AUGH WHY MUST YOU TAKE SO LONG WHY CAN'T YOU RELEASE THIS TOMORROW I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SEPTEMBER SOME SORT OF WORLD WIDE DISASTER WILL HAPPEN AND I WILL NOT GET TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENS TO ANYONE YOU ARE GOING TO KILL ME
NICE COVER TOO.
Finished reading it and all I can say is-
DAMN!!!!!
I must reread it.
Nearly done rereading. What I think the main theme of this story is you do not have to be like your abusive, screwed up parents. Most parents who screw up their kids do it unintentionally. Usually because they were raised by screwed up parents themselves and the abuse they endured becomes normal to them. Beatings and neglect can become a way of life to people.
Some people grow up, realize this sort of thing is screwed up and struggle NOT to pass it down to their kids. They struggle not to hit and strike their children, not to yell and belittle. They try to become better parents.
This is not the case with Jazz's parents. Most parents would see a baby and think, awww, a cute baby. Not, aw, a baby. Let's destroy him, ruin his life and turn him into a serial killer.
Huge spoiler, his DAD is the better of the two parents. The one we saw skin his child's dog alive and torment women everywhere. He's the one who said, aw, I have a son instead of, let's torture him, it will be fun.
And Jazz survives to be a good person despite this. He uses his dad's How to be a Serial Killer lessons to bring his father and others like him down. He chooses not to be what his parents shaped him into.
And he had his best friend by his side and eventually his girlfriend to help him be stable. They cared for him no matter what he did. They were people he could trust and depend on. He defied his kill the weak father who is rather racist to befriend a hemophiliac and date a strong, black woman.
So, this story is gory, but inspiring. It tells you that yes, you may come from abusive parents who tried to inflict their horrible values on you. Yes, your grandmother was racist and senile. And yes, you learned how to gut and cut a human being before even learning how to drive. You may not recover from this without a lot of therapy and love, but you can make the choice NOT to follow in your father's footsteps. You can make that choice to be a good person who is aware, who tries to have self control. (though he loses it, this poor good hearted lad who was just trying to save his mother does all kinds of things he never thought he would do.)
You could have gone through complete hell, but somehow, you'll survive. You'll love and be loved. And you won't become some ASSHOLY SERIAL KILLER!
12/17
So I read this book again and it's still good. It's a bit painful for Sam to get the blame when she didn't do anything wrong. Jazz defies laws to save someone he thought he was in danger, but who was part of this whole evil conspiracy.
Fact is, it takes a lot more effort NOT to kill people, which is going to sound a bit warped, but human beings can be so frustrating. A serial killer doesn't even have to have a reason to go around tormenting people. They're assholes! You're stronger for resisting the urge to hit people with your umbrella, or smack you racist, rude relative for pouring his hatred on everyone at family dinner during holidays that are supposed to be about love.
You're really more of a coward if you hit the defenseless because they annoy and frustrate you or just give in to warped, based instincts.
So this book is satisfying because Jazz thinks things out. He is patient with his cruel grandmother who hits him and threatens to shoot him because he is simply the stronger better person. It's satisfying when he learns this for himself. Learns that he's whole and human even though the people who caused him to exist are FUCKED UP HORRIBLE PEOPLE! How can you be so HORRIBLE?! UGH! And when it gets to this point in the book that is so squicky and terrible it just makes me want to curl up in the fetal position, grah! Barry Lyga did a great job creating such a sympathetic protagonist and such evil antagonists!