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301 pages, Kindle Edition
First published June 7, 2016
The server returns with Cam's change. She looks around the booth at all of us as she clears our plates. "You have a beautiful family," she says.
I shake my head. "Oh no, we're not--"
But she's already headed for the kitchen, the plates rattling in her arms.
I glance around the booth, trying to see what she saw. Two toddlers, two babies, two diaper bags, and a car seat between us. "God, can you imagine if all this was ours?"
Cam laughs aloud. "No! No, I cannot."
But in that moment I see the picture we make. Beside me, Lucy coos in her baby carrier. Owen's and Randall's mouths are stained with pizza sauce. Across form me, Cam bends to kiss Emory's cheek. In that moment I am inexplicably happy. Baby food in hair and all.
It occurs to me that so far my summer consists of living everyone else's lives. My students' lives, my family's lives, and that of my best friend. And though I groan inwardly when I think of all these commitments I have to follow through on, I realize there's one thing bothering me most of all; beyond them, where are my own?
"Everyone ready?" Peyton asks. She ushers us out in her usual mother-hen fashion. Erika laughs at something Trent says and loops her arm through mine. We walk out as a noisy group of friends into the warm night along the pier, each one of us linked with one another. Like Mrs. Wilder said, there are stars in our eyes. And I can't help but wonder, why are we the lucky ones?
"Cam? It's me. Maggie."
There's a pause. I rush to fill the silence, suddenly feeling the need to explain myself. "Did I wake you?" I picture him glancing at the clock and a rush of embarrassment fills me. "I'm sorry to call so late. Look, why don't I call back in the morning?"
I'm about to hang up when Cam clears his throat. "Hang on a second."
So I do, my heart in my throat. I shouldn't have called. Not at this hour. Not at all.
"Griff." He's the only one who's ever called me that.
"Yeah?"
"I'd hoped it was you."