friends’ question as to how this book was and if it was everything I hoped for? It
was so much more. I walked into this thinking I would walk out wounded and in need of a tub of
ice cream. I walked out dazed at it’s beauty and still in need for that tub of ice cream so I could
drown out the feelings that I will never be able to read it all over again for the very first time.
Wildflowers is for anyone who desires a plate of angst with beautiful words, sad boys and a
aching love. As Suki wrote, this is “for everyone who’s ever loved.” And, even those we haven’t.
If you’re looking for something short to get a feel at Suki’s writing style this is a perfect read to
start with.
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