Honestly I had no expectations going into this book. I received this book as an ARC from Yallfest and wasn't too hooked by the jacket blurb, but was willing to give it a shot. And let's just say I am so glad I did. This book was a really great surprise from what I thought it would be.
Based on the blurb, I assumed this book would rely on heavy tropes and a cliche love triangle, two things which I'm getting quickly tired of reading. What made this book great was it did have those things, but it COMPLETELY took it in different directions. The tropes and love triangle were used for the central theme of the book, and I loved how well it utilized those things to get its message across. It's ending was very different than how I assumed it would end.
I'm going to cut this short before I move onto spoilers, but if you're looking for a good contemporary give this one a shot. I felt the story really picked up about 60 pages in, so you definitely have to have some patience, but overall it was a quick surprise packed with some wholesome messages. Nothing too extraordinary, but it was definitely a good, fast read.
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When I first started this book, I was not too impressed. Brady kind of annoyed me off the bat since I felt like he was leading Hope on despite having a girlfriend. And I wasn't too fond of Hope at first. It annoyed me how rude she was to her mom and I really didn't care for all her angst. I only kept reading because I was so curious about Parker, since it was very obvious something was up with her. And I'm glad I kept at it, because once it switched into Parker's POV, I was hooked.
I really, really like Parker. I like how Eulberg took the first 60 pages to show her off as a classic high school Blond Bitch™ only to completely pull the carpet out from the audience's feet and reveal the true Parker. I was SHOCKED when I learned of Parker's home life, especially because I thought I knew where this book was going from the first chapter. It had been awhile since I felt so surprised when reading, so I definitely appreciate a shock factor.
After a while, I also started to like Hope. She did annoy me during various parts of the book, but by the end of the book she did grow on me. Even though she was partly portrayed as the boyfriend-stealer throughout the book, Eulberg did a fantastic job of redeeming her at the end. I would've felt cheated if Hope ended up with Brady after all. Instead, she learned how to finally Perspective, and it was amazing seeing her character development.
I felt that Eulberg did a really great job of having the girls change each other in completely different ways, which is great for a YA contemporary. Parker taught Hope to be thankful for what she has and always have perspective while Hope taught Parker it's okay to need help. In most contemporaries I read, it's usually the girl/boy who changes each other, which is cute, but not always real life. I LOVED how Eulberg showed a friendship can be even more influential in a relationship. Too often, contemporaries I need show a boy/girl not being complete until finding each other, which is total BS. Both these girls learned that they are enough without Brady, and are wonderful people on their own. It was amazing watching their growth.
That said, I never really liked Brady because he dragged Hope and Parker down. I hated the one chapter from his POV where he openly acknowledges "I know Hope likes me...but I don't see her that way," only to then think of her "super hot bod" and "fling an arm around her shoulder" (even though he openly "knows I should stop...but I never learn". Honestly, what a dick thing to do. No wonder the girl has kept her hopes up--it's because you're constantly leading her on! If he knew she liked him, then he should've explained his feelings ASAP rather than let it flatter himself. Brady also wasn't great to Parker, either. He does acknowledge that he stayed with her for the wrong reasons, but in the end it's Parker who ends their relationship, not him. Even though he's been ready to break up for a year, he can't do it when the time comes because he's scared and likes being depended on. This bugged me. Both those girls are too good for him.
As you can imagine, I was thrilled neither girl ended up with Brady. It's nice seeing a YA book that openly shows a girl doesn't need a boyfriend to be validated and strong. I was also impressed seeing how it used a love triangle to accomplish this, and used cliche tropes to shut down judgmental attitudes. I walked in thinking this would be some angsty high school love story, and truly did not foresee all the powerful messages it dealt with.
My last praise is for Mrs. Kaplan. In my mind, I viewed her as a mixture of my best friends' mom, so I was constantly laughing and smiling when Mrs. Kaplan was in the room. What a saint. I loved her, and especially her body positivity ("You should be appreciative of the body you have", "You don't have to please anybody but yourself", [frick yes Mrs. K you go girl slay]).
I have few complaints, most of which are about Brady. The only other thing I would criticize is Parker's parents and her sister Hayley. I wish there was a bit more backstory to her previous family life, because it sounded like things were good before her parents left, but then Parker mentions at the end they were never a real family and only living a lie. I would've liked a bit more insight into how her family functioned before her parents left. Also, I felt Hayley's behavior was implausible at times. Her sudden change of heart after alcohol poisoning didn't seem very realistic considering how horrible she treated Parker before. It was just hard for me to believe she'd switch to being a good big sister so sudden, but it was very heartwarming to see. The writing was pretty good, and I'm sure it'll be buffed up before it's released next year.
Overall, I really appreciated this book. It was a lesson against girl-shaming and judgement, which happens much too often. And it was a lesson of self love, too. I look forward to reading more of the author's work. Let me know what your thoughts are, too!