I thought I'd read all the great baseball books and that there wasn't much more that could be said. But this book joins the pantheon. It's a memoir, a confession, an opening of the vein on his wrist and a request that every person he ever insulted come up and pour salt into the wound.
Anyone who thinks that the confessional memoir was started in the Instagram era, open up this book. Awkward first sex, an even more awkward 10 minutes with a prostitute, tears in a baseball dugout, anger everywhere, and lots of aimless drinking. That's compressed into a 2-year period when the author was 18 and 19 years old and stuck in the lowest minor leagues in baseball. Not like my late-teen years.
The story begins with the back-story. Pat Jordan grew up in Connecticut, and he was a star pitcher as a kid and through high school. With his brother's urging and coaching, he excelled to the point that he received bonus offers from several major league teams in the late 1950s. After some botched negotiations, he settled on a deal with the Milwaukee Braves (prior to their move to Atlanta), which was one one of the best teams in baseball. So far, so good. Not much trauma, and a reasonable amount of promise and a heavy dose of arrogance.
Jordan was assigned to their rookie league, and the tale begins its slow decline and then rapid, almost horror-movie collapse. He pitches badly game after game because he walks too many batters. He has amazing games of 7 innings, 12 strikeouts and 9 walks -- over and over again. Fans boo him, teammates get angry that he's keeping them on the field endlessly, and managers don't even try to help him figure out his pitching mechanics. All he does is just try to throw harder and harder.
All the while, he's sinking into a depression or maybe just the maturation that an 18-year-old should be allowed to undergo in less stressful conditions. He wanders deserted streets of empty towns at night. He drinks 5, 6, 10 beers a night. He glowers at teammates, opponents, his landlady. He stalks waitresses and other girls, despite having the love of his life waiting for him in Connecticut.
And it goes on and on until a "false spring" in which he pitched well with careful coaching. But that is followed a few months later by an utter collapse, when he feels like he's literally forgotten how to pitch. In one outing, he faces 12 batters, and they all reach base. Players are laughing at him. And he quits, only to be convinced to return for a two depressing months in Palatka, Florida, in order to earn his bonus payment. In retrospect, Jordan writes that the new pitching style he adopted in that false spring led him to bad habits that he couldn't undo, and so he both lost the control of that spring and the speed of his prior style that had brought him to the minors in the first place.
That's the sad story. Fortunately, it has a happy ending, as Jordan's bonus included money for college, which he put to use by learning to be a journalist and writer. And he's had huge success, with "False Spring" as his breakout book, but other successes to follow. But none of that is in this book and, in fact, wasn't known to him at the time he wrote it. This book is a cry in the wilderness, his effort to escape from purgatory.
A few random observations. 1. The book's events occurred mostly in 1959-1960, which was the end of an era in baseball. Each major league team in those days had a half-dozen minor league teams, and the routine was for players to work their way up over the years. Things are more streamlined now, and so the Class D and Class C experience of which he writes doesn't exist now. There are similarities to today, and he does a great job of evoking them: endless bus rides, boredom between games, the energy of 20-year-old men who play a game for a living. Jordan tells you about the battered stadiums or the enthusiastic or indifferent fans (depending on city), or the coaches who cared only about the players who were doing well, or the sexual jokes in the clubhouse.
2. This was a segregated world, and Jordan gives numerous examples, both of things he saw and things he heard. He writes of players such as Hank Aaron and what they went through playing in the South in the minors, and how Aaron's coach tried to protect him. Jordan also writes about white men in a boarding house being served sumptuous dinners by a crew of black women in starched dresses, and of seeing unpainted shacks for Blacks just a down the road from the office towers of Atlanta.
3. But at the same time, Jordan falls prey to some of the same racist thinking of his time. (Remember this book is 60 years old.) Example: He observes, but doesn't seem to care, that the Black and Latin American players had to live in inferior accommodations in the minor league towns because they weren't allowed to live in the white parts of town. Example: He says Hank Aaron started his baseball career as an 18-year-old in the Sally League. Actually, Aaron started his career as a 17-year-old in the Negro Leagues, but a white person of Jordan's time didn't consider that "real" baseball. I'm sure he thinks differently now.
4. The descriptions of women are cringy and awkward and surprisingly crude and misogynistic at times. This is even though Jordan surely didn't even include his worst thoughts for the book. Each woman is rated on her face and figure, and Jordan speculates on how she will look as she ages. Most of them don't meet muster, so here he is writing about how ugly and lonely a waitress in Keokuk, Iowa is; this is a real person, though perhaps her real name isn't used. Interestingly, the only woman not described physically is his wife, who perhaps wouldn't allow it. I haven't looked this up, but I'm betting they didn't stay married, despite their 5 kids in their first 7 years together. Who would want to stay married to this guy?
5. In the tradition of great baseball books, this has funny anecdotes and brief summaries of various players he encountered over the years. The third baseman who couldn't field but was eager to run onto the field every inning. The shortstop who threw a ball into the stands at hecklers. What it was like to get into a fight with Joe Torre. What it feels like to strike out a guy on three pitches. Jordan reels these off succintly and with more than a ring of truth.
6. Finally, this is mostly a sad book. A career that never took off. A man who blew the chance at friendships for most of his brief minor league career. An angry youth who couldn't figure out what went wrong. A lost boy who spent his 20s trying to come up with enough money to keep his wife and 5 kids housed and fed. And a man who still believes that he had more natural talent than most of the players who succeeded.